it is getting worse....

gracemynote · 01-01-2007, 11:06 PM

I've still been dealing with that uncomfortable over-awareness of my heartbeat especially in my chest and neck. I know i've been very anxious because I also feel that tightness. Last night, I went to bed and i couldn't sleep at all. Every time I woke up, I was so tense and I could feel the heartbeat all over again and it was so disturing. I finally had it at about 7am, and took a xanax and it completely relaxed and knocked me out until 3pm that day.
I don't know why it keeps doing this. I did have an alcoholic drink that night and maybe my heart rate increased because of that. But it is the most uncomfortable feeling in the world. I don't think anything is seriously wrong, because about a three months ago I was in a car accident. I was hooked up to a heart monitor at the hospital to see if there was anything wrong (it wasn't a serious accident anyway aka hitting a deer/nothing but whiplash but I'm parenoid) and I thought they would have found something if there was something wrong.
The xanax does relieve the tension and I don't notice the heartbeat as much. So is all this directly related to anxiety and am I just overly-focusing on it????

I also have had so many problems sleeping. I can't sleep at night anymore. I also haven't been doing anything since I'm home from school. Seriously, all I do is wake up, lay around all day, and then go to sleep (eventually) sometimes the next morning. So lots of inactivity. I don't know what is going on with me anymore but it is driving me crazy!

rdjanis · 01-01-2007, 11:31 PM

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Originally Posted by gracemynote

I don't know what is going on with me anymore but it is driving me crazy!

Your in withrawal. Your symptoms are common, the anxiety, trouble sleeping, panic. This will pass. I'd leave the alcohol alone in withrawal though, it can really set you back.

Take care!

ducktail · 01-01-2007, 11:35 PM

You cut down from 2.5mg down to 1.5mg about 5 days ago, is that right?

Perhaps a whole 1mg drop at his point is too much. Could you try just a .5mg drop? It may make you a lot more comfortable. Once you get down to these low doses, a little is a lot!!

I truly sympathise with how you feel. I personally notice that the w/d symptoms don't hit until about day 3 after a cut.

I had 2 glasses of wine one night while in w/d, it felt good a the time but later that night I was so tense and AWAKE, I really felt wired. Not a good move I think.

gracemynote · 01-02-2007, 12:40 AM

The no-sleep thing occured while I was still on 2.5 and I had been stablized on that for MONTHS. I don't get it...

I also worry constantly... and I worry about how the stress affects my heart. This is just crazy! I can't stop worrying that worrying will hurt me, how do you break free of this cycle, its insane!

ducktail · 01-02-2007, 04:40 AM

It sounds like you're having a constant panic attack, you poor thing. Would you consider going up to 2 mg? You might be more comfortable, and it's still a cut down from where you were. If you're sure there's nothing really wrong with your heart, then this worry about how the stress affects your heart is very common when we experience panic attacks. Even though this is happening as a result of w/d.

Withdrawal is very very hard. I have found, like you, that it turns day into night re sleep. I can drop off in the day and sleep all day no problem during w/d and find it impossible to sleep at night.

Keep us up to date with how you are going.

Kelli

nicemom · 01-02-2007, 07:15 AM

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Originally Posted by gracemynote

I also haven't been doing anything since I'm home from school. Seriously, all I do is wake up, lay around all day, and then go to sleep (eventually) sometimes the next morning. So lots of inactivity. I don't know what is going on with me anymore but it is driving me crazy!

This is your answer right there. You have too much time to focus on these things. If you were busy you would not notice them as much. You are going through w/d but you also have to keep your relationships and hobbies around. Being sedentary is not good for the body. You need to be taking a walk at least once a day and you need to be cleaning the house, visiting people (even for short periods), call a friend on the phone, put together a puzzle, bake cookies....just laying around is never good for anyone, especially when in w/d.

Make it a point to get your sleeping back on schedule. You need to be sleeping at night and up during the day. Get a little exercise during the day and be busy doing things around the house or whatever so you don't nap. Getting your body moving will help relieve the anxiety and get your blood circulating and also make sure you are eating well (as in healthy foods), drinking lots of water and taking good care of yourself!!!

01-01-2007, 11:06 PM	#1
gracemynote Join Date: May 2006 Posts: 201	it is getting worse.... I've still been dealing with that uncomfortable over-awareness of my heartbeat especially in my chest and neck. I know i've been very anxious because I also feel that tightness. Last night, I went to bed and i couldn't sleep at all. Every time I woke up, I was so tense and I could feel the heartbeat all over again and it was so disturing. I finally had it at about 7am, and took a xanax and it completely relaxed and knocked me out until 3pm that day. I don't know why it keeps doing this. I did have an alcoholic drink that night and maybe my heart rate increased because of that. But it is the most uncomfortable feeling in the world. I don't think anything is seriously wrong, because about a three months ago I was in a car accident. I was hooked up to a heart monitor at the hospital to see if there was anything wrong (it wasn't a serious accident anyway aka hitting a deer/nothing but whiplash but I'm parenoid) and I thought they would have found something if there was something wrong. The xanax does relieve the tension and I don't notice the heartbeat as much. So is all this directly related to anxiety and am I just overly-focusing on it???? I also have had so many problems sleeping. I can't sleep at night anymore. I also haven't been doing anything since I'm home from school. Seriously, all I do is wake up, lay around all day, and then go to sleep (eventually) sometimes the next morning. So lots of inactivity. I don't know what is going on with me anymore but it is driving me crazy! __________________ 2/9/07 – PAXIL FREE!!

01-01-2007, 11:35 PM	#3
ducktail Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Sydney, Australia Posts: 334	Re: it is getting worse.... You cut down from 2.5mg down to 1.5mg about 5 days ago, is that right? Perhaps a whole 1mg drop at his point is too much. Could you try just a .5mg drop? It may make you a lot more comfortable. Once you get down to these low doses, a little is a lot!! I truly sympathise with how you feel. I personally notice that the w/d symptoms don't hit until about day 3 after a cut. I had 2 glasses of wine one night while in w/d, it felt good a the time but later that night I was so tense and AWAKE, I really felt wired. Not a good move I think. __________________ Started Aropax 40mg June 1997 Aropax causes me extreme lethargy, brain fog, weight gain, emotional numbness Tapered to 35mg Jan 2006 Tapering by 2.5mg every 2-3 weeks Down to 18mg April 2006 Starting to wake up and feel again!! Tapering by .5 to 1mg at a time Down to 8mg Sept 2006 Down to 5mg late Nov 2006 Back up to 5.5mg late Dec 2006 Down to 3mg June 2007 Down to ZERO 16 September 2007 Stopped taking Murelax Jan 2006 Weight loss: 15kg since Sept 2006

01-02-2007, 12:40 AM	#4
gracemynote Join Date: May 2006 Posts: 201	Re: it is getting worse.... The no-sleep thing occured while I was still on 2.5 and I had been stablized on that for MONTHS. I don't get it... I also worry constantly... and I worry about how the stress affects my heart. This is just crazy! I can't stop worrying that worrying will hurt me, how do you break free of this cycle, its insane! __________________ 2/9/07 – PAXIL FREE!!

01-02-2007, 04:40 AM	#5
ducktail Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Sydney, Australia Posts: 334	Re: it is getting worse.... It sounds like you're having a constant panic attack, you poor thing. Would you consider going up to 2 mg? You might be more comfortable, and it's still a cut down from where you were. If you're sure there's nothing really wrong with your heart, then this worry about how the stress affects your heart is very common when we experience panic attacks. Even though this is happening as a result of w/d. Withdrawal is very very hard. I have found, like you, that it turns day into night re sleep. I can drop off in the day and sleep all day no problem during w/d and find it impossible to sleep at night. Keep us up to date with how you are going. Kelli __________________ Started Aropax 40mg June 1997 Aropax causes me extreme lethargy, brain fog, weight gain, emotional numbness Tapered to 35mg Jan 2006 Tapering by 2.5mg every 2-3 weeks Down to 18mg April 2006 Starting to wake up and feel again!! Tapering by .5 to 1mg at a time Down to 8mg Sept 2006 Down to 5mg late Nov 2006 Back up to 5.5mg late Dec 2006 Down to 3mg June 2007 Down to ZERO 16 September 2007 Stopped taking Murelax Jan 2006 Weight loss: 15kg since Sept 2006

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