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			<title>I firgured out when all started, anhedonia issue</title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 24 May 2013 08:35:55 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>It all started before my breakdown, before my mom’s death, it all started when I was 19 yo. I used to be happy during high school, but then on my second year at college I stopped being happy. It was a big deal, I just stopped enjoying things (I didn’t do many things either, we could barely afford food and my moms’ meds). I had a plan back then, I wanted to start working during the summers and contribute to the family, my mom was scared that my dad would stop giving us money for my education if I did (yeah, he is and was a cheap bastard). I stopped eying books, before that I used to get lost in book stores wanting to buy and read every book there, but one day I stopped doing so. And I stopped reading things because I liked too. I was still doing some things, but it all started there. 

I think the anhedonia started when I was 19, then I met my boyfriend and I was happy, really happy, I was distracted, something exited was happening to me, my first boyfriend ever. I was almost 20 yo when I met him online, and almost 21 yo when we finally met (yeah, a year just chatting). Then my mom died, and I was in so much pain, and I was really confused, and I guess that that was it, I turn everything off. I wasn’t able to do anything anymore. I was grieving, and my boyfriend was trying to cheer me up, he was really sweet, he took me to a lot of events, the movies, everything. I never told him, but I hadn’t been in a movie theatre in years, and Mac Donald’s was just for my birthday because it was expensive. Suddenly I was experiencing all this things and I was entertained, I started to have pets (a thing I was never able to do) and I was really busy trying to function. The thing is I wasn’t happy, I was off, all my hobbies were off. Around that time I stop liking to study. I stopped enjoying my homework. I stopped. 

Then the relationship became a routine, and I have so much time in my hands, my boyfriend started to work and he had less and less time for me. I had more and more free time. I took care of my grandma around that time, she consumed a lot of my time and I felt to guilty because she suffered from dementia and she had to be committed in a retirement home. I hated myself for committing her but I couldn’t keep an eye on her 24x7, I was feeling sad and guilty. I wasn’t prepared to handle all of that, she had lived with me my whole life, and now she was away and it was awful. In 2009 I lost them both, my mom died and my grandma got dementia, on the same month and they were my family and I lost them and I was scared and afraid, and really sad. 

I finished college, I just had to take some test and I was ready to get my degree, but somehow I started to procrastinate and I was taking one test for semester. For the first time in my life I was on a break. I was grieving, with severe sleeping problems (I still have that, I have weird sleeping patterns) and I was really happy for all the free time to rest, I needed a rest. I then I started to get out just when my boyfriend invited me out, and he had this exiting world I was just the same, and he started to spend more time pursuing his interest, but what about me? 

Suddenly I didn’t have all his attention as before, I can’t blame him, I was a boring mess, a stupid girl who didn’t do a thing during the whole day and who managed to spend day after day after day doing nothing and feeling super tired. The house became messy, I didn’t want to do anything. Then we started to argue a lot because I would demand love, attention and devotion, now I realize that he wasn’t the problem, I was the problem. Then he told me that he was going away in September, he told me in May/June 2012. I was ok with it, a bit worry, a bit sad, but ok. Then I got food poisoning and I end up in the hospital, and then it hit me, no one cared, he was the only one there by my side and no one else cared (specially my dad), and I became terrified with the idea of him going away. I got my breakdown and got anxiety attacks, I started with Xanax and in less than a month I was put on Paxil, Xanax RX and Seroquel. I had awful experiences and I was scared, and he was going to France and he left. And I decided to quit.
 
The thing is, it didn’t start with the breakdown, the breakdown made it worst, it started before, I was mildly depressed since 19 and I just realized that. So where do I go from here? How will I ever be ok again? Will I ever be able to have a normal life or will I just return to be mildly depressed? What is wrong with me? How can I stop being so sad? I am scared that I will never feel happy again, at least before the breakdown I could laugh without forcing myself to do so, nowadays I just think “Oh, that is really funny” but I don’t laugh. I am scared that I will hate the rest of my life, that every day will be a horrible and useless day. I get especially blue when I think about doing something that I don’t enjoy, so how will I ever keep a job? Is there a way out of this? What if I am doomed to live like this for the rest of my life? I honestly would prefer to die. Have any of you being in this situation? Did you come out?</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>It all started before my breakdown, before my mom’s death, it all started when I was 19 yo. I used to be happy during high school, but then on my second year at college I stopped being happy. It was a big deal, I just stopped enjoying things (I didn’t do many things either, we could barely afford food and my moms’ meds). I had a plan back then, I wanted to start working during the summers and contribute to the family, my mom was scared that my dad would stop giving us money for my education if I did (yeah, he is and was a cheap bastard). I stopped eying books, before that I used to get lost in book stores wanting to buy and read every book there, but one day I stopped doing so. And I stopped reading things because I liked too. I was still doing some things, but it all started there. <br />
<br />
I think the anhedonia started when I was 19, then I met my boyfriend and I was happy, really happy, I was distracted, something exited was happening to me, my first boyfriend ever. I was almost 20 yo when I met him online, and almost 21 yo when we finally met (yeah, a year just chatting). Then my mom died, and I was in so much pain, and I was really confused, and I guess that that was it, I turn everything off. I wasn’t able to do anything anymore. I was grieving, and my boyfriend was trying to cheer me up, he was really sweet, he took me to a lot of events, the movies, everything. I never told him, but I hadn’t been in a movie theatre in years, and Mac Donald’s was just for my birthday because it was expensive. Suddenly I was experiencing all this things and I was entertained, I started to have pets (a thing I was never able to do) and I was really busy trying to function. The thing is I wasn’t happy, I was off, all my hobbies were off. Around that time I stop liking to study. I stopped enjoying my homework. I stopped. <br />
<br />
Then the relationship became a routine, and I have so much time in my hands, my boyfriend started to work and he had less and less time for me. I had more and more free time. I took care of my grandma around that time, she consumed a lot of my time and I felt to guilty because she suffered from dementia and she had to be committed in a retirement home. I hated myself for committing her but I couldn’t keep an eye on her 24x7, I was feeling sad and guilty. I wasn’t prepared to handle all of that, she had lived with me my whole life, and now she was away and it was awful. In 2009 I lost them both, my mom died and my grandma got dementia, on the same month and they were my family and I lost them and I was scared and afraid, and really sad. <br />
<br />
I finished college, I just had to take some test and I was ready to get my degree, but somehow I started to procrastinate and I was taking one test for semester. For the first time in my life I was on a break. I was grieving, with severe sleeping problems (I still have that, I have weird sleeping patterns) and I was really happy for all the free time to rest, I needed a rest. I then I started to get out just when my boyfriend invited me out, and he had this exiting world I was just the same, and he started to spend more time pursuing his interest, but what about me? <br />
<br />
Suddenly I didn’t have all his attention as before, I can’t blame him, I was a boring mess, a stupid girl who didn’t do a thing during the whole day and who managed to spend day after day after day doing nothing and feeling super tired. The house became messy, I didn’t want to do anything. Then we started to argue a lot because I would demand love, attention and devotion, now I realize that he wasn’t the problem, I was the problem. Then he told me that he was going away in September, he told me in May/June 2012. I was ok with it, a bit worry, a bit sad, but ok. Then I got food poisoning and I end up in the hospital, and then it hit me, no one cared, he was the only one there by my side and no one else cared (specially my dad), and I became terrified with the idea of him going away. I got my breakdown and got anxiety attacks, I started with Xanax and in less than a month I was put on Paxil, Xanax RX and Seroquel. I had awful experiences and I was scared, and he was going to France and he left. And I decided to quit.<br />
 <br />
The thing is, it didn’t start with the breakdown, the breakdown made it worst, it started before, I was mildly depressed since 19 and I just realized that. So where do I go from here? How will I ever be ok again? Will I ever be able to have a normal life or will I just return to be mildly depressed? What is wrong with me? How can I stop being so sad? I am scared that I will never feel happy again, at least before the breakdown I could laugh without forcing myself to do so, nowadays I just think “Oh, that is really funny” but I don’t laugh. I am scared that I will hate the rest of my life, that every day will be a horrible and useless day. I get especially blue when I think about doing something that I don’t enjoy, so how will I ever keep a job? Is there a way out of this? What if I am doomed to live like this for the rest of my life? I honestly would prefer to die. Have any of you being in this situation? Did you come out?</div>

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			<dc:creator>LonelyGirl</dc:creator>
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			<title>Healing??</title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 24 May 2013 00:30:28 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[It's been a month ago today that this horrible wave started. I keep a journal whenever I'm having a bad wave I will journal daily from the time it starts until it goes away. My last wave journal'd was almost three years ago. Between then and now I've had minimal symptoms. This wave is different than others because its an array of symptoms. Headache, medicine taste in my mouth, irrational fears, obsessions, extreme dizziness, nervousness, morning anxiety, bad muscle and body ache for the whole month just subsiding today, Brain Fog, Cognitive difficulties, weird dreams, burning sensations in my head, chest tightness, and my nose is doing some weird stuff like I have a cold but I don't.  The last three days have been an onset of new symptoms feels like I could have a orgasm any moment (too much information I know). I would NEVER kill myself, but the past few days some suicidial ideation had popped up (scary). I have thoughts out of the blue like I will be dead in six months to a year. And the unwanted thoughts makes me anxious. Some days I can barely eat, one day I ate too much and got sick woke up with a terrible stomach ache I haven't had one like that since childhood after eating to much candy. For the past two days I have had horrible insomnia which is something I never have. I always sleep easy and really well. 

I've also been apprehensive to do things I normally do. Like I was getting my nails done but was scared to get the pedicure. During this whole time I haven't done much crying though. But I feel like I'm going nuts, even though I know this will pass. Its still very scary and frustrating. I  read on this site before that the bigger the wave the more your brain is healing. I really hope that's true. 

On a positive note everyone says I look great! My husband even tells me he's proud of me and I'm doing good but I feel like my mind and body is being tortured. I try to remind myself even though I feel horrible and I don't know when this will end. I'm not going crazy and when all of this is over I will be stronger than ever. 

My theory about all this and I may be wrong is that I'm in poop out and even If I don't change doses I will still get waves like someone off the med. Is that possible??]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>It's been a month ago today that this horrible wave started. I keep a journal whenever I'm having a bad wave I will journal daily from the time it starts until it goes away. My last wave journal'd was almost three years ago. Between then and now I've had minimal symptoms. This wave is different than others because its an array of symptoms. Headache, medicine taste in my mouth, irrational fears, obsessions, extreme dizziness, nervousness, morning anxiety, bad muscle and body ache for the whole month just subsiding today, Brain Fog, Cognitive difficulties, weird dreams, burning sensations in my head, chest tightness, and my nose is doing some weird stuff like I have a cold but I don't.  The last three days have been an onset of new symptoms feels like I could have a orgasm any moment (too much information I know). I would NEVER kill myself, but the past few days some suicidial ideation had popped up (scary). I have thoughts out of the blue like I will be dead in six months to a year. And the unwanted thoughts makes me anxious. Some days I can barely eat, one day I ate too much and got sick woke up with a terrible stomach ache I haven't had one like that since childhood after eating to much candy. For the past two days I have had horrible insomnia which is something I never have. I always sleep easy and really well. <br />
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I've also been apprehensive to do things I normally do. Like I was getting my nails done but was scared to get the pedicure. During this whole time I haven't done much crying though. But I feel like I'm going nuts, even though I know this will pass. Its still very scary and frustrating. I  read on this site before that the bigger the wave the more your brain is healing. I really hope that's true. <br />
<br />
On a positive note everyone says I look great! My husband even tells me he's proud of me and I'm doing good but I feel like my mind and body is being tortured. I try to remind myself even though I feel horrible and I don't know when this will end. I'm not going crazy and when all of this is over I will be stronger than ever. <br />
<br />
My theory about all this and I may be wrong is that I'm in poop out and even If I don't change doses I will still get waves like someone off the med. Is that possible??</div>

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			<dc:creator>mscece</dc:creator>
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			<title>Paxil for Panic Disorder..advice please!</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 23 May 2013 19:11:28 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi all, I am new here. I was put on paxil about a year ago. Like many of you I was not told of the dangers this drug. I have a panic disorder and it did help me alot. I have been trying to get off with 2 unsuccessful attempts. I talked to my doctor and I was astonished he had no idea about the withdrawal and how bad it made me feel. My first attempt to get off I was told just go off cold turkey. After a miserable week of being the sickest I think I've ever been, I got back on it. My last attempt I decided on weaning myself, thanks to reading posts from everyone here. I was on 30mg and weaned over a period of 6 weeks. Ultimately I think I weaned too fast and am currently back on my last dose of 5mg. I was not nearly as sick as I was when I tried cold turkey. However the panic attacks I was having were debilitating. I couldn't drive and barely left the house. My home is like my security blanket. It was very discouraging because thats exactly what I went on the medicine for. I don't know if it's my panic disorder returning or withdrawal. I hate the idea of having to be on medicine forever. Any advice you all could give me would be greatly appreciated. Please don't tell me to talk to my doctor. Ive spoken to many and they have no idea what paxil can do. I even had to go to the er when I went cold turkey and the er doctor had never heard of being that sick from getting off paxil. God Bless!]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi all, I am new here. I was put on paxil about a year ago. Like many of you I was not told of the dangers this drug. I have a panic disorder and it did help me alot. I have been trying to get off with 2 unsuccessful attempts. I talked to my doctor and I was astonished he had no idea about the withdrawal and how bad it made me feel. My first attempt to get off I was told just go off cold turkey. After a miserable week of being the sickest I think I've ever been, I got back on it. My last attempt I decided on weaning myself, thanks to reading posts from everyone here. I was on 30mg and weaned over a period of 6 weeks. Ultimately I think I weaned too fast and am currently back on my last dose of 5mg. I was not nearly as sick as I was when I tried cold turkey. However the panic attacks I was having were debilitating. I couldn't drive and barely left the house. My home is like my security blanket. It was very discouraging because thats exactly what I went on the medicine for. I don't know if it's my panic disorder returning or withdrawal. I hate the idea of having to be on medicine forever. Any advice you all could give me would be greatly appreciated. Please don't tell me to talk to my doctor. Ive spoken to many and they have no idea what paxil can do. I even had to go to the er when I went cold turkey and the er doctor had never heard of being that sick from getting off paxil. God Bless!</div>

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			<title>Physical pains - what do you experience?</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 23 May 2013 18:35:43 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi PP'ers. 
Can you tell me about the pains you have(where in the body) and how the pain feels? Do you think you have nerve pain and if so how does that feel? When you're in pain how long does it last? Does it last all day? Does the pain stop you sleeping (if you are fortunate enough to be able to sleep). Do painkillers help? How intense is the pain? Are you able to move around the house? I'd be interested to hear your experiences as widepread body pain is what's affecting me at the moment. 
Thanks guys]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi PP'ers. <br />
Can you tell me about the pains you have(where in the body) and how the pain feels? Do you think you have nerve pain and if so how does that feel? When you're in pain how long does it last? Does it last all day? Does the pain stop you sleeping (if you are fortunate enough to be able to sleep). Do painkillers help? How intense is the pain? Are you able to move around the house? I'd be interested to hear your experiences as widepread body pain is what's affecting me at the moment. <br />
Thanks guys</div>

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			<dc:creator>Poorlylottie</dc:creator>
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			<title>Scale or sirynge, liquid or solid Paxil?</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 23 May 2013 18:05:32 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>In your opinion what is the best solution for begin a tapering plan?

Use Scale or sirynge (or both), liquid or solid Paxil?</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>In your opinion what is the best solution for begin a tapering plan?<br />
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Use Scale or sirynge (or both), liquid or solid Paxil?</div>

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			<dc:creator>TheLizardKing</dc:creator>
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			<title>Regarding an hedonic states</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 23 May 2013 15:45:07 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi people, 

It appears that I definitely am not helping myself by looking into a hedonic treatment forums online.....many claim they have tried various substances that theoretically should reverse anhedonia. It amazes me to see so many reporting zero success with a multitude of substance treatments.....it is scary frankly, I should not be focusing on that...but wouldn't you assume anhedoniA is a tough nut to crack? Your thoughts please.......]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi people, <br />
<br />
It appears that I definitely am not helping myself by looking into a hedonic treatment forums online.....many claim they have tried various substances that theoretically should reverse anhedonia. It amazes me to see so many reporting zero success with a multitude of substance treatments.....it is scary frankly, I should not be focusing on that...but wouldn't you assume anhedoniA is a tough nut to crack? Your thoughts please.......</div>

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			<dc:creator>frankdee</dc:creator>
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			<title>Moving abroad and weaning off Seroxat</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 23 May 2013 14:02:46 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Hello everyone, I hope that you are all doing well in your adventures. 

I am much better since I last posted here and I would like your opinion on a matter that has been of concern to me. 

First of all a small presentation of my seroxat adventure: 40 mgs since I was 14 years old (just turned 23 today), two previous attempts of weaning off were unsuccessful since I tried to drop from that amount to zero in the period of a month and since October of 2011 I have tried a more gradual tapering.

From 40 mgs to 30, then in November from 30 to 20, then in January from 20 to 10 and then in March from 10 to 0mgs. All hell broke loose in the last drop so I reinstated the 10 mgs dose. All was fine until September of 2012 when I started experiencing withdrawal symptoms. Updosed to 12 mgs in November and to 14 mgs in December. Each day that passed from then I felt better and now I can say that I am 95% ok. Possibly 100% and the rest of 5% is my fear of facing the difficulties of Seroxat withdrawal again. 

Now to the main point, my psychiatrist suggested that we start a 10% gradual reduction (every 2 weeks) from the 21st of June once I finish my uni exams. If that is the case and if I face no withrawal symptoms in any drop at all (which is highly unlikely) I will be at a dose of 0,4 mgs in September 2014 which I think is a good dose to stop the drug altogether. 

Now my worry is that since I want to continue my studies at a graduate level abroad either in England or in the USA (I live in Greece), I want to be 100% ready to face such an enormous and pivotal situation in my life. 

My questions to you are:

Is the two week reduction plan a good plan or more time is needed between the drops? (or maybe less time)

I wanted to be seroxat free for quite a while before I go abroad so that I would know that there would be no delayed withdrawal symptoms once I moved abroad.

Is the 0,4 dose a good dose to stop the drug altogether?

What if I am still weaning off when I have to move abroad?

Sorry for the long post, thank you in advance for any replies and I wish everyone in here a great win over any problem they face.</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hello everyone, I hope that you are all doing well in your adventures. <br />
<br />
I am much better since I last posted here and I would like your opinion on a matter that has been of concern to me. <br />
<br />
First of all a small presentation of my seroxat adventure: 40 mgs since I was 14 years old (just turned 23 today), two previous attempts of weaning off were unsuccessful since I tried to drop from that amount to zero in the period of a month and since October of 2011 I have tried a more gradual tapering.<br />
<br />
From 40 mgs to 30, then in November from 30 to 20, then in January from 20 to 10 and then in March from 10 to 0mgs. All hell broke loose in the last drop so I reinstated the 10 mgs dose. All was fine until September of 2012 when I started experiencing withdrawal symptoms. Updosed to 12 mgs in November and to 14 mgs in December. Each day that passed from then I felt better and now I can say that I am 95% ok. Possibly 100% and the rest of 5% is my fear of facing the difficulties of Seroxat withdrawal again. <br />
<br />
Now to the main point, my psychiatrist suggested that we start a 10% gradual reduction (every 2 weeks) from the 21st of June once I finish my uni exams. If that is the case and if I face no withrawal symptoms in any drop at all (which is highly unlikely) I will be at a dose of 0,4 mgs in September 2014 which I think is a good dose to stop the drug altogether. <br />
<br />
Now my worry is that since I want to continue my studies at a graduate level abroad either in England or in the USA (I live in Greece), I want to be 100% ready to face such an enormous and pivotal situation in my life. <br />
<br />
My questions to you are:<br />
<br />
Is the two week reduction plan a good plan or more time is needed between the drops? (or maybe less time)<br />
<br />
I wanted to be seroxat free for quite a while before I go abroad so that I would know that there would be no delayed withdrawal symptoms once I moved abroad.<br />
<br />
Is the 0,4 dose a good dose to stop the drug altogether?<br />
<br />
What if I am still weaning off when I have to move abroad?<br />
<br />
Sorry for the long post, thank you in advance for any replies and I wish everyone in here a great win over any problem they face.</div>

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			<dc:creator>Paris - Alex</dc:creator>
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			<title>Tricky situation, need a psychiatrists statement</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 23 May 2013 12:41:12 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I'm not quite sure how to deal with this situation. I've been looking for a cbt-knowledgeable therapist and found one pretty near that would fit the bill but I would need to see a psychiatrist as well if I want to receive compensation and not pay entirely out of my own pocket.. or my parents, since I don't have any income atm. I'm finally starting to accept the idea that a therapist might help me through this but the idea of having to be evaluated by psychiatry (which I pretty much despise, as you might have seen from the other thread) does not seem like a nice task. I suppose I could play along and swallow my pride but it does not sound like a pleasant idea. Or am I making it worse than it really is.. I just get a flashback of that last psychiatrist visit which had me pretty much boiling with hate.
Here's the email I sent to the cbt-psychologist and her response (translated from finnish by me):

Hello,

Are you taking new customers at the moment? I have no prior experience of therapy so I would need some help with a couple of questions.
If I wanted to apply for possible kela-compensation, do I need to get a referral some other way or from you?
How long are the typical therapy relationships and is cbt, of which I've heard a lot of good and am interested about, fitting for my own situation?
Short background: I'm a 24 year old young man currently unemployed since last July. My problems are two-fold;
a) my original problems relating to indetermination a generally anxious/ a little neurotic personality and poor coping/behavioural patterns. b) The psyche medication (ssri), which I started in 2009 and the following severe worsening of my condition in long-term. Due to the medication my functionality is more unpredictable, which has led me astray from life. I am still on the medication, but currently very slowly weaning off. I refuse further psyche-drugs. Due to the withdrawal/after effects of the drug I might possibly have to live with long-term chronic pain/suffering, and this is another aspect I need support with. I finished my upper secondary school and military service during the past years and I've had a few short work periods but my life has basicly been in a standstill ever since I started the medication. I've had to be away from 'normal' society for long periods of time due to horrible symptoms and I don't seem to have progressed to any direction or goal. At the moment I feel ok. I'm not sure if cbt is the right choice or is some other form of therapy better?
Thanks.

Hei _____,

thank you for contacting! I can take a new customer. For the kela-compensation you need a psychiatrists B-statement ja and you have to fill the kela form for rehabilitation-psychotherapy. For that you have to have a psychotherapist named, with whom you plan to start working with. Kela also demands, that you have a minimum 3 month care relation with a psychiatrist (that you've been to a psychiatrist at least 3 times during 3 months). But you apparently have a treatment contact with some psychiatrist, who started your medication and is now ending it? [[moui sidenote: nope. got the drug from a cardiologist and have not seen but only 1 psych who pretty much denied everything]] I believe cbt can give you plenty of tools. The most important thing is your own motivation and willingness to commit to long-term work. [[sidenote: this is good, I had heard cbt is a quick thing, learn the tools and leave, which didn't sound too great for a ssri wd-scenario]]
My treatment relationships have been on average 2 years, sometimes less is enough and sometimes we need the maximum Kela compensated therapy time, which is 3 years.
Your experiences have been quite fierce and I understand the feeling of being left outside society. Really unfortunate thing about the drug. Some people can't tolerate many drugs at all and side effects are plenty. Some find a drug giving relief immediately.
I can offer you an evaluation time, when we can meet and see if I am the right therapist for you. Are you fine with .... Best regards,]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I'm not quite sure how to deal with this situation. I've been looking for a cbt-knowledgeable therapist and found one pretty near that would fit the bill but I would need to see a psychiatrist as well if I want to receive compensation and not pay entirely out of my own pocket.. or my parents, since I don't have any income atm. I'm finally starting to accept the idea that a therapist might help me through this but the idea of having to be evaluated by psychiatry (which I pretty much despise, as you might have seen from the other thread) does not seem like a nice task. I suppose I could play along and swallow my pride but it does not sound like a pleasant idea. Or am I making it worse than it really is.. I just get a flashback of that last psychiatrist visit which had me pretty much boiling with hate.<br />
Here's the email I sent to the cbt-psychologist and her response (translated from finnish by me):<br />
<br />
Hello,<br />
<br />
Are you taking new customers at the moment? I have no prior experience of therapy so I would need some help with a couple of questions.<br />
If I wanted to apply for possible kela-compensation, do I need to get a referral some other way or from you?<br />
How long are the typical therapy relationships and is cbt, of which I've heard a lot of good and am interested about, fitting for my own situation?<br />
Short background: I'm a 24 year old young man currently unemployed since last July. My problems are two-fold;<br />
a) my original problems relating to indetermination a generally anxious/ a little neurotic personality and poor coping/behavioural patterns. b) The psyche medication (ssri), which I started in 2009 and the following severe worsening of my condition in long-term. Due to the medication my functionality is more unpredictable, which has led me astray from life. I am still on the medication, but currently very slowly weaning off. I refuse further psyche-drugs. Due to the withdrawal/after effects of the drug I might possibly have to live with long-term chronic pain/suffering, and this is another aspect I need support with. I finished my upper secondary school and military service during the past years and I've had a few short work periods but my life has basicly been in a standstill ever since I started the medication. I've had to be away from 'normal' society for long periods of time due to horrible symptoms and I don't seem to have progressed to any direction or goal. At the moment I feel ok. I'm not sure if cbt is the right choice or is some other form of therapy better?<br />
Thanks.<br />
<br />
Hei _____,<br />
<br />
thank you for contacting! I can take a new customer. For the kela-compensation you need a psychiatrists B-statement ja and you have to fill the kela form for rehabilitation-psychotherapy. For that you have to have a psychotherapist named, with whom you plan to start working with. Kela also demands, that you have a minimum 3 month care relation with a psychiatrist (that you've been to a psychiatrist at least 3 times during 3 months). But you apparently have a treatment contact with some psychiatrist, who started your medication and is now ending it? [[moui sidenote: nope. got the drug from a cardiologist and have not seen but only 1 psych who pretty much denied everything]] I believe cbt can give you plenty of tools. The most important thing is your own motivation and willingness to commit to long-term work. [[sidenote: this is good, I had heard cbt is a quick thing, learn the tools and leave, which didn't sound too great for a ssri wd-scenario]]<br />
My treatment relationships have been on average 2 years, sometimes less is enough and sometimes we need the maximum Kela compensated therapy time, which is 3 years.<br />
Your experiences have been quite fierce and I understand the feeling of being left outside society. Really unfortunate thing about the drug. Some people can't tolerate many drugs at all and side effects are plenty. Some find a drug giving relief immediately.<br />
I can offer you an evaluation time, when we can meet and see if I am the right therapist for you. Are you fine with .... Best regards,</div>

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			<title>Paxil side effect: gritty,irritated eyes , feeling of sand stuck in eye(dry eye)</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 23 May 2013 08:16:44 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Hi,

I am new to this forum. I´ve been on paxil 20mg (at times 40) for around a year now. Ever since I began taking it my  eyes seem to get rather dry after a while staring at the computer. But lately its gotten worse and I am having a lot of strange sensations in my eyes (feeling of sand stuck in my eye,right eye goes red after staring at the computer, achy eyes etc...) I have heard that antidepressants in general could cause dry eyes. My question is, can any of you relate to this? did anyone elses dry eyes start with Paxil?

Regards!</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi,<br />
<br />
I am new to this forum. I´ve been on paxil 20mg (at times 40) for around a year now. Ever since I began taking it my  eyes seem to get rather dry after a while staring at the computer. But lately its gotten worse and I am having a lot of strange sensations in my eyes (feeling of sand stuck in my eye,right eye goes red after staring at the computer, achy eyes etc...) I have heard that antidepressants in general could cause dry eyes. My question is, can any of you relate to this? did anyone elses dry eyes start with Paxil?<br />
<br />
Regards!</div>

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			<dc:creator>Bravo05</dc:creator>
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			<title>A bit of hope for you all!</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 23 May 2013 02:27:33 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi everyone, i guess that in my initial withdrawal phase when I was feeling not so well ( which I know is a understatement at times) would mostly read posts of people in my same state and writing posts at tough times. So I wanted to do the opposite, now almost after 10 months I can report that things are going much better, and mostly I can assure that all of you out there will also get better. I'm in a phase were I can be very well for days even weeks and then have a few difficult days but bounce back. My case, as we all think, was a pretty critical one and I can tell you that there is no permanent damage for not sleeping for months (now i sleep 6 hours), anxiety levels are way better and I have no more diarrhea or stomach problems anymore. 
To one and all I wish that everybody gets the patience to wait it out because basically that's the key to overcoming withdrawal. Time, Time and more Time.
My best wishes!!]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi everyone, i guess that in my initial withdrawal phase when I was feeling not so well ( which I know is a understatement at times) would mostly read posts of people in my same state and writing posts at tough times. So I wanted to do the opposite, now almost after 10 months I can report that things are going much better, and mostly I can assure that all of you out there will also get better. I'm in a phase were I can be very well for days even weeks and then have a few difficult days but bounce back. My case, as we all think, was a pretty critical one and I can tell you that there is no permanent damage for not sleeping for months (now i sleep 6 hours), anxiety levels are way better and I have no more diarrhea or stomach problems anymore. <br />
To one and all I wish that everybody gets the patience to wait it out because basically that's the key to overcoming withdrawal. Time, Time and more Time.<br />
My best wishes!!</div>

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			<dc:creator>sagroth</dc:creator>
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			<title>Is this the real me?</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 23 May 2013 00:12:17 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I don't know what the heck is wrong with me. People have conversations with me and it's  like I don't comprehend. They're mouths are moving I can hear them but im not listening if that makes sense. When they walk off I have no idea what we just talked about. Last night I could barely sleep. For the past three days I've been obsessing about birthcontrol, hormones, different types of side effects from them I even look up ones I don't take. I feel really good for long periods of time but about every year and a half I get these flare ups. I don't know if it's Paxil, w/d or if it's just me. They effect me mentally and physically. In my mind I can visualize all of these disastrous scenario's. It brings tears to my eyes because I felt really good for a long time. I love exercising, wathching Game of Thrones, You Tube make up tutorials and a lot of fun stuff. For the past month everything for me has been a struggle for me to enjoy and do. Im not sure what to do at this point. I've come so far in my journey but the way I've been feeling is making me really sad.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I don't know what the heck is wrong with me. People have conversations with me and it's  like I don't comprehend. They're mouths are moving I can hear them but im not listening if that makes sense. When they walk off I have no idea what we just talked about. Last night I could barely sleep. For the past three days I've been obsessing about birthcontrol, hormones, different types of side effects from them I even look up ones I don't take. I feel really good for long periods of time but about every year and a half I get these flare ups. I don't know if it's Paxil, w/d or if it's just me. They effect me mentally and physically. In my mind I can visualize all of these disastrous scenario's. It brings tears to my eyes because I felt really good for a long time. I love exercising, wathching Game of Thrones, You Tube make up tutorials and a lot of fun stuff. For the past month everything for me has been a struggle for me to enjoy and do. Im not sure what to do at this point. I've come so far in my journey but the way I've been feeling is making me really sad.</div>

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			<title>psychologically dependent?</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 22 May 2013 20:29:31 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I went to visit my dctr last week and we spoke about how i was doing with my drops and where i was currently at. I told him i was at 5.6mg....at which point he looked at me and said 5.6? At that point it really isnt doing anything for you, so you should be able to just stop. I adamantly told him i would not do that and continue with my current tapering schedule, but later on that night i started to wonder. The lower we get in our drops....is it more of keeping our brain chemicals as 'normal' as possible vs the paxil controlling our anxiety? Is this why the lower we get, thats why the anxiety begins to return bc at 5mg...is there really anything the paxil is doing for my anxiety?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I went to visit my dctr last week and we spoke about how i was doing with my drops and where i was currently at. I told him i was at 5.6mg....at which point he looked at me and said 5.6? At that point it really isnt doing anything for you, so you should be able to just stop. I adamantly told him i would not do that and continue with my current tapering schedule, but later on that night i started to wonder. The lower we get in our drops....is it more of keeping our brain chemicals as 'normal' as possible vs the paxil controlling our anxiety? Is this why the lower we get, thats why the anxiety begins to return bc at 5mg...is there really anything the paxil is doing for my anxiety?</div>

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			<title>Uh... TMI Question!</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 22 May 2013 19:40:56 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[So... I need to talk about poop for a second.  I know... embarrassing!  I noticed at the beginning of my wean, I would either be constipated, or have blow outs.  No in between.  Now, things have evened out a bit, but I still have a very loud stomach... and, the majority of my bowel movements are loose!  Not diarrhea...  they feel normal coming out, but my poop kind of falls apart and crumbles in the toilet.  It is so weird!  Color is totally normal, but it's definitely not "formed" like a normal BM.

Could this be an effect of weaning?  Could it be a gluten intolerance?  Could it be normal?  Am I dying? ;)  I'm not taking magnesium or anything that would cause this.  Could taking probiotics help?  It's been like this for a few months now, and I REALLY don't want to have to go see a gastroenterologist.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>So... I need to talk about poop for a second.  I know... embarrassing!  I noticed at the beginning of my wean, I would either be constipated, or have blow outs.  No in between.  Now, things have evened out a bit, but I still have a very loud stomach... and, the majority of my bowel movements are loose!  Not diarrhea...  they feel normal coming out, but my poop kind of falls apart and crumbles in the toilet.  It is so weird!  Color is totally normal, but it's definitely not &quot;formed&quot; like a normal BM.<br />
<br />
Could this be an effect of weaning?  Could it be a gluten intolerance?  Could it be normal?  Am I dying? ;)  I'm not taking magnesium or anything that would cause this.  Could taking probiotics help?  It's been like this for a few months now, and I REALLY don't want to have to go see a gastroenterologist.</div>

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			<title>Help me please</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 22 May 2013 17:03:25 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hello guys, I'm new to the forum and I like to talk that I have been taking paroxetine 20mg and buspirone 5 mg for 4 years. Well It all began when I start to feel stomach ache that lasted for 35-45 days and while I was suffering from it I kept thinking that the ache might be something serious and that could kill me. After I've done all the exams I realized it was nothing but anxiety, that relieved me a lot but it was to late, I mean I got a little depressed because I been thinking too many negative things, that could be a cancer, that I'm sick.....

Well After I got depressed I start taking paroxetine and buspirone for it and worked fine I was feeling better and when I was like to becoming free from it, I have a relapse that made me cry and after a friend of mine told me that depression could make me crazy I start to watch over my own thoughts. Wow it's so hard to explain, and htat was the major problem not the depression anymore, the depression was caused now by these crazy thoughts that I couldn't get off!

It's something strange I can't explain what is it, if it is hypervigilance or just pure-o, it's like : "If depression could lead me to lost control over my mind, this mean that if I start getting grazy it will begin with my thoughts, so how do I have a thought? Do I have a thought automatically or I am the one who create it?" After that I start to watch over the thoughts and I don't know if it is hypervigilance, somatic obsessions about the act of think, philosophical ocd, can't really explain If that watching over the thoughts is what causing this or to think that everything I do think is bad and could make me crazy.

The first 3,4 months were the worse part of it and then began to lose its strength over me, but it was still bothering me up. Two years later I got much better, these thoughts became a lot more minimal and I was dealing fine with it, these thoughts was alost getting away from my mind and then I made a treatment with a doctor that works with energy healing/past lives that make me EVEN better so she said I could take paxil and buspirone off. 

I was feeling a lot better, these thoughts wasn't a problem anymore to me, well that is what I was thinking till...... one month later I ve experiencied w/d symptoms that was so overwhelming that I had to start taking paxil again and guess what? those thoughts came back, not that strong, but It came back!

After taking paxil again for 4-5 weeks it start to relieving me again and the thoughts were there but bearable, a little worser that when I took paxil off but they were bearable. Well I have continued the treatment with the holistic therapy and she convinced me that I had to stop taking it and that I have to edure the symptoms. I cold turkey again and got bad due to the w/d symptoms that I have experienced chest pain, diarrhea, brain zaps, cried so many times, etc. Believe or not I take paxil again and was sure that the thoughts just got worser every time I start taking the drug, now I'm three weeks off the drug, I'm feeling chest pain, despersonalization, diarrhea, depressed, anxiety and as usual that *&(¨% thoughts!

I don't know what to do anymore, it's like I'm not leaving this state anymore that the times I cold turkey and resume taking it make me relapse and that know these thoughts are irreversible and out of control. I wonder If paxil developed these strange thoughts on me and caused me brain damage or something that :sad: 

What should I do? I'm afraid that taking paxil again will just make these thoughts even worse as It happened. What do you guys think about these thoughts? What could be? Is this relapse or just w/d? If it is relapse is it too late now since I cold tukey 3 times in 4-5 months?:icon_frown: 
 

Note : English is not my first language sorry If I have done too many mistakes, since I was a kid, sometimes I got obsessed that I'm sick, afraid to die you know maybe this developed in this ocd/hypervigilance or whatever is it.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hello guys, I'm new to the forum and I like to talk that I have been taking paroxetine 20mg and buspirone 5 mg for 4 years. Well It all began when I start to feel stomach ache that lasted for 35-45 days and while I was suffering from it I kept thinking that the ache might be something serious and that could kill me. After I've done all the exams I realized it was nothing but anxiety, that relieved me a lot but it was to late, I mean I got a little depressed because I been thinking too many negative things, that could be a cancer, that I'm sick.....<br />
<br />
Well After I got depressed I start taking paroxetine and buspirone for it and worked fine I was feeling better and when I was like to becoming free from it, I have a relapse that made me cry and after a friend of mine told me that depression could make me crazy I start to watch over my own thoughts. Wow it's so hard to explain, and htat was the major problem not the depression anymore, the depression was caused now by these crazy thoughts that I couldn't get off!<br />
<br />
It's something strange I can't explain what is it, if it is hypervigilance or just pure-o, it's like : &quot;If depression could lead me to lost control over my mind, this mean that if I start getting grazy it will begin with my thoughts, so how do I have a thought? Do I have a thought automatically or I am the one who create it?&quot; After that I start to watch over the thoughts and I don't know if it is hypervigilance, somatic obsessions about the act of think, philosophical ocd, can't really explain If that watching over the thoughts is what causing this or to think that everything I do think is bad and could make me crazy.<br />
<br />
The first 3,4 months were the worse part of it and then began to lose its strength over me, but it was still bothering me up. Two years later I got much better, these thoughts became a lot more minimal and I was dealing fine with it, these thoughts was alost getting away from my mind and then I made a treatment with a doctor that works with energy healing/past lives that make me EVEN better so she said I could take paxil and buspirone off. <br />
<br />
I was feeling a lot better, these thoughts wasn't a problem anymore to me, well that is what I was thinking till...... one month later I ve experiencied w/d symptoms that was so overwhelming that I had to start taking paxil again and guess what? those thoughts came back, not that strong, but It came back!<br />
<br />
After taking paxil again for 4-5 weeks it start to relieving me again and the thoughts were there but bearable, a little worser that when I took paxil off but they were bearable. Well I have continued the treatment with the holistic therapy and she convinced me that I had to stop taking it and that I have to edure the symptoms. I cold turkey again and got bad due to the w/d symptoms that I have experienced chest pain, diarrhea, brain zaps, cried so many times, etc. Believe or not I take paxil again and was sure that the thoughts just got worser every time I start taking the drug, now I'm three weeks off the drug, I'm feeling chest pain, despersonalization, diarrhea, depressed, anxiety and as usual that *&amp;(¨% thoughts!<br />
<br />
I don't know what to do anymore, it's like I'm not leaving this state anymore that the times I cold turkey and resume taking it make me relapse and that know these thoughts are irreversible and out of control. I wonder If paxil developed these strange thoughts on me and caused me brain damage or something that :sad: <br />
<br />
What should I do? I'm afraid that taking paxil again will just make these thoughts even worse as It happened. What do you guys think about these thoughts? What could be? Is this relapse or just w/d? If it is relapse is it too late now since I cold tukey 3 times in 4-5 months?:icon_frown: <br />
 <br />
<br />
Note : English is not my first language sorry If I have done too many mistakes, since I was a kid, sometimes I got obsessed that I'm sick, afraid to die you know maybe this developed in this ocd/hypervigilance or whatever is it.</div>

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			<title><![CDATA[I'd give almost anything to nap]]></title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 22 May 2013 13:48:55 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Can't sleep, can't nap.
How can the body be so sickeningly tired but unable to sleep? I do everything that would encourage sleep but I simply can't go off.
I lay in bed today (after four hours last night) and had the whole day if needs be to have a nap. Nothing ever bloody works.
Apart from a three month episode of being able to sleep in the day if needs be twenty years ago when I was in University, I have never been able to nap.
I didnt nap when EVERYONE was when my baby was little, I don't nap when I'm three days into horrific insomnia and I can't nap when I have absolutely everything in place.
It would mean the world to me to be able to do this thing that most people take for granted.
I'm tired and sad.
I just want a little nap...even five minutes would make me feel so much better.
It's so unfair. There are people out there that sleep perfectly at night AND hvqe a little tenty minutes snooze in the day. To me they are from a different planet.
I want to be from that planet.
I hate my brain.
Lu x]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Can't sleep, can't nap.<br />
How can the body be so sickeningly tired but unable to sleep? I do everything that would encourage sleep but I simply can't go off.<br />
I lay in bed today (after four hours last night) and had the whole day if needs be to have a nap. Nothing ever bloody works.<br />
Apart from a three month episode of being able to sleep in the day if needs be twenty years ago when I was in University, I have never been able to nap.<br />
I didnt nap when EVERYONE was when my baby was little, I don't nap when I'm three days into horrific insomnia and I can't nap when I have absolutely everything in place.<br />
It would mean the world to me to be able to do this thing that most people take for granted.<br />
I'm tired and sad.<br />
I just want a little nap...even five minutes would make me feel so much better.<br />
It's so unfair. There are people out there that sleep perfectly at night AND hvqe a little tenty minutes snooze in the day. To me they are from a different planet.<br />
I want to be from that planet.<br />
I hate my brain.<br />
Lu x</div>

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			<title>DSM - V</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 22 May 2013 10:23:34 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>This is really scary........http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2013/04/11/dsm-v-hoarding-binge-eating-more-new-mental-disorder-diagnoses.html</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>This is really scary........<a href="http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2013/04/11/dsm-v-hoarding-binge-eating-more-new-mental-disorder-diagnoses.html" target="_blank">http://www.thedailybeast.com/article...diagnoses.html</a></div>

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			<title>Meditation</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 22 May 2013 10:09:08 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi folks
Currently 3 months into a reduction using seroxat liquid, dropping 0.5ml of liquid every 6/8 weeks which equals 1mg of the drug. I'm down to 16mg of the dreaded drug & starting to feel some anxiety creep in.

 Has anyone tried "Mindfulness Meditation" as a remedy for the nightmare affects of anxiety ?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi folks<br />
Currently 3 months into a reduction using seroxat liquid, dropping 0.5ml of liquid every 6/8 weeks which equals 1mg of the drug. I'm down to 16mg of the dreaded drug &amp; starting to feel some anxiety creep in.<br />
<br />
 Has anyone tried &quot;Mindfulness Meditation&quot; as a remedy for the nightmare affects of anxiety ?</div>

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			<dc:creator>puzzled1</dc:creator>
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			<title>3 years paxil free!</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 22 May 2013 07:26:06 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Wow has it really been three years?  Some moments it feels like time has passed so quickly, but then again I don't really remember being on Paxil anymore.

I have no withdrawal effects so to speak.  I do get anxiety but I manage it much better than I ever have.  Annoyingly the last few days my anxiety has been higher than in the last few years, but whenever I feel there are pivotal moments in my life that tends to be the case.  I am itching for something new, exciting, and different and am finally ready to explore some of those avenues.

Anyways I will post a bit more later but I need to get some sleep.  Hang in there, it gets much much better! :)]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Wow has it really been three years?  Some moments it feels like time has passed so quickly, but then again I don't really remember being on Paxil anymore.<br />
<br />
I have no withdrawal effects so to speak.  I do get anxiety but I manage it much better than I ever have.  Annoyingly the last few days my anxiety has been higher than in the last few years, but whenever I feel there are pivotal moments in my life that tends to be the case.  I am itching for something new, exciting, and different and am finally ready to explore some of those avenues.<br />
<br />
Anyways I will post a bit more later but I need to get some sleep.  Hang in there, it gets much much better! :)</div>

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			<dc:creator>samantha</dc:creator>
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			<title>can i ever be pregnant?</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 22 May 2013 02:46:26 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I am currently almost 27 years old and have been on Paxil for 13 years.
I started on it for Depression and Anxiety, as i was pulling my eyebrow and eyelashes out. 

I was on 40mg everyday for around 10 years. Just the past couple years I have made it down to 20mg. I have tried to come off of it a couple years ago,i was down to 5mg, however the withdraw symptoms became to much. 
(FYI; i have not had one set doctor during my life, i have had 2 move away, so trying to talk to someone about it, they dont believe things i say)

I have always wanted a child, and just this past year I made a decision that i wanted to try to come off of paxil completely so I would be a couple years free of the paxil before having a child

But i have been reading a lot of these posts of different experiences and now I am concerned that I am not going to be 'o-so lucky' when it comes to being successful coming off of it or even being able to have a child because of it. 

I feel i have been on this medication too long and that my body would not respond well from coming off of it, let alone my body respond well to a pregnancy.....

am i losing it thinking like this? lol

thanks]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I am currently almost 27 years old and have been on Paxil for 13 years.<br />
I started on it for Depression and Anxiety, as i was pulling my eyebrow and eyelashes out. <br />
<br />
I was on 40mg everyday for around 10 years. Just the past couple years I have made it down to 20mg. I have tried to come off of it a couple years ago,i was down to 5mg, however the withdraw symptoms became to much. <br />
(FYI; i have not had one set doctor during my life, i have had 2 move away, so trying to talk to someone about it, they dont believe things i say)<br />
<br />
I have always wanted a child, and just this past year I made a decision that i wanted to try to come off of paxil completely so I would be a couple years free of the paxil before having a child<br />
<br />
But i have been reading a lot of these posts of different experiences and now I am concerned that I am not going to be 'o-so lucky' when it comes to being successful coming off of it or even being able to have a child because of it. <br />
<br />
I feel i have been on this medication too long and that my body would not respond well from coming off of it, let alone my body respond well to a pregnancy.....<br />
<br />
am i losing it thinking like this? lol<br />
<br />
thanks</div>

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			<dc:creator>Onka86</dc:creator>
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			<title>Long Time Paxil User In Distress</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 21 May 2013 21:06:41 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hello everyone.  This is my first post here so it's a bit of a story.  I'm a 42 year old male and started having panic attacks in '94.  I was depressed as a teenager, but aren't all teenagers depressed?  I was briefly put on Prozac at that time which sent my anxiety through the roof.  I was in hell from the moment I woke up until just before I fell asleep.  They gave me xanax to take with it which at least got me functional enough to leave the house and go to work.  I discontinued the Prozac after a month or so.  I tried imipramine for a while and then quit that.  I still had panic and depression off and on but just dealt with it using the occasional xanax.  Finally in early '97 I saw a new pdoc that started me on generic paxil.  He started me on 10mg and then worked up to 30mg over the course of a few months.  My anxiety dissapeared and my panic attacks became very infrequent.  I even went for several years without needing a xanax.  

Then last fall I started having occasional panic attacks while sleeping.  Then in mid-February I had severe anxiety and panic out of the blue that was so bad I missed a week of work.  My pdoc upped my paxil to 40mg and gave me a fresh supply of xanax.  The upped paxil didn't do squat and now I'm pretty much getting by on the xanax.  I don't drink and don't have an addictive personality so I'm not too worried about benzo addiction.  When I told him I was getting very depressed, was falling asleep at work, and having suicidal thoughts he added Wellbutrin to the mix.  This helped my mood and energy but also increased my anxiety.  My BP hit 201/110 on it so I went to the ER.  My pdoc told me to discontinue the wb right away, which I did on Saturday.  Now I can feel the depression returning some, have no energy, and STILL have massive anxiety.  I have started seeing his therapist as well too.  I see my pdoc again this Friday and I'm scared as to what the next step will be.  I LIKED the way I felt on the Paxil but it has obviously pooped out after 15 years.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hello everyone.  This is my first post here so it's a bit of a story.  I'm a 42 year old male and started having panic attacks in '94.  I was depressed as a teenager, but aren't all teenagers depressed?  I was briefly put on Prozac at that time which sent my anxiety through the roof.  I was in hell from the moment I woke up until just before I fell asleep.  They gave me xanax to take with it which at least got me functional enough to leave the house and go to work.  I discontinued the Prozac after a month or so.  I tried imipramine for a while and then quit that.  I still had panic and depression off and on but just dealt with it using the occasional xanax.  Finally in early '97 I saw a new pdoc that started me on generic paxil.  He started me on 10mg and then worked up to 30mg over the course of a few months.  My anxiety dissapeared and my panic attacks became very infrequent.  I even went for several years without needing a xanax.  <br />
<br />
Then last fall I started having occasional panic attacks while sleeping.  Then in mid-February I had severe anxiety and panic out of the blue that was so bad I missed a week of work.  My pdoc upped my paxil to 40mg and gave me a fresh supply of xanax.  The upped paxil didn't do squat and now I'm pretty much getting by on the xanax.  I don't drink and don't have an addictive personality so I'm not too worried about benzo addiction.  When I told him I was getting very depressed, was falling asleep at work, and having suicidal thoughts he added Wellbutrin to the mix.  This helped my mood and energy but also increased my anxiety.  My BP hit 201/110 on it so I went to the ER.  My pdoc told me to discontinue the wb right away, which I did on Saturday.  Now I can feel the depression returning some, have no energy, and STILL have massive anxiety.  I have started seeing his therapist as well too.  I see my pdoc again this Friday and I'm scared as to what the next step will be.  I LIKED the way I felt on the Paxil but it has obviously pooped out after 15 years.</div>

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			<dc:creator>Greg70</dc:creator>
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			<title>Do you read books anymore?</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 21 May 2013 19:47:54 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Just wondering if any of you read books anymore or if you did before but stopped because you just arent interested in them anymore. I used to read much more than I do now and it seems weird that i did read before but not now. Is this due to withdrawal?</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Just wondering if any of you read books anymore or if you did before but stopped because you just arent interested in them anymore. I used to read much more than I do now and it seems weird that i did read before but not now. Is this due to withdrawal?</div>

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			<dc:creator>axis74</dc:creator>
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			<title>Time to kick in</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 21 May 2013 19:44:59 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I was wondering, what are your experiences regarding the time needed for a ssri to work.  When i took my first dose, it was an instant happy boost, way way to strong to be placebo, also because i didn't believe in it. It was like taking xtc (had also no side effects as all). 

In withdrawal, it seems to me that i have physical symptoms as soon as i lower the dose (or recently updosed a little, feel a bit numb in the frontbrain). The real emotional symptoms seem to come later (like a week or so) and i only start to feel them really life disruptive hard hard when i tapered to fast,and probably when my my brain didn't catch up with censecutive (little) drops. Is this recognizable?

This theory would also mean there's no need to updose when i'm not feeling emotional miserable? I had a really bad wave a couple of weeks ago and i updosed +-4%. Lately, it's getting better emotional (i'm not crying anymore, but i'm not really happy also) and i updosed today another 4% (next week, i'm going on holiday and want to be 'totally' okay by then. With this last updose today, i feel a front brain numbness and trouble with vision, and this didn't make me feel quite happy... What should i do? lower the dose back 4% or not? Or maybe 2%?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I was wondering, what are your experiences regarding the time needed for a ssri to work.  When i took my first dose, it was an instant happy boost, way way to strong to be placebo, also because i didn't believe in it. It was like taking xtc (had also no side effects as all). <br />
<br />
In withdrawal, it seems to me that i have physical symptoms as soon as i lower the dose (or recently updosed a little, feel a bit numb in the frontbrain). The real emotional symptoms seem to come later (like a week or so) and i only start to feel them really life disruptive hard hard when i tapered to fast,and probably when my my brain didn't catch up with censecutive (little) drops. Is this recognizable?<br />
<br />
This theory would also mean there's no need to updose when i'm not feeling emotional miserable? I had a really bad wave a couple of weeks ago and i updosed +-4%. Lately, it's getting better emotional (i'm not crying anymore, but i'm not really happy also) and i updosed today another 4% (next week, i'm going on holiday and want to be 'totally' okay by then. With this last updose today, i feel a front brain numbness and trouble with vision, and this didn't make me feel quite happy... What should i do? lower the dose back 4% or not? Or maybe 2%?</div>

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			<dc:creator>camel</dc:creator>
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			<title>weird flashbacks from childhood??</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 21 May 2013 18:18:17 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Part of my withdrawal is weird flashbacks from childhood i jist recently got one and do any of you ever feel like it retraumatizes you?</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Part of my withdrawal is weird flashbacks from childhood i jist recently got one and do any of you ever feel like it retraumatizes you?</div>

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			<dc:creator>axis74</dc:creator>
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			<title>Depression..HELP</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 21 May 2013 17:22:07 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>So going from 2 years of complete anadonhia to this depression is kind of strange. I dont know if this is part of the withdrawal process or what it is but man am i depressed. i lost my boyfriend im single i have bronchitis right now and feel like aboslute sh*t my self esteem is so low right now and i feel like im 100 years old. i dont know if its the withdrawal or the break up or both. But i guess the plus side to this whole thing is im at least getting some sort of emotion back even though its depression.</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>So going from 2 years of complete anadonhia to this depression is kind of strange. I dont know if this is part of the withdrawal process or what it is but man am i depressed. i lost my boyfriend im single i have bronchitis right now and feel like aboslute sh*t my self esteem is so low right now and i feel like im 100 years old. i dont know if its the withdrawal or the break up or both. But i guess the plus side to this whole thing is im at least getting some sort of emotion back even though its depression.</div>

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			<title>antidepressants and heart health</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 21 May 2013 17:07:38 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>http://gaia-health.com/gaia-blog/2013-02-13/antidepressants-can-cause-sudden-death/</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><a href="http://gaia-health.com/gaia-blog/2013-02-13/antidepressants-can-cause-sudden-death/" target="_blank">http://gaia-health.com/gaia-blog/201...-sudden-death/</a></div>

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			<dc:creator>Bruno2006</dc:creator>
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			<title>should I jump</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 21 May 2013 13:48:28 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Im so ill and so confused and I really need advice here

as most of you know I CTed from 20mg of celexa 15 months ago, w/d hot me in month 5 but I didnt know what it was...I went running to the drs and asked for the drug back...

I had a terrible and very severe kindling reaction but kept taking it at the 20mg for 6 weeks (with a coule of days on 30 as they wanted me to go higher)

in september I dropped to 10mg and then over the next 2 months quickly down to 2mg...

since december I have been tapereing off this last 2mg I am now at 0.48mg I honestly dont know if the taper has effected me, Im still in the deepest hell you can imagine, I cannot function, I have anxiety, depression, many physical symptoms and my most feared is the awful twisting inner restlessness..

I did have a wondow in march but it was followed by the worst wave of all, it was like being back at the start again

but now I dont know what to do, should I drop this 0.48 now or continue to taper down further?

please help me</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Im so ill and so confused and I really need advice here<br />
<br />
as most of you know I CTed from 20mg of celexa 15 months ago, w/d hot me in month 5 but I didnt know what it was...I went running to the drs and asked for the drug back...<br />
<br />
I had a terrible and very severe kindling reaction but kept taking it at the 20mg for 6 weeks (with a coule of days on 30 as they wanted me to go higher)<br />
<br />
in september I dropped to 10mg and then over the next 2 months quickly down to 2mg...<br />
<br />
since december I have been tapereing off this last 2mg I am now at 0.48mg I honestly dont know if the taper has effected me, Im still in the deepest hell you can imagine, I cannot function, I have anxiety, depression, many physical symptoms and my most feared is the awful twisting inner restlessness..<br />
<br />
I did have a wondow in march but it was followed by the worst wave of all, it was like being back at the start again<br />
<br />
but now I dont know what to do, should I drop this 0.48 now or continue to taper down further?<br />
<br />
please help me</div>

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			<dc:creator>Iggy131313</dc:creator>
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			<title><![CDATA[Donna's Taper (Beginning 19/05/13)]]></title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 21 May 2013 12:55:53 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[*Background about me*
I'm a 21 year old University student. I've been taking antidepressants for 11 years now. It's been so long since I've had a psychiatric assessment so I forgot what my original condition was (and because I was 11). My parents tell me I had trouble communicating with other children. They tell me I always looked depressed. I wish I could gather specific details, but my parents don't speak English very well, and I don't speak Vietnamese fluently - so at this point I can only conjecture what made my parents, my primary school teacher, and principal wanted to achieve when they referred me to a child psychiatrist. I initially started on 25mg and went up to 100mg over the next few years. It's 2013 now and I'm trying to go down from 50mg. It has been a long time.

*Why I'm tapering off:*
This would be my second time tapering off this year. My first attempt was back in early February after lasting less than a week. I tapered from 50mg down to 25mg. The first day of my previous taper I felt quite "awake" and aware of everything - it felt great! As the week progressed however, my family started noticing that I became irritable very easily. I had 4 mini outbursts/panic attacks/sensation-that-affects-your-nervous-system. I punched my brother without consciously meaning to (sorry Ross :'( I didn't mean to. I love you.). On February 5 (my final episode) I had an insane attack in public and felt like going insane. I'd been on the 5th day my tapering down (Yes, it was at a bar. Yes, I felt like a fool when I came back to normal. No, I didn't drink). I almost hurt my friend and would have injured him had someone not been holding me back. I was/am stuck in a Catch-22 situation where I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. Though anything is better than feeling agitated and brain-zappy 24/7. This time my original dosage is 50mg and my new dosage is 37.5mg.

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*Day 2 (21/05/13)*
Symptoms (AM)
- Elevated mood
- Relaxed
- Slowed thinking
- Change in appetite

Symptoms (PM)
- Mood swings (fluctuates between anger and depression)
- Lethargy
- Suicidal thoughts]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><b>Background about me</b><br />
I'm a 21 year old University student. I've been taking antidepressants for 11 years now. It's been so long since I've had a psychiatric assessment so I forgot what my original condition was (and because I was 11). My parents tell me I had trouble communicating with other children. They tell me I always looked depressed. I wish I could gather specific details, but my parents don't speak English very well, and I don't speak Vietnamese fluently - so at this point I can only conjecture what made my parents, my primary school teacher, and principal wanted to achieve when they referred me to a child psychiatrist. I initially started on 25mg and went up to 100mg over the next few years. It's 2013 now and I'm trying to go down from 50mg. It has been a long time.<br />
<br />
<b>Why I'm tapering off:</b><br />
This would be my second time tapering off this year. My first attempt was back in early February after lasting less than a week. I tapered from 50mg down to 25mg. The first day of my previous taper I felt quite &quot;awake&quot; and aware of everything - it felt great! As the week progressed however, my family started noticing that I became irritable very easily. I had 4 mini outbursts/panic attacks/sensation-that-affects-your-nervous-system. I punched my brother without consciously meaning to (sorry Ross :'( I didn't mean to. I love you.). On February 5 (my final episode) I had an insane attack in public and felt like going insane. I'd been on the 5th day my tapering down (Yes, it was at a bar. Yes, I felt like a fool when I came back to normal. No, I didn't drink). I almost hurt my friend and would have injured him had someone not been holding me back. I was/am stuck in a Catch-22 situation where I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. Though anything is better than feeling agitated and brain-zappy 24/7. This time my original dosage is 50mg and my new dosage is 37.5mg.<br />
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<b>Day 2 (21/05/13)</b><br />
Symptoms (AM)<br />
- Elevated mood<br />
- Relaxed<br />
- Slowed thinking<br />
- Change in appetite<br />
<br />
Symptoms (PM)<br />
- Mood swings (fluctuates between anger and depression)<br />
- Lethargy<br />
- Suicidal thoughts</div>

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			<dc:creator>LYP</dc:creator>
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			<title>Personality type test</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 21 May 2013 07:59:57 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I took this test and it helped to understand myself a little better, I am a INTP. I thought it would be nice to discuss this and see, maybe some people on the forum can take the test also and we can discuss the types and how it affects us day to day. Maybe it will help us to understand our personalities a little bit better.

http://webspace.ship.edu/cgboer/jungiantypestest.html

So, I know get why I feel suffocated by some jobs, it is part of my personality and maybe I need a job that fits my INTP personality better. That is a start. I also discovered that most INTPs feel demotivated and suffer from depression due to that demotivation. So I need to set reachable goals and I need a job that allows me some sort of freedom and independence in the administration of my time/tasks. What do you think? Which type are you? What do you think about the test? 

PS: The idea came to me after a job interview in which I was required to take the test, I look some of the questions up and then I re-did it at home. No wonder they didn't call back.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I took this test and it helped to understand myself a little better, I am a INTP. I thought it would be nice to discuss this and see, maybe some people on the forum can take the test also and we can discuss the types and how it affects us day to day. Maybe it will help us to understand our personalities a little bit better.<br />
<br />
<a href="http://webspace.ship.edu/cgboer/jungiantypestest.html" target="_blank">http://webspace.ship.edu/cgboer/jungiantypestest.html</a><br />
<br />
So, I know get why I feel suffocated by some jobs, it is part of my personality and maybe I need a job that fits my INTP personality better. That is a start. I also discovered that most INTPs feel demotivated and suffer from depression due to that demotivation. So I need to set reachable goals and I need a job that allows me some sort of freedom and independence in the administration of my time/tasks. What do you think? Which type are you? What do you think about the test? <br />
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PS: The idea came to me after a job interview in which I was required to take the test, I look some of the questions up and then I re-did it at home. No wonder they didn't call back.</div>

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			<title>Dr. Visit.</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 20 May 2013 22:13:29 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Today I went and saw the Dr. who prescribed me Paxil almost 13 years ago for PPD. I always liked him because he ways always apprehensive about prescribing drugs. And after six months wanted to wean me off saying", anti depressants are only good for six month treatment of symptoms. I thought maybe I would taper my last 5.5mg with Dr. supervision (what was I thinking).  When I told him I'm tapering my last 5.5mg he looked at me like I was nuts. He said", if your only taking 5.5mg your basically off of it. Paxil is not habit forming. Are you sure its not a return of your original condition? Don't feel bad about taking a low dose I have patients who take high doeses of Prozac since the 90"s. Why don't you take 5.5mg every other day for three months and see what happens.

I told him I'm no Dr. but after taking a drug on and off for 13yrs having suffered anxiety and depression I am qualified to know my symptoms are paxil related. Telling people who have taken these drugs to take them every other day is not the right way to taper. I know I tried it. And what does your other patients medicine and doseage have to do with me? Obviously Paxil it not easy to get off of, it was there wouldn't be a web full of w/d sufferers. And if we both agree that 5.5mg has no therapeutic effect for anxiety or depression why would it be ok for me to continue to take it?

He told me exercise will make a difference that was the only thing he said that I agree with. I told him I love exercise it really helps me but I've been unable to since this wave started almost a month ago.

The visit was a waste of money, my only hope is that it helped him more than me. I really hope he thinks about what I said.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Today I went and saw the Dr. who prescribed me Paxil almost 13 years ago for PPD. I always liked him because he ways always apprehensive about prescribing drugs. And after six months wanted to wean me off saying&quot;, anti depressants are only good for six month treatment of symptoms. I thought maybe I would taper my last 5.5mg with Dr. supervision (what was I thinking).  When I told him I'm tapering my last 5.5mg he looked at me like I was nuts. He said&quot;, if your only taking 5.5mg your basically off of it. Paxil is not habit forming. Are you sure its not a return of your original condition? Don't feel bad about taking a low dose I have patients who take high doeses of Prozac since the 90&quot;s. Why don't you take 5.5mg every other day for three months and see what happens.<br />
<br />
I told him I'm no Dr. but after taking a drug on and off for 13yrs having suffered anxiety and depression I am qualified to know my symptoms are paxil related. Telling people who have taken these drugs to take them every other day is not the right way to taper. I know I tried it. And what does your other patients medicine and doseage have to do with me? Obviously Paxil it not easy to get off of, it was there wouldn't be a web full of w/d sufferers. And if we both agree that 5.5mg has no therapeutic effect for anxiety or depression why would it be ok for me to continue to take it?<br />
<br />
He told me exercise will make a difference that was the only thing he said that I agree with. I told him I love exercise it really helps me but I've been unable to since this wave started almost a month ago.<br />
<br />
The visit was a waste of money, my only hope is that it helped him more than me. I really hope he thinks about what I said.</div>

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			<title>Cognative difficulties</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 20 May 2013 16:45:53 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>HI so with the anadonia i feel lile im cognativly messed up. Idk if its cause i dont have emotions or what and emotions are a big part of understanding thing intuitvly but i dont feel like i have that anymore. Does that come back? I used to love reading well i dont even do that anymore help</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>HI so with the anadonia i feel lile im cognativly messed up. Idk if its cause i dont have emotions or what and emotions are a big part of understanding thing intuitvly but i dont feel like i have that anymore. Does that come back? I used to love reading well i dont even do that anymore help</div>

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			<title><![CDATA[Please help, I don't know know what to do.]]></title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 20 May 2013 15:48:02 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Long story short I've been off my last dose of 25mgs Luvox for 6 months. However the withdrawal never fully went away. So I started taking doses of Luvox here and there to try and stop it. I would take 12.5mgs for a few days then stop. Then I would take the full 25mgs for a few days then stop. Taking any Luvox made me feel ill. I would start having initial side effects of the medication again which were terrible. Upset stomach and panic attacks. 

Something has happened and I'm really scared. I feel completely depersonalized now. Nothing seems familiar. I feel like I'm in a dream. I cried most of yesterday and I don't now what to do. Should I try and stablize on 25mgs again and then SLOWLY taper over the next couple of years? (I've been Luvox for 16 years) or should I just stay off it? I didn't take any last night. 

Please help. I feel so alone.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Long story short I've been off my last dose of 25mgs Luvox for 6 months. However the withdrawal never fully went away. So I started taking doses of Luvox here and there to try and stop it. I would take 12.5mgs for a few days then stop. Then I would take the full 25mgs for a few days then stop. Taking any Luvox made me feel ill. I would start having initial side effects of the medication again which were terrible. Upset stomach and panic attacks. <br />
<br />
Something has happened and I'm really scared. I feel completely depersonalized now. Nothing seems familiar. I feel like I'm in a dream. I cried most of yesterday and I don't now what to do. Should I try and stablize on 25mgs again and then SLOWLY taper over the next couple of years? (I've been Luvox for 16 years) or should I just stay off it? I didn't take any last night. <br />
<br />
Please help. I feel so alone.</div>

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			<title>On paxil 4 weeks, vision problems help</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 20 May 2013 13:28:14 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi everyone I'm new here but I've been reading the website for years. I was on paxil for about a year 2 years ago and It worked pretty good. I got off and dealt with anxiety/ocd by myself. But my anxiety has gotten so bad I've been in the hospital er 4 times. I can't leave my house without panic and I'm constantly have derealization/depersonalization and I've lost my job because of this. Anyway my main question is Has anyone had weird vision changes starting up or while on paxil? Like I feel like my eyes won't focus or aren't working together, they are also very dry and tired feeling and light sensitive.This is really scaring me and causing me panic attacks and anxiety. I've started paxil 10mg for 12 days then upped to 20mg for 10 days. I noticed the vision change the second week of 10mg. This isn't permanent right? I'm scared It messed up my vision. If it is the paxil will it go away eventually or will I have to discontinue? Please any advice will help thanks.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi everyone I'm new here but I've been reading the website for years. I was on paxil for about a year 2 years ago and It worked pretty good. I got off and dealt with anxiety/ocd by myself. But my anxiety has gotten so bad I've been in the hospital er 4 times. I can't leave my house without panic and I'm constantly have derealization/depersonalization and I've lost my job because of this. Anyway my main question is Has anyone had weird vision changes starting up or while on paxil? Like I feel like my eyes won't focus or aren't working together, they are also very dry and tired feeling and light sensitive.This is really scaring me and causing me panic attacks and anxiety. I've started paxil 10mg for 12 days then upped to 20mg for 10 days. I noticed the vision change the second week of 10mg. This isn't permanent right? I'm scared It messed up my vision. If it is the paxil will it go away eventually or will I have to discontinue? Please any advice will help thanks.</div>

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			<title>Deplin / 5HTP / Magnesium...or nothing?</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 20 May 2013 12:39:49 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Paxil free since mid March...and the anxiety is through the roof this past week.  Has anyone had any success using the above mentioned supplements in dealing with anxiety in withdrawal?  Im wondering if these supps do more harm than healing.  Any input is greatly appreciated.  I have lots to focus on, and it just aint happening.  I cant even speak or type clearly with ease.
I need to slow my mind down and focus on tasks at hand...and Im just losing it!:shout:</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Paxil free since mid March...and the anxiety is through the roof this past week.  Has anyone had any success using the above mentioned supplements in dealing with anxiety in withdrawal?  Im wondering if these supps do more harm than healing.  Any input is greatly appreciated.  I have lots to focus on, and it just aint happening.  I cant even speak or type clearly with ease.<br />
I need to slow my mind down and focus on tasks at hand...and Im just losing it!:shout:</div>

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			<title>Is dosage weight dependant?</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 20 May 2013 08:50:03 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[See title:-) I 've read elsewhere on the internet that a ssri dose is weight dependant: if you weigh more, a higher dosage would be needed. 

First question: is this so? My common sense would say no: cause the brain doens't change when you gain weight, on the other hand: a larger person can handle more alcohol wich has also effect in the brain...

Second question: if this is true, when you gain weight AND lower the dose, these 2 effects reinforce each? This could explain my very bad wave a few weeks ago: apart from stress, i also gained +-5kg in a couple of months (87kg=>92kg)? Although i just might desperately searching for an explanation;-)]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>See title:-) I 've read elsewhere on the internet that a ssri dose is weight dependant: if you weigh more, a higher dosage would be needed. <br />
<br />
First question: is this so? My common sense would say no: cause the brain doens't change when you gain weight, on the other hand: a larger person can handle more alcohol wich has also effect in the brain...<br />
<br />
Second question: if this is true, when you gain weight AND lower the dose, these 2 effects reinforce each? This could explain my very bad wave a few weeks ago: apart from stress, i also gained +-5kg in a couple of months (87kg=&gt;92kg)? Although i just might desperately searching for an explanation;-)</div>

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			<title>My Unconventional Anxiety. Help would be appreciated.</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 20 May 2013 01:07:42 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[So, my OCD/Anxiety is a little more…..unconventional than the majority of anxiety issues I’ve seen on this forum. I don't have fears, more like obsessions. And these obsessions are of a decidedly more....abstract nature.

Imagine the statement “The sky is pink/purple polka dots”. This is a nonsense statement, of course, and for most, this statement would be forgotten.  For me, though, this statement remains lodged in my head and whenever I think of the sky, or even look at it, the statement will return to my head, and I find myself gripped within the throes of anxiety. My chest clenches, bringing with it the statement or memories of said statement. I don’t know which precedes which, nor do I think it matters. It feeds off if itself; as time passes on, the statement transforms into memories of me feeling anxious, and I come to associate the subject matter (the sky, or whatever), with feelings of anxiety. 

Generally speaking, it comes into being as a result of exposure to some shocking concept, portrayal, idea etc regarding something of interest of mine. As I “turn it over” in my head, I become so use to associating “that thing” with the subject that, within a short period of time, I can’t think of one without thinking of the other.

Of course, I’ve never had something quite as mundane as that be the subject of my anxieties. Instead, they have been much more complex than that. When I was younger, around 9 or 10, one of the greatest bugbears of mine was that animals (humans among them) had some invisible, intangible fifth leg growing from their chest. Stupid, right? I even came to associate the clenching of my chest to be the “leg” growing out of me!

As I matured, so did the obsessions. For a stretch of time, I imagined everyone was actually a robot, and that flesh and bone were simply “Matrix-like” illusions. They often ruined my hobbies for me, as I experienced when I suddenly found myself unable to watch certain movies/televisions programs/etc or participate in certain fandoms, as I suddenly became assaulted with thoughts that I didn’t actually like any of it, I had only “fooled myself” into thinking that I had liked them in the first place; or, that a certain character is one way when, in reality, they are another. (A nasty resurgence of this one in particular is whats causing me to post this in the first place). 

Others were of a more sociopolitical nature; for instance, one that I have had (and am currently having, to an extent) is that all gays/lesbians are secretly straight, and it’s all just some strange, elaborate show and they’ll go for men/women at the drop of a hat.

Now, the worst part is that, while I may move on from most of my obsessions, it takes only coming into contact with such things to, obviously, remember when I had such obsessions, and then they start up all over again.
More recent ones, ones that I am in the throes of currently, are more personal to me and thus not able to recount. Suffice it to say, I’m really sick and tired of having to live according to the whims of my mind, my memories, and an overactive, obsessive imagination.

For roughly two years now, I’ve been on Paxil, 60 mg. For the majority of this period, I was able to more-or-less ignore such fears, but a recent one (the aforementioned “more personal one”) has proven to be a tougher nut to crack.

Now, here’s the funny thing: I’ve never actually tried to remove them from my head. That is to say, I’ve never used any mental techniques to relieve myself from this burden!:shame:  Paxil makes it easier to do it, but I’ve never actually “done it”. Am I making myself clear, or do I need to rephrase something? 

I’d greatly appreciate it if someone could help me out on this. It’s never really been an earth-shattering thing, but it’s gotten to the point where I’d say it sufficiently sours a lot of my life.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>So, my OCD/Anxiety is a little more…..unconventional than the majority of anxiety issues I’ve seen on this forum. I don't have fears, more like obsessions. And these obsessions are of a decidedly more....abstract nature.<br />
<br />
Imagine the statement “The sky is pink/purple polka dots”. This is a nonsense statement, of course, and for most, this statement would be forgotten.  For me, though, this statement remains lodged in my head and whenever I think of the sky, or even look at it, the statement will return to my head, and I find myself gripped within the throes of anxiety. My chest clenches, bringing with it the statement or memories of said statement. I don’t know which precedes which, nor do I think it matters. It feeds off if itself; as time passes on, the statement transforms into memories of me feeling anxious, and I come to associate the subject matter (the sky, or whatever), with feelings of anxiety. <br />
<br />
Generally speaking, it comes into being as a result of exposure to some shocking concept, portrayal, idea etc regarding something of interest of mine. As I “turn it over” in my head, I become so use to associating “that thing” with the subject that, within a short period of time, I can’t think of one without thinking of the other.<br />
<br />
Of course, I’ve never had something quite as mundane as that be the subject of my anxieties. Instead, they have been much more complex than that. When I was younger, around 9 or 10, one of the greatest bugbears of mine was that animals (humans among them) had some invisible, intangible fifth leg growing from their chest. Stupid, right? I even came to associate the clenching of my chest to be the “leg” growing out of me!<br />
<br />
As I matured, so did the obsessions. For a stretch of time, I imagined everyone was actually a robot, and that flesh and bone were simply “Matrix-like” illusions. They often ruined my hobbies for me, as I experienced when I suddenly found myself unable to watch certain movies/televisions programs/etc or participate in certain fandoms, as I suddenly became assaulted with thoughts that I didn’t actually like any of it, I had only “fooled myself” into thinking that I had liked them in the first place; or, that a certain character is one way when, in reality, they are another. (A nasty resurgence of this one in particular is whats causing me to post this in the first place). <br />
<br />
Others were of a more sociopolitical nature; for instance, one that I have had (and am currently having, to an extent) is that all gays/lesbians are secretly straight, and it’s all just some strange, elaborate show and they’ll go for men/women at the drop of a hat.<br />
<br />
Now, the worst part is that, while I may move on from most of my obsessions, it takes only coming into contact with such things to, obviously, remember when I had such obsessions, and then they start up all over again.<br />
More recent ones, ones that I am in the throes of currently, are more personal to me and thus not able to recount. Suffice it to say, I’m really sick and tired of having to live according to the whims of my mind, my memories, and an overactive, obsessive imagination.<br />
<br />
For roughly two years now, I’ve been on Paxil, 60 mg. For the majority of this period, I was able to more-or-less ignore such fears, but a recent one (the aforementioned “more personal one”) has proven to be a tougher nut to crack.<br />
<br />
Now, here’s the funny thing: I’ve never actually tried to remove them from my head. That is to say, I’ve never used any mental techniques to relieve myself from this burden!:shame:  Paxil makes it easier to do it, but I’ve never actually “done it”. Am I making myself clear, or do I need to rephrase something? <br />
<br />
I’d greatly appreciate it if someone could help me out on this. It’s never really been an earth-shattering thing, but it’s gotten to the point where I’d say it sufficiently sours a lot of my life.</div>

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			<title>Tapering in poop-out....anyone else?</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 19 May 2013 23:30:30 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I've noticed something interesting and wondering if anyone else out there has noticed too (while tapering in poop-out)?

After stabilizing for well over 3 months on an up-dose (from a too fast taper before finding this site) I just did my first drop from 30mg to 28mg. Within a week I felt better then I had in YEARS!!! Better than i felt when paxil WORKED for me. This feeling lasted almost 4 weeks, it was so amazing. 

Over the last 5 days I have felt awful....I guess I'm wondering if its just w/d hitting me (later than most) or if I'd actually find relief from another drop? I've read a lot of posts on here about tapering in poop-out and a lot of people seem to get relief from dropping as opposed to staying on the current dose for a longer period. From what I've read, the symptoms get progressively worse until they drop again.

I am not impatient, this process will take as long it takes, but if I can get some relief with another drop I'd like to

It's a quandary because I don't know if I'm experiencing w/d symptoms or my body is telling me it's time to drop again. 

If anyone could chime in with advice or personal experience I would appreciate it 

Thank you :-)]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I've noticed something interesting and wondering if anyone else out there has noticed too (while tapering in poop-out)?<br />
<br />
After stabilizing for well over 3 months on an up-dose (from a too fast taper before finding this site) I just did my first drop from 30mg to 28mg. Within a week I felt better then I had in YEARS!!! Better than i felt when paxil WORKED for me. This feeling lasted almost 4 weeks, it was so amazing. <br />
<br />
Over the last 5 days I have felt awful....I guess I'm wondering if its just w/d hitting me (later than most) or if I'd actually find relief from another drop? I've read a lot of posts on here about tapering in poop-out and a lot of people seem to get relief from dropping as opposed to staying on the current dose for a longer period. From what I've read, the symptoms get progressively worse until they drop again.<br />
<br />
I am not impatient, this process will take as long it takes, but if I can get some relief with another drop I'd like to<br />
<br />
It's a quandary because I don't know if I'm experiencing w/d symptoms or my body is telling me it's time to drop again. <br />
<br />
If anyone could chime in with advice or personal experience I would appreciate it <br />
<br />
Thank you :-)</div>

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			<title>Dramatic growth in antipsychotic drug use even targets infants, experts say</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 19 May 2013 21:31:21 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>http://www.canada.com/Dramatic+growth+antipsychotic+drug+even+targets+infants+experts/8407086/story.html

Dramatic growth in antipsychotic drug use even targets infants, experts say
 
 
By Sharon Kirkey, Postmedia News May 19, 2013 4:33 PM
 
 

Dr. Dina Panagiotopoulos’s investigations into some of the most potent psychiatric drugs on the market began when other doctors started calling for help.

Could she see a child on an antipsychotic drug who had developed a potentially lethal condition that can end in a diabetic coma?

Another child on an antipsychotic was now experiencing uncontrollable twitching and muscle spasms. Still another had returned to her psychiatrist a year after starting a similar drug, 50 pounds heavier and almost unrecognizable.

In a sign of what experts are calling an unprecedented spree in the prescribing of mood-altering pills, drugs once reserved for the floridly psychotic are now being given to children still in diapers.....

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Dramatic growth in antipsychotic drug use even targets infants, experts say<br />
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By Sharon Kirkey, Postmedia News May 19, 2013 4:33 PM<br />
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Dr. Dina Panagiotopoulos’s investigations into some of the most potent psychiatric drugs on the market began when other doctors started calling for help.<br />
<br />
Could she see a child on an antipsychotic drug who had developed a potentially lethal condition that can end in a diabetic coma?<br />
<br />
Another child on an antipsychotic was now experiencing uncontrollable twitching and muscle spasms. Still another had returned to her psychiatrist a year after starting a similar drug, 50 pounds heavier and almost unrecognizable.<br />
<br />
In a sign of what experts are calling an unprecedented spree in the prescribing of mood-altering pills, drugs once reserved for the floridly psychotic are now being given to children still in diapers.....<br />
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Continue at link above.</div>

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			<title>Need advice on my taper.</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 19 May 2013 20:03:22 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Well, I don't log on to PP to often these days because it makes me scared to hear of all the horror stories, but I have a question.  I have been tapering for nearly 11 months now (from 20mg) and am currently in 7.5 mg.  My life has not been easy.  I am depressed and not motivated most of the time, although I have some good days sometimes.  I guess that just thinking of how long this road is, just makes it really difficult for me.  Even in this condition I have managed to still keep reducing my daily dosis.  I want to know if this is normal and if other people have been able to keep on going with their taper while being depressed or if you actually have to feel much better in order to be successful with this.  I know that my only option is to keep going forward, but this is very hard for me. Sometimes I think that maybe I should sit on 7.5mg indefinitely until I feel better, but as I said before, the part that contributes more to my deppression is thinking of how much more I still have to go through.  Also, I really don't know how long it will take for me to feel better if I stay in 7.5 mg and what's the point of getting to feel better if I will feel depressed again once I drop in the dosis again.  Can anyone help me decide on what to do?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Well, I don't log on to PP to often these days because it makes me scared to hear of all the horror stories, but I have a question.  I have been tapering for nearly 11 months now (from 20mg) and am currently in 7.5 mg.  My life has not been easy.  I am depressed and not motivated most of the time, although I have some good days sometimes.  I guess that just thinking of how long this road is, just makes it really difficult for me.  Even in this condition I have managed to still keep reducing my daily dosis.  I want to know if this is normal and if other people have been able to keep on going with their taper while being depressed or if you actually have to feel much better in order to be successful with this.  I know that my only option is to keep going forward, but this is very hard for me. Sometimes I think that maybe I should sit on 7.5mg indefinitely until I feel better, but as I said before, the part that contributes more to my deppression is thinking of how much more I still have to go through.  Also, I really don't know how long it will take for me to feel better if I stay in 7.5 mg and what's the point of getting to feel better if I will feel depressed again once I drop in the dosis again.  Can anyone help me decide on what to do?</div>

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			<title>live anti psychiatry protest going on</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 19 May 2013 19:26:38 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>http://new.livestream.com/accounts/3973214/events/2094372</description>
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			<dc:creator>Bruno2006</dc:creator>
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			<title><![CDATA[A Critical Analysis of the Validity, Utility & Effects of the Biomedical Model]]></title>
			<link>https://www.paxilprogress.org/forums/showthread.php?t=59830&amp;goto=newpost</link>
			<pubDate>Sun, 19 May 2013 11:56:34 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[A Critical Analysis of the Validity, Utility & Effects of the Biomedical Model
Mad In America
May 17, 2013

MIA reader/commenter Brett Deacon’s article in the prominent Clinical Psychology Review says that despite “widespread faith in the potential of neuroscience”, the biomedical era has produced poor mental health outcomes. He calls for an open and critical dialogue of the model, asking whether it is ethical to propound the “chemical imbalance story” in order to increase the credibility of antidepressant medication, when there isn’t “even one instance in which neurobiology alone can explain a psychological experience,” and when the model has failed to produce two of its prime objectives; the reduction of stigma, and good long-term outcomes. He calls for critical examination of the biomedical model’s effects, and mentions the vigorous dialogue taking place on madinamerica.com, among other venues.

Article &#8594;

Deacon, B; The biomedical model of mental disorder: A critical analysis of its validity, utility, and effects on psychotherapy research. Clinical Psychology Review. Online April 8, 2013

http://www.madinamerica.com/2013/05/a-critical-analysis-of-the-validity-utility-and-effects-of-the-biomedical-model/]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>A Critical Analysis of the Validity, Utility &amp; Effects of the Biomedical Model<br />
Mad In America<br />
May 17, 2013<br />
<br />
MIA reader/commenter Brett Deacon’s article in the prominent Clinical Psychology Review says that despite “widespread faith in the potential of neuroscience”, the biomedical era has produced poor mental health outcomes. He calls for an open and critical dialogue of the model, asking whether it is ethical to propound the “chemical imbalance story” in order to increase the credibility of antidepressant medication, when there isn’t “even one instance in which neurobiology alone can explain a psychological experience,” and when the model has failed to produce two of its prime objectives; the reduction of stigma, and good long-term outcomes. He calls for critical examination of the biomedical model’s effects, and mentions the vigorous dialogue taking place on madinamerica.com, among other venues.<br />
<br />
Article &#8594;<br />
<br />
Deacon, B; The biomedical model of mental disorder: A critical analysis of its validity, utility, and effects on psychotherapy research. Clinical Psychology Review. Online April 8, 2013<br />
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<a href="http://www.madinamerica.com/2013/05/a-critical-analysis-of-the-validity-utility-and-effects-of-the-biomedical-model/" target="_blank">http://www.madinamerica.com/2013/05/...medical-model/</a></div>

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			<dc:creator>Junior</dc:creator>
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			<title>Sleep Paralysis</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 19 May 2013 09:14:58 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[This has happened a few times to me, most recently last night. The only reasonable thing I can find out what it was is sleep paralysis.

Laying in bed, slightly bothered by elevated heart rate all night, it was the withdrawal speaking, I also did have a lame sleep the night before. It seemed to occur at the moment I fell asleep when I had a ringing and pins and needles feeling in my head that wouldn't stop. I felt totally conscious of what was happening, I could even hear the feint sound of my computer fan in the back ground, but I couldn't do anything about it. I tried to let out a scream, but couldn't. I tried to move, but that wasn't happening either. I felt like this for about a minute or two, but felt like an eternity.

When I finally came out of this, which felt like a temporary paralysis, I was afraid to try to fall back asleep. Once I did pass out, I must have slept 13hrs!!

Has anybody else had a similar experience?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>This has happened a few times to me, most recently last night. The only reasonable thing I can find out what it was is sleep paralysis.<br />
<br />
Laying in bed, slightly bothered by elevated heart rate all night, it was the withdrawal speaking, I also did have a lame sleep the night before. It seemed to occur at the moment I fell asleep when I had a ringing and pins and needles feeling in my head that wouldn't stop. I felt totally conscious of what was happening, I could even hear the feint sound of my computer fan in the back ground, but I couldn't do anything about it. I tried to let out a scream, but couldn't. I tried to move, but that wasn't happening either. I felt like this for about a minute or two, but felt like an eternity.<br />
<br />
When I finally came out of this, which felt like a temporary paralysis, I was afraid to try to fall back asleep. Once I did pass out, I must have slept 13hrs!!<br />
<br />
Has anybody else had a similar experience?</div>

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			<dc:creator>Justin21</dc:creator>
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			<title>Psychiatry Saved My Life</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 19 May 2013 07:37:54 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hello fellow members,

I have signed up to this forum in order to present an alternative viewpoint to what I perceive as the general consensus on this forum (anti-psychiatry). I am not here to "flame" or "troll", but rather to engage in an interesting discussion on psychiatry and psychiatric drugs (such as antidepressants).

Personally, I am a very, very strong advocate of psychiatry. I suffer from extremely severe depression (major depression with melancholic features) and severe obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD). The combination of sertraline and mirtazapine has, without any shadow of a doubt, saved my life; I am now back to my old self. Without these drugs, I would be EXTREMELY suicidal and catatonic. In terms of the melancholic depression, without medication I had terrible anhedonia, severe psychomotor retardation (I could not think or move), I could not eat and I also had extreme insomnia; it was a state of incessant and extremely painful misery and despair. On top of all this, I also have severe "harm" OCD. I cannot begin to describe how grateful I am to my psychiatrist and, indeed, the field of psychiatry. If you're interested in melancholic depression, click HERE (http://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/docs/AboutMelancholicDepression.pdf) to read about it. 

I think a lot of people have some major misconceptions about psychiatry. In the UK, consultant psychiatrists have to go to medical school like GPs for five years. Not only that, they must also study specialist medicine for another seven years. That is 12 years of extensive and thorough medical training. Psychiatry is a very important field of medicine; it is just as important as oncology and neuroscience, for example. Psychiatric illnesses, such as major depression, OCD and schizophrenia, are medical conditions that are just as valid as any other physiological medical condition.

I must say, however, that I am absolutely not fond of the way the transnational pharmaceutical corporations in the United States are commercialising their medications (and the way in which the corporations' sales representatives are manipulating the GPs). The commercialisation of medications, I feel, makes a complete mockery of the entire field of medicine. However, this commercialisation has no impact on the scientifically demonstrable therapeutic efficacy of the aforementioned medications. In the UK, medicine is not commercialised in the slightest; everything is prescribed generically and is offered on the NHS at a fixed price (regardless of the medication).

For the people who do not have a great deal of knowledge on the subject, please understand that there are lots of severely ill psychiatric patients who really do require psychiatric medications such as Zoloft (sertraline), Remeron (mirtazapine), Paxil (paroxetine) or Seroquel (quetiapine) in order to function. I am sure that there are some individuals who have very mild cases of depression (situational/psychological) that may not actually require medication. However, for people with EXTREMELY severe forms of depression (like melancholic depression or psychotic depression), it is a purely biological problem caused by a major neurotransmitter imbalance in the monoamine system (major abnormalities in the serotonin, norepinephrine and dopamine systems); medication is often required indefinitely for these forms of depression. Furthermore, people with these extremely severe forms of depression often require hospitalisation.

I would like to offer some advice, and it is as follows: DO NOT attempt to quit any psychiatric medications cold turkey, do not take the matter into your own hands and always follow the advice/instructions from your psychiatrist. If you suffer from a very severe case of clinical depression, you absolutely need medication. Period. Diet, vitamins and exercise will not come anywhere near close to treating the illness and solving your problem.

Thanks for reading.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hello fellow members,<br />
<br />
I have signed up to this forum in order to present an alternative viewpoint to what I perceive as the general consensus on this forum (anti-psychiatry). I am not here to &quot;flame&quot; or &quot;troll&quot;, but rather to engage in an interesting discussion on psychiatry and psychiatric drugs (such as antidepressants).<br />
<br />
Personally, I am a very, very strong advocate of psychiatry. I suffer from extremely severe depression (major depression with melancholic features) and severe obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD). The combination of sertraline and mirtazapine has, without any shadow of a doubt, saved my life; I am now back to my old self. Without these drugs, I would be EXTREMELY suicidal and catatonic. In terms of the melancholic depression, without medication I had terrible anhedonia, severe psychomotor retardation (I could not think or move), I could not eat and I also had extreme insomnia; it was a state of incessant and extremely painful misery and despair. On top of all this, I also have severe &quot;harm&quot; OCD. I cannot begin to describe how grateful I am to my psychiatrist and, indeed, the field of psychiatry. If you're interested in melancholic depression, click <a href="http://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/docs/AboutMelancholicDepression.pdf" target="_blank">HERE</a> to read about it. <br />
<br />
I think a lot of people have some major misconceptions about psychiatry. In the UK, consultant psychiatrists have to go to medical school like GPs for five years. Not only that, they must also study specialist medicine for another seven years. That is 12 years of extensive and thorough medical training. Psychiatry is a very important field of medicine; it is just as important as oncology and neuroscience, for example. Psychiatric illnesses, such as major depression, OCD and schizophrenia, are medical conditions that are just as valid as any other physiological medical condition.<br />
<br />
I must say, however, that I am absolutely not fond of the way the transnational pharmaceutical corporations in the United States are commercialising their medications (and the way in which the corporations' sales representatives are manipulating the GPs). The commercialisation of medications, I feel, makes a complete mockery of the entire field of medicine. However, this commercialisation has no impact on the scientifically demonstrable therapeutic efficacy of the aforementioned medications. In the UK, medicine is not commercialised in the slightest; everything is prescribed generically and is offered on the NHS at a fixed price (regardless of the medication).<br />
<br />
For the people who do not have a great deal of knowledge on the subject, please understand that there are lots of severely ill psychiatric patients who really do require psychiatric medications such as Zoloft (sertraline), Remeron (mirtazapine), Paxil (paroxetine) or Seroquel (quetiapine) in order to function. I am sure that there are some individuals who have very mild cases of depression (situational/psychological) that may not actually require medication. However, for people with EXTREMELY severe forms of depression (like melancholic depression or psychotic depression), it is a purely biological problem caused by a major neurotransmitter imbalance in the monoamine system (major abnormalities in the serotonin, norepinephrine and dopamine systems); medication is often required indefinitely for these forms of depression. Furthermore, people with these extremely severe forms of depression often require hospitalisation.<br />
<br />
I would like to offer some advice, and it is as follows: DO NOT attempt to quit any psychiatric medications cold turkey, do not take the matter into your own hands and always follow the advice/instructions from your psychiatrist. If you suffer from a very severe case of clinical depression, you absolutely need medication. Period. Diet, vitamins and exercise will not come anywhere near close to treating the illness and solving your problem.<br />
<br />
Thanks for reading.</div>

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			<dc:creator>Monoamine</dc:creator>
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			<title>For the time being, I am the victor.</title>
			<link>https://www.paxilprogress.org/forums/showthread.php?t=59827&amp;goto=newpost</link>
			<pubDate>Sun, 19 May 2013 06:12:22 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Just a brief update, haven't posted much since I've been living lately rather than just surviving. First off, I can't believe what Paxil 20mg did to me with only 5 months exposure. Shortly after a 6 week taper to be completely off of it, I felt like death every day for months, couldnt sleep couldnt eat, could barely walk and talk (my legs would shake and teeth chatter), yet could not stay still due to akathisia, just evil. The only thing i could do was lay in bed and squirm around for hours on end, any sort of dozing off would simply result in being jolted awake in a few minutes or an hour with a racing heart and sweat. One night while not being able to sleep I had my first and only real suicidal thought and when you get one and you're aware of it, for me anyways it was the scariest ****ing thing i ever experienced in my life. Because my brain felt so out of control, like I thought omg I feel like I might do this even though i know i dont want to, like i suddenly had a different brain that i wasnt in control of or something... cant even describe it sorry if it sounds crazy. Looking back it even seems crazy and surreal to me. We had an assault rifle in the house at the time, and that night everytime i closed my eyes all i could see was that friggin gun even though i didnt want to. What I actually wanted to do was fall asleep, wake up in the morning, and go skip around in a sunny meadow with unicorns. Well wish in one hand.... that was months away. 

Well after that nonsense I was finally scared ****less and decided to bite the bullet, err the PILL and reinstate 10mg half my dose. It then took 3 months to feel decent, say 50% better. I was pleased that I didn't need the whole 20mg, my end goal is still to be entirely off it. In a day or 2 it will be 4 months, I feel much better but I still got this feeling like a piece of my soul has been donated. Anyways, I'm back working at my old job that I left 4 yrs ago and I like it more than i used to. Then again, air tastes better to me now too. Sometimes I'll just be outside and take a deep breathe for the hell of it and just think ''Ain't this great?" I just try to cherish every moment now, life is short, you never know when youre gonna get blindsided with something. Make friends. 

I curse these meds everyday for what happened to me and everybody else's story i read on here. However there is this small part of me that is thankful for this pill giving me the kick in the *** I may have needed. I appreciate things more now, whatever... you name it... life? a shooting star? an ant crawling on the ground. Given the choice between me before any psych med and me now, I'll choose now no hesitation.

And yeah, high tide is coming in, I still got 10mg to get off of, SLOWLY this time. But I don't feel like I fear it anymore. I know how temporary and transparent the effects are now, these drugs really are all coat and no knickers when compared to an unbreakable spirit, the will to prevail. It all passes. The drug almost got me to kill myself, I simply didn't, and won. When tapering in the future, I openly challenge it to happen again, I'll probably just go ahead and kinda NOT kill myself again and let it pass, the filthy little weak pill will lose yet again and a better day is always right around the corner.:smiley2: Just my thoughts at the moment since I'm feeling kinda EPIC. Even while staring down 10mgs :evil3:]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Just a brief update, haven't posted much since I've been living lately rather than just surviving. First off, I can't believe what Paxil 20mg did to me with only 5 months exposure. Shortly after a 6 week taper to be completely off of it, I felt like death every day for months, couldnt sleep couldnt eat, could barely walk and talk (my legs would shake and teeth chatter), yet could not stay still due to akathisia, just evil. The only thing i could do was lay in bed and squirm around for hours on end, any sort of dozing off would simply result in being jolted awake in a few minutes or an hour with a racing heart and sweat. One night while not being able to sleep I had my first and only real suicidal thought and when you get one and you're aware of it, for me anyways it was the scariest ****ing thing i ever experienced in my life. Because my brain felt so out of control, like I thought omg I feel like I might do this even though i know i dont want to, like i suddenly had a different brain that i wasnt in control of or something... cant even describe it sorry if it sounds crazy. Looking back it even seems crazy and surreal to me. We had an assault rifle in the house at the time, and that night everytime i closed my eyes all i could see was that friggin gun even though i didnt want to. What I actually wanted to do was fall asleep, wake up in the morning, and go skip around in a sunny meadow with unicorns. Well wish in one hand.... that was months away. <br />
<br />
Well after that nonsense I was finally scared ****less and decided to bite the bullet, err the PILL and reinstate 10mg half my dose. It then took 3 months to feel decent, say 50% better. I was pleased that I didn't need the whole 20mg, my end goal is still to be entirely off it. In a day or 2 it will be 4 months, I feel much better but I still got this feeling like a piece of my soul has been donated. Anyways, I'm back working at my old job that I left 4 yrs ago and I like it more than i used to. Then again, air tastes better to me now too. Sometimes I'll just be outside and take a deep breathe for the hell of it and just think ''Ain't this great?&quot; I just try to cherish every moment now, life is short, you never know when youre gonna get blindsided with something. Make friends. <br />
<br />
I curse these meds everyday for what happened to me and everybody else's story i read on here. However there is this small part of me that is thankful for this pill giving me the kick in the *** I may have needed. I appreciate things more now, whatever... you name it... life? a shooting star? an ant crawling on the ground. Given the choice between me before any psych med and me now, I'll choose now no hesitation.<br />
<br />
And yeah, high tide is coming in, I still got 10mg to get off of, SLOWLY this time. But I don't feel like I fear it anymore. I know how temporary and transparent the effects are now, these drugs really are all coat and no knickers when compared to an unbreakable spirit, the will to prevail. It all passes. The drug almost got me to kill myself, I simply didn't, and won. When tapering in the future, I openly challenge it to happen again, I'll probably just go ahead and kinda NOT kill myself again and let it pass, the filthy little weak pill will lose yet again and a better day is always right around the corner.:smiley2: Just my thoughts at the moment since I'm feeling kinda EPIC. Even while staring down 10mgs :evil3:</div>

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			<dc:creator>RobLematic</dc:creator>
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			<title>Making Progress!!</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 19 May 2013 02:16:40 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[For the past three weeks  I have been suffering horrible W/D symptoms. I've suffered from a little bit of every symptom you can think of and this all started three weeks before my vacation, which my husband wanted to cancel because of how bad I felt. I made up my mind I would not cancel or postpone another trip due to anxiety, w/d, etc. I said", I'm getting on the plane and going on my trip no matter how bad I feel. And I did, and it was awesome I had a lot of fun and didn't want to come home. 

The best part is usually before I travel I have such horrible anxiety leading up to departure I would start taking Buspar weeks before to calm my nerves. Not this time I didn't take any anxiety meds other than my 5.5mg of Paxhell I even took Ativan with me just in case, but I never took it. I made up my  mind I'm tired of being scared all the damn time. I did have anxiety and my body ached and all the walking I didn't didn't help. But when anxiety came I said", this won't kill me i'll be fine and I was. 

I'm not out of the woods yet being that im still on Paxil but I'm definitely make progress in some area's.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>For the past three weeks  I have been suffering horrible W/D symptoms. I've suffered from a little bit of every symptom you can think of and this all started three weeks before my vacation, which my husband wanted to cancel because of how bad I felt. I made up my mind I would not cancel or postpone another trip due to anxiety, w/d, etc. I said&quot;, I'm getting on the plane and going on my trip no matter how bad I feel. And I did, and it was awesome I had a lot of fun and didn't want to come home. <br />
<br />
The best part is usually before I travel I have such horrible anxiety leading up to departure I would start taking Buspar weeks before to calm my nerves. Not this time I didn't take any anxiety meds other than my 5.5mg of Paxhell I even took Ativan with me just in case, but I never took it. I made up my  mind I'm tired of being scared all the damn time. I did have anxiety and my body ached and all the walking I didn't didn't help. But when anxiety came I said&quot;, this won't kill me i'll be fine and I was. <br />
<br />
I'm not out of the woods yet being that im still on Paxil but I'm definitely make progress in some area's.</div>

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			<dc:creator>mscece</dc:creator>
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			<title>Prayers</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 19 May 2013 00:59:19 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I'm just requesting prayers from any brothers and sisters in Christ out there....the damage done to my life is overwhelming, my ex-wife is remarrying in just a couple weeks and while its been almost 4 years that we have been divorced, its gut wrenching realizing what I lost.  A wife, my 2 children, together, under the same roof.  It breaks my heart....while I do see my  children regularly and often, am very much involved raising them, I feel like God has expelled me, cast me away.   I see their new home they are moving into and I imagine all the times as a family they will spend, and that's what I want....I cant even speak or think clearly anymore....theres more Id love to share....
This whole process of wanting to get off the meds has opened so many doors to pain and regrets that were sealed off when I was coasting along in paxil land.
Sorry if this is not making a lot of sense.....
prayers for you all.  for healing.  Please pray for me.  That Jesus will fill the space in my life that I give to worry, anxiety, regret, etc......thank you.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I'm just requesting prayers from any brothers and sisters in Christ out there....the damage done to my life is overwhelming, my ex-wife is remarrying in just a couple weeks and while its been almost 4 years that we have been divorced, its gut wrenching realizing what I lost.  A wife, my 2 children, together, under the same roof.  It breaks my heart....while I do see my  children regularly and often, am very much involved raising them, I feel like God has expelled me, cast me away.   I see their new home they are moving into and I imagine all the times as a family they will spend, and that's what I want....I cant even speak or think clearly anymore....theres more Id love to share....<br />
This whole process of wanting to get off the meds has opened so many doors to pain and regrets that were sealed off when I was coasting along in paxil land.<br />
Sorry if this is not making a lot of sense.....<br />
prayers for you all.  for healing.  Please pray for me.  That Jesus will fill the space in my life that I give to worry, anxiety, regret, etc......thank you.</div>

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			<dc:creator>NotFrank</dc:creator>
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			<title><![CDATA[I don't think I'm going to make it]]></title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 18 May 2013 20:03:10 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[It's been almost a year since my last dose of paxil.  I have been in misery every day...no windows, no improvement, I actually feel like I'm getting worse.  I've spent the last six months tying up loose ends to leave my finances in order but until our house sells nothing can be settled so I'm trying to endure until that happens to make things easier for my son and husband.  I don't really expect anything from you guys but feel like on this site there may be some people who can at least understand my desperation.  There is really nothing left for me and I can no longer imagine a future where I recover.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>It's been almost a year since my last dose of paxil.  I have been in misery every day...no windows, no improvement, I actually feel like I'm getting worse.  I've spent the last six months tying up loose ends to leave my finances in order but until our house sells nothing can be settled so I'm trying to endure until that happens to make things easier for my son and husband.  I don't really expect anything from you guys but feel like on this site there may be some people who can at least understand my desperation.  There is really nothing left for me and I can no longer imagine a future where I recover.</div>

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			<title>Anyone have experience taking Butalbital/Acetaminophen 50 mg/325 mg while in PW?</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 18 May 2013 19:33:17 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I am having a difficult time with Protracted Withdrawal and have been suffering from headaches.  

I was prescribed Butalbital/Acetaminophen 50 mg/325 mg (long before my withdrawal) and I wanted to ask if anyone has experience with taking this drug while in Protracted Withdrawal.  I'm just checking for any anecdotal evidence regarding a bad reaction / positive experiences.

My headache is pretty bad and I also wanted to ask if anyone has this weird feeling of eye and ear agitation (especially eyes) where you feel the need to press on your eyes/ears?  That's a very strange sensation and I doubt anyone has experienced it.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I am having a difficult time with Protracted Withdrawal and have been suffering from headaches.  <br />
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I was prescribed Butalbital/Acetaminophen 50 mg/325 mg (long before my withdrawal) and I wanted to ask if anyone has experience with taking this drug while in Protracted Withdrawal.  I'm just checking for any anecdotal evidence regarding a bad reaction / positive experiences.<br />
<br />
My headache is pretty bad and I also wanted to ask if anyone has this weird feeling of eye and ear agitation (especially eyes) where you feel the need to press on your eyes/ears?  That's a very strange sensation and I doubt anyone has experienced it.</div>

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			<title>Anyone feel like they are in a jaccuzi/hot tub pressing again the bubble jet?</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 18 May 2013 19:05:37 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi, for a few days I've had this sensation of rumbling and vibrating. It feels like my spine is vibrating, exactly like being in a jacuzzi. It's really unpleasant. I think this is officially the worst wave EVER for me. My back and ribs are killing me and I've got to the stage where I feel hopeless and helpless. 
Can anyone reassure me that it's perfectly normal to feel this sick 14 months away from the last pill? 
Most of this year I've been feeling rough - i've had a few weeks last month where i seemed ok (although i had real actual flu to take the place of withdrawal. I didn;t mind that as much for some reason as I despise this) These vibrating sensations feel disgusting - I loathe them and this awful back pain is really depressing me, it feels like someone is twisting a knife in my back.
Oh happy days!]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi, for a few days I've had this sensation of rumbling and vibrating. It feels like my spine is vibrating, exactly like being in a jacuzzi. It's really unpleasant. I think this is officially the worst wave EVER for me. My back and ribs are killing me and I've got to the stage where I feel hopeless and helpless. <br />
Can anyone reassure me that it's perfectly normal to feel this sick 14 months away from the last pill? <br />
Most of this year I've been feeling rough - i've had a few weeks last month where i seemed ok (although i had real actual flu to take the place of withdrawal. I didn;t mind that as much for some reason as I despise this) These vibrating sensations feel disgusting - I loathe them and this awful back pain is really depressing me, it feels like someone is twisting a knife in my back.<br />
Oh happy days!</div>

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			<title>Difficulty swallowing or choking while eating during Protracted Withdrawal?</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 18 May 2013 18:47:53 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Has anyone experienced difficulty swallowing or choking sensations while eating during Protracted Withdrawal?  I grapple with that every time I eat something, even a very small amount.  I have had many scary close calls while eating for the past couple of months (I am six months in).  It's like my throat is not working properly.  It has got to be related to Protracted Withdrawal, but I'm not sure how.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Has anyone experienced difficulty swallowing or choking sensations while eating during Protracted Withdrawal?  I grapple with that every time I eat something, even a very small amount.  I have had many scary close calls while eating for the past couple of months (I am six months in).  It's like my throat is not working properly.  It has got to be related to Protracted Withdrawal, but I'm not sure how.</div>

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			<title>What pain reliever / headache medication is safe during Protracted Withdrawal?</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 18 May 2013 16:14:07 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>I have been having headaches and have been afraid to take any pain reliever because I do not want to make my withdrawal symptoms any worse.  I have also been having very hot and tight, painful muscles (especially shoulders) and wondered if anyone has any medication recommendations for me.  

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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I have been having headaches and have been afraid to take any pain reliever because I do not want to make my withdrawal symptoms any worse.  I have also been having very hot and tight, painful muscles (especially shoulders) and wondered if anyone has any medication recommendations for me.  <br />
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Thank you in advance for your input.</div>

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			<title>Desperate ...Depression help1!!!</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 18 May 2013 15:00:08 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Someone please help me. Im so depressed that its scaring the hell out of me. i no longer know what to do to take it away.
 It follows me when i walk or occupy my self. It wakes me and follows me to bed. Im tired of pretending im coping when  i just dont want to be here anymore!! Nothing is taking it away.  Not exersize or work nor company . IM SO SCARED!!
Are there ANY supplement that wont excite my CNS????
My grandaughter just walked in with her boyfriend and caught me sobbing uncontrolably.  Im mortified....She was embarrased.  !!   Now thats one less to come and visit.  All she did was tell me off for not going out and mixing more. I cant make ANYONE understand. the loneliness is just totally overwhelming me. Please Help me. 
If Texgirl is reading this is the benzo adding to this? Shall i start cutting it?</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Someone please help me. Im so depressed that its scaring the hell out of me. i no longer know what to do to take it away.<br />
 It follows me when i walk or occupy my self. It wakes me and follows me to bed. Im tired of pretending im coping when  i just dont want to be here anymore!! Nothing is taking it away.  Not exersize or work nor company . IM SO SCARED!!<br />
Are there ANY supplement that wont excite my CNS????<br />
My grandaughter just walked in with her boyfriend and caught me sobbing uncontrolably.  Im mortified....She was embarrased.  !!   Now thats one less to come and visit.  All she did was tell me off for not going out and mixing more. I cant make ANYONE understand. the loneliness is just totally overwhelming me. Please Help me. <br />
If Texgirl is reading this is the benzo adding to this? Shall i start cutting it?</div>

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			<title>~Well Here It Goes~</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 18 May 2013 10:01:55 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Yeah hi everyone I am new here. Well a little about my story, I have been threw hell and back this year, In 2012 I had it all going for me had a house job a fiancé of 4years and a normal life and normal brain. In January of 2013 I began having problem's with severe panic attacks, I am not to sure what caused it to start happening. All I knew was these attacks I had were horrific! Kept going to the hospital vitals kept coming back fine, other then the CO2 levels from hyperventilating they said I was fine.  So I went home and was going threw this everyday for about a month I finally was able to get to a doctor. He prescribed me 4mgs of lorazepam a day, but I only took 2mg a day. Well I was never told by my doctor or even knew what lorazepam was. I took it for about a month and figured out I  couldn't go a day without it bad idea. So I looked it up online and there it was wow! So after all that happens my fiancé leaves on a trip to see her family up north, Well she texted me saying that she wants to stay up there for awhile. Never heard back from her again. So I wasn't doing to good couldn't make all the payments on my min-wage job. So I had to move back across state to live with my family again, At this time I am broke and have to find a doctor fast, and I was just about to run out of meds and I got a appointment with a N/P in April I had one pill left and that was the day of my appointment. So I explained my story to her and she automatically said we don't like benzo's here. But she new my situation and your not suppose to C/T. So she wrote the script of the lorazepam and also wrote a script of paxil. Well I was nervous about taking the paxil. Because I have already been dealing with the lorazepam. So I went to this month's appointment 5/16/2013 to see her and she said have you been taking the paxil and I said no I just want to wait on that for now. So she said well if you don't start taking it I will cut you off your lorazepam. So I told her okay I am willing to give it a shot so I will be on 10mg every day for a week and then 20mg everyday next week.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Yeah hi everyone I am new here. Well a little about my story, I have been threw hell and back this year, In 2012 I had it all going for me had a house job a fiancé of 4years and a normal life and normal brain. In January of 2013 I began having problem's with severe panic attacks, I am not to sure what caused it to start happening. All I knew was these attacks I had were horrific! Kept going to the hospital vitals kept coming back fine, other then the CO2 levels from hyperventilating they said I was fine.  So I went home and was going threw this everyday for about a month I finally was able to get to a doctor. He prescribed me 4mgs of lorazepam a day, but I only took 2mg a day. Well I was never told by my doctor or even knew what lorazepam was. I took it for about a month and figured out I  couldn't go a day without it bad idea. So I looked it up online and there it was wow! So after all that happens my fiancé leaves on a trip to see her family up north, Well she texted me saying that she wants to stay up there for awhile. Never heard back from her again. So I wasn't doing to good couldn't make all the payments on my min-wage job. So I had to move back across state to live with my family again, At this time I am broke and have to find a doctor fast, and I was just about to run out of meds and I got a appointment with a N/P in April I had one pill left and that was the day of my appointment. So I explained my story to her and she automatically said we don't like benzo's here. But she new my situation and your not suppose to C/T. So she wrote the script of the lorazepam and also wrote a script of paxil. Well I was nervous about taking the paxil. Because I have already been dealing with the lorazepam. So I went to this month's appointment 5/16/2013 to see her and she said have you been taking the paxil and I said no I just want to wait on that for now. So she said well if you don't start taking it I will cut you off your lorazepam. So I told her okay I am willing to give it a shot so I will be on 10mg every day for a week and then 20mg everyday next week.</div>

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			<pubDate>Fri, 17 May 2013 21:45:47 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi everyone,
I was just wondering how many of you have experienced derealization, disorientation and clumsiness During withdrawal. I've had these symptoms since before I stopped and they're completely annoying and disturbing. The first time I quit paxil c/t in 99 I stopped cold turkey from 20 mg. I felt pretty rough for about 2 months And then I felt better. Looking back I would say I was very lucky. This go around has been completely different. As I mentioned before the only reason I went back on Paxil two years ago was that it somewhat helped  my Tourette's. Also I often feel like I'm ready to fall sleep immediately but my mind is too racy to do so. Anyways let me know if anybody has had this experience. Some days are better than others but I really wish this would go away soon. :)]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi everyone,<br />
I was just wondering how many of you have experienced derealization, disorientation and clumsiness During withdrawal. I've had these symptoms since before I stopped and they're completely annoying and disturbing. The first time I quit paxil c/t in 99 I stopped cold turkey from 20 mg. I felt pretty rough for about 2 months And then I felt better. Looking back I would say I was very lucky. This go around has been completely different. As I mentioned before the only reason I went back on Paxil two years ago was that it somewhat helped  my Tourette's. Also I often feel like I'm ready to fall sleep immediately but my mind is too racy to do so. Anyways let me know if anybody has had this experience. Some days are better than others but I really wish this would go away soon. :)</div>

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			<pubDate>Fri, 17 May 2013 13:26:22 GMT</pubDate>
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			<title>Inflammation the cause of many mental illnesses</title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 17 May 2013 07:58:00 GMT</pubDate>
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Findings provide new explanation of how many mental disorders develop

    by: Joel Magarey
    From: The Australian
    May 14, 2013 12:00AM

  A GROWING group of "re-purposed" anti-inflammatory medications are combating depression, bipolar disorder and schizophrenia, with scientists dubbing research findings a "paradigm shift" in the treatment of mental illness.

Among findings described at a conference in Melbourne was that a household painkiller, aspirin, has been shown to produce "significant reductions" in the symptoms of schizophrenia.

Researchers say the findings provide a new explanation of how many mental disorders develop - via damage to brain tissues associated with abnormal levels of inflammation-related proteins and cells found in the blood and brains of people with mental illnesses.

"We've made a discovery - it's quite profound, it has long-term implications for diagnoses, treatment markers and potentially treatment, so it's actually very exciting," University of Melbourne honorary professorial fellow in psychiatry Brian Dean said.

Clinical trials are showing that anti-inflammatory medicines or substances, including aspirin, celecoxib, infliximab and the omega 3 fatty acids found in fish oil, significantly alleviate the symptoms of depression, bipolar disorder and schizophrenia when added to existing treatments.

Deakin University professor of psychiatry Michael Berk said the *"compelling and consistent and unambiguous" findings showed there was an "acute inflammatory state" in mental disorders* and had opened up "one of the most promising new (treatment) alternatives in decades".

"Very few (researchers) now do not believe this is a core and important disease pathway. The good news is we don't actually have to develop new medicines; we can repurpose existing medications," he said. "Who would have thought that one of the most promising new drugs in psychiatry could be aspirin?"

Psychiatrist and researcher Pat McGorry said analysing changes in inflammation-related proteins could help define the "stages" of progression of mental disorders.

It could also enable the discovery of "subtypes" or "inflammatory forms" of illnesses and, combined with the staging model, could lead to psychiatric treatment using blood tests within five to 10 years.

Some experts believe inflammatory processes first occur early in - or even before - the development of a mental illness and the damage they create partially causes the full-blown disorder.

Many other risk factors, such as trauma and stress, genetic variation, the effect of a maternal infection on the foetus and an unhealthy lifestyle are also thought to create susceptibility by heightening inflammation.

Professor Dean said the "inflammation pathways" associated with the altered proteins were involved in causing psychiatric disorders, but it was unclear whether the proteins were creating damage or acting protectively against another damage process.

Neuroscience Research Australia chair of schizophrenia research Cyndi Shannon Weickert said the findings represented a "paradigm shift in the field".
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    by: Joel Magarey<br />
    From: The Australian<br />
    May 14, 2013 12:00AM<br />
<br />
  A GROWING group of "re-purposed" anti-inflammatory medications are combating depression, bipolar disorder and schizophrenia, with scientists dubbing research findings a "paradigm shift" in the treatment of mental illness.<br />
<br />
Among findings described at a conference in Melbourne was that a household painkiller, aspirin, has been shown to produce "significant reductions" in the symptoms of schizophrenia.<br />
<br />
Researchers say the findings provide a new explanation of how many mental disorders develop - via damage to brain tissues associated with abnormal levels of inflammation-related proteins and cells found in the blood and brains of people with mental illnesses.<br />
<br />
"We've made a discovery - it's quite profound, it has long-term implications for diagnoses, treatment markers and potentially treatment, so it's actually very exciting," University of Melbourne honorary professorial fellow in psychiatry Brian Dean said.<br />
<br />
Clinical trials are showing that anti-inflammatory medicines or substances, including aspirin, celecoxib, infliximab and the omega 3 fatty acids found in fish oil, significantly alleviate the symptoms of depression, bipolar disorder and schizophrenia when added to existing treatments.<br />
<br />
Deakin University professor of psychiatry Michael Berk said the <b>"compelling and consistent and unambiguous" findings showed there was an "acute inflammatory state" in mental disorders</b> and had opened up "one of the most promising new (treatment) alternatives in decades".<br />
<br />
"Very few (researchers) now do not believe this is a core and important disease pathway. The good news is we don't actually have to develop new medicines; we can repurpose existing medications," he said. "Who would have thought that one of the most promising new drugs in psychiatry could be aspirin?"<br />
<br />
Psychiatrist and researcher Pat McGorry said analysing changes in inflammation-related proteins could help define the "stages" of progression of mental disorders.<br />
<br />
It could also enable the discovery of "subtypes" or "inflammatory forms" of illnesses and, combined with the staging model, could lead to psychiatric treatment using blood tests within five to 10 years.<br />
<br />
Some experts believe inflammatory processes first occur early in - or even before - the development of a mental illness and the damage they create partially causes the full-blown disorder.<br />
<br />
Many other risk factors, such as trauma and stress, genetic variation, the effect of a maternal infection on the foetus and an unhealthy lifestyle are also thought to create susceptibility by heightening inflammation.<br />
<br />
Professor Dean said the "inflammation pathways" associated with the altered proteins were involved in causing psychiatric disorders, but it was unclear whether the proteins were creating damage or acting protectively against another damage process.<br />
<br />
Neuroscience Research Australia chair of schizophrenia research Cyndi Shannon Weickert said the findings represented a "paradigm shift in the field".
			
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			<title>Came off Paxil cold turkey</title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 17 May 2013 06:12:21 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I came off 20mg about a week ago, maybe 2 weeks lost track of time.I now realise it was a stupid thing to do the side effects are becoming unbearable, not mentally but physically : extreme temperature freezing & burning hot at same time , nausea , whole body shaking sometimes which is the scariest thing, insomnia - and now not slept for 2 days and nights straight. I don't know what to do as I can't face going to a doctor or having anyone come and see me like this. Really worried it could get worse. Any advice would be appreciated if anyone been through it (I've come off another ssri cold turkey before but I don't remember having these side effects ).]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I came off 20mg about a week ago, maybe 2 weeks lost track of time.I now realise it was a stupid thing to do the side effects are becoming unbearable, not mentally but physically : extreme temperature freezing &amp; burning hot at same time , nausea , whole body shaking sometimes which is the scariest thing, insomnia - and now not slept for 2 days and nights straight. I don't know what to do as I can't face going to a doctor or having anyone come and see me like this. Really worried it could get worse. Any advice would be appreciated if anyone been through it (I've come off another ssri cold turkey before but I don't remember having these side effects ).</div>

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			<title>Liquid Clonazepam</title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 17 May 2013 02:43:26 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Monday i had my doctor's appointment. My psychiatrist change me, about a month ago from alprazolam to clonazepam. I was taking alprazolam for almost 8 years and he suddenly change me to 1mg of clonazepam. It was very difficult to cut the pill so this monday he gave me liquid clonazepam (rivotril), 8 drops. So my question is, how much time do i have to wait to start the taper. My doctor said that I should accept that this pills are for life. That I might be able to stop taking them but, maybe i will have something that makes me go back on benzos and antidepressants. So I really dont know what to do. Definitely, the synthomps of panic are not the same that 10 years ago, but i still have anxiety attacks so...what to do.
If I stop taking them, how much time do I have to wait to start the tappering.?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Monday i had my doctor's appointment. My psychiatrist change me, about a month ago from alprazolam to clonazepam. I was taking alprazolam for almost 8 years and he suddenly change me to 1mg of clonazepam. It was very difficult to cut the pill so this monday he gave me liquid clonazepam (rivotril), 8 drops. So my question is, how much time do i have to wait to start the taper. My doctor said that I should accept that this pills are for life. That I might be able to stop taking them but, maybe i will have something that makes me go back on benzos and antidepressants. So I really dont know what to do. Definitely, the synthomps of panic are not the same that 10 years ago, but i still have anxiety attacks so...what to do.<br />
If I stop taking them, how much time do I have to wait to start the tappering.?</div>

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			<title>Financial troubles</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 16 May 2013 19:17:55 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>I got a scholarship to go to Europe for three months and that is a great opportunity for me, I have never traveled abroad, I have never got out of the country, I hadn’t had a vacation in 10 years, not even a weekend getaway. The problem is that my grandma died on February and I have been paying my food and supplements with her insurance (they give you 3 months of the person’s pension to bury them and to cover expenses that you may have had while they were alive and ill), well, the thing is that I cashed the last check last month and now I am terrified of what I am going to do for food when I get back. It was much but when cash is short and you rely on that money for food it becomes a really scary thing to go by without it. The thing is that I thought that I would be able to get a job by then and I can’t, and I don’t even know if I will be able to keep a job if I get one. I am not ok yet and easy tasks require a lot of focus and attention from me. I don’t know what to do! I am so scared of what will await for me once I will be back from Europe!</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I got a scholarship to go to Europe for three months and that is a great opportunity for me, I have never traveled abroad, I have never got out of the country, I hadn’t had a vacation in 10 years, not even a weekend getaway. The problem is that my grandma died on February and I have been paying my food and supplements with her insurance (they give you 3 months of the person’s pension to bury them and to cover expenses that you may have had while they were alive and ill), well, the thing is that I cashed the last check last month and now I am terrified of what I am going to do for food when I get back. It was much but when cash is short and you rely on that money for food it becomes a really scary thing to go by without it. The thing is that I thought that I would be able to get a job by then and I can’t, and I don’t even know if I will be able to keep a job if I get one. I am not ok yet and easy tasks require a lot of focus and attention from me. I don’t know what to do! I am so scared of what will await for me once I will be back from Europe!</div>

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			<title>Weird leg, foot and back issues this week...</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 16 May 2013 18:24:03 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[After reading all over this forum I think I'm in good company when I say that I've been having weird leg, foot and back issues this week.  Is this true?  Seems like everyone has had them at one time or another in their w/d experience.

Mine started on 5/6 after spending a lot of time sitting in uncomfortable chairs and also doing something that may have been really stupid, which was sitting in an uncomfortable hotel chair with my legs propped up on the bed.  The bed was several inches higher than the seat of the chair so my legs were propped up.

So on 5/6 I had some partial numbness in the lateral portion of my left foot.  Since that period, I've also noticed that my hamstrings (I think that's right) behind my knees are extremely tight and I have some nagging discomfort in my lower back (around L4-S1).  

It's been 10 days now and this morning I noticed that my partial numbness was essentially gone, but my legs are still achy and throughout the day the numbness is kind of ebbing and flowing.

Does this sound familiar to anyone?  Does this sound familiar to everyone?  :smile: 

Thanks for your replies and insight.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>After reading all over this forum I think I'm in good company when I say that I've been having weird leg, foot and back issues this week.  Is this true?  Seems like everyone has had them at one time or another in their w/d experience.<br />
<br />
Mine started on 5/6 after spending a lot of time sitting in uncomfortable chairs and also doing something that may have been really stupid, which was sitting in an uncomfortable hotel chair with my legs propped up on the bed.  The bed was several inches higher than the seat of the chair so my legs were propped up.<br />
<br />
So on 5/6 I had some partial numbness in the lateral portion of my left foot.  Since that period, I've also noticed that my hamstrings (I think that's right) behind my knees are extremely tight and I have some nagging discomfort in my lower back (around L4-S1).  <br />
<br />
It's been 10 days now and this morning I noticed that my partial numbness was essentially gone, but my legs are still achy and throughout the day the numbness is kind of ebbing and flowing.<br />
<br />
Does this sound familiar to anyone?  Does this sound familiar to everyone?  :smile: <br />
<br />
Thanks for your replies and insight.</div>

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			<title>PSSD Research Foundation</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 16 May 2013 18:20:11 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I really suppport the idea to establish a foundation over PSSD. Even people with Progeria (which is a very rare disease, approx. 1 per 8 milion births) have its own foundation. So why don't we have our own one?

The idea was previously discussed in this post: http://www.paxilprogress.org/forums/showthread.php?t=58289&highlight=foundation 

In order to move things forvard.
*At first, I propose to write a plan, what we need to do to establish a foundation, step by step.* 
How we want to organise it. 
What will be our status. 
How we want to rise money. 
How we want to spend it. 
How we will choose researchers/reserach centers.
How we want to manage it. 
How to choose right people.
How we want to take decisions, by community or by directors. 
What our aim is.
How we want to educate about PSSD, and prevent it.
Specially the money spending, is an important part. 
*
It will help us to understand the whole process. Start things from little. 
To make a real change we need to establish a foundation. I am strongly convinced that we will find a cure for this, is just a matter of time and founding*
What do you thing?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I really suppport the idea to establish a foundation over PSSD. Even people with Progeria (which is a very rare disease, approx. 1 per 8 milion births) have its own foundation. So why don't we have our own one?<br />
<br />
The idea was previously discussed in this post: <a href="http://www.paxilprogress.org/forums/showthread.php?t=58289&amp;highlight=foundation" target="_blank">http://www.paxilprogress.org/forums/...ght=foundation</a> <br />
<br />
In order to move things forvard.<br />
<b>At first, I propose to write a plan, what we need to do to establish a foundation, step by step.</b> <br />
How we want to organise it. <br />
What will be our status. <br />
How we want to rise money. <br />
How we want to spend it. <br />
How we will choose researchers/reserach centers.<br />
How we want to manage it. <br />
How to choose right people.<br />
How we want to take decisions, by community or by directors. <br />
What our aim is.<br />
How we want to educate about PSSD, and prevent it.<br />
Specially the money spending, is an important part. <br />
<b><br />
It will help us to understand the whole process. Start things from little. <br />
To make a real change we need to establish a foundation. I am strongly convinced that we will find a cure for this, is just a matter of time and founding</b><br />
What do you thing?</div>

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			<title>the truth about antidepressants</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 16 May 2013 12:35:28 GMT</pubDate>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 16 May 2013 03:55:55 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>This was the scene on the back patio when I arrived home from work.  There are seven of them, Mama and 6 little ones.  I was about five feet away when I took the picture.</description>
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			<title>Gemini inconsistencies?</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 16 May 2013 02:57:02 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I have one of those 30$ Gemini scales that most of the people on this forum use from what I understand. 
   Does anyone else find that it's super inconsistent? I re calibrate it all the time. Does it matter if it's dead on? Does anyone have any tips or insight that may help?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I have one of those 30$ Gemini scales that most of the people on this forum use from what I understand. <br />
   Does anyone else find that it's super inconsistent? I re calibrate it all the time. Does it matter if it's dead on? Does anyone have any tips or insight that may help?</div>

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			<title>another deperate attempt to normalise ones self</title>
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			<pubDate>Thu, 16 May 2013 01:30:29 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi – Am a nOOb but here it goes.

I mainly use these forums to reflect on where I’m at and how I feel to see if “I am alone”

Well, after reading most articles I have confidence that the mental state and thoughts I am experiencing are not unique to myself, and as bad as this sounds, its kind of comforting. I’ve not got anyone to talk, its embarrassing, so I’ve chosen the “somewhat anonymous way” to find like minded people and share experiences.

After spending 12 years on Paxil (Im 32) for a cronic panic disorder im desperate to come off. I moved cities and saw a doctor who convinced me that the meds weren’t the way. When prescribed originally, the doctor told me there were almost no side effects of the drug and that it was no addictive. I recall him writing in his notes “counselled patient, discussed alternative treatments, patient has stated he wants the paxil, Explained side effects” .. Well this was a total lie. Nothing was discussed with me and I had absolutely no idea that what he was prescribing was an anti depressant. It was only when a pharmacist, some months later, told me what they actually were. I had no reason to question the doctor at the time and in fairness, I should have researched it. Having had no real contact with doctors previously I *assumed* that their word was gospel and they had my best interests at heart. Now, I’m not blaming the doctor for my condition, or the fact that I took the drugs, what I am upset about is placing trust in someone who, to be fair, is in a profession most people hold in the highest regard. 

Well the taper begun about 2 months ago. Went from two tablets, to one immediately, three weeks later I moved to half a tablet, then half a tablet every other day. My last ingestion of this poison was about a week ago.

Moving from two tablets to one was not a problem and I felt confident that coming off this stuff wouldn’t be a problem.
When moving to half I felt comfort knowing I was moving towards my goal of being a normal human, with normal feelings, emotions and preying that one day I would be able to have a decent relationship with someone. Every relationship ive had has been built in a lie. Ashamed at the fact I was taking this meds, and afraid of being “caught”, the relationships could not develop any further than weekend partnerships. For self preservation, I would begin treating them badly so they would leave. I didn’t want my secret out. I didn’t want people to think I was a nutcase, an outcast and a disturbed person.

The real problems set in when I went to half a tablet every other day.
When walking to work I would sometimes stop, paralysed with depression. Ive never felt deep depression before. It’s scary. I would sit in the park with almost no ability to move. Then when at work I became aggressive to the point I would have to leave. It was at this stage that violent thoughts would come into my head. I would day dream about stabbing someone to death. The feeling of empowerment, the control and excitement would bring a grin to my face. Shortly after the thoughts which would rapidly come and go, I would think to myself, what the **** was I thinking. This is not me. It’s the meds. Im becoming crazy. Im a decent sized bloke as well and am a trained fighter so these premonitions are dead scary, what if I snap walking down the street and mutilate, kill or otherwise harm somebody for no good reason. This is not me. I don’t have the heart to smack a dog, never mind physically harm someone. It’s petrifying knowing that my mental state, at the age of 32, has deteriorated to this level.

After moving off the poison once and for all, roughly a week ago, I started feeling light headed, vertigo and the panic attacks begun. It became too much and after day three I researched “a painless way to commit suicide” and found a mixture of drugs to finally end the whole sad and sorry episode. I managed to steal a box of Oxys but not the other chemicals required. In desperation I swallowed the whole box hoping that it would put me at rest. Living alone, and having totally withdrawn from everyone around me, I decided to take a week off work and try. I swallowed the whole box, and an entire box of another drug and preyed it would work. Well, it didn’t. I woke up three days later! I then tried to get my hands on GHB. I know a lethal dose of that is easy to achieve, but again I failed to find a dealer (I don’t take recreational drugs so I’m not in those circles) 

Well here I am today and I’m still struggling.  I’ve found three things that help alleviate the pain that is my life. Exercise (im a bit of an exercise nut so this transition to full time training wasn’t difficult), reading and BASE jumping. All three give me a level of gratification, calm my nerves, make me smile and feel alive. I know it’s a long road ahead but I would prefer absolutely no life than a life with these meds. On the outside I have the perfect life. Ive not anyone who has travelled as much as I have, I know of no one my age who makes the sort of money I do, I know of no one who has been involved in as many sports as I have but the thing I long for more than anything else, is a relationship and normal emotions. Real ones. Not one built on the Medicated personality. Not one built on lies.

Anyway, 

Have fun and hopefully see you on the other side &#61514;]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi – Am a nOOb but here it goes.<br />
<br />
I mainly use these forums to reflect on where I’m at and how I feel to see if “I am alone”<br />
<br />
Well, after reading most articles I have confidence that the mental state and thoughts I am experiencing are not unique to myself, and as bad as this sounds, its kind of comforting. I’ve not got anyone to talk, its embarrassing, so I’ve chosen the “somewhat anonymous way” to find like minded people and share experiences.<br />
<br />
After spending 12 years on Paxil (Im 32) for a cronic panic disorder im desperate to come off. I moved cities and saw a doctor who convinced me that the meds weren’t the way. When prescribed originally, the doctor told me there were almost no side effects of the drug and that it was no addictive. I recall him writing in his notes “counselled patient, discussed alternative treatments, patient has stated he wants the paxil, Explained side effects” .. Well this was a total lie. Nothing was discussed with me and I had absolutely no idea that what he was prescribing was an anti depressant. It was only when a pharmacist, some months later, told me what they actually were. I had no reason to question the doctor at the time and in fairness, I should have researched it. Having had no real contact with doctors previously I *assumed* that their word was gospel and they had my best interests at heart. Now, I’m not blaming the doctor for my condition, or the fact that I took the drugs, what I am upset about is placing trust in someone who, to be fair, is in a profession most people hold in the highest regard. <br />
<br />
Well the taper begun about 2 months ago. Went from two tablets, to one immediately, three weeks later I moved to half a tablet, then half a tablet every other day. My last ingestion of this poison was about a week ago.<br />
<br />
Moving from two tablets to one was not a problem and I felt confident that coming off this stuff wouldn’t be a problem.<br />
When moving to half I felt comfort knowing I was moving towards my goal of being a normal human, with normal feelings, emotions and preying that one day I would be able to have a decent relationship with someone. Every relationship ive had has been built in a lie. Ashamed at the fact I was taking this meds, and afraid of being “caught”, the relationships could not develop any further than weekend partnerships. For self preservation, I would begin treating them badly so they would leave. I didn’t want my secret out. I didn’t want people to think I was a nutcase, an outcast and a disturbed person.<br />
<br />
The real problems set in when I went to half a tablet every other day.<br />
When walking to work I would sometimes stop, paralysed with depression. Ive never felt deep depression before. It’s scary. I would sit in the park with almost no ability to move. Then when at work I became aggressive to the point I would have to leave. It was at this stage that violent thoughts would come into my head. I would day dream about stabbing someone to death. The feeling of empowerment, the control and excitement would bring a grin to my face. Shortly after the thoughts which would rapidly come and go, I would think to myself, what the **** was I thinking. This is not me. It’s the meds. Im becoming crazy. Im a decent sized bloke as well and am a trained fighter so these premonitions are dead scary, what if I snap walking down the street and mutilate, kill or otherwise harm somebody for no good reason. This is not me. I don’t have the heart to smack a dog, never mind physically harm someone. It’s petrifying knowing that my mental state, at the age of 32, has deteriorated to this level.<br />
<br />
After moving off the poison once and for all, roughly a week ago, I started feeling light headed, vertigo and the panic attacks begun. It became too much and after day three I researched “a painless way to commit suicide” and found a mixture of drugs to finally end the whole sad and sorry episode. I managed to steal a box of Oxys but not the other chemicals required. In desperation I swallowed the whole box hoping that it would put me at rest. Living alone, and having totally withdrawn from everyone around me, I decided to take a week off work and try. I swallowed the whole box, and an entire box of another drug and preyed it would work. Well, it didn’t. I woke up three days later! I then tried to get my hands on GHB. I know a lethal dose of that is easy to achieve, but again I failed to find a dealer (I don’t take recreational drugs so I’m not in those circles) <br />
<br />
Well here I am today and I’m still struggling.  I’ve found three things that help alleviate the pain that is my life. Exercise (im a bit of an exercise nut so this transition to full time training wasn’t difficult), reading and BASE jumping. All three give me a level of gratification, calm my nerves, make me smile and feel alive. I know it’s a long road ahead but I would prefer absolutely no life than a life with these meds. On the outside I have the perfect life. Ive not anyone who has travelled as much as I have, I know of no one my age who makes the sort of money I do, I know of no one who has been involved in as many sports as I have but the thing I long for more than anything else, is a relationship and normal emotions. Real ones. Not one built on the Medicated personality. Not one built on lies.<br />
<br />
Anyway, <br />
<br />
Have fun and hopefully see you on the other side &#61514;</div>

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			<title>Paxil WD and fish oil question..</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 15 May 2013 19:14:27 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Does anyone have issues with Fish oil during withdarawl.. My GI issues have been getting worse in the last two months.. I realized I started taking Fish oil around 2 months ago..( 900 omega-3 ).. Im starting to wonder if fish oil can be the stomach culprit maybe my stomach is more sensitive to fish oil during withdrawal or maybe my body doesn't handle it well.... Anyone with any experiences with fish oil... How long does fish oil take to get out of your system.. Just frustrated.. Any thoughts?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Does anyone have issues with Fish oil during withdarawl.. My GI issues have been getting worse in the last two months.. I realized I started taking Fish oil around 2 months ago..( 900 omega-3 ).. Im starting to wonder if fish oil can be the stomach culprit maybe my stomach is more sensitive to fish oil during withdrawal or maybe my body doesn't handle it well.... Anyone with any experiences with fish oil... How long does fish oil take to get out of your system.. Just frustrated.. Any thoughts?</div>

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			<title>My escitalopram withdrawal 3/2013 onwards</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 15 May 2013 18:33:01 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi to everyone!

I have been reading this forum with great interest for some time now and decided to join in to share my experience on psychiatric drugs.

My story briefly is as follows. After half a year of persuasion by my psychiatrist to go on anti-depressants I finally gave in and was prescribed 5mg of escitalopram (brand name Escitalopram Actavis) to start with for "major depression". This happened in middle of January 2013. Naturally I wasn't told about the serious and incredibly common adverse effects SSRIs have on users. The dosage was meant to be upped to 10mg after 3 months.

In the beginning of the "treatment" I had the usual (?) emotional turmoil and aggressive behavior which is completely abnormal to me. After about two weeks on I felt the drug taking an effect on me as the anxiety started to loosen. My first thought was "Nice, I sure don't feel as anxious anymore". During the coming weeks I slowly became more passive and introverted as a person but at that point I did not mind it nor probably did I even realize it yet. First signs of serious adverse effects showed up at 4 weeks. At first I thought I was just imagining it or that it was just the depression causing it. However about two weeks later I just abruptly realized that the drug had made me a complete asexual with no libido nor function whatsoever. This freaked me out and I immediately started the tapering process to minimize the damage. At that point all the internet warnings about persistent PSSD I had read before came to my mind. I had questioned my psychiatrist about this concern before starting the drug but was told that it was very rare to happen and even if sexual side effects did occur they would go away after discontinuation. I could not take the risk of continuing any further with an SSRI and started an immediate tapering according to my psychiatrist's plan. She found a two week tapering sufficient hence bringing my two month trial of anti-depressants to an end.

It's now seven weeks since my last pill. I am currently experiencing many of the withdrawal symptoms the worst ones being emotional blunting and partial sexual dysfunction. My other symptoms include nausea, headache, lightheadedness, fatigue, sensitivity to sudden mood changes for example. They all come in waves like described by many. I have had some improvement  since stopping the drug, also when it comes to PSSD. Nevertheless I still do get those waves of dizziness and emotionless periods. Sex drive and function fluctuate with the rest of the symptoms but so far have not reached pre-drug state.

I am unfortunately also familiar with the psychiatrists' unawareness and negligence on psychiatric drug withdrawal. Mine used the classic psychiatric excuse of "It's in your head, the drug is already out of your system". By then I already knew what she said was simply just not the truth. The most accurate information and best encouragement I have come across is from other sufferers I have read about over the internet like here at paxilprogress.

I shall update my story here as it unfolds. Hopefully someone finds it informative and helpful for their struggle with psychiatric drugs.

All the best!

-T]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi to everyone!<br />
<br />
I have been reading this forum with great interest for some time now and decided to join in to share my experience on psychiatric drugs.<br />
<br />
My story briefly is as follows. After half a year of persuasion by my psychiatrist to go on anti-depressants I finally gave in and was prescribed 5mg of escitalopram (brand name Escitalopram Actavis) to start with for &quot;major depression&quot;. This happened in middle of January 2013. Naturally I wasn't told about the serious and incredibly common adverse effects SSRIs have on users. The dosage was meant to be upped to 10mg after 3 months.<br />
<br />
In the beginning of the &quot;treatment&quot; I had the usual (?) emotional turmoil and aggressive behavior which is completely abnormal to me. After about two weeks on I felt the drug taking an effect on me as the anxiety started to loosen. My first thought was &quot;Nice, I sure don't feel as anxious anymore&quot;. During the coming weeks I slowly became more passive and introverted as a person but at that point I did not mind it nor probably did I even realize it yet. First signs of serious adverse effects showed up at 4 weeks. At first I thought I was just imagining it or that it was just the depression causing it. However about two weeks later I just abruptly realized that the drug had made me a complete asexual with no libido nor function whatsoever. This freaked me out and I immediately started the tapering process to minimize the damage. At that point all the internet warnings about persistent PSSD I had read before came to my mind. I had questioned my psychiatrist about this concern before starting the drug but was told that it was very rare to happen and even if sexual side effects did occur they would go away after discontinuation. I could not take the risk of continuing any further with an SSRI and started an immediate tapering according to my psychiatrist's plan. She found a two week tapering sufficient hence bringing my two month trial of anti-depressants to an end.<br />
<br />
It's now seven weeks since my last pill. I am currently experiencing many of the withdrawal symptoms the worst ones being emotional blunting and partial sexual dysfunction. My other symptoms include nausea, headache, lightheadedness, fatigue, sensitivity to sudden mood changes for example. They all come in waves like described by many. I have had some improvement  since stopping the drug, also when it comes to PSSD. Nevertheless I still do get those waves of dizziness and emotionless periods. Sex drive and function fluctuate with the rest of the symptoms but so far have not reached pre-drug state.<br />
<br />
I am unfortunately also familiar with the psychiatrists' unawareness and negligence on psychiatric drug withdrawal. Mine used the classic psychiatric excuse of &quot;It's in your head, the drug is already out of your system&quot;. By then I already knew what she said was simply just not the truth. The most accurate information and best encouragement I have come across is from other sufferers I have read about over the internet like here at paxilprogress.<br />
<br />
I shall update my story here as it unfolds. Hopefully someone finds it informative and helpful for their struggle with psychiatric drugs.<br />
<br />
All the best!<br />
<br />
-T</div>

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			<title>Tomorrow - it will come and it will be better</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 15 May 2013 16:29:50 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[As an outsider watching the wd process I know how hard it is for the person
trying to take control again without meds and its hard for us outsiders to watch. But I can honestly say that there is one thing that we have in common and thats tomorrow, everyday is a step closer for all of us in our home My wife and I are old rockers at heart (54/55) and this has become our
theme song in our house. I can honestly say that this gets played alot and our neighbours must think we are nuts as you will hear my wife and I doing
joint singing and belive me it isn't pretty LOL !! But watch this video and  read the lyrics, I have to tell you for us this song tells it all !!TOMORROW, after 15 years medicated TOMORROW is one step closer.Even though this can be a roller coaster we both agree we will take
TOMORROW over YESTERDAY !!

Enjoy !!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wl8yDRJSiHs

For you younger folk out there, Fleetwwod Mac still are going strong today !!

Rick]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>As an outsider watching the wd process I know how hard it is for the person<br />
trying to take control again without meds and its hard for us outsiders to watch. But I can honestly say that there is one thing that we have in common and thats tomorrow, everyday is a step closer for all of us in our home My wife and I are old rockers at heart (54/55) and this has become our<br />
theme song in our house. I can honestly say that this gets played alot and our neighbours must think we are nuts as you will hear my wife and I doing<br />
joint singing and belive me it isn't pretty LOL !! But watch this video and  read the lyrics, I have to tell you for us this song tells it all !!TOMORROW, after 15 years medicated TOMORROW is one step closer.Even though this can be a roller coaster we both agree we will take<br />
TOMORROW over YESTERDAY !!<br />
<br />
Enjoy !!<br />
<br />
<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wl8yDRJSiHs" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wl8yDRJSiHs</a><br />
<br />
For you younger folk out there, Fleetwwod Mac still are going strong today !!<br />
<br />
Rick</div>

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			<title>Bad Wave Coping Strategies</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 15 May 2013 14:21:31 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I've been in a bad wave, on and off, for about two weeks now. The depression is strong and even though I know this will pass, it still brings me to my knees. I was wondering, what are some of your coping strategies when you enter bad waves?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I've been in a bad wave, on and off, for about two weeks now. The depression is strong and even though I know this will pass, it still brings me to my knees. I was wondering, what are some of your coping strategies when you enter bad waves?</div>

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			<title>A yr off...my dream!!</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 15 May 2013 12:44:09 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Last night i dreamt i was decorating a staircase.  It was a long steep windy staircase . and the dream started where i was at the top of it. The stair part was already  completed !!
 I came to a door right at the top and i decided it was a pointless door so i took it off altogether!  After the door was a long corridor only partially lit. but it was on the flat it just needed sprucing up quite badly.
  So i was setting about the task. i walked down to the end of that corridor where there was a bend and another better lit corridor. that looked like all it needed was a coat of paint.

I KNOW exactly what the dream was telling me.!

Im 1 week from my 1st anniversary after CTing 60mg prozac.  It was the story of my withdrawal
The  long windy steep staircase was the yr ive completed. It was bloody hard work but its done. now painted in white ..and behind me I was already at the top .
The long dimly lit corridor was the next segment. it was on the flat but it was long and needed work. 
The 3rd section looked tidy enough and was lit better

After the day i had yesterday i needed this dream so badly that words cant express how its made me feel . Last night when iwent to bed i was feeling so awful and so desperate. It was the answer to all the prayers ive been praying.

It said .. Youve done it.! Youve climbed that really steep staircase. You,ve survived all that its thrown at you and youre at the top of that staircase. Youre at the door of a new opportunity. Decorate the next year how you want it to look.  Its not pretty but its gonna be what you make of it. 

So today. Im really weak. im tearful. But i have hope again. God answered my prayer and showed me my journey. And it gets brighter and flatter the further you go. 

I never thought id make it to the 1st yr. I wont even try to pretend its not been very steep and windy. There were times i didnt think id get to that door.  

BUT I DID!!! SO WILL YOU.    Good luck everyone.!
 :heart: :heart: :heart: Jo xxx</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Last night i dreamt i was decorating a staircase.  It was a long steep windy staircase . and the dream started where i was at the top of it. The stair part was already  completed !!<br />
 I came to a door right at the top and i decided it was a pointless door so i took it off altogether!  After the door was a long corridor only partially lit. but it was on the flat it just needed sprucing up quite badly.<br />
  So i was setting about the task. i walked down to the end of that corridor where there was a bend and another better lit corridor. that looked like all it needed was a coat of paint.<br />
<br />
I KNOW exactly what the dream was telling me.!<br />
<br />
Im 1 week from my 1st anniversary after CTing 60mg prozac.  It was the story of my withdrawal<br />
The  long windy steep staircase was the yr ive completed. It was bloody hard work but its done. now painted in white ..and behind me I was already at the top .<br />
The long dimly lit corridor was the next segment. it was on the flat but it was long and needed work. <br />
The 3rd section looked tidy enough and was lit better<br />
<br />
After the day i had yesterday i needed this dream so badly that words cant express how its made me feel . Last night when iwent to bed i was feeling so awful and so desperate. It was the answer to all the prayers ive been praying.<br />
<br />
It said .. Youve done it.! Youve climbed that really steep staircase. You,ve survived all that its thrown at you and youre at the top of that staircase. Youre at the door of a new opportunity. Decorate the next year how you want it to look.  Its not pretty but its gonna be what you make of it. <br />
<br />
So today. Im really weak. im tearful. But i have hope again. God answered my prayer and showed me my journey. And it gets brighter and flatter the further you go. <br />
<br />
I never thought id make it to the 1st yr. I wont even try to pretend its not been very steep and windy. There were times i didnt think id get to that door.  <br />
<br />
BUT I DID!!! SO WILL YOU.    Good luck everyone.!<br />
 :heart: :heart: :heart: Jo xxx</div>

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			<title>telling our problem</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 15 May 2013 12:00:45 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hello,

Until now, i haven't told anyone i was on a antidepressant for years and i haven't told anyone i'm getting off and the wd symptoms this generates.  I don't tell because i don't want to be viewed different.... I'm afraid that when i tell people that i'm in withdrawal and the symptoms associated with it, i will always be looked that way and that this will complicate things alot, like people will look at me and search for wd symptoms, while i just may have a bad day etc... I think I could cope with this the times i feel fine, but am afraid that the times i feel miserable, it will be far more complicated if someone knows. I just want to be looked at as me, not as a pill addicted junk , in a manner of speaking. I don't know whether or not this is true, but i have this idée fixe in my mind.

I have a collegue i can get along with very well and to whom i have told already some of my psycological issues (ok, this sounds serious, i'm not crazy or so, but i mean some mind twists) and she is caring and understanding. She has told me some of her twists too and i feel like we're on the same level. I have told her already that i have a medical condition wich makes me feel like crap sometimes, but not in concrete terms. On the one hand, i want to tell her, because i trust her and feel like she will understand, on the other hand, i'm afraid telling her because i don't want to complicate my recovery (see above) and don't want to (possibly) change our relation.  Pffff, what should i do? The 'problem' is that i see her daily at work and will be daily confronted with the fact that someone else knows and might look at me that way. I feel like if i tell someone, i will open the box of pandora, no way back then and misery coming to me... On the other hand, i might bring some relief to me if i could tell someone...

How do you feel about this? Is this recognizable?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hello,<br />
<br />
Until now, i haven't told anyone i was on a antidepressant for years and i haven't told anyone i'm getting off and the wd symptoms this generates.  I don't tell because i don't want to be viewed different.... I'm afraid that when i tell people that i'm in withdrawal and the symptoms associated with it, i will always be looked that way and that this will complicate things alot, like people will look at me and search for wd symptoms, while i just may have a bad day etc... I think I could cope with this the times i feel fine, but am afraid that the times i feel miserable, it will be far more complicated if someone knows. I just want to be looked at as me, not as a pill addicted junk , in a manner of speaking. I don't know whether or not this is true, but i have this idée fixe in my mind.<br />
<br />
I have a collegue i can get along with very well and to whom i have told already some of my psycological issues (ok, this sounds serious, i'm not crazy or so, but i mean some mind twists) and she is caring and understanding. She has told me some of her twists too and i feel like we're on the same level. I have told her already that i have a medical condition wich makes me feel like crap sometimes, but not in concrete terms. On the one hand, i want to tell her, because i trust her and feel like she will understand, on the other hand, i'm afraid telling her because i don't want to complicate my recovery (see above) and don't want to (possibly) change our relation.  Pffff, what should i do? The 'problem' is that i see her daily at work and will be daily confronted with the fact that someone else knows and might look at me that way. I feel like if i tell someone, i will open the box of pandora, no way back then and misery coming to me... On the other hand, i might bring some relief to me if i could tell someone...<br />
<br />
How do you feel about this? Is this recognizable?</div>

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			<title>Responding to Private messages</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 15 May 2013 11:40:37 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Just a reminder.....do not respond to the email notifying you of a private message. That email is only to notify you that you HAVE a private message. Responding to that email only comes to me, not to the person who pm'd you.

 You must respond in the private message section of the site, in the upper right corner of every page.

Thanks :)]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Just a reminder.....do not respond to the email notifying you of a private message. That email is only to notify you that you HAVE a private message. Responding to that email only comes to me, not to the person who pm'd you.<br />
<br />
 You must respond in the private message section of the site, in the upper right corner of every page.<br />
<br />
Thanks :)</div>

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			<dc:creator>scotty</dc:creator>
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			<title>Depression and feeling insecure</title>
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			<pubDate>Wed, 15 May 2013 05:36:40 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hey.

Today morning i felt like the depression is starting to set in, i feel as i am not good for anything and that my condition is also depressing to my girlfriend.
. For those reasons i just want to be alone. She is going to come back from her parents place today, it is not easy to say these words but i dont want to see her( but we live together), i dont want to look at her face and see everything that is happening to me and to us, from there. i dont blame her, she is 25 years old with not a lot of experience in life and i am probably not very fun to be around these days. She says that it is hard to make the difference between who is me and what is my condition...

Also has anyone felt the lack of confidence? i feel uncomfortable looking into ppl's eyes, i see that they dont quit understand where i am at , i seem weird ( especially to those who dont know what is going on) there are ppl i really want to avoid.

At the moment it seems really difficult to find joy in my day, although yesterday i had some happy moments. 

I have two cats they are cool, i like being around them.
Maybe it is just this morning....]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hey.<br />
<br />
Today morning i felt like the depression is starting to set in, i feel as i am not good for anything and that my condition is also depressing to my girlfriend.<br />
. For those reasons i just want to be alone. She is going to come back from her parents place today, it is not easy to say these words but i dont want to see her( but we live together), i dont want to look at her face and see everything that is happening to me and to us, from there. i dont blame her, she is 25 years old with not a lot of experience in life and i am probably not very fun to be around these days. She says that it is hard to make the difference between who is me and what is my condition...<br />
<br />
Also has anyone felt the lack of confidence? i feel uncomfortable looking into ppl's eyes, i see that they dont quit understand where i am at , i seem weird ( especially to those who dont know what is going on) there are ppl i really want to avoid.<br />
<br />
At the moment it seems really difficult to find joy in my day, although yesterday i had some happy moments. <br />
<br />
I have two cats they are cool, i like being around them.<br />
Maybe it is just this morning....</div>

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			<title>Paroxetine and whey protein</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 14 May 2013 21:13:10 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hello, I wonder if taking protein of serum with paroxetine may affect me, since one of the amino acids that is tryptophan, 1700mg per 100g of protein, attached a photo of the supplement facts

[img]http://www.nutriland.net/images/FusionAminograma.jpg[/img]

I take 30 g in each shot, the days of training I do two takes]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hello, I wonder if taking protein of serum with paroxetine may affect me, since one of the amino acids that is tryptophan, 1700mg per 100g of protein, attached a photo of the supplement facts<br />
<br />
<a href="http://www.nutriland.net/images/FusionAminograma.jpg" target="_blank">http://www.nutriland.net/images/FusionAminograma.jpg</a><br />
<br />
I take 30 g in each shot, the days of training I do two takes</div>

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			<dc:creator>Blackbird</dc:creator>
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			<title>Sex and paroxetine</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 14 May 2013 20:33:32 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I've noticed that is difficult to have an orgasm, no matter if im excited or not. Does anybody else have or has this problem.?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I've noticed that is difficult to have an orgasm, no matter if im excited or not. Does anybody else have or has this problem.?</div>

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			<title>So frustrated...Clonazapam.</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 14 May 2013 19:08:59 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Well..i haven't been on here in a while, because i've been well. After a rough SSRI discontinuation syndrome and some OCD thoughts that still seem to plague me. I was doing a lot better.  Running/playing/sleeping/eating (a little too much...but eating).

I decided to stop the 0.25 clonazapam....and about a half a week later, i was sitting at my desk doing my work...just coming back from shopping and bam ...hit me like a ton of brick....crying, scared of going through SSRI discontinuation syndrome again....and all my stupid thoughts come back (existential angst)....i thought that was put to rest...any one been in the same boat?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Well..i haven't been on here in a while, because i've been well. After a rough SSRI discontinuation syndrome and some OCD thoughts that still seem to plague me. I was doing a lot better.  Running/playing/sleeping/eating (a little too much...but eating).<br />
<br />
I decided to stop the 0.25 clonazapam....and about a half a week later, i was sitting at my desk doing my work...just coming back from shopping and bam ...hit me like a ton of brick....crying, scared of going through SSRI discontinuation syndrome again....and all my stupid thoughts come back (existential angst)....i thought that was put to rest...any one been in the same boat?</div>

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			<title>Citalopram post-apocalypse after 2 months !</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 14 May 2013 13:46:58 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I need someone's help since I seriously feel messed up right now. I have been on the forum for a while which was my basic motivation to finally quit my citalopram.

I have been taking citalopram for 5 years after a panic dissorder, that turned into a generalized anxiety dissorder with some OCS. Along with that came a heavy depression. Talking with a psychologist didn't help. She was simply not able to reach me.

Due to all feelings of hopelessness, I decided to start antidepressants and my doctor prescribed me Citalopram, since in his experience this was one of the SSRI's that has the least side effects. Well the first weeks were a hell untill I got relieved by Xanax Retard. For over a month I felt like I was back in the saddle.

After I noticed that I got pretty nervous between the dose intervals of the Xanax I decided to withdraw from it. Bad idea which made me end up in crisis. They sent me to a psychiatrist and we decided to switch me to Valium. I was able to withdraw from the Xanax within 2,5 months, however I never made it below the 5 mg. So untill this day I'm stuck on that, since the last few mg's were almost inhuman to stop.

In 5 years time I had a lot of good periods, but also some bad ones. I never thought the Citalopram did much and even made me more anxious sometimes. The only thing I actually liked was the indifference during a conflict. I have always been sensitive to that. In the 5 years I was on it I managed to pretty easily taper down to 10 mg. After that there wasa long period of trial and failure. I came down to 7,5 mg and it went fine. THe 5 mg was a big step and took some mental effort to deal with, but after that I felt so rock stable, I would have preferred to stay on that dose. After 2 months on 5 mg I started to have symptoms which felt like a nerve around my bladder was stuck or something. Just before last Christmas it turned into frequent urination. Doctor thought it was a bladder infection and gave me an antibiotic. Well, all fine, but it didn't solve much. Then I got to see an urologist who took blood, an urine sample, performed a cysto, uroflowmetry and a sound echo of the prostate. Everything looked fine, no bacteria, but due to a standard protocol they prescribed me Ciprofloxacin, a Fluorquinolon with terrible side effects.

Within 3 days I felt like I was almost unable to move, my sleep was bad, I had terrible dreams and I started to develope anxiety, which became worse after reading that thousands of people actually have been damaged by this drug. I quit it and immediately got another antibiotic, co-trimoxacin, which also caused a lot of mucle pain and anxiety which was probably triggered by the first antibiotic. This part of the story is when I'm off the citalopram for 2 months.

The first month I had just a weird feeling in my head. I was able to prevent the brain zaps by taking fish oil. I also took magnesium stereate, ashwagandha and taurine along with my 7,5 mg of diazepam. Even the muscle pain from earlier attempts to completely stop wasn't there. Everything seemed to go well. Meanwhile I had some exams and I passed everything. I just felt the same.

Now suddenly after 2 months I'm in this situation. I feel anxious the whole day and in the evening it seems to subside. Besides my valium I have been taking clonazepam (without presciption) I did this more often while on citalopram, since I knew when to quit. I always replaced the dose with an equivalent of diazepam and went down, back to the 7,5 mg daily.

I have no idea what 's causing this. Can this still be some late withdrawal ? I'm a going back to that hell-hole I was in 5 years ago ? ANd if so, could the Ciproflixacin be the cause. I don't want to go back on Citalopram. I have considered to ask for a tricyclic or even pregabaline to deal with my anxiety, but I just don't know. I'm at a point in my life where I'm able to put everything I've lost back on the track. Now this is happening. 

Please, if someone recognizes (even a little bit of) this, let me know.

I'm sorry for not introducing myself first, however I probably told a lot. Anyway, I will do that later.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I need someone's help since I seriously feel messed up right now. I have been on the forum for a while which was my basic motivation to finally quit my citalopram.<br />
<br />
I have been taking citalopram for 5 years after a panic dissorder, that turned into a generalized anxiety dissorder with some OCS. Along with that came a heavy depression. Talking with a psychologist didn't help. She was simply not able to reach me.<br />
<br />
Due to all feelings of hopelessness, I decided to start antidepressants and my doctor prescribed me Citalopram, since in his experience this was one of the SSRI's that has the least side effects. Well the first weeks were a hell untill I got relieved by Xanax Retard. For over a month I felt like I was back in the saddle.<br />
<br />
After I noticed that I got pretty nervous between the dose intervals of the Xanax I decided to withdraw from it. Bad idea which made me end up in crisis. They sent me to a psychiatrist and we decided to switch me to Valium. I was able to withdraw from the Xanax within 2,5 months, however I never made it below the 5 mg. So untill this day I'm stuck on that, since the last few mg's were almost inhuman to stop.<br />
<br />
In 5 years time I had a lot of good periods, but also some bad ones. I never thought the Citalopram did much and even made me more anxious sometimes. The only thing I actually liked was the indifference during a conflict. I have always been sensitive to that. In the 5 years I was on it I managed to pretty easily taper down to 10 mg. After that there wasa long period of trial and failure. I came down to 7,5 mg and it went fine. THe 5 mg was a big step and took some mental effort to deal with, but after that I felt so rock stable, I would have preferred to stay on that dose. After 2 months on 5 mg I started to have symptoms which felt like a nerve around my bladder was stuck or something. Just before last Christmas it turned into frequent urination. Doctor thought it was a bladder infection and gave me an antibiotic. Well, all fine, but it didn't solve much. Then I got to see an urologist who took blood, an urine sample, performed a cysto, uroflowmetry and a sound echo of the prostate. Everything looked fine, no bacteria, but due to a standard protocol they prescribed me Ciprofloxacin, a Fluorquinolon with terrible side effects.<br />
<br />
Within 3 days I felt like I was almost unable to move, my sleep was bad, I had terrible dreams and I started to develope anxiety, which became worse after reading that thousands of people actually have been damaged by this drug. I quit it and immediately got another antibiotic, co-trimoxacin, which also caused a lot of mucle pain and anxiety which was probably triggered by the first antibiotic. This part of the story is when I'm off the citalopram for 2 months.<br />
<br />
The first month I had just a weird feeling in my head. I was able to prevent the brain zaps by taking fish oil. I also took magnesium stereate, ashwagandha and taurine along with my 7,5 mg of diazepam. Even the muscle pain from earlier attempts to completely stop wasn't there. Everything seemed to go well. Meanwhile I had some exams and I passed everything. I just felt the same.<br />
<br />
Now suddenly after 2 months I'm in this situation. I feel anxious the whole day and in the evening it seems to subside. Besides my valium I have been taking clonazepam (without presciption) I did this more often while on citalopram, since I knew when to quit. I always replaced the dose with an equivalent of diazepam and went down, back to the 7,5 mg daily.<br />
<br />
I have no idea what 's causing this. Can this still be some late withdrawal ? I'm a going back to that hell-hole I was in 5 years ago ? ANd if so, could the Ciproflixacin be the cause. I don't want to go back on Citalopram. I have considered to ask for a tricyclic or even pregabaline to deal with my anxiety, but I just don't know. I'm at a point in my life where I'm able to put everything I've lost back on the track. Now this is happening. <br />
<br />
Please, if someone recognizes (even a little bit of) this, let me know.<br />
<br />
I'm sorry for not introducing myself first, however I probably told a lot. Anyway, I will do that later.</div>

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			<title>Some kind of panic (rant)</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 14 May 2013 10:33:08 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[So here I am, approx 8 months out, and feeling like crap. (Please don't be discouraged, this is only my personal story! I quit too fast also.)
I have almost no physical symptoms left (just blurry vision and some joint pains + tired and lost a lot of weight) and that's so disheartening, because it makes me think that this indecisive, non-funtioning person is actually who I'm left with after WD..........

I just don't know what to do. I feel like a stranger in my own life. I re-live all my bad memories all the time, mostly the huge depression I had before I was put on Effexor but also problems in my teens. Also my social problems. I thought I were past that, I had worked through them, worked through my memories and bad habits... I was so wrong.

Here I am, 30 years old, unemployed and finanially supported by my boyfriend, no finished education, no goals in life, no motivation and lots of mood-swings. I can't feel happy, excited, love etc - just a big, tired, depressed feeling. I was so happy to get of these meds and start my life, maybe have a family etc...now I just feel like a burden to my boyfriend and my friends. I don't know who I am, what I like, what I want. When I'm around people I just don't know what to say to them. I feel totally uninteresting. I feel like a loser. What have I done with my life these past years - I have no idea.

I know this is probably not WD anymore and I have to get on with my life - but I just don't know how. I just can't. I'm trying to cope with this in every way that I can - I write, take walks, meditate, practice yoga, take supplements...but it doesn't do me any good. I feel so lost. I'm scared I will be old and alone soon, that my boyfriend is going to leave me for not being an interesting person etc...

Please give me hope that this will change.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>So here I am, approx 8 months out, and feeling like crap. (Please don't be discouraged, this is only my personal story! I quit too fast also.)<br />
I have almost no physical symptoms left (just blurry vision and some joint pains + tired and lost a lot of weight) and that's so disheartening, because it makes me think that this indecisive, non-funtioning person is actually who I'm left with after WD..........<br />
<br />
I just don't know what to do. I feel like a stranger in my own life. I re-live all my bad memories all the time, mostly the huge depression I had before I was put on Effexor but also problems in my teens. Also my social problems. I thought I were past that, I had worked through them, worked through my memories and bad habits... I was so wrong.<br />
<br />
Here I am, 30 years old, unemployed and finanially supported by my boyfriend, no finished education, no goals in life, no motivation and lots of mood-swings. I can't feel happy, excited, love etc - just a big, tired, depressed feeling. I was so happy to get of these meds and start my life, maybe have a family etc...now I just feel like a burden to my boyfriend and my friends. I don't know who I am, what I like, what I want. When I'm around people I just don't know what to say to them. I feel totally uninteresting. I feel like a loser. What have I done with my life these past years - I have no idea.<br />
<br />
I know this is probably not WD anymore and I have to get on with my life - but I just don't know how. I just can't. I'm trying to cope with this in every way that I can - I write, take walks, meditate, practice yoga, take supplements...but it doesn't do me any good. I feel so lost. I'm scared I will be old and alone soon, that my boyfriend is going to leave me for not being an interesting person etc...<br />
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Please give me hope that this will change.</div>

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			<title>The overdiagnosis of mental illness - Allen Frances</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 14 May 2013 08:22:20 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[This is an hour long lecture with a short Q  & A section at the end.  For those who have the time it is very interesting.

A couple of interesting points I noted:
- 80% of pysch meds are being prescribed by what we Aussies call GPs - doctors who treat every day illnesses - doctors who are not qualified to Dx let alone treat psychiatric illness.
- for moderate to severe mental illness - psych meds have a LOW placebo effect, work well on 70% and if you add ECT, 80-90% - such people really need psychiatrists (he didn't specify which illnesses but I think he means schizophrenia, bipolar, and severe depression / melancholia)
- for mild to moderate mental illness - psychotherapy should be the first line of treatment; if they don't respond after 4-8 weeks, then look at medication
- psychiatry is looking to prevent mental illness rather than treat what is actually there - Allen Frances totally disagrees with this approach
- the DSM should not be the bible it has become, and getting a label (for which it is often used) should not be what determines access to services


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuCwVnzSjWA]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>This is an hour long lecture with a short Q  &amp; A section at the end.  For those who have the time it is very interesting.<br />
<br />
A couple of interesting points I noted:<br />
- 80% of pysch meds are being prescribed by what we Aussies call GPs - doctors who treat every day illnesses - doctors who are not qualified to Dx let alone treat psychiatric illness.<br />
- for moderate to severe mental illness - psych meds have a LOW placebo effect, work well on 70% and if you add ECT, 80-90% - such people really need psychiatrists (he didn't specify which illnesses but I think he means schizophrenia, bipolar, and severe depression / melancholia)<br />
- for mild to moderate mental illness - psychotherapy should be the first line of treatment; if they don't respond after 4-8 weeks, then look at medication<br />
- psychiatry is looking to prevent mental illness rather than treat what is actually there - Allen Frances totally disagrees with this approach<br />
- the DSM should not be the bible it has become, and getting a label (for which it is often used) should not be what determines access to services<br />
<br />
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<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuCwVnzSjWA" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuCwVnzSjWA</a></div>

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			<title>pill weight and taper amount</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 14 May 2013 02:29:15 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>I have 2 questions. 

1) With my 30 mg paxil pills weighing 380ish mg, how much should my pills weight for my first taper? 350ish?

2) People say to taper 10% every 3-6 weeks. Well, I ache to get off of paxil. How does one know how often to taper? Should I do it every 3 weeks, or should I do it every 6 weeks? Why such a wide range, 3-6?</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I have 2 questions. <br />
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1) With my 30 mg paxil pills weighing 380ish mg, how much should my pills weight for my first taper? 350ish?<br />
<br />
2) People say to taper 10% every 3-6 weeks. Well, I ache to get off of paxil. How does one know how often to taper? Should I do it every 3 weeks, or should I do it every 6 weeks? Why such a wide range, 3-6?</div>

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			<title>Second try, here we go...</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 14 May 2013 02:24:08 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Well. First let me say that I am glad for PP. And second, let me say that I am glad that I'm not the only one going through this crazy journey. Not only that, but it turns out there's an entire online community!! 

My name is Nate. I started on paxil, 20 mg, fall of 2008. It helped me quite a lot. I come from a background filled with religious legalism, and me being a sensitive soul, I tried to become perfect and perform my religious obligations without fail. Well, the once happy demeanor of my youth quickly turned into constant depression full of self hate and crazy OCD. If I ever failed in any area, if I was ever NOT perfect, then I had to fix it, make it better, else I damn myself through my rigorous beliefs. Well, as you can guess, life quickly turned from white, to gray, to black. All life drained from me and many days for many, many years were a nightmare. I started on paxil and the pain subsided into a dull ache. I was on paxil for about 2 years before I started counseling. The first thing the counselor told me was to get off paxil because there are 'natural' methods of doing the same thing paxil does (i.e. more protein). So I did, in about 2 months I was off paxil. The next 4 months were a living hell and every day I just wanted to die. I ached to die. I finally went back onto paxil, 30 mg, and again found the strength to at least function, and with the sharp pain subsided, found a good quality of life. I have now been on 30 mg of paxil for 2.5 years, and have found a new counselor who I have been seeing for 9 months. He is encouraging me greatly and bringing me great life and hope. We are now at a point where he is encouraging me to come off of paxil and experience myself for who I was made to be, who I AM without the medication. And thanks to this website, I am not going to do the ultra fast taper. I am going to do a slow taper, and I am excited to experience myself off of the medication. I yearn to cry again, and laugh so hard that I wake up the neighborhood.  

Anyhow, just thought I'd introduce myself. :laugh2:]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Well. First let me say that I am glad for PP. And second, let me say that I am glad that I'm not the only one going through this crazy journey. Not only that, but it turns out there's an entire online community!! <br />
<br />
My name is Nate. I started on paxil, 20 mg, fall of 2008. It helped me quite a lot. I come from a background filled with religious legalism, and me being a sensitive soul, I tried to become perfect and perform my religious obligations without fail. Well, the once happy demeanor of my youth quickly turned into constant depression full of self hate and crazy OCD. If I ever failed in any area, if I was ever NOT perfect, then I had to fix it, make it better, else I damn myself through my rigorous beliefs. Well, as you can guess, life quickly turned from white, to gray, to black. All life drained from me and many days for many, many years were a nightmare. I started on paxil and the pain subsided into a dull ache. I was on paxil for about 2 years before I started counseling. The first thing the counselor told me was to get off paxil because there are 'natural' methods of doing the same thing paxil does (i.e. more protein). So I did, in about 2 months I was off paxil. The next 4 months were a living hell and every day I just wanted to die. I ached to die. I finally went back onto paxil, 30 mg, and again found the strength to at least function, and with the sharp pain subsided, found a good quality of life. I have now been on 30 mg of paxil for 2.5 years, and have found a new counselor who I have been seeing for 9 months. He is encouraging me greatly and bringing me great life and hope. We are now at a point where he is encouraging me to come off of paxil and experience myself for who I was made to be, who I AM without the medication. And thanks to this website, I am not going to do the ultra fast taper. I am going to do a slow taper, and I am excited to experience myself off of the medication. I yearn to cry again, and laugh so hard that I wake up the neighborhood.  <br />
<br />
Anyhow, just thought I'd introduce myself. :laugh2:</div>

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			<title>Suggestions</title>
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			<pubDate>Tue, 14 May 2013 01:58:51 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I've been taking 10mg of paxil for about 6 months now, but started taking it every other day about 3 months ago as it was giving me stomach problems.
Then I caught the stomach flu a couple of weeks ago and stopped taking the paxil completely last Sunday as it was making my stomach feel even worse.
I haven't had any withdrawal symptoms yet aside from a little insomnia and one vivid nightmare.
If I continue to not take it should I expect any worse withdrawal symptoms at this point?
I'm still not completely over the stomach flu and don't think I can handle any of the other
withdrawal symptoms I've read about on here.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I've been taking 10mg of paxil for about 6 months now, but started taking it every other day about 3 months ago as it was giving me stomach problems.<br />
Then I caught the stomach flu a couple of weeks ago and stopped taking the paxil completely last Sunday as it was making my stomach feel even worse.<br />
I haven't had any withdrawal symptoms yet aside from a little insomnia and one vivid nightmare.<br />
If I continue to not take it should I expect any worse withdrawal symptoms at this point?<br />
I'm still not completely over the stomach flu and don't think I can handle any of the other<br />
withdrawal symptoms I've read about on here.</div>

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			<dc:creator>deathofchaos</dc:creator>
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			<title>Courage thats what I see !!</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 13 May 2013 23:46:11 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>I have watched and suported my wife through the first five months and I can
honestly say I only have the greatest repsect for those who have decided to take thier lifes back and deal with the ups and downs of what we have to deal with ongoing. The only word that comes to my mind is courage !! Thats
what it takes to decide and move on !! Saying that I wanted to share this
inspirational thought. I have always been moved myself by words that come
from someones heart. Take a few minutes watch this and I hope it gives you
a bit of positive spin on what I think is the courage each of you have shown
in your struggle !!

http://play.simpletruths.com/movie/courage-doesnt-always-roar/

Rick</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I have watched and suported my wife through the first five months and I can<br />
honestly say I only have the greatest repsect for those who have decided to take thier lifes back and deal with the ups and downs of what we have to deal with ongoing. The only word that comes to my mind is courage !! Thats<br />
what it takes to decide and move on !! Saying that I wanted to share this<br />
inspirational thought. I have always been moved myself by words that come<br />
from someones heart. Take a few minutes watch this and I hope it gives you<br />
a bit of positive spin on what I think is the courage each of you have shown<br />
in your struggle !!<br />
<br />
<a href="http://play.simpletruths.com/movie/courage-doesnt-always-roar/" target="_blank">http://play.simpletruths.com/movie/c...t-always-roar/</a><br />
<br />
Rick</div>

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			<title>day after drinking alcohol</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 13 May 2013 20:52:05 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Why is it that the day after drinking alcohol I feel much better? I mean that every time I drink alcohol , my old self comes back with full force (emotions, sexual pleasure etc.) the next day. Does it downregulate something that we have in excess?</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Why is it that the day after drinking alcohol I feel much better? I mean that every time I drink alcohol , my old self comes back with full force (emotions, sexual pleasure etc.) the next day. Does it downregulate something that we have in excess?</div>

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			<title>Physical Activity intolerance???????</title>
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			<pubDate>Mon, 13 May 2013 00:56:01 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>As some of you know I have been suffering greatly since I entered month 9 in my WD. What was a steady improvement is now a horror show. Today I felt a bit better and decided to cut my lawn and do some weedwacking. Not heavy work at all. I have been suffering from massive fatigue lately but today I managed to get it done. About an hour or so later I became voilently ill. Very very very sick. Disoriented and very confused and my arms were shaking like crazy. This calmed down after an hour or so but I am still very off and skaky. I had no anxiety but it was like I had parkinsons or something I was shaking so bad.

Of note is that I also took a hot bath right after I got done. I am fairly certain it was the physical activity because once I got a bit better I went back out and did some spraying of weeds. Again not very physical but I did need to carrie around the pump sparyer which had about a gallon or so of liquid in it. After that I got sicker again but not as severe as earlier.

Just crazy!! Anyone else get like this from physical activity?</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>As some of you know I have been suffering greatly since I entered month 9 in my WD. What was a steady improvement is now a horror show. Today I felt a bit better and decided to cut my lawn and do some weedwacking. Not heavy work at all. I have been suffering from massive fatigue lately but today I managed to get it done. About an hour or so later I became voilently ill. Very very very sick. Disoriented and very confused and my arms were shaking like crazy. This calmed down after an hour or so but I am still very off and skaky. I had no anxiety but it was like I had parkinsons or something I was shaking so bad.<br />
<br />
Of note is that I also took a hot bath right after I got done. I am fairly certain it was the physical activity because once I got a bit better I went back out and did some spraying of weeds. Again not very physical but I did need to carrie around the pump sparyer which had about a gallon or so of liquid in it. After that I got sicker again but not as severe as earlier.<br />
<br />
Just crazy!! Anyone else get like this from physical activity?</div>

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			<title>Hello! Starting my withdrawal journey...</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 12 May 2013 18:23:20 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi everyone! I have lurked here for a long time taking in all the advice. I have been on 20mg of Paxil for depression and anxiety for over 3 years now. I *hate* the side effects if I miss just one dose, I don't want to have to rely on a drug, and I want to see if I can deal with my issues without it. Anyways, my last doctors visit I chickened out and was just going to renew my prescription, but then he brought up that I had been on it a long time and I just blurted out about wanting to get off of it. He suggested to alternate between 20mg one day and 15mg the next. But I am worried that is too much. I've only just started three days ago so thus far it has been 20mg one day, 15mg the next, then 20mg last night. I have been feeling queasy and my head feels weird BUT before I started alternating doses I missed two doses (stupid stupid story and all my own fault) so I don't know how much is due to that...I don't have the brain snaps that I usually do when withdrawing, so I don't even know if it IS that or I just have some sickness. Should I just keep going with the alternating and see what happens? He only gave me a two month prescription this time, so if I start feeling awful I am going to go back to 20mg until I'm out and then give him the recommended tapering chart that is featured on here. 

Sorry for all the rambling! lol]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi everyone! I have lurked here for a long time taking in all the advice. I have been on 20mg of Paxil for depression and anxiety for over 3 years now. I *hate* the side effects if I miss just one dose, I don't want to have to rely on a drug, and I want to see if I can deal with my issues without it. Anyways, my last doctors visit I chickened out and was just going to renew my prescription, but then he brought up that I had been on it a long time and I just blurted out about wanting to get off of it. He suggested to alternate between 20mg one day and 15mg the next. But I am worried that is too much. I've only just started three days ago so thus far it has been 20mg one day, 15mg the next, then 20mg last night. I have been feeling queasy and my head feels weird BUT before I started alternating doses I missed two doses (stupid stupid story and all my own fault) so I don't know how much is due to that...I don't have the brain snaps that I usually do when withdrawing, so I don't even know if it IS that or I just have some sickness. Should I just keep going with the alternating and see what happens? He only gave me a two month prescription this time, so if I start feeling awful I am going to go back to 20mg until I'm out and then give him the recommended tapering chart that is featured on here. <br />
<br />
Sorry for all the rambling! lol</div>

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			<title>Selling House-High Anxiety Level</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 12 May 2013 13:01:16 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Swallowed my last sliver of zoloft three months ago.   We are currently going through the process of selling our house&#8230;.in Italy.    Buying and selling property here can be very challenging.   Actually, doing the smallest thing here can be very challenging.   When we bought the house about ten years ago, there were so many bumps that it took a year to complete the purchase and even after it was done, there was an outstanding issue&#8230;.still not resolved but we were told by a realtor that it would not be an issue now.    
The closing date is May 31.    Despite that I am very busy organizing and packing, my anxiety is paralyzing, especially on Sundays and generally in the mornings.     It&#8217;s not preventing me from doing what needs to be done but I&#8217;m just so scared that something is going to go wrong and that the sale won&#8217;t go through.    
Every few days there is some bureaucratic issue that we have to iron out with regard to the sale.    Last week it took two days meeting with lawyers  to correct a mistake that was made on the house deed when we purchased&#8230;and we&#8217;ll owe over $1000.00 to correct it&#8230;..this was an error made by the &#8220;notaio&#8221; but nonetheless, we are the ones who have to pay to get it corrected.    
I&#8217;m reading David Burns Feeling Good and practicing the exercises&#8230;.hoping to get some relief from the overwhelming feelings of anxious dread bordering on panic which is there the moment I open my eyes in the morning.    
I guess mainly what Im looking for is reassurance that it will be ok even if the deal falls through&#8230;..which to me feels like the worst possible thing that can happen to us right now.
I have this voice telling me that I should be handling this whole thing with more confidence, it&#8217;s saying, &#8220;Why are you so anxious?  There is not reason for it.   Maybe you need to go back on meds.&#8221;
That is not an option.   I&#8217;ll never go back to zoloft&#8230;.but right now I feel like I need something to numb the pain and discomfort.     
Do you think being this level of anxiety is normal for this situation?    I&#8217;m sure I&#8217;m still going through w/d and that is likely exacerbating the level of anxiety.     I just don&#8217;t know how I&#8217;m going to get through 19 more days of this waiting.    I know it doesn&#8217;t seem like a long time but for me, right now it seems like an eternity.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Swallowed my last sliver of zoloft three months ago.   We are currently going through the process of selling our house&#8230;.in Italy.    Buying and selling property here can be very challenging.   Actually, doing the smallest thing here can be very challenging.   When we bought the house about ten years ago, there were so many bumps that it took a year to complete the purchase and even after it was done, there was an outstanding issue&#8230;.still not resolved but we were told by a realtor that it would not be an issue now.    <br />
The closing date is May 31.    Despite that I am very busy organizing and packing, my anxiety is paralyzing, especially on Sundays and generally in the mornings.     It&#8217;s not preventing me from doing what needs to be done but I&#8217;m just so scared that something is going to go wrong and that the sale won&#8217;t go through.    <br />
Every few days there is some bureaucratic issue that we have to iron out with regard to the sale.    Last week it took two days meeting with lawyers  to correct a mistake that was made on the house deed when we purchased&#8230;and we&#8217;ll owe over $1000.00 to correct it&#8230;..this was an error made by the &#8220;notaio&#8221; but nonetheless, we are the ones who have to pay to get it corrected.    <br />
I&#8217;m reading David Burns Feeling Good and practicing the exercises&#8230;.hoping to get some relief from the overwhelming feelings of anxious dread bordering on panic which is there the moment I open my eyes in the morning.    <br />
I guess mainly what Im looking for is reassurance that it will be ok even if the deal falls through&#8230;..which to me feels like the worst possible thing that can happen to us right now.<br />
I have this voice telling me that I should be handling this whole thing with more confidence, it&#8217;s saying, &#8220;Why are you so anxious?  There is not reason for it.   Maybe you need to go back on meds.&#8221;<br />
That is not an option.   I&#8217;ll never go back to zoloft&#8230;.but right now I feel like I need something to numb the pain and discomfort.     <br />
Do you think being this level of anxiety is normal for this situation?    I&#8217;m sure I&#8217;m still going through w/d and that is likely exacerbating the level of anxiety.     I just don&#8217;t know how I&#8217;m going to get through 19 more days of this waiting.    I know it doesn&#8217;t seem like a long time but for me, right now it seems like an eternity.</div>

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			<title>Reinstatement advice</title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 12 May 2013 01:44:37 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hey everyone,

I have been feeling a little out of it lately.  As you can see, I began tapering off of Effexor XR in November 2012 and finished on January 30 of 2013 by switching to Prozac (God I wish I had found this site before I pulled these bone-headed moves).  So, here's what the deal is:

-I'm dealing with hypersensitivity to caffeine, alcohol, and other supplements (like melatonin)
-I have intense brain fog
-I have flu-like symptoms 
-I feel like I'm incredibly tired all day long

Has anybody ever tried this:

Since I know I am about three and a half months out, this is a gamble, but I have an idea.  I want to try to titrate back on the monster.  So, I want to start out with two beads a day and see how I feel.  Then, I want to go up to four beads if I need to.  If I have an adverse reaction, I can jump off or come back down.  

Thoughts please?

Sincerely thank-you,

Dominic]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hey everyone,<br />
<br />
I have been feeling a little out of it lately.  As you can see, I began tapering off of Effexor XR in November 2012 and finished on January 30 of 2013 by switching to Prozac (God I wish I had found this site before I pulled these bone-headed moves).  So, here's what the deal is:<br />
<br />
-I'm dealing with hypersensitivity to caffeine, alcohol, and other supplements (like melatonin)<br />
-I have intense brain fog<br />
-I have flu-like symptoms <br />
-I feel like I'm incredibly tired all day long<br />
<br />
Has anybody ever tried this:<br />
<br />
Since I know I am about three and a half months out, this is a gamble, but I have an idea.  I want to try to titrate back on the monster.  So, I want to start out with two beads a day and see how I feel.  Then, I want to go up to four beads if I need to.  If I have an adverse reaction, I can jump off or come back down.  <br />
<br />
Thoughts please?<br />
<br />
Sincerely thank-you,<br />
<br />
Dominic</div>

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			<dc:creator>Alchemist21</dc:creator>
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			<title>Vacation</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 11 May 2013 22:51:04 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[So I'm going on my first vacation in 5 years on Monday morning. I'm excited, but wondering how I'll handle jet lag, exercise, etc. I don't think the exercise is going to be too arduous, but I will have to wake up before/around dawn most mornings, and I tend to need more "drag time" between waking and rising since drugs/WD. 

I won't have any internet access where I'm going, and I won't return until the 26th, so I'm trying to get a little info beforehand. Has jet lag been any different after WD? I know exercise has to be handled carefully and eased into gradually, and I plan on doing that. Waking slowly is a peculiar symptom that I've never come across in anyone else, but I think I'll just have to make the others let me sleep in, lol. Because sometimes I stay groggy the whole day otherwise. 

Anyway, I really have high hopes about the trip. I think it'll do me good, and I have a feeling it's going to be a turning point. :)]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>So I'm going on my first vacation in 5 years on Monday morning. I'm excited, but wondering how I'll handle jet lag, exercise, etc. I don't think the exercise is going to be too arduous, but I will have to wake up before/around dawn most mornings, and I tend to need more &quot;drag time&quot; between waking and rising since drugs/WD. <br />
<br />
I won't have any internet access where I'm going, and I won't return until the 26th, so I'm trying to get a little info beforehand. Has jet lag been any different after WD? I know exercise has to be handled carefully and eased into gradually, and I plan on doing that. Waking slowly is a peculiar symptom that I've never come across in anyone else, but I think I'll just have to make the others let me sleep in, lol. Because sometimes I stay groggy the whole day otherwise. <br />
<br />
Anyway, I really have high hopes about the trip. I think it'll do me good, and I have a feeling it's going to be a turning point. :)</div>

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			<dc:creator>Sunflower22</dc:creator>
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			<title>Paxil taper from 40mg to 30mg agitation</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 11 May 2013 20:42:24 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Good afternoon, 

After coming across this site for many months I decided to free myself of paxil by slowing withdrawing myself and tapering. As of last Wednesday I went from 40 mg to 30 mg and didn't notice anything the first few days and then It hit me like a truck. I started to feel anxious, agitated, scared, weird sleeping pattern and nervous. On the plus note, i have had less nightmares, cried for the forst time in years, and feeling hope.Let me add that I have pure OCD. My question is that is that normal and is that taper safe enough for this time.
? 

P.S you are all my heroes]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Good afternoon, <br />
<br />
After coming across this site for many months I decided to free myself of paxil by slowing withdrawing myself and tapering. As of last Wednesday I went from 40 mg to 30 mg and didn't notice anything the first few days and then It hit me like a truck. I started to feel anxious, agitated, scared, weird sleeping pattern and nervous. On the plus note, i have had less nightmares, cried for the forst time in years, and feeling hope.Let me add that I have pure OCD. My question is that is that normal and is that taper safe enough for this time.<br />
? <br />
<br />
P.S you are all my heroes</div>

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			<title>seven months out, not sleeping</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 11 May 2013 20:23:34 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Been off Paxil seven months. I was on 20mg, tapered down two weeks at a time going 15mg, 10mg, 5mg, off.  I haven't really had any physical issues with being off, but tons of emotional issues.  Anger, frustration, inpatience, etc.  Now I suddenly can't buy sleep.  No sleepy when I go to bed, not sleepy during the day.  It is taking me one - two hours nightly to get to sleep, which means weekdays I get about 5-6 hrs.  I would really think being off Paxil since October I wouldn't be having sleeping issues.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Been off Paxil seven months. I was on 20mg, tapered down two weeks at a time going 15mg, 10mg, 5mg, off.  I haven't really had any physical issues with being off, but tons of emotional issues.  Anger, frustration, inpatience, etc.  Now I suddenly can't buy sleep.  No sleepy when I go to bed, not sleepy during the day.  It is taking me one - two hours nightly to get to sleep, which means weekdays I get about 5-6 hrs.  I would really think being off Paxil since October I wouldn't be having sleeping issues.</div>

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			<title><![CDATA[Please Don't Judge Me!]]></title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 11 May 2013 18:43:36 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[The past few weeks have been very hard for me. It started with the unexpected death of my 42 year old cousin who died and left seven kids behind aged 19-3. During the week of her death I could feel my anxiety rising but I held It together I had to support her mother and children.  A few days after her funeral I came down with some sinus stuff I attributed to allergy but I was very sick for four days. When I felt better the fifth day I got up and did some Cardio even though I wasn't 100% better. I was still weak I managed to do 30 minutes on the elliptical machine. That's when all hell broke loose I woke up at 4 a.m not feeling like myself very high anxiety I had an urgent need to go and get a complete physical and I did.  My Dr. said he tested me for "everything" whatever that is and he was very happy with all my test results thyroid, white blood, red blood, liver function, cholesterol, all that good stuff. Even my female exam test were all really good. Praise God.

 I would like to share my feelings and thoughts with hopes to get some reassurance or ensight. Over the past few week I've experienced Akathasia which I never had before scared the hell out of me, I have a horrible taste in my mouth like I chewed up and asprin, I have absolutely no desire to eat and I'm losing weight. Horrible morning anxiety which I haven't experienced in years. I read some bad reviews about my birth control method online and it has caused me some anxiety although other than bloating I haven't experienced a noticeable side effect from it. I have thoughts for example will my Dr. have to wean me off my bc, If I switch bc or stop will I have post partum depression? Will my uterus discentegrate, If I ever get off my bc will I need another AD for depression anxiety? As I'm typing this I'm trying not to laugh because it sounds so stupid (I know it does). But I really need to let it out I haven't expressed this with anyone because I know they will look at me like im nuts. I don't want to tell the Dr how I feel because he will just prescribe another AD. Let me say this I feel good for the most part, I use to get a flare up like this about once year now about every year and a half. And this is not as intense.

When I'm not thinking about Paxil  withdrawl or what will happen if? I exercise, enjoy going to the movies and shopping with my family, I work as a hairdresser, long hard days and I enjoy what I do. But when I feel like this I get a little nervous and it makes it hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. But I know for sure they're is one and I hope to one day say I've been Paxil free? On a good note I go see a psychologist on the 13th. I really want to start working on my anxiety issues without drugs. I know that unless I get help I will never be able to do that.

Might I also add, that I don't take Paxil the same time everyday, and my dosages are not precise, after this wave I couldn't even remember where I was suppose to cut and shave the pill. (It's like I got amnesia).]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>The past few weeks have been very hard for me. It started with the unexpected death of my 42 year old cousin who died and left seven kids behind aged 19-3. During the week of her death I could feel my anxiety rising but I held It together I had to support her mother and children.  A few days after her funeral I came down with some sinus stuff I attributed to allergy but I was very sick for four days. When I felt better the fifth day I got up and did some Cardio even though I wasn't 100% better. I was still weak I managed to do 30 minutes on the elliptical machine. That's when all hell broke loose I woke up at 4 a.m not feeling like myself very high anxiety I had an urgent need to go and get a complete physical and I did.  My Dr. said he tested me for &quot;everything&quot; whatever that is and he was very happy with all my test results thyroid, white blood, red blood, liver function, cholesterol, all that good stuff. Even my female exam test were all really good. Praise God.<br />
<br />
 I would like to share my feelings and thoughts with hopes to get some reassurance or ensight. Over the past few week I've experienced Akathasia which I never had before scared the hell out of me, I have a horrible taste in my mouth like I chewed up and asprin, I have absolutely no desire to eat and I'm losing weight. Horrible morning anxiety which I haven't experienced in years. I read some bad reviews about my birth control method online and it has caused me some anxiety although other than bloating I haven't experienced a noticeable side effect from it. I have thoughts for example will my Dr. have to wean me off my bc, If I switch bc or stop will I have post partum depression? Will my uterus discentegrate, If I ever get off my bc will I need another AD for depression anxiety? As I'm typing this I'm trying not to laugh because it sounds so stupid (I know it does). But I really need to let it out I haven't expressed this with anyone because I know they will look at me like im nuts. I don't want to tell the Dr how I feel because he will just prescribe another AD. Let me say this I feel good for the most part, I use to get a flare up like this about once year now about every year and a half. And this is not as intense.<br />
<br />
When I'm not thinking about Paxil  withdrawl or what will happen if? I exercise, enjoy going to the movies and shopping with my family, I work as a hairdresser, long hard days and I enjoy what I do. But when I feel like this I get a little nervous and it makes it hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. But I know for sure they're is one and I hope to one day say I've been Paxil free? On a good note I go see a psychologist on the 13th. I really want to start working on my anxiety issues without drugs. I know that unless I get help I will never be able to do that.<br />
<br />
Might I also add, that I don't take Paxil the same time everyday, and my dosages are not precise, after this wave I couldn't even remember where I was suppose to cut and shave the pill. (It's like I got amnesia).</div>

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			<title>Withdraw suggestion</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 11 May 2013 18:28:11 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>For 8 years i have take Seroxat 10mg and now i wanna reduce it.

Now i have try to reduce with a Liquid Seroxat trough Bob Fiddaman withdraw plan.

In Italy 1ml of liquid paroxetine is equivalent at 1mg of tablet Seroxat.

Now...i easy reduce to 10ml at 7ml (10 drops to 7 drops/day) but at 6 drops i notice anxiety, tachycardia and i was little depressed

So i have increase to 7 drops at day my dosage and now i want often sleep in the morning or when im just awake i fell anxiety....


In your opinion what can i must do?

1) i must return at 10mg of seroxat tablet
2) continue with fiddeman withdraw plan
3) reduce with tablet seroxat and no liquid</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>For 8 years i have take Seroxat 10mg and now i wanna reduce it.<br />
<br />
Now i have try to reduce with a Liquid Seroxat trough Bob Fiddaman withdraw plan.<br />
<br />
In Italy 1ml of liquid paroxetine is equivalent at 1mg of tablet Seroxat.<br />
<br />
Now...i easy reduce to 10ml at 7ml (10 drops to 7 drops/day) but at 6 drops i notice anxiety, tachycardia and i was little depressed<br />
<br />
So i have increase to 7 drops at day my dosage and now i want often sleep in the morning or when im just awake i fell anxiety....<br />
<br />
<br />
In your opinion what can i must do?<br />
<br />
1) i must return at 10mg of seroxat tablet<br />
2) continue with fiddeman withdraw plan<br />
3) reduce with tablet seroxat and no liquid</div>

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			<title>Nervous to Completely Stop....</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 11 May 2013 14:22:02 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[I am headed toward the end of my Zoloft taper, four weeks after 5 weeks of being on a small dose of 25 mgs after an adverse reaction to the medicine, I believe. I'm supposed to stop next Sunday, but I'm so nervous about what to expect. After everything I've read, I just don't know what to expect. What should I expect?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I am headed toward the end of my Zoloft taper, four weeks after 5 weeks of being on a small dose of 25 mgs after an adverse reaction to the medicine, I believe. I'm supposed to stop next Sunday, but I'm so nervous about what to expect. After everything I've read, I just don't know what to expect. What should I expect?</div>

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			<title>PSSD YouTube video??</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 11 May 2013 02:53:10 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>Has anyone seen this video? Interesting, no? 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x0mZvVkXMyE</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Has anyone seen this video? Interesting, no? <br />
<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x0mZvVkXMyE" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x0mZvVkXMyE</a></div>

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			<title>Anxiety and Hyperawareness</title>
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			<pubDate>Sat, 11 May 2013 01:39:51 GMT</pubDate>
			<description>I have had bad anxiety and holy crap am I hyperaware of what my body does. I recently have upper lip tingling that spread to my head and was scared that this could be nerve damage. Sensations in my nody also just feel weirder than normal (but improving with my taper) and I just hae increased numbness in my body in general. Anyone else get this?</description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>I have had bad anxiety and holy crap am I hyperaware of what my body does. I recently have upper lip tingling that spread to my head and was scared that this could be nerve damage. Sensations in my nody also just feel weirder than normal (but improving with my taper) and I just hae increased numbness in my body in general. Anyone else get this?</div>

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			<title>Anxiety and the Archaeologist</title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 10 May 2013 19:17:39 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[This journal will not have anything to do with Archaeology... I just thought it was a catchy title and I do happen to have a Master's in Archaeology/Anthropology. For now, though, I'm an administrative coordinator at a university library. 

I went on Paxil at the end of January because I wanted to stop my anxiety attacks. I have experienced disordered eating for several years and at the beginning of this year it began spiraling out of control and I lost weight very rapidly. Malnourished and underweight, I decided to get treatment. I asked to be put on some sort of anti-anxiety medication so I could help cope with my anxiety and start to recover from anorexia... And they gave me Paxil because it "wasn't addictive like Xanax." (snort)

I didn't really mind Paxil while I was taking it. I was able to keep my crazy mood swings in check, finally! It didn't give me much in the way of side-effects, but I began to object to the insomnia and the totally disappointing orgasms (should I say that they are... anti-climatic? :cool4: BAZINGA!)

Fast forward to May and I'm doing quite well with my eating disorder. I've put on all the weight I had lost and I am better at keeping the disordered thoughts at bay. I figured it was time to saw goodbye to the Paxil. I'm an impatient person so I decided I'd rather just stop taking Paxil altogether. I'd only been taking it a few months, so what's the big deal, right? My last dose was 6 days ago.

Days 1-2 I didn't really notice any symptoms except for the exceptionally vivid dreams and incredible night sweats, which I had experienced a couple times from forgetting to take my pills! No big deal. I can deal with dreams and sweating.

Day 3, the other shoe drops. I basically had a day long "anxiety attack" and broke down while at work. I got home and was too triggered (from my eating disordered thoughts) to eat dinner so I went to bed and slept until the next day!

Day 4 my thoughts and emotions were much easier to control, but I felt like I had the flu. I'm talking cold, clammy skin, dizziness, and a general inability to string two coherent thoughts together. All in all, I felt like I was on drugs or something. (I should note that I'm not a big drug doer so I really have no idea what being on drugs actually feels like) but this day was... trippy, man.

Day 5 (today!) I'm still feeling flu-like with a headache and dizziness. Had a few emotional/anxiety problems this morning that were related to my eating disorder, and I felt like I "had" to work out at lunch which made the cold sweat problem much worse. Right now I'm just kind of floating through the day, which I much prefer to feeling like I'm going to fly off the handle at any second.

So there you have it. My first 5 days of being Paxil-free. I don't think any of these symptoms are too severe that I can't handle them. The dizziness/flu-feelings do make it difficult to function normally, but I will take physical symptoms over the mental symptoms. Having ALL the emotions brimming just under the surface ready to come spewing out with no warning makes recovery from anorexia more difficult than it has been. We'll see what happens over the weekend. My prediction is that more sleep will happen. Sleep is my friend right now. 

Thanks for reading. I probably won't update over the weekend but I'll check in on Monday to give me something to do at work...]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>This journal will not have anything to do with Archaeology... I just thought it was a catchy title and I do happen to have a Master's in Archaeology/Anthropology. For now, though, I'm an administrative coordinator at a university library. <br />
<br />
I went on Paxil at the end of January because I wanted to stop my anxiety attacks. I have experienced disordered eating for several years and at the beginning of this year it began spiraling out of control and I lost weight very rapidly. Malnourished and underweight, I decided to get treatment. I asked to be put on some sort of anti-anxiety medication so I could help cope with my anxiety and start to recover from anorexia... And they gave me Paxil because it &quot;wasn't addictive like Xanax.&quot; (snort)<br />
<br />
I didn't really mind Paxil while I was taking it. I was able to keep my crazy mood swings in check, finally! It didn't give me much in the way of side-effects, but I began to object to the insomnia and the totally disappointing orgasms (should I say that they are... anti-climatic? :cool4: BAZINGA!)<br />
<br />
Fast forward to May and I'm doing quite well with my eating disorder. I've put on all the weight I had lost and I am better at keeping the disordered thoughts at bay. I figured it was time to saw goodbye to the Paxil. I'm an impatient person so I decided I'd rather just stop taking Paxil altogether. I'd only been taking it a few months, so what's the big deal, right? My last dose was 6 days ago.<br />
<br />
Days 1-2 I didn't really notice any symptoms except for the exceptionally vivid dreams and incredible night sweats, which I had experienced a couple times from forgetting to take my pills! No big deal. I can deal with dreams and sweating.<br />
<br />
Day 3, the other shoe drops. I basically had a day long &quot;anxiety attack&quot; and broke down while at work. I got home and was too triggered (from my eating disordered thoughts) to eat dinner so I went to bed and slept until the next day!<br />
<br />
Day 4 my thoughts and emotions were much easier to control, but I felt like I had the flu. I'm talking cold, clammy skin, dizziness, and a general inability to string two coherent thoughts together. All in all, I felt like I was on drugs or something. (I should note that I'm not a big drug doer so I really have no idea what being on drugs actually feels like) but this day was... trippy, man.<br />
<br />
Day 5 (today!) I'm still feeling flu-like with a headache and dizziness. Had a few emotional/anxiety problems this morning that were related to my eating disorder, and I felt like I &quot;had&quot; to work out at lunch which made the cold sweat problem much worse. Right now I'm just kind of floating through the day, which I much prefer to feeling like I'm going to fly off the handle at any second.<br />
<br />
So there you have it. My first 5 days of being Paxil-free. I don't think any of these symptoms are too severe that I can't handle them. The dizziness/flu-feelings do make it difficult to function normally, but I will take physical symptoms over the mental symptoms. Having ALL the emotions brimming just under the surface ready to come spewing out with no warning makes recovery from anorexia more difficult than it has been. We'll see what happens over the weekend. My prediction is that more sleep will happen. Sleep is my friend right now. <br />
<br />
Thanks for reading. I probably won't update over the weekend but I'll check in on Monday to give me something to do at work...</div>

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			<title>Regaining emotions, after polydrug numbness?</title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 10 May 2013 17:47:20 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi,

I'm so glad to have found this site, and I'm wondering if my experience rings true with anyone. From March-June of 2012, I was prescribed a medication (lithium) for what was apparently a brief manic episode, triggered by stress and sleep loss. There were a few meds tried during this time, including a few different drugs to help with sleeping problems. 

One night in June, the drugs created a very strange experience: tingling, grogginess, and-- when I woke up the next day-- a complete *flatness* of emotions. My emotions were just GONE. I remember thinking, "Oh no. Something has been burned out and is broken." There was no warm fuzzy feeling, no gloomy feeling-- just completely numb. During this time I also felt some cognitive blunting and memory issues. I eventually tapered off, and am now almost tapered entirely off lithium. It is almost a year later, and I'm doing much, much better cognitively, and am able to hold down a challenging job, maintain my friendships, etc. I appear, to the outside world, to be totally normal and healthy.

BUT-- and this is a big but-- my *emotions* have not returned. I do not feel. Before this, I was a sensitive, caring, emotional person-- I felt strongly, and that's something I liked about myself.

This feels like the drugs created some sort of *change*-- some part of my brain got "turned off" or injured through drug interactions, and it has not recovered. 

Doctors have no idea what I'm talking about (I've seen a few). I did at one point see a neurologist, who found "white spots" on my MRI, but said it was nothing to worry about. No one I talk to can understand what I mean when I say that my emotions are gone.

Along with the emotion loss are other things related: motivation/ambition/ and the positive feelings that are associated with accomplishing something. I feel like my "reward centers" are not functional-- I do not FEEL anything in response to external factors.

This is very scary. I am looking for hope that this can change.

Has anyone gotten their emotions back after a year or more of numbness?]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi,<br />
<br />
I'm so glad to have found this site, and I'm wondering if my experience rings true with anyone. From March-June of 2012, I was prescribed a medication (lithium) for what was apparently a brief manic episode, triggered by stress and sleep loss. There were a few meds tried during this time, including a few different drugs to help with sleeping problems. <br />
<br />
One night in June, the drugs created a very strange experience: tingling, grogginess, and-- when I woke up the next day-- a complete *flatness* of emotions. My emotions were just GONE. I remember thinking, &quot;Oh no. Something has been burned out and is broken.&quot; There was no warm fuzzy feeling, no gloomy feeling-- just completely numb. During this time I also felt some cognitive blunting and memory issues. I eventually tapered off, and am now almost tapered entirely off lithium. It is almost a year later, and I'm doing much, much better cognitively, and am able to hold down a challenging job, maintain my friendships, etc. I appear, to the outside world, to be totally normal and healthy.<br />
<br />
BUT-- and this is a big but-- my *emotions* have not returned. I do not feel. Before this, I was a sensitive, caring, emotional person-- I felt strongly, and that's something I liked about myself.<br />
<br />
This feels like the drugs created some sort of *change*-- some part of my brain got &quot;turned off&quot; or injured through drug interactions, and it has not recovered. <br />
<br />
Doctors have no idea what I'm talking about (I've seen a few). I did at one point see a neurologist, who found &quot;white spots&quot; on my MRI, but said it was nothing to worry about. No one I talk to can understand what I mean when I say that my emotions are gone.<br />
<br />
Along with the emotion loss are other things related: motivation/ambition/ and the positive feelings that are associated with accomplishing something. I feel like my &quot;reward centers&quot; are not functional-- I do not FEEL anything in response to external factors.<br />
<br />
This is very scary. I am looking for hope that this can change.<br />
<br />
Has anyone gotten their emotions back after a year or more of numbness?</div>

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			<title>For Encouragement</title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 10 May 2013 17:42:51 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hey guys, I wanted to post this for encouragement. Even if it helps a smidge...

I've had dizziness, brain fog, nausea, hypersensitivity, widespread pain, muscle twitching, muscle tightness, tingling and numbness, burning skin, panic attacks, etc. since I pooped out (~9 years on the drug). Thankfully as I got off of Paxil, some of these resolved while all of them have improved or becoming fleeting issues in one way or another. I'm so glad I found this site and the information has been a lifesaver. If I didn't, I would have thought I was going insane. I knew what I was feeling was real!

Because of life situation God placed me in, I have amazing health insurance. I am extremely grateful for this. During the process of not knowing what was going on with my body during poop out (fearing the worst possible things), I had every stinking blood test science has to offer. I even had a full spinal MRI because of the back pain I was experiencing (which is 100x better since being off the drug). I eventually visited a highly touted neurologist in the area after freaking out about my muscle twitching, tingling, numbness and all that other good stuff. He's an amazing guy that told me how he suffered from severe hypochondria in his life. He said he was so bad that he would bump his head and his nose would start running and he would think it was spinal fluid. MRI's showed the obvious, everything was normal. He laughs about it because I'm sure he sees many people like himself. He took me seriously and assured me of the rarity of certain diseases so many worry about. He ordered all these auto-immune tests and even a brain MRI for my own sanity. I said in another post that when I told him I believed Paxil and coming off it was causing these things, he responded with something along the lines of, "It wouldn't surprise me, those meds really mess with your chemicals."

Well I'm here to say that all of these tests/scans came out completely normal. Actually, the only "abnormality" in the head scan I had was that he picked up "incidentally" that I had some sinus swelling from mucous. The past few years, I've had horrid sinus/post-nasal drip issues and this has even shown to be better on some days since ending this poison. I don't know if paxil caused it or not, but I see others with sinus issues on here.


I know I still have a ways to go. It's not easy. It sucks...but I hope this little tidbit provides comfort, even if it's just a bit, to those here currently and to those who will visit in the future.

We read on here many others that have symptoms similar to ours. Sometimes we freak out when there's only 2 or 3 pages of results when we search for something, as opposed to 5 or 6. Even then, I'm convinced our minds leads us to think that it's not enough! Why aren't there more people posting this? My advice -- just check out the number of views these have received. That will tell you there's more people out there probably doing the same thing you are with the same symptom(s).

One day, week and month at a time...]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hey guys, I wanted to post this for encouragement. Even if it helps a smidge...<br />
<br />
I've had dizziness, brain fog, nausea, hypersensitivity, widespread pain, muscle twitching, muscle tightness, tingling and numbness, burning skin, panic attacks, etc. since I pooped out (~9 years on the drug). Thankfully as I got off of Paxil, some of these resolved while all of them have improved or becoming fleeting issues in one way or another. I'm so glad I found this site and the information has been a lifesaver. If I didn't, I would have thought I was going insane. I knew what I was feeling was real!<br />
<br />
Because of life situation God placed me in, I have amazing health insurance. I am extremely grateful for this. During the process of not knowing what was going on with my body during poop out (fearing the worst possible things), I had every stinking blood test science has to offer. I even had a full spinal MRI because of the back pain I was experiencing (which is 100x better since being off the drug). I eventually visited a highly touted neurologist in the area after freaking out about my muscle twitching, tingling, numbness and all that other good stuff. He's an amazing guy that told me how he suffered from severe hypochondria in his life. He said he was so bad that he would bump his head and his nose would start running and he would think it was spinal fluid. MRI's showed the obvious, everything was normal. He laughs about it because I'm sure he sees many people like himself. He took me seriously and assured me of the rarity of certain diseases so many worry about. He ordered all these auto-immune tests and even a brain MRI for my own sanity. I said in another post that when I told him I believed Paxil and coming off it was causing these things, he responded with something along the lines of, &quot;It wouldn't surprise me, those meds really mess with your chemicals.&quot;<br />
<br />
Well I'm here to say that all of these tests/scans came out completely normal. Actually, the only &quot;abnormality&quot; in the head scan I had was that he picked up &quot;incidentally&quot; that I had some sinus swelling from mucous. The past few years, I've had horrid sinus/post-nasal drip issues and this has even shown to be better on some days since ending this poison. I don't know if paxil caused it or not, but I see others with sinus issues on here.<br />
<br />
<br />
I know I still have a ways to go. It's not easy. It sucks...but I hope this little tidbit provides comfort, even if it's just a bit, to those here currently and to those who will visit in the future.<br />
<br />
We read on here many others that have symptoms similar to ours. Sometimes we freak out when there's only 2 or 3 pages of results when we search for something, as opposed to 5 or 6. Even then, I'm convinced our minds leads us to think that it's not enough! Why aren't there more people posting this? My advice -- just check out the number of views these have received. That will tell you there's more people out there probably doing the same thing you are with the same symptom(s).<br />
<br />
One day, week and month at a time...</div>

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			<title>Post-Paxil Life and Adjustments</title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 10 May 2013 13:21:30 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Hi everyone,
I was wondering how anyone has handled life post-Paxil.  Granted, I am less than two months out from being Paxil free, I am having one horrid of a time.  I constantly ask myself if I did the right thing by coming off the medication, and if I am one of those individuals who needs to be on Paxil or another SSRI for life, something I REALLY do not want to have to do. 

It seems like I am proving myself wrong everyday, that this choice was dumb to come off the AD and that I need to reinstate to get my old, though numbed, personality back.  I am a complete monster to be around anymore.   

What are some CBT techniques that have worked best for you?  It seems like I can't even concentrate on implementing even on into my life, let alone changing how I think overall.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Hi everyone,<br />
I was wondering how anyone has handled life post-Paxil.  Granted, I am less than two months out from being Paxil free, I am having one horrid of a time.  I constantly ask myself if I did the right thing by coming off the medication, and if I am one of those individuals who needs to be on Paxil or another SSRI for life, something I REALLY do not want to have to do. <br />
<br />
It seems like I am proving myself wrong everyday, that this choice was dumb to come off the AD and that I need to reinstate to get my old, though numbed, personality back.  I am a complete monster to be around anymore.   <br />
<br />
What are some CBT techniques that have worked best for you?  It seems like I can't even concentrate on implementing even on into my life, let alone changing how I think overall.</div>

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			<title>Random Depression</title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 10 May 2013 12:22:35 GMT</pubDate>
			<description><![CDATA[Recently during the taper, I have been having spells where I have gone into depression and snappiness at other people. I have been crying and thinking nothing will get better and it is really hard. Should I slow down the taper? I was only on Zoloft's 25mgs for 5 weeks and am doing 4 weeks of tapering- with next week being the last week at about a quarter dose, or around 7 mgs.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div>Recently during the taper, I have been having spells where I have gone into depression and snappiness at other people. I have been crying and thinking nothing will get better and it is really hard. Should I slow down the taper? I was only on Zoloft's 25mgs for 5 weeks and am doing 4 weeks of tapering- with next week being the last week at about a quarter dose, or around 7 mgs.</div>

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