Sooooooo discouraged..............

[Amaya's Nana]

Okay guys. I've been at 5.0 now for three weeks. I have been a raving beeyotch the whole time. I finally got my insurance to approve the liquid Paxil (my gawd that stuff is $230.00 a bottle!!!!). So this morning, I took 7.5 mg and I am like a new person!! It is unfrigginbelievable. Am I ever going to be able to get off this stuff?? Are there some people who have to take it all their life or they become mentally unstable without it?? The ups and downs have been horrific and today, for the first time in three weeks, I'm feeling so much better -- all because I took 2.5 mg more.

I am engaged to the most wonderful man in the whole world but his patience is wearing thin with this withdrawal stuff. What a time to find the love of your life and realize this crap is poisoning you and you want to get off. I've been so incredibly mean to him and he doesn't deserve that! I've never been a mean person in my life.

I know its not a race to withdraw. I'm just discouraged that I had to go back up to 7.5, that's all. I suppose I should stay there as long as I need to until I feel comfortable stepping down maybe .5 milligrams at a time. That doesn't seem like much of a step down but I suppose I'm just one of those people who are extremely sensitive to it once you get below the 10 mg. dose.

By the way, I just love this Board and you guys. You give such good advice and encouragement.

[tcl18]

I know it's furstrating - so slow - but it really is the best way. I too felt the urge to rush and the dissappointment when I had to increase my dose. Just rememebr that it is worth it - you'll have your true self back. Wiat a few weeks until you really feel stable before starting the drop again.

[rdjanis]

Now that you have the liquid and since you are finding it so difficult, only cut by 1 mg at a time with stabilizing in between. It is NOT a race to get off, to be successful you need to go slow. It will be easier on the wonderful man you are engaged to

You should be patting yourself on the back for taking control of the situation, don't be discouraged. Take care.

[Amaya's Nana]

Thanks for the encouragement. Here's a big {{HUG}}

[rdjanis]

.... it really does get better, just hold on to that thought. Sometimes it is difficult to see when one is feeling so ****ty.

[Healing]

Hey, JBB -- When I got below 8 mg, I had to slow my wean to two-fifths of a milligram (that's one-fifth of a milliliter) using an oral syringe and the orange liquid. I took a new cut every three weeks. Tries the patience of a saint. But I did get it done. And was able to work at my job.

Congratulations on your engagement. Paxil will be behind you sooner or later. And then you've got a lot to look forward to!

[Brooke]

You are taking care of yourself...don't worry about going back up. Maybe you droped too fast...I've been here at 5mg since Dec 30 and in just the last few days, I've seen improvement. You probably are sensitive to the drop of 2.5. I too have the liquid($100 tho w/o insurance) and will most likely go down by 1mg from now on. Important thing is you are getting off this stuff. You are very lucky to have a supportive guy! Keep up the great work!!!!

[scotty]

Now that you have the liquid you can slow that wean down with tiny increments if that's what's needed. Stabilize and then wean by 1mg and see how it goes.

[Piperpoo]

Hey there! Just wanted to tell you that for me, 5mgs was the absolute worse! It was actually better when I went down to 2,5mgs after 5 weeks. Maybe if your husband came on the site and read the faq, I printed it for mine. His patience still wears thin sometimes, but not because of me, because he knows what i am going through and is angry that I have to go through it. He needs to know that you're gonna go through this, and that you'll be ok. You will be ok.