Kizzie where are you?

hope · 07-12-2004, 01:08 PM

Just checking up Kizzie to see how you're doing. Haven't heard from you in a while.

07-13-2004, 05:49 AM

Thanks for asking about me Hope.
I was just logging in to let everyone know whats happening because I know its horrible when people just disappear.

Things went dramatically downhill and the short version is that I have been put on clomipramine/anafranil an old tryciclic. I really didnt want to do this and am terrified of taking it but in the end there wasnt much choice,

The last week has just been a blur of horrible side effects and I still feel very strange.

I dont know if this is going to help at all but have to believe that something will.
Kizziex

tommyd · 07-13-2004, 07:12 AM

Hi Kizzie,

Your case sounds kind of similar to mine and I just wanted to chime in and say that it does SLOWLY get better. The last few months for me have drammatically improved. Keep in mind my last dose of Paxil was March of '03. I have not taken any other meds since then.

The whole med thing is confusing but if you can get off all of them, in the end it'll be better. I can say it's hell getting thru it; for me the first 8 months after my last dose were the worse. Then it started to let up. For me the worse part was the odd thinking (not at all characteristic of me). There was some negativity thrown in also (once again, not like me). But lately I've been feeling more and more like my old self. Seems there are good days and so-so days.

Just my $0.02.

Tom

emily · 07-13-2004, 07:54 AM

I think you're brave & smart to get help when you need it, Kizzie:
good for you. The older tricyclics have a high side effect profile but an excellent rate of success, I've heard. Maybe check out crazymeds.org
for their info? They're very candid about the risks of anti-depressants, without committing the logical fallacy of saying that because of those risks the drugs are Evil & No One Needs Them.

I'm on 10 mg of Lexapro now & doing great--no anxiety, panic or depression. Scott's on half that dose & seems to be doing admirably. Whatever you do, don't beat yourself up for the choice you've made!!

Em

jeff225 · 07-13-2004, 08:21 AM

Kizzie - I'm so glad you posted. I too was getting concerned. I really hope that the tricyclic works for you. You've been through an awful lot and you deserve to feel much better.

Emily - I'm happy to hear you're doing great on the 10 mg of Lexapro. I really wish that drug was available in Canada. I've been taking 10 mg of Celexa for about a month now and I see no improvement. I still feel very unwell from withdrawal (dizziness, nausea and fatigue) and my anxiety and panic are also still pretty bad. I am stubborn though, and I will not increase my dose nor will I go back on Paxil. I'm just trying to ride this out and hope for an eventual improvement. I'm also seeing a naturopath later today. Oh how I long to return to the person I used to be.

Best,
Jeff

Tom1234 · 07-13-2004, 08:44 AM

Kizzie think of it that your a little wiser now and know what to execpt from these drugs when you withdraw.A lot of us made a couple of attemps before we got off and had to go back on them because the withdrawals where so bad and didn't know what was going on.use the time to build your body up & learn more about it for next time I can tell you that you can do it and it gets better with some time.

God Bless You

Tom

genevieve · 07-13-2004, 12:52 PM

Kizzie,
really happy to hear from you! I hope you are taking care of yourself : you deserve it!!! As long as you think that this drug is a temporary thing to help you live better and not a proof that you are chronically anxious/depress/damaged and NEED something to live, I think it is a good idea. you have suffered a lot and this could give you a break.
Keep us informed of how you feel on that drug.
I will use this topic for a little update.
I took my last paxil july 3 2003 (more than a year ago!!!!!!

)
I took nothing but vitamins and fish oils and gravol since april 2004
from april to july 1th I took 5 mg of celexa. Did not see a big difference
I took 2.5mg of celexa for the last 2 weeks.
I think I am going to take 1,25 mg for 2 weeks and then stop completly.
I am feeling great emotionnally. I am surprised at how good I feel compare to the months of february, march and april when I was just... desparate!!!!
I will start to work in august. A little stress by that (with all the changes : I have been moving from quebec to montreal, quit medical school for a master in biology, etc.).
today I just feel awful but it is because of a cold... can you believe that? A cold in july? I have the fever, the red nose, the headache, etc. all the symptoms! eurk! I dont know if it has anything to do with my decreasing of celexa but it sucks!

I have just re-read my post and I know I sound really selfish talking about me while the topic is for you....

Well, sorry!!!
Remember we are all here to help you kizzie and you are not the first one going on a drug to help with SSRI withdrawal. The one thing I have learn with this ride and that I want to remind you is that "THINGS CHANGE AND SOMETIMES THEY CHANGE FOR THE BEST WHEN YOU WERE AT THE BOTTOM OF YOUR MISERY". I dont know how it sound in english but it is a thought that helps me a lot now because I know I can go very far into feeling bad and... there is still hope.
Ok, my head is just ready to explode so I will go to bed

stupid cold!!!!

hope · 07-13-2004, 07:34 PM

Hi Kizzie,

I was worried about you. I was thinking about you every day.

This paxil thing is horrendous - it has been harder than my wildest dreams. I'll check in periodically to see how you are. Thanks for letting us know.

{{{{{Big Fat Hug}}}}}}

07-12-2004, 01:08 PM	#1
hope Join Date: Nov 2003 Posts: 3,188	Kizzie where are you? Just checking up Kizzie to see how you're doing. Haven't heard from you in a while. __________________ Hope. "I never cared much for flim flam doctors." (Doctor Baker, Little House on the Prairie). Put on Paxil in 1996 for Post-partum depression. After 5th withdrawal attempt, went into severe debilitating withdrawal, restarted Paxil in the ER which didn't work anymore. Taken off again quickly by a shrink, started on Lexapro. Body rejected all drugs except benzos. Currently off all drugs. I'd say I'm recovered. Yeah, I'd say so.

07-13-2004, 08:21 AM	#5
jeff225 Join Date: May 2004 Location: Toronto, Canada Posts: 94	Kizzie - I'm so glad you posted. I too was getting concerned. I really hope that the tricyclic works for you. You've been through an awful lot and you deserve to feel much better. Emily - I'm happy to hear you're doing great on the 10 mg of Lexapro. I really wish that drug was available in Canada. I've been taking 10 mg of Celexa for about a month now and I see no improvement. I still feel very unwell from withdrawal (dizziness, nausea and fatigue) and my anxiety and panic are also still pretty bad. I am stubborn though, and I will not increase my dose nor will I go back on Paxil. I'm just trying to ride this out and hope for an eventual improvement. I'm also seeing a naturopath later today. Oh how I long to return to the person I used to be. Best, Jeff __________________ i remember when, yeah i swore i knew everything, oh yeah let's say knowledge is a tree, yeah it's growing up just like me, yeah

07-13-2004, 12:52 PM	#7
genevieve Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: montréal, canada Posts: 1,441	Kizzie, really happy to hear from you! I hope you are taking care of yourself : you deserve it!!! As long as you think that this drug is a temporary thing to help you live better and not a proof that you are chronically anxious/depress/damaged and NEED something to live, I think it is a good idea. you have suffered a lot and this could give you a break. Keep us informed of how you feel on that drug. I will use this topic for a little update. I took my last paxil july 3 2003 (more than a year ago!!!!!! ) I took nothing but vitamins and fish oils and gravol since april 2004 from april to july 1th I took 5 mg of celexa. Did not see a big difference I took 2.5mg of celexa for the last 2 weeks. I think I am going to take 1,25 mg for 2 weeks and then stop completly. I am feeling great emotionnally. I am surprised at how good I feel compare to the months of february, march and april when I was just... desparate!!!! I will start to work in august. A little stress by that (with all the changes : I have been moving from quebec to montreal, quit medical school for a master in biology, etc.). today I just feel awful but it is because of a cold... can you believe that? A cold in july? I have the fever, the red nose, the headache, etc. all the symptoms! eurk! I dont know if it has anything to do with my decreasing of celexa but it sucks! I have just re-read my post and I know I sound really selfish talking about me while the topic is for you.... Well, sorry!!! Remember we are all here to help you kizzie and you are not the first one going on a drug to help with SSRI withdrawal. The one thing I have learn with this ride and that I want to remind you is that "THINGS CHANGE AND SOMETIMES THEY CHANGE FOR THE BEST WHEN YOU WERE AT THE BOTTOM OF YOUR MISERY". I dont know how it sound in english but it is a thought that helps me a lot now because I know I can go very far into feeling bad and... there is still hope. Ok, my head is just ready to explode so I will go to bed stupid cold!!!! __________________ paxil free since july 2003 Still dealing with agoraphobia and anxiety

07-13-2004, 07:34 PM	#8
hope Join Date: Nov 2003 Posts: 3,188	Hi Hi Kizzie, I was worried about you. I was thinking about you every day. This paxil thing is horrendous - it has been harder than my wildest dreams. I'll check in periodically to see how you are. Thanks for letting us know. {{{{{Big Fat Hug}}}}}} __________________ Hope. "I never cared much for flim flam doctors." (Doctor Baker, Little House on the Prairie). Put on Paxil in 1996 for Post-partum depression. After 5th withdrawal attempt, went into severe debilitating withdrawal, restarted Paxil in the ER which didn't work anymore. Taken off again quickly by a shrink, started on Lexapro. Body rejected all drugs except benzos. Currently off all drugs. I'd say I'm recovered. Yeah, I'd say so.

07-13-2004, 05:49 AM	#2
Posts: n/a	Thanks for asking about me Hope. I was just logging in to let everyone know whats happening because I know its horrible when people just disappear. Things went dramatically downhill and the short version is that I have been put on clomipramine/anafranil an old tryciclic. I really didnt want to do this and am terrified of taking it but in the end there wasnt much choice, The last week has just been a blur of horrible side effects and I still feel very strange. I dont know if this is going to help at all but have to believe that something will. Kizziex

07-13-2004, 07:12 AM	#3
tommyd Join Date: May 2004 Location: Oz Posts: 168	Hi Kizzie, Your case sounds kind of similar to mine and I just wanted to chime in and say that it does SLOWLY get better. The last few months for me have drammatically improved. Keep in mind my last dose of Paxil was March of '03. I have not taken any other meds since then. The whole med thing is confusing but if you can get off all of them, in the end it'll be better. I can say it's hell getting thru it; for me the first 8 months after my last dose were the worse. Then it started to let up. For me the worse part was the odd thinking (not at all characteristic of me). There was some negativity thrown in also (once again, not like me). But lately I've been feeling more and more like my old self. Seems there are good days and so-so days. Just my $0.02. Tom

07-13-2004, 07:54 AM	#4
emily Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Idaho Posts: 365	I think you're brave & smart to get help when you need it, Kizzie: good for you. The older tricyclics have a high side effect profile but an excellent rate of success, I've heard. Maybe check out crazymeds.org for their info? They're very candid about the risks of anti-depressants, without committing the logical fallacy of saying that because of those risks the drugs are Evil & No One Needs Them. I'm on 10 mg of Lexapro now & doing great--no anxiety, panic or depression. Scott's on half that dose & seems to be doing admirably. Whatever you do, don't beat yourself up for the choice you've made!! Em

07-13-2004, 08:44 AM	#6
Tom1234 Join Date: May 2004 Posts: 106	Kizzie think of it that your a little wiser now and know what to execpt from these drugs when you withdraw.A lot of us made a couple of attemps before we got off and had to go back on them because the withdrawals where so bad and didn't know what was going on.use the time to build your body up & learn more about it for next time I can tell you that you can do it and it gets better with some time. God Bless You Tom

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