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kalo · 11-21-2005, 11:21 AM

Hi All,

First off, I want to thank EVERYONE in replying to my post. Since I got off paxil in Dec 2004, this board nearly saved my life. Like most I went through hell and back.

I still don't feel as though I am the same person before I went on this drug, but, I feel that I could be making my situtation worst then what it is...

I am an EXCESSIVE WORRIER!! Going off paxil has made it 100 times worst. I catstrophize situations worst then what it is and always think the worst is going to happen...

I worry extensively for my parents (dreading they have a disease) One of disease (which I won't say what it is) I had my Mom tested for (she did it for me to ease my mind) and the test cameback negative...EVERYTHING is fine with my MOM...

Ya think the test and doctors reassurance could of helped me get my mind cleared? My mind is still not convinced....

There is something wrong with me....My family even sees it....In the past I was bad, but not like this not after paxil....I am worst....

I am scared that I will never get better....This Paxil drug has really affected me.

Well, I think the best thing for me to do is accept that I have OBESSION/catstrophizing thinking and realize that my excessive worrying is not reality as it is the poison I put in my mind...Easier said then done...

For those of you that are semi hypochondira or excessive worrying like me the internet is the worst place to be and researching disease can only POISON your mind..

The Paxil Progress is GREAT and informative, and I am greatful for EVEYRONE who replied and answered my questions...

Will I ever stop my EXCESSIVE WORRYING? I hope so, I am going to have to stop my complaining and do something about it.....First I am going to start taking bikram yoga classes. I know that my complusion won't stop over night, but I also know that drugs are not the answer. As for CBT, I believe that talking about my worries only worsen it and gives it more empowerment...

I just want to thank EVERYONE from the bottom of my heart!!! Thank you for all your support! GOD BLESS all of you to a SPEEDY RECOVER!!!! Don't give up hope...I'll believe well all fine a light at the end of the tunnel....

P.S. I have stopped researching my GENERAL ANXIETY on the internet...Trying to find a quick fix solution or any kind of help from self help books to hypnotherapy..NOTHING HAS WORKED!!! I am totally convinced that we are the only ones that fix ourselves...

Delynbetter · 11-21-2005, 11:31 AM

You will succeed! Don't lose that inner faith in yourself. You know you have it.

Shellshock · 11-21-2005, 11:31 AM

Does this mean that you will not be posting anymore Kalo?

Sorry to hear that if this is the case, I do understand you in everything you write, I am too now left with obsessive thoughts like we have discussed previously (never had mine though before seroxat, so we are slightly different here) and it is really a pain in the but, but for me they are decresing and it has only been since coming here to PP, the wonderful help and support I have received I can never thank those involved enough for !!

But if you have decided that this place isn't helping you for whatever reason then all I can say is only you know, so I respect your decision.

Sorry to hear that we won't be hearing from you, but i'm sure if you feel you need support again in the future you will be welcomed back with open arms !!

Take Care and the very best of luck with your future,

Shellshock

kalo · 11-21-2005, 11:37 AM

Hi Shellshock,

As much as I don't want to leave this AWESOME site, I think the only way to heal myself is to stop talking about my anxiety (as I am only giving it empowerment) and try to change my way of thinking...

So, I feel it is best for me to leave at least for a while....I will comeback if I need to...

Again I wish everyone Good Luck on there way to recovery!

rdjanis · 11-21-2005, 11:45 AM

Good luck Kalo, you have a plan and it sounds good!

I think you will find that your problem subsides over time.... it has been one year, most of your healing is accomplished, but not fully yet.

I wish you all the best, I understand why you are leaving, just drop us a post now and then and let us know how you are doing.

Take care.

Scott · 11-21-2005, 12:29 PM

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Originally Posted by kalo

For those of you that are semi hypochondira or excessive worrying like me the internet is the worst place to be and researching disease can only POISON your mind..

i agree.. in research there is a negative opinion on everything.. and those with the loudest voice are usually voicing the negative. There comes a time when you have to say screw it all, i'm living life as it comes and i refuse to worry about it anymore. While i'm sitting here researching my worries everyone else is out there living life. I'm tired of worrying about every little thing, what i eat etc.. my grandfather is 85 years old and probably so because he never worried so much about everything he took in and did. Worry will consume your life.

kalo · 11-21-2005, 01:38 PM

Amen, to your post Scott!!!!

elisa · 11-21-2005, 02:02 PM

Kalo, I'm sure you still have some healing to do since it can take a while. Time is on your side though.

No, I don't believe that we will return to our former self since these meds and the experience in going off them has become part of our lives. We actually gain a new perpective on life by realizing that we DO have choices.

So Kalo, I wish you all the best and continued healing from this traumatic experience. Please pop in once in a while to let us know how you're doing?

wills11 · 11-22-2005, 04:30 PM

I will be sending you a "warm fuzzy" every so often: I like the way you are empowering your own healing :-)

dar7726 · 11-22-2005, 05:29 PM

Come back when you can Kalo....But do what you must to heal.

Hugs,
Darlene

dave · 11-22-2005, 05:53 PM

This type of worry will go with time! it is part of your healing process. I have it and had it but not as intense as it was. Research show that low serotonin can cause this type of worrying and this is what we all have after the [axil has done its worst, our own has to start being made again.
dave

11-21-2005, 11:21 AM	#1
kalo Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 106	Last Post Hi All, First off, I want to thank EVERYONE in replying to my post. Since I got off paxil in Dec 2004, this board nearly saved my life. Like most I went through hell and back. I still don't feel as though I am the same person before I went on this drug, but, I feel that I could be making my situtation worst then what it is... I am an EXCESSIVE WORRIER!! Going off paxil has made it 100 times worst. I catstrophize situations worst then what it is and always think the worst is going to happen... I worry extensively for my parents (dreading they have a disease) One of disease (which I won't say what it is) I had my Mom tested for (she did it for me to ease my mind) and the test cameback negative...EVERYTHING is fine with my MOM... Ya think the test and doctors reassurance could of helped me get my mind cleared? My mind is still not convinced.... There is something wrong with me....My family even sees it....In the past I was bad, but not like this not after paxil....I am worst.... I am scared that I will never get better....This Paxil drug has really affected me. Well, I think the best thing for me to do is accept that I have OBESSION/catstrophizing thinking and realize that my excessive worrying is not reality as it is the poison I put in my mind...Easier said then done... For those of you that are semi hypochondira or excessive worrying like me the internet is the worst place to be and researching disease can only POISON your mind.. The Paxil Progress is GREAT and informative, and I am greatful for EVEYRONE who replied and answered my questions... Will I ever stop my EXCESSIVE WORRYING? I hope so, I am going to have to stop my complaining and do something about it.....First I am going to start taking bikram yoga classes. I know that my complusion won't stop over night, but I also know that drugs are not the answer. As for CBT, I believe that talking about my worries only worsen it and gives it more empowerment... I just want to thank EVERYONE from the bottom of my heart!!! Thank you for all your support! GOD BLESS all of you to a SPEEDY RECOVER!!!! Don't give up hope...I'll believe well all fine a light at the end of the tunnel.... P.S. I have stopped researching my GENERAL ANXIETY on the internet...Trying to find a quick fix solution or any kind of help from self help books to hypnotherapy..NOTHING HAS WORKED!!! I am totally convinced that we are the only ones that fix ourselves...

11-21-2005, 11:31 AM	#2
Delynbetter Join Date: May 2005 Location: Texas Posts: 10,518	Re: Last Post You will succeed! Don't lose that inner faith in yourself. You know you have it.

11-21-2005, 11:31 AM	#3
Shellshock Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: England Posts: 716	Re: Last Post Does this mean that you will not be posting anymore Kalo? Sorry to hear that if this is the case, I do understand you in everything you write, I am too now left with obsessive thoughts like we have discussed previously (never had mine though before seroxat, so we are slightly different here) and it is really a pain in the but, but for me they are decresing and it has only been since coming here to PP, the wonderful help and support I have received I can never thank those involved enough for !! But if you have decided that this place isn't helping you for whatever reason then all I can say is only you know, so I respect your decision. Sorry to hear that we won't be hearing from you, but i'm sure if you feel you need support again in the future you will be welcomed back with open arms !! Take Care and the very best of luck with your future, Shellshock __________________ Prescribed Seroxat 20mg January 2001 (For Panic Attacks) Soon increased to 40mg (Within approx 1 Month) Started Withdrawal June 2004 Seroxat Free since Sept 2004 Nov 2007 - Still having difficult time and w/d nowhere near complete as yet

11-21-2005, 11:37 AM	#4
kalo Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 106	Re: Last Post Hi Shellshock, As much as I don't want to leave this AWESOME site, I think the only way to heal myself is to stop talking about my anxiety (as I am only giving it empowerment) and try to change my way of thinking... So, I feel it is best for me to leave at least for a while....I will comeback if I need to... Again I wish everyone Good Luck on there way to recovery!

11-21-2005, 11:45 AM	#5
rdjanis "has a lavender scented keyboard" Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: Ontario Posts: 22,238	Re: Last Post Good luck Kalo, you have a plan and it sounds good! I think you will find that your problem subsides over time.... it has been one year, most of your healing is accomplished, but not fully yet. I wish you all the best, I understand why you are leaving, just drop us a post now and then and let us know how you are doing. Take care. __________________ Rita

11-21-2005, 01:38 PM	#7
kalo Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 106	Re: Last Post Amen, to your post Scott!!!!

11-21-2005, 02:02 PM	#8
elisa Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 11,509	Re: Last Post Kalo, I'm sure you still have some healing to do since it can take a while. Time is on your side though. No, I don't believe that we will return to our former self since these meds and the experience in going off them has become part of our lives. We actually gain a new perpective on life by realizing that we DO have choices. So Kalo, I wish you all the best and continued healing from this traumatic experience. Please pop in once in a while to let us know how you're doing? __________________ On A/D's since 1995, switching due to side-effects on 30 different brands of TCA's, SSRI's, SNRI's, Antipsychotics, Benzo's & Imovane. 6 ECT's. Tapering from 225 mg Effexor XR May 17, 2004. (Equiv. to 60 mg Paxil) Last taper Effexor XR Jan 17, 2006 down to ZERO. Currently protracted withdrawal. Sept 2006: 25 mg Doxepin. March 13/09: 10 mg Desipramine

11-22-2005, 04:30 PM	#9
wills11 Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: New Zealand Posts: 373	Re: Last Post I will be sending you a "warm fuzzy" every so often: I like the way you are empowering your own healing :-)

11-22-2005, 05:29 PM	#10
dar7726 Banned Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Kentucky Posts: 3,488	Re: Last Post Come back when you can Kalo....But do what you must to heal. Hugs, Darlene

11-22-2005, 05:53 PM	#11
dave Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 363	Re: Last Post This type of worry will go with time! it is part of your healing process. I have it and had it but not as intense as it was. Research show that low serotonin can cause this type of worrying and this is what we all have after the [axil has done its worst, our own has to start being made again. dave __________________ Victory is often a thing deferred, and rarely at the summit of courage.... what is at the summit of courage, I think, is freedom.The freedom that comes with the knowledge that no earthly power can break you. Paula Giddings www.oriahmountaindreamer.com 'The Invitation' enjoy this great piece of writing.

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