The ME before AD's...I don't want it back

4tiarasand1crown · 09-18-2006, 12:52 PM

The depressed, worried I pushed back with AD's 7 years ago is back. I know this feeling all too well. There is a lot back that I don't like. A lot that I haven't had to FEEL for 7 years now. I don't like this person. I also don't like the numb person, but this person is worse.

I'm depressed and sad....worried....second guessing my friendships all the time based on normal conversations. I don't know what purpose I have in this world...(no I'm not suicidal). I just am not happy at all. I feel like a person unworthy of friends and love. I feel as if the devil is attacking me. I want to cry, but I can't seem to muster that up either.

LCrawford67 · 09-18-2006, 12:56 PM

You won't be the same person, believe me. I didn't like the me before Paxil either. But, I know I'm not even close to the same person! Keep that in mind, you've learned and lived so much more!

punky · 09-18-2006, 01:50 PM

Tiara, it's important that ya know that withdrawl will amplify any feelings like you described that you had before you started celexa. This doesn't mean that this is who you are or who you're gonna be. Lord knows I needed to hear that myself. Keep fighting the good fight.

Katesmom · 09-18-2006, 02:15 PM

Tiara-

I felt that way in early withdrawal and I had never felt that way before. Don't decide this is the you that will be forever yet. It's just too early in the game for that.

4tiarasand1crown · 09-18-2006, 08:32 PM

Thanks guys. Just getting some positive feedback seems to help. I took myself shopping tonight (great therapy for me) and it seemed to take my mind off these neg. feelings. I hope it stays that way for now. I've had a rough couple days.

09-18-2006, 12:52 PM	#1
4tiarasand1crown Join Date: Aug 2006 Posts: 103	The ME before AD's...I don't want it back The depressed, worried I pushed back with AD's 7 years ago is back. I know this feeling all too well. There is a lot back that I don't like. A lot that I haven't had to FEEL for 7 years now. I don't like this person. I also don't like the numb person, but this person is worse. I'm depressed and sad....worried....second guessing my friendships all the time based on normal conversations. I don't know what purpose I have in this world...(no I'm not suicidal). I just am not happy at all. I feel like a person unworthy of friends and love. I feel as if the devil is attacking me. I want to cry, but I can't seem to muster that up either. __________________ My Journey to Regaining Life: August 7, 2006 40mg Celexa to 35mg August 12, 2006 35mg to 30mg. August 26, 2006 30mg to 25mg. September 11, 2006 25mg. to 20mg. September 25, 2006 20mg. to 15mg. October 7, 2006 15mg. to 10mg. Things are getting tougher, but still stabalizing within a week despite large drops. December 2, 2006 10mg. Waiting to drop post holiday. Started doing 1mgs. on Dec. 26th - got restless and quit CT. Celexa free and doing ok.

09-18-2006, 12:56 PM	#2
LCrawford67 Moderator "Everybody poops" Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Ohio Posts: 26,493	Re: The ME before AD's...I don't want it back You won't be the same person, believe me. I didn't like the me before Paxil either. But, I know I'm not even close to the same person! Keep that in mind, you've learned and lived so much more! __________________ aka LC aka Laurie C. Paxil, 20 mg since 1997, for IBS Two unsuccessful attempts to quit. Started tapering 11/27/06 PAXIL FREE 12/29/07 If the only prayer you said in your whole life was, "thank you," that would suffice. ~Meister Eckhart Thanksgiving, man. Not a good day to be my pants. ~Kevin James

09-18-2006, 01:50 PM	#3
punky Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: North Carolina Posts: 834	Re: The ME before AD's...I don't want it back Tiara, it's important that ya know that withdrawl will amplify any feelings like you described that you had before you started celexa. This doesn't mean that this is who you are or who you're gonna be. Lord knows I needed to hear that myself. Keep fighting the good fight. __________________ 7/00-1/1/06 Paxil 20-40mg 1/2-2/18 Paxil CR 25mg 2/19-5/3 Paxil CR 12.5mg 5/4-5/9 Paxil CR 25mg 5/10-5/15 Paxil CR 12.5mg 5/16-6/10 Paxil CR 10mg 6/11-7/13 Paxil CR 6.25mg 7/13-7/31 Paxil CR 3mg 8/1-9/5 Paxil CR 6.25mg 9/6 to 9/11 Paxil 10mg/5ml Suspension 5mg (2.5ml) 9/12 to present Paxil 10mg/5ml Suspension 7mg (3.5ml)

09-18-2006, 02:15 PM	#4
Katesmom Moderator Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Texas Posts: 13,706	Re: The ME before AD's...I don't want it back Tiara- I felt that way in early withdrawal and I had never felt that way before. Don't decide this is the you that will be forever yet. It's just too early in the game for that. __________________ Katesmom aka Kim started Paxil Oct. 2003 for PIH Paxil free since 19 Jul 2005 ". . .the cruelest lies are often told without a word. . .the kindest truths are often spoken, never heard." -- Ben Folds

09-18-2006, 08:32 PM	#5
4tiarasand1crown Join Date: Aug 2006 Posts: 103	Re: The ME before AD's...I don't want it back Thanks guys. Just getting some positive feedback seems to help. I took myself shopping tonight (great therapy for me) and it seemed to take my mind off these neg. feelings. I hope it stays that way for now. I've had a rough couple days. __________________ My Journey to Regaining Life: August 7, 2006 40mg Celexa to 35mg August 12, 2006 35mg to 30mg. August 26, 2006 30mg to 25mg. September 11, 2006 25mg. to 20mg. September 25, 2006 20mg. to 15mg. October 7, 2006 15mg. to 10mg. Things are getting tougher, but still stabalizing within a week despite large drops. December 2, 2006 10mg. Waiting to drop post holiday. Started doing 1mgs. on Dec. 26th - got restless and quit CT. Celexa free and doing ok.

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