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Old 03-06-2012, 11:56 AM   #101
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Re: given in and doing a journal

wow i am impressed by how well you are doing! fantastic!
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Old 03-06-2012, 01:02 PM   #102
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Re: given in and doing a journal

Thanks for the *hugs* brassmonkey!

You are doing great too Jo.

I swear that when i take that last dose in 12 months time i am NEVER taking another anti depressant. The anxiety can do what it likes.
Never again.
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Old 03-07-2012, 07:18 AM   #103
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Re: given in and doing a journal

miserable as sin. anxiety is high at the moment.

right pain in breast is making me anxious plus horrible rainy weather plus my diet is real bad at the moment.

i hate it when i am like this.
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Old 03-07-2012, 07:59 AM   #104
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Re: given in and doing a journal

oh sorry to hear that

re. your breast pain. i get that on and off - always have done. really do not think that is anything to worry about honestly.

u dropped the dose the other day didn't u? that will be why you are feeling bad. it is just temporary and it is not real. you will feel much better soon

take care
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Old 03-07-2012, 08:07 AM   #105
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thanks jo.

i drop this friday x
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Old 03-09-2012, 08:01 AM   #106
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Re: given in and doing a journal

today i drop to 9.2mg.

*single digits*.

Really pleased.

as the drops i am making are now gonna be smaller than 1mg i will be dropping every 3 weeks from now on.
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Old 03-10-2012, 01:31 AM   #107
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thats great julie! am not sure i am going to go that quickly but thats great that u are going for it
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Old 03-13-2012, 05:10 AM   #108
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Re: given in and doing a journal

kylelost took her last paxil two days ago. so pleased. hopefully this will be me in 12 months.

a great quote from Laurie:

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It's a wonderful feeling, isn't it? I can offer this advice from personal experience - Don't wait for the other shoe to drop, don't "expect" anything to happen. Just live your life and be proud of this huge accomplishment. Revel in how much you've learned from this, how you will now be your own advocate and most important, be a shining example to others who think they can't do this, that they'll never be better, or that they're permanently damaged.

There will be bumps in the road of life, but you're so much stronger than you even know because of this experience!
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Old 03-14-2012, 04:30 AM   #109
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got a migraine. so aggitated and vexed.

got no control in my life food wise - i cant stop eating.

when will i get some control back? is it just greed?

miserable.
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Old 03-14-2012, 11:18 AM   #110
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Re: given in and doing a journal

It is just stress eating, I know all about that, munch, munch, munch.

Hope the headache clears up soon.
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Old 03-15-2012, 06:13 AM   #111
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Re: given in and doing a journal

another great quote to suzanne about being free from paxil.

this will be me in 12 months time:

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Your Free, your free, your free!!! Sorry ur feeling icky...This too shall pass I read somewhere today that the wd junk usually lasts around 2- 7 weeks...at least the hairiest parts...that gave me SOME relief...yes, I know there is NO real way to know and we're all different but....man...that sure is nice to think that SOME of us may luck out and get over alot of this crap within 2 months...
You weaned the right way, now just...go with it...anything HAS to be better than being a lifer on these meds right? I'm right here with you and I am coming off effexor...evil and I couldn't wean properly bc of being allergic to it so...ur going to be better off than me, if that helps
But...Ur free...No more being a slave to a pill...That's exciting...
I hope you feel great in record time
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Old 03-19-2012, 08:42 AM   #112
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good quote from jackie:

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It is time for me to let go of WD and all the 'protections' I put in place to help me get through it. Have been working on this for the last month - started eating normally again, the few vitamins I have left are on their way out and most importantly the mind set has to go or I shall become a victim to this for the rest of my life. From here on a bad day is just a bad day - so what, everyone has bad days. On days I am feeling anxious or depressed or anhedonic I shall blame it on moon cycles or the weather or lack of sleep just like 'normal' folk do. The residual issues I shall just have to learn to live with - heck at my age everyone has some kind of problem....... and it is time for me to move on with my life before relating everything to WD becomes a nasty habit. Now that the worst is over (and I know that it is) I can make this next logical step.
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Old 03-21-2012, 04:22 AM   #113
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my hair pulling and the vast overeating is getting me down.

i take this a good sign - that i want to change and am beginning to stop feeling like i dont care about what i am doing to myself.
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Old 03-22-2012, 03:01 PM   #114
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very positive attitude. my weight is getting me down BIG time. i have started weight watchers today and am absolutely determined to do it this time
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Old 03-23-2012, 04:07 AM   #115
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very positive attitude. my weight is getting me down BIG time. i have started weight watchers today and am absolutely determined to do it this time
my urges to eat are terrifying. half the time i am not even hungry. mad.

weight watchers is good. i lost a stone on that last summer.

best of luck x
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Old 03-27-2012, 05:17 AM   #116
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had enough of the over eating. i need to get some control back in my life. re-joining weight watchers again today.
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Old 03-29-2012, 03:36 AM   #117
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tomorrow i drop again. now i am tapering every 3 weeks - the time is whizzing by.

i will drop to 8.4mg.

keep going - thats my motto.
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Old 03-29-2012, 12:59 PM   #118
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very good, i am impressed. well i am staying at 10mg for another month now so a bit slower than u
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Old 03-30-2012, 09:31 AM   #119
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You're getting so close, good job! Now that I'm officially tapering, I love hearing how others are doing, so glad you're getting there!
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Old 04-02-2012, 03:16 AM   #120
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miserable existence at the moment.

i dont want to do anything, my hair pulling is bad and my appetite is out of control.

i have to remember that it is all chemically induced (or reduced should i say!)
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Old 04-03-2012, 09:28 AM   #121
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A positive quote in response to me not wanting to do anything:

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What you are feeling is so normal...I didn't want to do a thing when I tapered....it was awful. The house could have caved in and I could have said..."meh"....and continued watching TV on the couch.

I honestly think that it is truly your brain trying to heal and nothing else takes priority.....
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Old 04-06-2012, 11:05 AM   #122
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The apathy and anhedonia seem to be very high at the moment. I reckon that i have been like this since paxil stopped working, off and on, for three years now.
The difference is now that i know it is withdrawal and chemically induced.
Happy Easter everyone x
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Old 04-09-2012, 03:03 AM   #123
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i think you are doing well coming off so quickly even though you are feeling rubbish. i am doing it more slowly than you as i don't like feeling like that! but good for you persevering.
you could of course consider going a bit more slowly? is there a reason why you are trying to do it so quickly?
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Old 04-09-2012, 03:21 AM   #124
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It isnt that quickly as i am making smaller drops now. My whole taper has been just over the 10% mark. so i am protecting myself by knowing i am doing just over the 10% mark. Hope that makes sense!
Hope that you are well xx
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Old 04-10-2012, 03:57 AM   #125
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very true:

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But it is the devil in disguise. You sell your soul and then it is payback time. That is the problem.
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