Some things I have learned through all this

nicemom · 10-23-2007, 06:48 PM

A post earlier today made me stop and think about what I have learned from this whole experience. I sat down and made a list of some of the meaningful lessons that I can think of so far, that I have learned about myself and life, going through this excrutiating experience. I wonder if others' have learned the same things? I could go into much detail about each but I will keep it simple.

It's ok to not be perfect.
It's ok to be vulnerable.
Its ok to feel uncomfortable feelings.
What I feel inside is ok.
Its ok to have feelings no matter what they are.
I am stronger than I think I am.
Quiet is ok.
It doesn't matter what other people think about me. It only matters what I think about myself.
Anxiety is just a feeling and I don't have to be afraid of it.
I am more incontrol than I think I am.
My way is not the only right way.
I have learned to stop and really listen.
Relax.
Patience.
It's ok to speak up for what you want.
It's ok to take care of yourself.
The people who really care about you stick by you through thick and thin.
Be gentle with yourself.
I don't have to put on a happy face every day.
I used to be so busy being busy that I didn't know who I really was.
The confidence I used to have was fake. What I have now is real.
I'm ok!
There's no place like home.

rdjanis · 10-23-2007, 06:50 PM

Awesome post!!

Amaya's Nana · 10-23-2007, 06:58 PM

Diane - incredible and awesome post!!!!! That is the key to paxil withdrawal.....if it makes us better, stronger, wiser, more empathetic, more "real", more loving of ourselves, more accepting of others ........ then to me, its all worth it!!!

mapleleafgirl25 · 10-23-2007, 07:19 PM

that is an awesome post!! i love it!!!!! thanks for posting that diane!!!

LCrawford67 · 10-23-2007, 07:20 PM

Kickass, Diane!!!

csnyder002 · 10-23-2007, 07:37 PM

Great post Diane...very inspirational.

Songbird · 10-23-2007, 09:36 PM

Bravo! What a wonderful list!

I believe I am having this experience because there are things I need to learn. Thinking about it as a learning experience helps me to stop feeling angry or 'down' about having to go through the whole experience - you know, when I start thinking "why did I....", "why didn't I...", instead of accepting the way things are.

These are great lessons and I hope that I am learning them too!

jenvspaxil · 10-23-2007, 09:43 PM

That was amazing. I'm going to print that.

akaenew · 10-23-2007, 09:57 PM

Yes- that is amazing. I am tucking it in my purse. thank-you, akaenew

Katesmom · 10-23-2007, 10:13 PM

Love it!!!! You are one tough lady--in the best possible way!

Johnnny off Paxil · 10-24-2007, 10:43 AM

Yup... that about sums it up .. and Dianne that was all learned front the school of hard knocks....its your diploma and no one can take that away from you... its your spiritual growth and IT DOES MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

Thanks for sharing

Regards, Johnny

10-23-2007, 06:48 PM	#1
nicemom Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: NE Ohio Posts: 3,183	Some things I have learned through all this A post earlier today made me stop and think about what I have learned from this whole experience. I sat down and made a list of some of the meaningful lessons that I can think of so far, that I have learned about myself and life, going through this excrutiating experience. I wonder if others' have learned the same things? I could go into much detail about each but I will keep it simple. It's ok to not be perfect. It's ok to be vulnerable. Its ok to feel uncomfortable feelings. What I feel inside is ok. Its ok to have feelings no matter what they are. I am stronger than I think I am. Quiet is ok. It doesn't matter what other people think about me. It only matters what I think about myself. Anxiety is just a feeling and I don't have to be afraid of it. I am more incontrol than I think I am. My way is not the only right way. I have learned to stop and really listen. Relax. Patience. It's ok to speak up for what you want. It's ok to take care of yourself. The people who really care about you stick by you through thick and thin. Be gentle with yourself. I don't have to put on a happy face every day. I used to be so busy being busy that I didn't know who I really was. The confidence I used to have was fake. What I have now is real. I'm ok! There's no place like home. __________________ Diane On Paxil for 5+ years Weaned from 40mg to 15 over a 1 1/2 year period. From 15mg-0 May/June 06 (before finding PP) Protracted w/d from c/t. First 10 mths up and down but tolerable. Akathesia hit at 11 months. Many months of terrible mental and physical torture. 3/09 started Prozac but too stimulating. Currently on 15mg Lexapro and feeling so much better. Not all who waunder are lost.

10-23-2007, 06:50 PM	#2
rdjanis "has a lavender scented keyboard" Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: Ontario Posts: 22,238	Re: Some things I have learned through all this Awesome post!! __________________ Rita

10-23-2007, 06:58 PM	#3
Amaya's Nana An "A bucket" gal! Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Houston, Texas Posts: 6,371	Re: Some things I have learned through all this Diane - incredible and awesome post!!!!! That is the key to paxil withdrawal.....if it makes us better, stronger, wiser, more empathetic, more "real", more loving of ourselves, more accepting of others ........ then to me, its all worth it!!! __________________ a/k/a Lisa PAXIL FREE AS OF 3/18/06! Fully recovered! Currently weaning Klonopin - down to .25 mg - Onward and Upward!!!!!! Focus your attention on the here and now. Recognize it for what it is: the one moment of the only life you will ever have that you truly possess. Rare is the individual who has come to completely accept that the past is no more than a memory and the future an assumption about unborn events.

10-23-2007, 07:19 PM	#4
mapleleafgirl25 Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Vancouver, Canada Posts: 2,132	Re: Some things I have learned through all this that is an awesome post!! i love it!!!!! thanks for posting that diane!!! __________________ aka MICHELE My history with paxil is too long to write here..lol..but you can look at my old posts to see!

10-23-2007, 07:20 PM	#5
LCrawford67 Moderator "Everybody poops" Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Ohio Posts: 26,493	Re: Some things I have learned through all this Kickass, Diane!!! __________________ aka LC aka Laurie C. Paxil, 20 mg since 1997, for IBS Two unsuccessful attempts to quit. Started tapering 11/27/06 PAXIL FREE 12/29/07 If the only prayer you said in your whole life was, "thank you," that would suffice. ~Meister Eckhart Thanksgiving, man. Not a good day to be my pants. ~Kevin James

10-23-2007, 07:37 PM	#6
csnyder002 Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Carthage, NY Posts: 408	Re: Some things I have learned through all this Great post Diane...very inspirational. __________________ 30mg-40mg Paxil (6 years) 10/1/07 30mg Paxil, BusPar,Xanax,Lipitor 10/9 Tapering Paxil 22.5mg 10/22 @ 18.75 mg Paxil 11/6 @ 15 mg Paxil. 11/11 Tapering BusPar, Paxil on hold 11/18 Buspar Free 12/01 Paxil to 10 mg 12/5 up to 12.5 mg Paxil 12/15 10 mg Paxil 12/22 5mg Paxil 12/30 Zero 1/4/08 Back to 10mg 1/19 8.75 mg Paxil, Xanax and Lipitor Free 1/27 7.5 mg Paxil 1/8 5mg 1/23 2.5mg 3/2/08 ZERO/Done again

10-23-2007, 09:36 PM	#7
Songbird Join Date: May 2007 Location: New Zealand Posts: 7,046	Re: Some things I have learned through all this Bravo! What a wonderful list! I believe I am having this experience because there are things I need to learn. Thinking about it as a learning experience helps me to stop feeling angry or 'down' about having to go through the whole experience - you know, when I start thinking "why did I....", "why didn't I...", instead of accepting the way things are. These are great lessons and I hope that I am learning them too! __________________ Jul 01-Feb 02 Aropax Feb - Dec 03 Citalopram Jul 04 Aropax Jan 07 - Feb 08 20mg - 5mg Apr 4.5mg 5mg Jun 10mg zopiclone > seroquel Jul 20mg Aug + methionine Oct aropax > loxamine Dec off seroquel 7 Dec 17.5mg 30 Dec 15mg 24 Jan 12.5mg 16 Feb 10mg 10 May 9mg 30 May 8mg 5 July 7.5mg 2 Aug 7.25mg 1 Sep 7mg 9 Oct 6.75mg 8 Nov 6.5mg Appreciation is the antidote to stress - Trust is the antidote to fear

10-23-2007, 09:43 PM	#8
jenvspaxil Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Chico, California Posts: 213	Re: Some things I have learned through all this That was amazing. I'm going to print that. __________________ 20mg Paxil: 09/13/01 - 05/22/08 10mg Prozac: 09/27/08 - present .5mg Ativan prn: 02/19/09 - present "Difficulties are meant to rouse, not discourage. The human spirit is to grow strong by conflict." - William Ellery Channing

10-23-2007, 09:57 PM	#9
akaenew Join Date: Sep 2006 Posts: 501	Re: Some things I have learned through all this Yes- that is amazing. I am tucking it in my purse. thank-you, akaenew __________________ Akaenew Paxil since July, 1994 As much as 20mg daily 10mg daily for most of 12 years Alternated 5mg and 7.5mg daily ~ last 2 years 5mg daily June, July 2006 2.5 mg daily couple days end of July Last dose of paxil 7-31-06

10-23-2007, 10:13 PM	#10
Katesmom Moderator Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Texas Posts: 13,706	Re: Some things I have learned through all this Love it!!!! You are one tough lady--in the best possible way! __________________ Katesmom aka Kim started Paxil Oct. 2003 for PIH Paxil free since 19 Jul 2005 ". . .the cruelest lies are often told without a word. . .the kindest truths are often spoken, never heard." -- Ben Folds

10-24-2007, 10:43 AM	#11
Johnnny off Paxil Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Persona Non Grata... I am No Expert on Nothing Posts: 2,894	Re: Some things I have learned through all this Yup... that about sums it up .. and Dianne that was all learned front the school of hard knocks....its your diploma and no one can take that away from you... its your spiritual growth and IT DOES MAKE A DIFFERENCE. Thanks for sharing Regards, Johnny

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