I'm ANGRY

paxilmania · 01-25-2008, 05:48 AM

This paxil crap has me so pissed off right now. I woke up angry today. Im angry at paxil, at myself, at people who look at me like Im a freakin alien when I tell them about the zaps, at Dr's who dont know crap. Im just all around angry. I feel like punching something.
I feel like such a failure that I havent been able to do this. Im scared Ill never be normal.

LCrawford67 · 01-25-2008, 06:09 AM

I was on Paxil for 10 years. Believe me, you will be normal.

It's ok to be angry, but don't let in consume you. We've all been where you are now. I had two unsucessful attempts at getting off this crap, but when I did it the right way, whatever symptoms I had were very minimal.

I believe, in your other thread, you're going back up in dose and starting this over. If you felt ok on 10 mgs, just go back up to that dose. It'll be easier for you to taper from. Go back to 10, get stable for a month or so, then start your taper.

YOU CAN AND YOU WILL DO THIS!!!

Homerbcool · 01-25-2008, 08:40 AM

The anger part is unfortunately very typical in withdrawal and or poop out...the fact you recognize it for what it is is a major step.

I punch my pillows, scream like a banshee into it....hell, I have even put a glass in a bag, tied the bag up and thrown it against the wall, all becuase of paxhell anger....(the tied bag makes the clean up easier)

Breathe...punch a pillow...breathe...throw a glass...breathe...*UCK YOU GSK!!!

Johnnny off Paxil · 01-25-2008, 09:53 AM

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Originally Posted by paxilmania

This paxil crap has me so pissed off right now. I woke up angry today. Im angry at paxil, at myself, at people who look at me like Im a freakin alien when I tell them about the zaps, at Dr's who dont know crap. Im just all around angry. I feel like punching something.
I feel like such a failure that I havent been able to do this. Im scared Ill never be normal.

Its a very normal part of the process..and being angry and scared is normal..

now for the doctors ..I couldn't agree more how their stupid one liners and Rumsfeldesque quick,sharp quips just piss me off. If they'd get their head out of their rears and get educated and stop playing God with peoples lives, admit they are wrong about AD's and get the dam products off the market and prevent GPs from prescribing them.

Since this started I have a very cynical view of doctors and how useless some of them are...justice would be to have them on these stupid drugs and for them to follow their own moronic withdrawal schedule..then sit back and sadistically watch them suffer and every once and awhile butt in and say" didn't I tell you so!!!! Idiot!!!"
Wow..harsh....but this is how I feel sometimes..the ignorance about SSRI's is truly shocking and upsetting.

Regards, Johnny

Bern · 01-25-2008, 10:20 AM

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Originally Posted by paxilmania

This paxil crap has me so pissed off right now. I woke up angry today. Im angry at paxil, at myself, at people who look at me like Im a freakin alien when I tell them about the zaps, at Dr's who dont know crap. Im just all around angry. I feel like punching something.
I feel like such a failure that I havent been able to do this. Im scared Ill never be normal.

I wake up sometimes with these emotions too. And when I do get angry, I get homocidal thoughts and obsess over them for a few hours. But I will never act on them because I don't want to go to hell when I die.

anjopom · 01-25-2008, 02:24 PM

Hi Paxilmania,

I too am so angry and fed up, I could punch someone's face in right now, just get me one of the directors from GSK, and one of those prescribing lying doctors, and I will personally force feed them for 3 months with the same poison they gave us, then I would make them go c/t and laugh my head off watching them squirm and writhe from the agony associated with w/d, then I would hire 4 bully boys to kick the cr*p out of them, and all the time they were going through this, I would totally ignore their pleas for help, as they do to us when we visit the doc for help with symptoms from w/d.

I would only just feel someway towards revenge, if I ever got the chance to do this, for their poison wrecks lives, I HATE what paxil has done to me, and cry when I read some of the remarks made on this site, and the amount of people who are SUFFERING.

HUGS NOT DRUGS
ANJOPOM

Dawn B. · 01-25-2008, 02:49 PM

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Originally Posted by Homerbcool

The anger part is unfortunately very typical in withdrawal and or poop out...the fact you recognize it for what it is is a major step.

I punch my pillows, scream like a banshee into it....hell, I have even put a glass in a bag, tied the bag up and thrown it against the wall, all becuase of paxhell anger....(the tied bag makes the clean up easier)

Breathe...punch a pillow...breathe...throw a glass...breathe...*UCK YOU GSK!!!

Hey, now that's pretty good that you have the control to put the glass in a bag!!!

I have had SO many days I want to destry something out of sheer frustration!! I've thought about putting my head through the wall, then my fist, but realize I will only hurt myself. And if I have a screaming crying tantrum, I ususally just feel worse afterwards.
And those around you have NO idea what you are going through and it feels like there is no one to help you. Even my husband just doesn't understand and doesn't want to talk about it.

Dawn B. · 01-25-2008, 02:50 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Homerbcool

The anger part is unfortunately very typical in withdrawal and or poop out...the fact you recognize it for what it is is a major step.

I punch my pillows, scream like a banshee into it....hell, I have even put a glass in a bag, tied the bag up and thrown it against the wall, all becuase of paxhell anger....(the tied bag makes the clean up easier)

Breathe...punch a pillow...breathe...throw a glass...breathe...*UCK YOU GSK!!!

Homey, are you in poop out?? I am, and nothing is easy about it.

csnyder002 · 01-25-2008, 03:45 PM

Way to go Johnny!!! I agree... Let's drug the Doctors! Then make them taper the way they tell everyone else to. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

paxilmania · 01-25-2008, 06:49 PM

Thank you! Im so glad Im not alone in this. Ive learned more here than I could from any doctor. I decided to go back on the paxil again and taper more slowly. The withdrawal was just too uncomfortable. Live and Learn!

NYTeach · 01-25-2008, 07:13 PM

I've been reading about these anger symptoms and while it must be awful to experience, rest assured that you still have control and are acting rationally. Here's why:

My son, an EMT (they only help) picked up an emotionally disturbed person yesterday who proceeded to punch him in the face and give him black eye.
The person was incoherent and on who knows what. I was so upset.

So matter how bad or angry you're feeling, you wouldn't do that.

Hoping you'll feel better soon,
Helen

silence4now · 01-25-2008, 07:55 PM

You have every right to be angry. Don't let it get the best of you. Try to find some positive ways to work off your frustration.

01-25-2008, 05:48 AM	#1
paxilmania Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: NY state Posts: 91	I'm ANGRY This paxil crap has me so pissed off right now. I woke up angry today. Im angry at paxil, at myself, at people who look at me like Im a freakin alien when I tell them about the zaps, at Dr's who dont know crap. Im just all around angry. I feel like punching something. I feel like such a failure that I havent been able to do this. Im scared Ill never be normal. __________________ - on paxil since 1997 - CT last dose of 2.5 mg was 1/17/8 went through a week of agony -huge mistake -started back on paxil 2.5 mg 1/25/8 -2/14/8-back to 5mgs -06/16/08-4.4 mg -07/01/08-4.0 mg -08/01/08-1.7 ML -10/25/08-0.8 ML liquid (1.6 mg) -update 05/2009- off paxil completeley as of a couple months ago!

01-25-2008, 06:09 AM	#2
LCrawford67 Moderator "Everybody poops" Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Ohio Posts: 26,493	Re: I'm ANGRY I was on Paxil for 10 years. Believe me, you will be normal. It's ok to be angry, but don't let in consume you. We've all been where you are now. I had two unsucessful attempts at getting off this crap, but when I did it the right way, whatever symptoms I had were very minimal. I believe, in your other thread, you're going back up in dose and starting this over. If you felt ok on 10 mgs, just go back up to that dose. It'll be easier for you to taper from. Go back to 10, get stable for a month or so, then start your taper. YOU CAN AND YOU WILL DO THIS!!! __________________ aka LC aka Laurie C. Paxil, 20 mg since 1997, for IBS Two unsuccessful attempts to quit. Started tapering 11/27/06 PAXIL FREE 12/29/07 If the only prayer you said in your whole life was, "thank you," that would suffice. ~Meister Eckhart Thanksgiving, man. Not a good day to be my pants. ~Kevin James

01-25-2008, 08:40 AM	#3
Homerbcool "colors outside the lines" Join Date: Jan 2005 Posts: 15,949	Re: I'm ANGRY The anger part is unfortunately very typical in withdrawal and or poop out...the fact you recognize it for what it is is a major step. I punch my pillows, scream like a banshee into it....hell, I have even put a glass in a bag, tied the bag up and thrown it against the wall, all becuase of paxhell anger....(the tied bag makes the clean up easier) Breathe...punch a pillow...breathe...throw a glass...breathe...*UCK YOU GSK!!! __________________ That's one of the curses of anxiety--we make possibilities into certainties.....Tim

01-25-2008, 02:24 PM	#6
anjopom Join Date: Oct 2006 Posts: 1,548	Re: I'm ANGRY Hi Paxilmania, I too am so angry and fed up, I could punch someone's face in right now, just get me one of the directors from GSK, and one of those prescribing lying doctors, and I will personally force feed them for 3 months with the same poison they gave us, then I would make them go c/t and laugh my head off watching them squirm and writhe from the agony associated with w/d, then I would hire 4 bully boys to kick the cr*p out of them, and all the time they were going through this, I would totally ignore their pleas for help, as they do to us when we visit the doc for help with symptoms from w/d. I would only just feel someway towards revenge, if I ever got the chance to do this, for their poison wrecks lives, I HATE what paxil has done to me, and cry when I read some of the remarks made on this site, and the amount of people who are SUFFERING. HUGS NOT DRUGS ANJOPOM

01-25-2008, 03:45 PM	#9
csnyder002 Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Carthage, NY Posts: 408	Re: I'm ANGRY Way to go Johnny!!! I agree... Let's drug the Doctors! Then make them taper the way they tell everyone else to. HAHAHAHAHAHA. __________________ 30mg-40mg Paxil (6 years) 10/1/07 30mg Paxil, BusPar,Xanax,Lipitor 10/9 Tapering Paxil 22.5mg 10/22 @ 18.75 mg Paxil 11/6 @ 15 mg Paxil. 11/11 Tapering BusPar, Paxil on hold 11/18 Buspar Free 12/01 Paxil to 10 mg 12/5 up to 12.5 mg Paxil 12/15 10 mg Paxil 12/22 5mg Paxil 12/30 Zero 1/4/08 Back to 10mg 1/19 8.75 mg Paxil, Xanax and Lipitor Free 1/27 7.5 mg Paxil 1/8 5mg 1/23 2.5mg 3/2/08 ZERO/Done again

01-25-2008, 06:49 PM	#10
paxilmania Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: NY state Posts: 91	Re: I'm ANGRY Thank you! Im so glad Im not alone in this. Ive learned more here than I could from any doctor. I decided to go back on the paxil again and taper more slowly. The withdrawal was just too uncomfortable. Live and Learn! __________________ - on paxil since 1997 - CT last dose of 2.5 mg was 1/17/8 went through a week of agony -huge mistake -started back on paxil 2.5 mg 1/25/8 -2/14/8-back to 5mgs -06/16/08-4.4 mg -07/01/08-4.0 mg -08/01/08-1.7 ML -10/25/08-0.8 ML liquid (1.6 mg) -update 05/2009- off paxil completeley as of a couple months ago!

01-25-2008, 07:13 PM	#11
NYTeach Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 138	Re: I'm ANGRY I've been reading about these anger symptoms and while it must be awful to experience, rest assured that you still have control and are acting rationally. Here's why: My son, an EMT (they only help) picked up an emotionally disturbed person yesterday who proceeded to punch him in the face and give him black eye. The person was incoherent and on who knows what. I was so upset. So matter how bad or angry you're feeling, you wouldn't do that. Hoping you'll feel better soon, Helen __________________ 20 Mg. Paxil and .5 mg. Ativan (6 days-Aug. 2007) 30 Mg. Paxil (1 day -Aug. 2007) Side effects began and I stopped everything November 2007 - Feeling much better April 2008 - Fully recovered

01-25-2008, 07:55 PM	#12
silence4now Join Date: May 2004 Location: SE U.S. Posts: 3,422	Re: I'm ANGRY You have every right to be angry. Don't let it get the best of you. Try to find some positive ways to work off your frustration. __________________ Lisa - Paxil free since May 2004 _________________________________ God's economy is always positive.

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