Hi, it's me Sweet*Girl and this is what happen to me

Hi guys, I know it has been a while since I have been on here, well after my last post about my break-down and losing my job. I went through hell and well I am and back. I have to tell you guys what I have experianced

First, I hope you guys remeber when my boss fired me, becuase he saw that visited this website and he felt that I was sick and he did not want me working there.

Well I did lose it after that I got no support for my husband about the issue and that hurt a lot. Well I decided that I was not going to let paxil ruin my career.

So jobless I decided to stop paxil and go head on with whatever happens. I still have insuance so I thought that I can always go back if I could not handel it.

Well I stoped cold turkey, and did not feel anything the first week that I was not off, I thought that I was blessed. But I guess that i spoke to soon, the pain and suffering I have been through for the past two weeks are so bad

I was unable to get out of bed I could not eat anything, all I was doing is drink water, and throwing that up. I could not keep anything down. My need for food has disappeared, (which is the reason my doc put me one this because I lost so much weight).

Well I hate paxil it has ruined my life.

If you guys remeber I was going good with it, nothing happen when I first started taking it and I was doing really good. even started putting on some weight. But this med branded me as a sick person. I am going to sue my boss for fireing myfor the reason that he thought that I was mentally sick becuase I was on paxil. just becuase he saw that I visited this site.

Well then to make me so made I saw a commercial for PAXIL CR....the best thing out there....wrong.

all the false hopes that they give people making them think that this thing helps.

Well it does help some people and some do really good, I thought that I was one of those people becuase I could not really relate to what people were writing here. But I was wrong, Paxil ruined my career, then it ruined my life. My husband can't understand why I can't get out of bed and do thing that normal couples our age do, why I can't go running or go to a coffee shop. Why I can't sit up with him for more then 15 20mins without feel dizzing and having to sleep agian...

Well most of the withdarawl is kinda gone but it took my marriage and my career with it. And left me with.....DEPRESSION.......

I thought this med was suppose help defeat depression...not add to it..

Thanks for all of you who cared about me and who were there to help me though this time, there were many nights after fighting with my husband about the way I feel that I want to just over dose and kill myself. But I would get on and just read the message on here and go off thinking that I can't let paxil take my life, not when you guys are trying to so hard to win.

Thank you
Sweet*girl

[JulieG]

I'm so sorry you've had it so rough. Is there no way you can get your husband to understand what you're going through? Paxil has ruined so many relationships and lives. Is there anything we can do? Cold turkey is the roughest way to go... please be careful.

SG, I'm really sorry to hear of your ordeal. I know you were anxious to be done with Paxil, but I think that going off the drug cold turkey is very counterproductive. You can get off it fast that way, but at what cost? Your overall health? Your mental capacity? When you feel the way you do, it is virtually impossible to carry on with day-to-day life, be it in the work setting or in relationships of any kind.

Is there any way that you could go back on a low dose (I said LOW--the least amount to make you "functional") and taper off more gradually? You could also take some over-the-counter vitamins, supplements, remedies, etc. that would lessen your withdrawal symptoms. I firmly believe, and no one will persuade me otherwise, that reducing the dose slowly is the only way to give the brain the time it needs to adjust and recuperate. The brain has been functioning with a drug that has altered its very way of working and, perhaps, its structure in some way, shape, or form. SSRIs do change things. How can you take them away one moment and expect nothing to happen?

I keep hearing that there are people who suffer absolutely no ill effects by going off cold turkey--who the heck are these people? Maybe if someone is on a 10 mg dose, I don't know. But I'll tell you that coming off 60 mg, there would have been NO WAY I would have done it. I missed one dose one day and became disoriented (totally!) and confused to the point of needing help. I hallucinated and was completely wacked out. No thanks.

To anyone complaining of withdrawal symptoms, I say: Take it slower--much slower than you even think you should--and reduce in very small increments. If you have difficulty, stop reducing at all until you feel OK mentally and physically. I will be the first to say that this is one nasty experience--I know, firsthand. I hope we all can make it. I'm not there yet either. <fingers crossed>

SG, make a plan right now. Get friends or relatives to support you in your efforts. Take control of what happens next, to the best of your ability. Just feeling like you have some control is very empowering. Good luck!

First of all many many hugs and sympathy for this awfulness that you are going through! Try to get something to help yourself through this. I know that I lost my appetite during the wd and even after the nausea went away I had to make myself eat to function. I hope that your symptoms start to improve soon.

If you have to, consider trying to taper off the medication. . . that would be much better than suffering, I think.

Many hugs,

Stephanie

Thanks so much, I guess if there is one place I know I can get support it is here.

The withdrawl has gotten better but my weight is down to 94 lb. So for a 25 year old that is very bad.

My husband is acting a little better, but that is only becuase I am not sharing any of my feeling with him, I don't know wht happpen he was so supportive at the begining about this

Well I am not puking anymore and the dizziness has stopped alot compared to what it was, but I have to make myself eat.

I can't sleep at night at all. no matter what. I stay up with bad thoughts of anger.

TTYL,
SWEETGIRL

SG, would you even consider taking some Paxil and then making a sensible plan to taper off? It's just a thought. I hate to think of the emotional upheaval you must be dealing with. Have you tried any of the the OTC stuff to help with the withdrawal? Have you tried taking Valerian Root or drinking some chamomile tea before bedtime? Ginger tablets are very good for the nausea--maybe that would make you more successful with your food intake. Take care.