back from Ireland

squirrel · 10-27-2006, 06:43 PM

Just got back from a week in Ireland. The break was lovely but I felt like f*****g idiot , clinging to my husbands arm all the time.We got the fe.ry over to Ireland but all the time I was on dry land I felt like I was still on the ferry!! my balance was bloody awful.I spent 2 days in the capital and it was very busy, there was a sea of people walking towards me and I fely very spaced out and off balance.I suppose I should be glad that I made the trip but unfortunatley I dont!! I should have enjoyed the trip but I felt too disorientated!! Its not fair! I am pissed off with all this .I saw people all around me laughing, shopping & taking in the sights and the best I could hope for was that I was still standing and had not had a major panic attack!!Sorry folks just need to scream.

texgirl · 10-27-2006, 07:05 PM

Squirrel, I felt the same way last week when I got back from New York. Instead of focusing on what went well (which was, truthfully, just about everything), all I could think about were the things I didn't do or see. I was physically and mentally exhausted. It literally took me a week to recover, but I feel great now, and am proud that I went. Get as much rest as you can, focus on the good parts, and give yourself credit for making the trip.

Buxy`s Back · 10-28-2006, 04:06 AM

ruth,stop beating yourself up you did amazing ,and the way you described how ya feel,yeah i have that all day every day its horrible.I really couldnt of gotten on that boat so hey a big hats off to ya,you did it no matter how bad ya felt and im proud of ya,chat soon and cant wait to hear about it

Delynbetter · 10-28-2006, 06:37 AM

Slowly, but surely, the ability to enjoy these things is coming back to me. I have learned to pace myself and not to beat myself up because I can't large doses of anything very often.

Your next trip will be better! You're lucky you were willing to hang on to your husband. I wanted nothing to do with anyone and certainly didn't want to be touched by anyone. You done good!

Ginger · 10-28-2006, 08:11 AM

squirrel, i'm with everybody else i think you did great and are an inspiration. you described how i feel so much of the time, i try to hang on and look normal (hope nobody will notice). i'm really grateful that you shared that and hope next time is better.

squirrel · 10-28-2006, 05:27 PM

Thanks guys! I do tend to forget that I am not the only one suffering.I am just running out of patience.Sick of living in a dizzy fog and trying to look normal.Plus the fact that my kids (15 & 13 ) know nothing about it.

Delynbetter · 10-28-2006, 05:30 PM

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Plus the fact that my kids (15 & 13 ) know nothing about it.

Why not?

squirrel · 10-28-2006, 05:38 PM

Well they did not know I even suffered from panic attacks as they were only small when I went on Paxil.I did not ell them I had come off it as they did not know I was on it in the first place If you see what I mean.

Delynbetter · 10-28-2006, 05:42 PM

Yeah, I understand where you're coming from. My kids didn't know I had been on it, but I certainly had to explain what the heck was happening to me and why coming off.

You're doing great. Patience with yourself.

10-27-2006, 06:43 PM	#1
squirrel Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: merseyside uk Posts: 743	back from Ireland Just got back from a week in Ireland. The break was lovely but I felt like f*****g idiot , clinging to my husbands arm all the time.We got the fe.ry over to Ireland but all the time I was on dry land I felt like I was still on the ferry!! my balance was bloody awful.I spent 2 days in the capital and it was very busy, there was a sea of people walking towards me and I fely very spaced out and off balance.I suppose I should be glad that I made the trip but unfortunatley I dont!! I should have enjoyed the trip but I felt too disorientated!! Its not fair! I am pissed off with all this .I saw people all around me laughing, shopping & taking in the sights and the best I could hope for was that I was still standing and had not had a major panic attack!!Sorry folks just need to scream.

10-27-2006, 07:05 PM	#2
texgirl The original" F$%^you "gal, from the cranky corner! Join Date: May 2006 Posts: 2,977	Re: back from Ireland Squirrel, I felt the same way last week when I got back from New York. Instead of focusing on what went well (which was, truthfully, just about everything), all I could think about were the things I didn't do or see. I was physically and mentally exhausted. It literally took me a week to recover, but I feel great now, and am proud that I went. Get as much rest as you can, focus on the good parts, and give yourself credit for making the trip. __________________ Completely free from psychiatry since 8/5/07 If we are fools enough to remain at the mercy of the people who want to sell us happiness, it will be impossible for us to ever be content with anything. How would they profit if we became content? (Thomas Merton)

10-28-2006, 04:06 AM	#3
Buxy`s Back Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: grimsby,england Posts: 4,463	Re: back from Ireland ruth,stop beating yourself up you did amazing ,and the way you described how ya feel,yeah i have that all day every day its horrible.I really couldnt of gotten on that boat so hey a big hats off to ya,you did it no matter how bad ya felt and im proud of ya,chat soon and cant wait to hear about it __________________ September 2009, not in severe hell just moderate hell, still recovering Joanne. LITTLE EVIL MEN HIDE BEHIND BIG COMPANY NAMES................QUOTE BY......MOI

10-28-2006, 06:37 AM	#4
Delynbetter Join Date: May 2005 Location: Texas Posts: 10,518	Re: back from Ireland Slowly, but surely, the ability to enjoy these things is coming back to me. I have learned to pace myself and not to beat myself up because I can't large doses of anything very often. Your next trip will be better! You're lucky you were willing to hang on to your husband. I wanted nothing to do with anyone and certainly didn't want to be touched by anyone. You done good! __________________ Diagnosed anxiety/panic disorder without agoraphobia 1989. Talk/music therapy. Major anxiety and mild depression in 2004 from situational stressors. Began Paxil CR 25mg, 10/04. Quit cold-turkey 5/5/05 as demanded by doctor. Found paxilprogress 5/17/05. Began Paxil CR 12.5mg 5/17/05. Weaned 4 1/2 months. During taper - anx/panic/depression, manic episodes, agoraphobia, suicidal ideation, many other physical symptoms. Paxil-free 10/2/05.

10-28-2006, 08:11 AM	#5
Ginger Join Date: Apr 2006 Posts: 606	Re: back from Ireland squirrel, i'm with everybody else i think you did great and are an inspiration. you described how i feel so much of the time, i try to hang on and look normal (hope nobody will notice). i'm really grateful that you shared that and hope next time is better. __________________ 40 mg paxil for 2.5 years last dose March 24, 2006 quit cold turkey, OUCH over a year now

10-28-2006, 05:27 PM	#6
squirrel Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: merseyside uk Posts: 743	Re: back from Ireland Thanks guys! I do tend to forget that I am not the only one suffering.I am just running out of patience.Sick of living in a dizzy fog and trying to look normal.Plus the fact that my kids (15 & 13 ) know nothing about it.

10-28-2006, 05:38 PM	#8
squirrel Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: merseyside uk Posts: 743	Re: back from Ireland Well they did not know I even suffered from panic attacks as they were only small when I went on Paxil.I did not ell them I had come off it as they did not know I was on it in the first place If you see what I mean.

10-28-2006, 05:42 PM	#9
Delynbetter Join Date: May 2005 Location: Texas Posts: 10,518	Re: back from Ireland Yeah, I understand where you're coming from. My kids didn't know I had been on it, but I certainly had to explain what the heck was happening to me and why coming off. You're doing great. Patience with yourself. __________________ Diagnosed anxiety/panic disorder without agoraphobia 1989. Talk/music therapy. Major anxiety and mild depression in 2004 from situational stressors. Began Paxil CR 25mg, 10/04. Quit cold-turkey 5/5/05 as demanded by doctor. Found paxilprogress 5/17/05. Began Paxil CR 12.5mg 5/17/05. Weaned 4 1/2 months. During taper - anx/panic/depression, manic episodes, agoraphobia, suicidal ideation, many other physical symptoms. Paxil-free 10/2/05.

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