Paxil hell and torture

[Kilpleztim]

So three weeks now that I am still trying to get used to up dosing. I am on another nite of no sleep. Its really starting to get to me. I have a feeling my girl friend of almost 20 years is at her last straw with me and the horrible experience. I feel like shes going to turn her back on me. Things have not been so good as of late with me deciding to taper the way I did. Now all the time shes telling me to up dose more to 20mg because she thinks my serotonin levels are not enough to induce normal sleep. She blames all our problems over the last couple of months on me tapering.
Now I'm having all these sleeping issues and when I have been up 24-38 hours straight I become a irritated bear and just about anything she says to me makes me mad or I'm just super over critical. I can't control myself, as soon as she pisses me off I nit pick everything she does and only see the annoying parts. I've even felt like I hate her and I don't want to lose her over something as lame as tapering off paxcil but shes so unsympathetic to what I am going through and I don't get that because I had to help her get clean from xanax a few years ago.
I got some good sleep friday nite finally. I even got 2 more extra hours of sleep sat morning after I woke up from sleeping 7 hours. Now I have to endure another nite of no sleep while everyone in the house is sleeping. That kills me the most...

[Kilpleztim]

Well I got in a whole 3 hours of sleep. Better then nothing.
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[Norma]

Originally Posted by Kilpleztim

Well I got in a whole 3 hours of sleep. Better then nothing.

I am jealous.

[jheaney1]

Withdrawal can cause all kinds of strange, out of character behavior. Try your best to be honest with your girlfriend. It IS temporary. You're withdrawaling from a drug, not turning into a new person. The old you is still there, it just takes time for it to poke through the Paxil blanket.

It's very common to burn bridges and get into trouble while weaning off of Paxil. It can make you do some very crazy things. Just do your best to explain what you feel and get through the worst part without doing something drastic. In a sense, you need to suspend your thinking for a while.

[Bruno2006]

Originally Posted by Kilpleztim

So three weeks now that I am still trying to get used to up dosing. I am on another nite of no sleep. Its really starting to get to me. I have a feeling my girl friend of almost 20 years is at her last straw with me and the horrible experience. I feel like shes going to turn her back on me. Things have not been so good as of late with me deciding to taper the way I did. Now all the time shes telling me to up dose more to 20mg because she thinks my serotonin levels are not enough to induce normal sleep. She blames all our problems over the last couple of months on me tapering.
Now I'm having all these sleeping issues and when I have been up 24-38 hours straight I become a irritated bear and just about anything she says to me makes me mad or I'm just super over critical. I can't control myself, as soon as she pisses me off I nit pick everything she does and only see the annoying parts. I've even felt like I hate her and I don't want to lose her over something as lame as tapering off paxcil but shes so unsympathetic to what I am going through and I don't get that because I had to help her get clean from xanax a few years ago.
I got some good sleep friday nite finally. I even got 2 more extra hours of sleep sat morning after I woke up from sleeping 7 hours. Now I have to endure another nite of no sleep while everyone in the house is sleeping. That kills me the most...

I can totally relate with you regarding the gf thing. Its important to open up and educate them on these drugs and what we are going through. My gf may end up leaving me, or me leaving her bc I cant take the stress anymore and dont have the energy to keep the relationship going. What a mess. Lets try and stay strong.