W/D, Christmas, and question

Blue · 12-07-2007, 04:56 PM

I almost wanted to go back on. Was so far down, so depressed. I think some of it is Christmas coming and I won't have my kids with me because they are going to their in-laws for Christmas dinner. And, I have to spend alot of time in the stores with the job I have and Christmas is always in my face. It is hard after a thirty year marriage has broken up, but I am going to make the best of it, even if it is just the cat and I Christmas Day. This will be the first Christmas alone. I have invited a friend but she is depressed about her thirty year marriage ending. Worse than I am. I still hope she comes rather than her spending the day alone. We need to make the best of it, so I hope she will come or is able emotionally to come.

Christmas is hard no matter what happens when you have been through alot. Everyone feels losses more acutely. Im also at the five month mark and still having trouble sleeping and much head noise. I had diarhea, but thought food was causing it. I heard about the Paxil six month W/D but thought somehow stupidly, that I had to be six months into it. Now I read that five months is when it can start. Well, of course, everyone has a different body and six months was general.

Are you free of all the W/D once this five or six month thing passes? I thought I would be all done after that but now Im reading about a nine or ten month thing? Please tell me Im at least free of this in a year.

Paxilalmostkilledme · 12-07-2007, 05:06 PM

I am nearing my year since being off and am feeling much better.
I don't regret getting off Paxil and I don't think you will either.

how long have you been off?

Blue · 12-07-2007, 05:13 PM

Been off five months. Was on for two and a half years. Im so hoping to be done with W/D in a year. Not bad just until recently. A friend reminded me that I was like this the last few Christmases. I was a mess when I called her and didn't know why. After waiting the down feeling out, I realized it was true and the other years I was on Paxil so was a little easier. But I really wish the head noise would buzz off. If I shake my head it stops or if I swallow it stops. It is low pitched.

I am glad to hear that you have been off a year and feeling well. Its very encouraging.

Katesmom · 12-07-2007, 05:14 PM

At one year, you will have A LOT more perspective and you will be feeling much better after you hit that one year mark.

For right now, figure out something new, different and FUN to do with your girlfriend on Christmas. If possible, I would try to go on a girl's weekend somewhere close. If not, give each other mani-pedis while you watch silly movies all day. Work with your circumstances instead of trying to get by despite them. If you try to make the meal you usually have with your family and do the things that you would normally do with your family, then the holiday will be a bust.

Paxilalmostkilledme · 12-07-2007, 05:31 PM

5 months is pretty darn good too! Don't worry - you will make it.

Blue · 12-07-2007, 05:38 PM

Thanks.

I really do not want to not make it through this paxil thing.

The meal Im making is the Christmas Dinner, but it is for the next day when the kids come and I also like the big dinner. Maybe next year they will come on the day.

Blue · 12-07-2007, 05:42 PM

I cancelled going with my son and his wife to his in-laws. When I was so down, I cancelled. I couldn't see my way clear to go. After I cancelled I felt some pressure lift because then I could just be whatever way I wanted. Did not want to go in a mood of depression. Im not sure how things will be so decided to just stay away from all the noise. There is too much noise when Im not feeling up to it. Never could take too much. Last time I went I took a benzo before so I wouldn't be all crazy. They are extremely nice, but very large family group.

nicemom · 12-07-2007, 06:25 PM

If you don't feel interested in going, I would stay home too. Is it close enough that you can just drop in for a couple of yours and go home? That would be ideal.

If your friend comes over you could also rent a movie ahead of time or play cards, go for a walk. I hope your day is relaxing! Good luck.

Johnnny off Paxil · 12-08-2007, 10:05 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue

I almost wanted to go back on. Was so far down, so depressed. I think some of it is Christmas coming and I won't have my kids with me because they are going to their in-laws for Christmas dinner. And, I have to spend alot of time in the stores with the job I have and Christmas is always in my face. It is hard after a thirty year marriage has broken up, but I am going to make the best of it, even if it is just the cat and I Christmas Day. This will be the first Christmas alone. I have invited a friend but she is depressed about her thirty year marriage ending. Worse than I am. I still hope she comes rather than her spending the day alone. We need to make the best of it, so I hope she will come or is able emotionally to come.

Christmas is hard no matter what happens when you have been through alot. Everyone feels losses more acutely. Im also at the five month mark and still having trouble sleeping and much head noise. I had diarhea, but thought food was causing it. I heard about the Paxil six month W/D but thought somehow stupidly, that I had to be six months into it. Now I read that five months is when it can start. Well, of course, everyone has a different body and six months was general.

Are you free of all the W/D once this five or six month thing passes? I thought I would be all done after that but now Im reading about a nine or ten month thing? Please tell me Im at least free of this in a year.

Well firstly I like the fact that you have an honest assessment of your emotional status...thats very important..so you know partly what you dealing with.
5 months is still very early withdrawal, to be honest.... December 8th 2008....put that on the new calendar ..... at that point in time you will be 15 months off and I assure you, feeling way better..... as long as you stay away from the benzos or going back on and avoid alcohol..you'll be fine. This is a test of pure mental fortitude and pure brute endurance and brute patience...if you can keep your fears and expectations at bay for this time you'll do fine.
Lastly, why not take this as an occasion to start on your path to healing, don't think of the cup as half empty, think of it as half full, one door closes..and it has to close..for the other door to open. Right now the only thing thats present is the pain , anguish and loneliness ..... it might not make any sense right now..often positive things, positive changes start this way....as my shakuhachi teacher was fond of saying..the "new shoot" is meeting resistance from the soil..this is good..it will make you stronger and healthier.

Regards, Johnny

12-07-2007, 04:56 PM	#1
Blue Join Date: Jun 2007 Posts: 180	W/D, Christmas, and question I almost wanted to go back on. Was so far down, so depressed. I think some of it is Christmas coming and I won't have my kids with me because they are going to their in-laws for Christmas dinner. And, I have to spend alot of time in the stores with the job I have and Christmas is always in my face. It is hard after a thirty year marriage has broken up, but I am going to make the best of it, even if it is just the cat and I Christmas Day. This will be the first Christmas alone. I have invited a friend but she is depressed about her thirty year marriage ending. Worse than I am. I still hope she comes rather than her spending the day alone. We need to make the best of it, so I hope she will come or is able emotionally to come. Christmas is hard no matter what happens when you have been through alot. Everyone feels losses more acutely. Im also at the five month mark and still having trouble sleeping and much head noise. I had diarhea, but thought food was causing it. I heard about the Paxil six month W/D but thought somehow stupidly, that I had to be six months into it. Now I read that five months is when it can start. Well, of course, everyone has a different body and six months was general. Are you free of all the W/D once this five or six month thing passes? I thought I would be all done after that but now Im reading about a nine or ten month thing? Please tell me Im at least free of this in a year.

12-07-2007, 05:06 PM	#2
Paxilalmostkilledme Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Montreal, QC Vancouver, BC Posts: 625	Re: W/D, Christmas, and question I am nearing my year since being off and am feeling much better. I don't regret getting off Paxil and I don't think you will either. how long have you been off? __________________ Paxil - 2000-2006 40mgs, weight gain of 50 pounds tapered for one month as I had to get off due to behavior issues. late Dec 2006....last paxil 3 months of major w/d. supplements: b-complex, mags, fish oil "Your Mileage WILL Vary" should be stamped across every drug dispensed. Your doc shouldn't poo-poo your reaction. You live inside your body. You know what's happening in there.

12-07-2007, 05:13 PM	#3
Blue Join Date: Jun 2007 Posts: 180	Re: W/D, Christmas, and question Been off five months. Was on for two and a half years. Im so hoping to be done with W/D in a year. Not bad just until recently. A friend reminded me that I was like this the last few Christmases. I was a mess when I called her and didn't know why. After waiting the down feeling out, I realized it was true and the other years I was on Paxil so was a little easier. But I really wish the head noise would buzz off. If I shake my head it stops or if I swallow it stops. It is low pitched. I am glad to hear that you have been off a year and feeling well. Its very encouraging.

12-07-2007, 05:14 PM	#4
Katesmom Moderator Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Texas Posts: 13,706	Re: W/D, Christmas, and question At one year, you will have A LOT more perspective and you will be feeling much better after you hit that one year mark. For right now, figure out something new, different and FUN to do with your girlfriend on Christmas. If possible, I would try to go on a girl's weekend somewhere close. If not, give each other mani-pedis while you watch silly movies all day. Work with your circumstances instead of trying to get by despite them. If you try to make the meal you usually have with your family and do the things that you would normally do with your family, then the holiday will be a bust. __________________ Katesmom aka Kim started Paxil Oct. 2003 for PIH Paxil free since 19 Jul 2005 ". . .the cruelest lies are often told without a word. . .the kindest truths are often spoken, never heard." -- Ben Folds

12-07-2007, 05:31 PM	#5
Paxilalmostkilledme Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Montreal, QC Vancouver, BC Posts: 625	Re: W/D, Christmas, and question 5 months is pretty darn good too! Don't worry - you will make it. __________________ Paxil - 2000-2006 40mgs, weight gain of 50 pounds tapered for one month as I had to get off due to behavior issues. late Dec 2006....last paxil 3 months of major w/d. supplements: b-complex, mags, fish oil "Your Mileage WILL Vary" should be stamped across every drug dispensed. Your doc shouldn't poo-poo your reaction. You live inside your body. You know what's happening in there.

12-07-2007, 05:38 PM	#6
Blue Join Date: Jun 2007 Posts: 180	Re: W/D, Christmas, and question Thanks. I really do not want to not make it through this paxil thing. The meal Im making is the Christmas Dinner, but it is for the next day when the kids come and I also like the big dinner. Maybe next year they will come on the day.

12-07-2007, 05:42 PM	#7
Blue Join Date: Jun 2007 Posts: 180	Re: W/D, Christmas, and question I cancelled going with my son and his wife to his in-laws. When I was so down, I cancelled. I couldn't see my way clear to go. After I cancelled I felt some pressure lift because then I could just be whatever way I wanted. Did not want to go in a mood of depression. Im not sure how things will be so decided to just stay away from all the noise. There is too much noise when Im not feeling up to it. Never could take too much. Last time I went I took a benzo before so I wouldn't be all crazy. They are extremely nice, but very large family group.

12-07-2007, 06:25 PM	#8
nicemom Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: NE Ohio Posts: 3,183	Re: W/D, Christmas, and question If you don't feel interested in going, I would stay home too. Is it close enough that you can just drop in for a couple of yours and go home? That would be ideal. If your friend comes over you could also rent a movie ahead of time or play cards, go for a walk. I hope your day is relaxing! Good luck. __________________ Diane On Paxil for 5+ years Weaned from 40mg to 15 over a 1 1/2 year period. From 15mg-0 May/June 06 (before finding PP) Protracted w/d from c/t. First 10 mths up and down but tolerable. Akathesia hit at 11 months. Many months of terrible mental and physical torture. 3/09 started Prozac but too stimulating. Currently on 15mg Lexapro and feeling so much better. Not all who waunder are lost.

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