8 months!

smhfly · 07-25-2005, 05:37 PM

Today is my 8 month anniversary. I had 23 days withput a symptom now its
back, intense aniety and more. It was so wonderful to feel myself and now thi again. Ive been crying alot and im always scared. My husband is going out of town for a week for business, and I am terrified.
myteenage kids will be in and out but Im scared everytime they leave me. I dont ever remember feeling like this its awful not to mention unfair to them. I havent told them very much about all of this , they wouldnt understand, I dont understand myself, but for the most part ive kept it to myself. I was feeling so good i almost started to believe that this terrible ordeal was just a bad dream, but i know its not. I want to feel happy and be happy again. I honestly just feel like giving up! :-( :-( :-(

scotty · 07-25-2005, 05:45 PM

Smh, this is VERY common at this point in withdrawal. Anxiety gets better initially after stopping paxil and then rears it's ugly head again at the 7-9 month mark. It does go away again so don't give up. Roll with it! Yup, it's STILL withdrawal related.

rdjanis · 07-25-2005, 06:53 PM

I agree it is still withdrawal. It is frustrating at this point, the journey has been a long one. At this point in my daughter's withdrawal when the episodes hit they seemed that much harder to deal with because of the longer break of good periods. Good days are ahead, just take it one day at a time.

MicheleT · 07-25-2005, 08:36 PM

smhfly

I know that feeling of terror. I get it everytime I think about driving. Never had it much before (been driving over 25 yrs). When it comes to my kids, as well, I get this panic in me if someone else is going to drive them (not my husband or myself). It's hard to fathom this when I really didn't worry like this before. I keep telling myself I'll be better at the year mark.

I'm just grateful my husband hasn't had to travel much lately for work. He said he may have to in a couple of months. When he said that I could feel myself panicking. This is so unlike me. I lived in different state last year and my husband only came home occasionally for 10 months due to work. I could not do that now not since w/d.

Buxy`s Back · 07-26-2005, 04:01 AM

michele think tjhe driving is a common one,all w/d iv paniced in my car but prior to this i was driving miles on motorways,so heres hoping this ends with the withdrawal for you and me both

MicheleT · 07-26-2005, 10:08 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by joanne

michele think tjhe driving is a common one,all w/d iv paniced in my car but prior to this i was driving miles on motorways,so heres hoping this ends with the withdrawal for you and me both

Me too, Joanne.

feelin'_wiggy · 07-27-2005, 02:20 AM

smhfly,

I'm so sorry to hear you are having a relapse. From what others say, it's temporary, and you know that you were feeling yourself, so try to concentrate on the positive. It will pass and you will feel good again.

Maybe you should try to explain to your children. They might understand more than you think. With so many teenagers on these toxic drugs, your kids might even have friends who have experienced what you are dealing with. I know it's hard to admit to your children that you are sick or scared, but if nothing else, they can learn from your experience. Here's love and good wishes!

07-25-2005, 05:37 PM	#1
smhfly Join Date: Feb 2005 Posts: 127	8 months! Today is my 8 month anniversary. I had 23 days withput a symptom now its back, intense aniety and more. It was so wonderful to feel myself and now thi again. Ive been crying alot and im always scared. My husband is going out of town for a week for business, and I am terrified. myteenage kids will be in and out but Im scared everytime they leave me. I dont ever remember feeling like this its awful not to mention unfair to them. I havent told them very much about all of this , they wouldnt understand, I dont understand myself, but for the most part ive kept it to myself. I was feeling so good i almost started to believe that this terrible ordeal was just a bad dream, but i know its not. I want to feel happy and be happy again. I honestly just feel like giving up! :-( :-( :-(

07-25-2005, 05:45 PM	#2
scotty Administrator & Advocate Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: new jersey Posts: 38,590	Re: 8 months! Smh, this is VERY common at this point in withdrawal. Anxiety gets better initially after stopping paxil and then rears it's ugly head again at the 7-9 month mark. It does go away again so don't give up. Roll with it! Yup, it's STILL withdrawal related. __________________ AKA Laurie "If you can find a path with no obstacles, it probably doesn't lead anywhere." ~Frank A. Clark

07-25-2005, 06:53 PM	#3
rdjanis "has a lavender scented keyboard" Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: Ontario Posts: 22,238	Re: 8 months! I agree it is still withdrawal. It is frustrating at this point, the journey has been a long one. At this point in my daughter's withdrawal when the episodes hit they seemed that much harder to deal with because of the longer break of good periods. Good days are ahead, just take it one day at a time. __________________ Rita

07-25-2005, 08:36 PM	#4
MicheleT Join Date: Dec 2004 Posts: 765	Re: 8 months! smhfly I know that feeling of terror. I get it everytime I think about driving. Never had it much before (been driving over 25 yrs). When it comes to my kids, as well, I get this panic in me if someone else is going to drive them (not my husband or myself). It's hard to fathom this when I really didn't worry like this before. I keep telling myself I'll be better at the year mark. I'm just grateful my husband hasn't had to travel much lately for work. He said he may have to in a couple of months. When he said that I could feel myself panicking. This is so unlike me. I lived in different state last year and my husband only came home occasionally for 10 months due to work. I could not do that now not since w/d. __________________ Michele Paxil (Aropax) free since January 2, 2005 Paxil free for 7 1/2 months On Lexapro since August 14, 2005

07-26-2005, 04:01 AM	#5
Buxy`s Back Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: grimsby,england Posts: 4,463	Re: 8 months! michele think tjhe driving is a common one,all w/d iv paniced in my car but prior to this i was driving miles on motorways,so heres hoping this ends with the withdrawal for you and me both __________________ September 2009, not in severe hell just moderate hell, still recovering Joanne. LITTLE EVIL MEN HIDE BEHIND BIG COMPANY NAMES................QUOTE BY......MOI

07-27-2005, 02:20 AM	#7
feelin'_wiggy Join Date: May 2005 Location: New Orleans Posts: 3,301	Re: 8 months! smhfly, I'm so sorry to hear you are having a relapse. From what others say, it's temporary, and you know that you were feeling yourself, so try to concentrate on the positive. It will pass and you will feel good again. Maybe you should try to explain to your children. They might understand more than you think. With so many teenagers on these toxic drugs, your kids might even have friends who have experienced what you are dealing with. I know it's hard to admit to your children that you are sick or scared, but if nothing else, they can learn from your experience. Here's love and good wishes! __________________ *Deborah* Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage -- Anais Nin ...the most you can hope is to be a little less, in the end, the creature you were in the beginning and the middle. -- Samuel Beckett (The Unnamable) . 1998: Paxil prescribed during mother's battle with cancer. 07/03 thru 05/05: Poop out; 2 botched attempts at wd; bipolar dx; more drugs added 04/05: quit lithium, Adderall and Xanax 05/05: Began 3rd attempt at wd 07/22/05: Liberated! http://www.benzo.org.uk

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