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08-01-2006, 03:46 PM
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Hi all....
Well, I suppose I need to introduce myself.... and my story.... I began taking Paxil two years ago. I was going through a horrific time (divorce, moving, raising daughter alone, new job, etc.) and I needed help. I went to my doctor who prescribed Paxil. I've read posts throughout the day and saw how people react to their doctors... I have to say mine has been pretty good. She talked about the pros/cons etc. We started at 10, waited, 15, waited, and finally ended at 20mg. I've seen her throughout the two years and discussed options. I've complained about the weight gain... yes I did need to gain weight due to my stress when I started (I was below a zero and now a four)... I know, I know... nothing major, but to me, in my mind, it is. We discussed how to come off of Paxil now that my life has settled... I started by taking the 20 every third day... then I would forget. Finally at my last appointment (last Tuesday) we discussed going to 10 and taking it everyday. So far, so good. I know, everyone has a story, but at the time, Paxil is what I needed (I think). Looking back, I wonder if I should have simply sought out counseling... but that would concede to defeat... that's so not how my family worked... it's very different now... Okay, enough ranting... I'm glad to be here. I need to get off of this and get a hold of my life. When I tried to get off of this earlier I would cry uncontrollably and my three year old daughter would try to comfort me... certainly not a way to live! It hurts me to see that from her... I've always protected her, she I suppose was returning the favor.  Thanks for listening (um, reading... duh). |
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08-01-2006, 03:49 PM
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Welcome!!! Consistent daily dosing is key to getting off of paxil with the minimum of symptoms. Wean in very small doses(2.5max) and then wait until the symptoms go away... then and only then wean again. There is no timeline here... it's up to you and how you feel to determine the right time to wean.
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08-01-2006, 05:40 PM
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Thanks,
After reading several other threads today I know I'm in the right place... sidebar... I hope Shane is okay... it's nice to see how everyone supports each other here, even in deseperate times! |
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08-01-2006, 05:48 PM
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Welcome, mom, I guess I'm entitled to write. You're in the right place.
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Badly damaged by paroxetine: fatigue, nausea and dizziness (when using voice!), diarrhea, rhinitis. Upon withdrawal, hospitalized and brain damaged by electroshock. 30 mg paroxetine 200109 - 200501 Tapered to 0 mg 200501 - 20050519. 0 mg 05 - 06 (3 1/2 weeks) 5-20 citalopram 06 - 07 15 mg escitalopram 07 - 08 6 RUL ECT 200507 20 mg escitalopram 200508 - 200512 Found ect.org and zaprap.org 200509. Tapering to currently 7.5 mg escitalopram since 200512. Found paxilprogress.org 200607. |
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08-01-2006, 06:21 PM
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A slow wean will hopefully help you to reduce those withdrawal symptoms. Definitely don't skip doses - sure-fire way to end up weeping uncontrollably for days on end! Do you have anyone that lives near you that you are close with? You should let anone close to you (in heart, I mean) know that you are attempting this, be brutally honest, thank GOD you have a doc that might not just shove more meds at you. Send them here to this site to read, and for family support - honestly, it has made a world of difference to me, to have some people who didn't understand "what was wrong with me" read some of these stories and get some help from the family support area. It literally changed two or three of my family members mind on my situation - to see that I wasn't "making these things up" or losing my mind, to see what others have gone through.
Good luck to you! Seek us out when you need us! And I really hope Shane is okay too.
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95' - started paxil, 20 mgs; up to 30. two ct's, then 60 mgs for years. 40 mgs in '02, poop-out in '05 start taper= 5/8/06 at 20 = 6/17/06 at 15 = 8/8/06 at 10 = 10/15/06 at 5 = 12/14/06 Paxil free as of 3/8/08 (drops were done gradually - not from 20 to 15 and so on) Smoke-free as of 2/27/08 Still doing well, no smoking yet and I haven't been hospitalized - 10/2/09 "You, however, smear me with lies; you are worthless physicians, all of you!" Job 13:4, KJV Bible |
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08-01-2006, 06:28 PM
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Thanks...
Knock on wood I do have a good doc. Next time I go I will definately tell her about this site. My bf is completely supportive of me. He has been in Australia for two weeks so it has been tough. Thank goodness he'll be home Sunday. My family, especially my Mom, is always helpful. Yesterday morning I called her crying and she came right over. Talked to me, calmed me down, and then took my daughter for the day to give me some space. I never realized that my uncontrolable fits of crying was do to withdrawl of Paxil. I always thought, well that's just the way I am. I definately feel a difference when I am on it and when I haven't taken it for a few days. I never thought how difficult this would be. So, for now, 10 mg is what it has to be.... thanks for listening...
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08-01-2006, 06:34 PM
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Skipping doses will make you hurt, I know this for sure. I cried violently for 6 months this past year, until I started weaning. I mean, I would cry so hard my entire body hurt and I would throw up. I'm 28, and moved back in with my mom for support, and she had to lay in bed with me like I was a child, rocking me back and forth and rubbing my head.
Now I keep a detailed list in which I write how much med I took, what time, what my mood was at the time. It's at least nice to see exactly where I am. I'm glad you have your Mommy too...
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95' - started paxil, 20 mgs; up to 30. two ct's, then 60 mgs for years. 40 mgs in '02, poop-out in '05 start taper= 5/8/06 at 20 = 6/17/06 at 15 = 8/8/06 at 10 = 10/15/06 at 5 = 12/14/06 Paxil free as of 3/8/08 (drops were done gradually - not from 20 to 15 and so on) Smoke-free as of 2/27/08 Still doing well, no smoking yet and I haven't been hospitalized - 10/2/09 "You, however, smear me with lies; you are worthless physicians, all of you!" Job 13:4, KJV Bible |
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08-01-2006, 06:37 PM
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 I am truly lucky to have my Mommy! I moved away back in '98 which really upset my family... exhusband was the basic cause... anyway, when my daughter and I moved back home we lived with my parents. Nothing beats your Mom's love! I hope that I can be there for my own daughter when she needs it. Although, I have already given her the mother curse.... "I hope you have a daughter just like you one day!" 
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08-01-2006, 06:42 PM
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Oh, and that avatar is cracking me up!
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95' - started paxil, 20 mgs; up to 30. two ct's, then 60 mgs for years. 40 mgs in '02, poop-out in '05 start taper= 5/8/06 at 20 = 6/17/06 at 15 = 8/8/06 at 10 = 10/15/06 at 5 = 12/14/06 Paxil free as of 3/8/08 (drops were done gradually - not from 20 to 15 and so on) Smoke-free as of 2/27/08 Still doing well, no smoking yet and I haven't been hospitalized - 10/2/09 "You, however, smear me with lies; you are worthless physicians, all of you!" Job 13:4, KJV Bible |
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08-01-2006, 06:47 PM
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Grover has always cheered me up! I even have a tatoo of Grover holding a daisy. My mom gave me a Grover when I was born and it has been with me ever since. Anytime things got/get tough, Grover was/is by my side!
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08-01-2006, 09:11 PM
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Welcome to the site! You've gotten some great advice here. If you take it, you should be set. Know that paxil withdrawal can cause some bizarre and frustrating symptoms. In a few weeks it is likely that emotions will start returning with a vengeance, and it seems like anger is always first. As the stay-at-home mom of a youngster, it is terrifying to feel the worst rage of your life over some spilled juice. Knowing that it can come to that and recognizing that it is withdrawal will help you tremendously. It's vital that your loved ones understand how this process can temporarily change your personality. Inform them and ask for their patience. It gets better.
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08-01-2006, 11:49 PM
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I went on meds also due to a cross-country move, new career, surprise baby (10 yrs after my first) among other things. Welcome to the site! I have found parenting to be the most difficult part of withdrawal. And the guilt of not parenting well is a heavy weight. Parenting in the best of situations is hard work. My son (6) exploded a light bulb by shooting it with a water gun today and it just seems to be one mess after another and I badger him to clean up etc all day with a terrible tone. We have good times too but this has been the longest, hardest summer ever. Time will help heal the crazy emotions if you take the time to stabilize between drops. It's great you're ready to get a hold on your life! The journey can be rough but my experience is that the real world is so much more full of energy, hope, and, well, reality!
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08-02-2006, 07:22 AM
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I agree with the avator...perhaps a stationary Grover..he is cool and Grover always was one of my favorites watching the show with my kids...he represents compassion, innocence and hope...but please stop him from moving.. Welcome to paxilprogress...it is just an amazing community of support, friendship and love..having a good relationship with your doctor is so important, one I am so jealous of, my doctor seems more concerned with setting new records on how many patients he can see in a day..wham bam get out of my office fill this perscription.....
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08-02-2006, 07:54 AM
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Hope this is better... sorry I didn't know about the light sensitivity... 
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08-02-2006, 08:32 AM
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Look up in the sky it's SUPER GROVER!!! here I come to save the day!!!!
Ah, thanks Mom...moms are great..having lunch today with my 81 yr old mom and my 79 yr old dad...love em both they have been ..no strong enough word..love you both MOM and DAD!!!
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08-02-2006, 09:06 AM
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OMG I LOVE Grover! Hey Mom do you have the book...The monster at the end of this book? It was one of my favs as a kid and now my kids love it too. There is also another book called..Anotehr monster at the end of this book and it has grover and elmo its a RIOT!
And speaking of Mommies my Mom came over on Sunday and she is going home today.
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08-02-2006, 11:08 AM
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Do I have the book There's a Monster at the End of the Book... why but of course! I read it to my daughter all the time... she even knows the parts now and makes the noises... it's hilarious!
Spongebob is our favorite show... okay, sneaky Mom moment... we (daughter, bf, and myself) went to a restaurant and ordered Calamari... only I called them Squidwards... hehehe, she loves them! Thanks for all the welcomes from everyone! I greatly appreciate it!
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08-02-2006, 03:38 PM
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Grover is my favorite! I miss your old avatar, but can understand why you changed it and that was very nice and compassionate of you!
The monster at the end of this book was my favorite book as a kid... I still have my beat-up, torn copy. Anyway, welcome to the site, mom2one. You are among friends.
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On Paxil 30 mg for almost 10 years for GAD/panic attacks. Tapered slowly over the past year because I want to get pregnant eventually! Pregnancy plans now on hold because things are just too difficult. Did slow liquid taper from 8 ml (equal to 16 mg) starting in November. Finished last .5 ml dose on March 29, 2006 after tapering 1 ml every few weeks. Withdrawal has created bad depression on and off. Trying to live in the present moment, and not dwell on the past or worry about the future! |
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08-02-2006, 03:42 PM
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even at our age..well okay I may be older..but it is funny cute how we look at these characters and they still put a smile of innocence in our lifes...
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08-02-2006, 08:39 PM
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08-02-2006, 08:51 PM
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is it the serenity prayer?
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08-02-2006, 08:57 PM
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that's it! I couldn't remember the name of it.... thanks
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08-02-2006, 09:32 PM
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Its funny because I heard that prayer hundreds of times and when I went to an AA meeting for people who live with alcoholics (hubby quit drinking almost 6 years ago
) and I heard it said there the meaning of it finally made sense! And it became my mantra for a while I think it is time to dust it off and start using it again!
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08-02-2006, 09:33 PM
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"God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change,
courage to change the things we can, and wisdom to know the difference."
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08-02-2006, 10:19 PM
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I wonder if that can help some people today...
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