Long overdue update

KelleyP · 01-09-2006, 12:18 PM

Hi everyone,

I don't know if any of you remember me, but this site saved my life several months ago when I went off Paxil cold turkey (before knowing what I was doing).

I haven't visited the site any several months (5 or 6), and thought it was time to touch base and give some encouragement to those in desparation. I now see that light at the end of the tunnel. It's still quite far away, but I now see it. A few months back I didn't believe it existed, but now I know it's there.

I am now 8 1/2 months Paxil-free. I'm socializing more now, I'm getting out and about, the depression hits much less often. The physical symptons are few and far-between. It's been a lot of hard work. I still see my psychologist once a week and my reiki master at least once a month. I do lots of breathing exercises and have started working out. I deal with chronic back pain, so the working out is just in the initial stages. The chronic back pain has not helped through all this hell. My doctor figures it definitely contributes to my depression.

Anyways, all this to say, there is hope out there. I still have a long road ahead of me, but I'm sooooooooooo much better than I was many months ago. People even tell me I look healthier and happier. I would never have made it without all of you here. Thankyou so much.

I will try to visit the site more often to encourage others. But things are so busy here now. I wish you all hope and love. Please don't give up...any of you.

Love,
Kelley

chrisgam · 01-09-2006, 12:36 PM

Hi Kelley,
Thank you so much for the encouraging update. I'm so glad that you are doing better! I am almost eight and a half months paxil free and I am also slowly starting to feel better. I'm so glad that you intend to visit more often as an encouragement to others. I remember just a couple of months ago when I was in the pit of despair, reading the updates of some of the members who had been through it and had come out on the other side. It was such a source of hope to me in some of the darkest moments of my life.
Anyway, I'm very happy for you that you are doing so much better!

Chris

TRC · 01-09-2006, 09:41 PM

Always good to hear a encouraging word, hope you continue to improve.

Good luck
Tom

scotty · 01-09-2006, 09:44 PM

Good for you Kelley!! I love to hear that people don't make it back to post because you're to busy having a life.. that is music to my ears!!!

feelin'_wiggy · 01-09-2006, 09:50 PM

That's fabulous news, Kelley. If I might ask, how are you treating your back pain? I'm curious because I also suffer with chronic back pain. Had back surgery many years ago, and scar tissue and arthritis have caused problems in recent years. I swim, walk, and do light Pilates and yoga, but like you, I'm in early stages. It's going to take time to strengthen the back muscles. Anyway, it's great to hear about your success.

sherijo · 01-09-2006, 10:31 PM

Yay! Love hearing this! keeps my hopes up high!

sheri

rdjanis · 01-09-2006, 11:02 PM

Thanks for the update Kelly.... wonderful news!

ducktail · 01-10-2006, 08:33 AM

Please keep posting Kelley, it's stories like yours I need to hear!

Kelli

Suze · 01-10-2006, 04:15 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by KelleyP

I am now 8 1/2 months Paxil-free. I'm socializing more now, I'm getting out and about, the depression hits much less often. The physical symptons are few and far-between. It's been a lot of hard work. I still see my psychologist once a week and my reiki master at least once a month. I do lots of breathing exercises and have started working out.

Hey Kelley, GREAT WORK there girl!
Hope and Love to you too!

KelleyP · 01-16-2006, 11:55 AM

Feelin Wiggy,

Sorry to take so long to get back to you. I have a degerative disk problem. I see a chiropractor at least once a week. He and his wife (also a chiropractor) are very good friends. He is doing his utmost to keep me surgery free for as long as possible, but feels it is inevitable. I'm trying out some naturopathic drops he gave me that is suppose to help. So far so good. I have very specific stretching that I do most days. I just started up with Curves to try and get back into better shape. It's one step at a time. It can be very discouraging at times which doesn't help with the recovery from Paxil, but them's the breaks.

I should start with some light Pilates like you, but chiro wants me to start one thing at a time and not to push it.

Sorry that I don't have more advice. I just take it one day at a time. Take care.

Kelley

01-09-2006, 12:18 PM	#1
KelleyP Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Lennoxville, Qc Posts: 47	Long overdue update Hi everyone, I don't know if any of you remember me, but this site saved my life several months ago when I went off Paxil cold turkey (before knowing what I was doing). I haven't visited the site any several months (5 or 6), and thought it was time to touch base and give some encouragement to those in desparation. I now see that light at the end of the tunnel. It's still quite far away, but I now see it. A few months back I didn't believe it existed, but now I know it's there. I am now 8 1/2 months Paxil-free. I'm socializing more now, I'm getting out and about, the depression hits much less often. The physical symptons are few and far-between. It's been a lot of hard work. I still see my psychologist once a week and my reiki master at least once a month. I do lots of breathing exercises and have started working out. I deal with chronic back pain, so the working out is just in the initial stages. The chronic back pain has not helped through all this hell. My doctor figures it definitely contributes to my depression. Anyways, all this to say, there is hope out there. I still have a long road ahead of me, but I'm sooooooooooo much better than I was many months ago. People even tell me I look healthier and happier. I would never have made it without all of you here. Thankyou so much. I will try to visit the site more often to encourage others. But things are so busy here now. I wish you all hope and love. Please don't give up...any of you. Love, Kelley __________________ Paxil free since April 18, 2005

01-09-2006, 12:36 PM	#2
chrisgam Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Hastings, Nebraska Posts: 156	Re: Long overdue update Hi Kelley, Thank you so much for the encouraging update. I'm so glad that you are doing better! I am almost eight and a half months paxil free and I am also slowly starting to feel better. I'm so glad that you intend to visit more often as an encouragement to others. I remember just a couple of months ago when I was in the pit of despair, reading the updates of some of the members who had been through it and had come out on the other side. It was such a source of hope to me in some of the darkest moments of my life. Anyway, I'm very happy for you that you are doing so much better! Chris __________________ Paxil Free since April 30, 2005!!! On paxil (10mg) for one year. Tapered off over two months with almost no bad withdrawal symptoms. Suffered severe "second wave" of withdrawal four months after taking last dose.

01-09-2006, 09:41 PM	#3
TRC Join Date: Oct 2004 Posts: 58	Re: Long overdue update Always good to hear a encouraging word, hope you continue to improve. Good luck Tom

01-09-2006, 09:44 PM	#4
scotty Administrator & Advocate Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: new jersey Posts: 38,590	Re: Long overdue update Good for you Kelley!! I love to hear that people don't make it back to post because you're to busy having a life.. that is music to my ears!!! __________________ AKA Laurie "If you can find a path with no obstacles, it probably doesn't lead anywhere." ~Frank A. Clark

01-09-2006, 09:50 PM	#5
feelin'_wiggy Join Date: May 2005 Location: New Orleans Posts: 3,301	Re: Long overdue update That's fabulous news, Kelley. If I might ask, how are you treating your back pain? I'm curious because I also suffer with chronic back pain. Had back surgery many years ago, and scar tissue and arthritis have caused problems in recent years. I swim, walk, and do light Pilates and yoga, but like you, I'm in early stages. It's going to take time to strengthen the back muscles. Anyway, it's great to hear about your success. __________________ *Deborah* Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage -- Anais Nin ...the most you can hope is to be a little less, in the end, the creature you were in the beginning and the middle. -- Samuel Beckett (The Unnamable) . 1998: Paxil prescribed during mother's battle with cancer. 07/03 thru 05/05: Poop out; 2 botched attempts at wd; bipolar dx; more drugs added 04/05: quit lithium, Adderall and Xanax 05/05: Began 3rd attempt at wd 07/22/05: Liberated! http://www.benzo.org.uk

01-09-2006, 10:31 PM	#6
sherijo Banned Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: chicago, illinois Posts: 1,358	Re: Long overdue update Yay! Love hearing this! keeps my hopes up high! sheri

01-09-2006, 11:02 PM	#7
rdjanis "has a lavender scented keyboard" Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: Ontario Posts: 22,238	Re: Long overdue update Thanks for the update Kelly.... wonderful news! __________________ Rita

01-10-2006, 08:33 AM	#8
ducktail Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Sydney, Australia Posts: 334	Re: Long overdue update Please keep posting Kelley, it's stories like yours I need to hear! Kelli __________________ Started Aropax 40mg June 1997 Aropax causes me extreme lethargy, brain fog, weight gain, emotional numbness Tapered to 35mg Jan 2006 Tapering by 2.5mg every 2-3 weeks Down to 18mg April 2006 Starting to wake up and feel again!! Tapering by .5 to 1mg at a time Down to 8mg Sept 2006 Down to 5mg late Nov 2006 Back up to 5.5mg late Dec 2006 Down to 3mg June 2007 Down to ZERO 16 September 2007 Stopped taking Murelax Jan 2006 Weight loss: 15kg since Sept 2006

01-16-2006, 11:55 AM	#10
KelleyP Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Lennoxville, Qc Posts: 47	Re: Long overdue update Feelin Wiggy, Sorry to take so long to get back to you. I have a degerative disk problem. I see a chiropractor at least once a week. He and his wife (also a chiropractor) are very good friends. He is doing his utmost to keep me surgery free for as long as possible, but feels it is inevitable. I'm trying out some naturopathic drops he gave me that is suppose to help. So far so good. I have very specific stretching that I do most days. I just started up with Curves to try and get back into better shape. It's one step at a time. It can be very discouraging at times which doesn't help with the recovery from Paxil, but them's the breaks. I should start with some light Pilates like you, but chiro wants me to start one thing at a time and not to push it. Sorry that I don't have more advice. I just take it one day at a time. Take care. Kelley __________________ Paxil free since April 18, 2005

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