it's been 2 months since zero and.....

i feel like i'm sinking. The horrible physical problems are gone but i'm battling depression and anxiety and have been feeling very overwhelmed. It doesn't help that i'm newly engaged and have been trying to plan a wedding, as well has having problems dealing with a difficult co-worker that i must manage. sex drive still nil (been years now). one weird new thing is that my stomach is almost perpetually upset. AND my gag-reflex and sense of smell is so sensetive. I take care of my grandpa and visit him every weekend at his nursing home. Now i can't even walk in there without dry heaving or throwing up. I throw up so easily now and become so nauseated so easily and this is totally new. Anyone else experience anythign like this? it's become VERY difficult for me to visit my grandfather, it's so frustrating.

I can't tell if this is all (depression anxiety nausea) still paxil withdrawal, becuase i was going good for a few weeks there.... (i think) but i just know now i've got that ol' familiar sinking feeling.
any insight greatly greatly appreciated.
m.

Hi M,
I read on some of the postings that Dramamine or Bonine help with the nausea, as do ginger tablets. Hope you feel better.
- Joy

sublingual vitamin b12 with folic acid 3 times a day for anxiety. efa's, b-complex 3 times a day, lavender, chamomile, for stress and anxiety.

you might have candida overgrowth like me, try taking bioxy cleanse. you can get it at the health food store, it will make you worse before you get better but i strongly recomend you take it. take care.

[safarigal]

hey Grumpygirl,

Any chance you are pregnant? You might want to get a test!

I know what you mean about the depression and anxiety. I've been off P*hell for just over 3 months and feel rather blah too. But I chalk it up to the mid-winter blues and stagnation of my life. It'll all get better for me within a few months!! I get like this every winter! Maybe that's what it is for you?

hehe. yah my friend who has a 6 mo old said "sounds like you're pregnant to me" . I think it's more like i might have someting really lame going on and i've made a obgyn appointment, because i got two awful periods last month. My sex drive is too low to acheive pregnancy at this point.
All this has weighed so heavy on my mind... just got engaged, no sex drive, having health problems, having major co-worker issues, depression and anxiety from post paxil all while trying to plan a wedding. I called to meet with a therapist this morning to help me make some sense of it all before i slip into a really deep depression. I know i'm slipping because i'm almost always on the verge of tears. thanks for all your input. i'm going to ask about fish oil and start to take my b vitamins tonite. i just feel terrible that i'm like this with my fiance.. i mean even though we've lived together for 3 years and he's seen all of this i hate to be like this during our ENGAGEMENT.. i mean i'm supposed to be happy right now.

[safarigal]

Hey Grumpygirl,

Its hard to be happy when you are under a TON of stress. Go see the therapist and hopefully you'll get everything put into perspective. Can you talk to your boss or HR about the co-worker issues? There's nothing worse than lousy co-workers to ruin your day.

Take some time out for YOU! Read "don't sweat the small stuff" Pick up a book by Dr Phil, read something by Gary Zukov. You'll feel so much better! Do some work on your spirit.

I think you really need to take time out for yourself! You'll find that it makes a world of difference! Take a weekend off and get away!

yah i have been in conferences with HR and it's been so hard. I'm in no way a "tough girl" and so battling for what i believe in has really really taken a lot out of me and really sucked the life out of me. all this during withdrawal has made me second guess everything. It is a lot i'm dealing with and I naturally am really hard on myself.
My fiance and i have known each other on and off for 13 years and so luckily he knows me inside and out... i just hate going through this. I think he feels guilty that since he's proposed i've been a nutso wreck crying at the drop of a hat. i mean reading your post made my eyes well up. I have a don't sweat the small stuff for weddings i think that will be my bedtime reading.
I think going to a therapist will help with all the other swirling stuff (work, wedding planning, i'm a care-giver for my grandfather and visit him weekly, i have been doing alumni interviews for my university for applicants, too darn much!!!!!)
Thanks for listening and offering your kind advice.

well i totally followed your advice safarigal! I went to barnes and noble and bought don't sweat the small stuff and d.s.t.s.s. at work... spent the evening reading with the TV OFF.
those books are very interesting. teaching me to slow down a bit.
then this morning i heard news from my endocrinologist which would make some people wary, but it made me so happy. my synthetic thyroid levels are off so i'm hypothyroid right now. which might be something i can blame a little of the depression, mood swings, snappyness on. so i up my synthetic thyroid tomorrow which should kick in in the next 4-6 weeks. YIPPEEEEE. hopefully that should act like my body getting bathed in a big ol' cup of strong coffee... a little kick in the pants. let's hope.
i also started writing a journal to help me reflect on my feelings from day to day.

m.

Hey Grumpygirl:

It's okay. I was like that in Month 2 too. The nausea and the anxiety especially. February is my Month 7 and I'm still battling similar things, but not as bad. It's so hard to believe when others further out tell you that things will get better as time goes on, but it does get better. Your symptoms are very similar to mine. As I'm very lazy to check the message board sometimes, please feel free to email me at aaschoi@aol.com anytime you want. I have a couple of really good Paxil withdrawal email penpals that have been invaluable to my recovery. Take care and God bless.

Alexis

[safarigal]

Originally Posted by grumpygirl

well i totally followed your advice safarigal! I went to barnes and noble and bought don't sweat the small stuff and d.s.t.s.s. at work... spent the evening reading with the TV OFF. i also started writing a journal to help me reflect on my feelings from day to day.

m.

Thanks grumpygirl!

I think one of the hardest things to do is to get ourselves motivated to get out of a rut! I feel like I spent the last 2 weeks in a rut and it took alot of positive self-talk and reading positive books, articles whatever to get myself out of it. Its so easy to get wrapped up in ourselves and wallow in misery.

Don't watch the news! Don't turn on CNN! Don't think about the crap going on in Iraq! That scares the crap out of me so when I catch myself thinking about it I stop.

Excellent news about the thyroid issue!

Keep smiling!!