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[moedaddy]

Just a couple days ago I wrote my 18 month update. And now this wave is getting to me...at least I hope it's just the wave.

Even during my good days, I would think why is it that w/d happens...or what is that which we call w/d. We are so complex and have different histories that it will be hard to find out.

I think I wrote about this before...that I was given paxil and cipro at the same time. Within days I was at the emergency room feeling burning inside of me..and I mean burning!...tingling, and very very anxious. I was literally screaming on the bed crawled in a ball. I stopped taking cipro then, but continued with paxil for the following 16 months because they thought I had anxiety.

I got across this site: http://fqvictims.org/fqvictims/index.htm and it lists some of the symptoms, which they said can be cripling and permanent: anxiety, dizziness, burning, tingling, confusion...(anxiety and dizziness are my worst symptoms).

I know most symptoms there are like paxil's w/d symptoms. But having burning (on my skin) return just this morning, along with very heightened anxiety, makes me wonder if I'm dealing with cipro instead of paxil - or both.
Or maybe the combination of the two was the culprit.

Did anybody here have that experience with these two meds? Either both at once, or one before the other...? Or are you familiar with this?
Are those really permanent, like the website says?

I don't know how to deal with this.

Please let me know!

[pax80]

in the midst of my taper i took one "clacid" that sent me to hell. i think i had a terror attack for one hour, my thoughts were so wild going in circles . nothing i could do. i dont know if this affected my brain, there's a possibility. but i dont believe this is permanent stuff. our brain is amazing.

[nicemom]

Moe, this is how I look at it. You have had periods where you were doing better. You have had windows. Sometimes you feel better and sometimes you feel worse. That is how this goes. I am not going to go to that site and read that because I don't believe any of this is permanent. You can find almost anything on the internet to say whatever you want.

Remember that these symptoms screw with our thoughts. I told you yesterday that no matter how many times I have gotten waves, its devastating. Nothing prepares you for the return of those awful symptoms. Its discouraging. Don't let the mental part of these symptoms take you to a place where there is no hope.

On days when you feel better do you feel it is permanent? Of course not. I know that you know from reading so much here that the symptoms you have are the same that everyone gets. You are having w/d symptoms. They are only temporary and they will go away. The more you panic yourself the worse they will get. It is very unsettling when they come back but I know you can deal with it. Keep eating well and taking your walks and doing calm things.

I know so well how hard it is to accept the loss of control you have over your body and how this w/d has a mind of its own and comes and goes at its will. Its frustrating and you feel helpless. But it is what it is. Trying to make sense of something that makes no sense will drive you to the looney bin. I know you want a rational explaination for what goes on but there is not always one.

I feel for you. Its hard. ((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))
This IS temporary and it will get better, just like it has before. You are healing and your brain has mixed signals and is out of control. It makes you think things you shouldn't and makes you over think things. Take a deep breath and tell yourself that you are ok. That you are strong and that this is only temporary and you can handle it. Use the coping skills you did last time you felt this way. Your ok and this is normal.

You know how to reach me if you need to my friend. Hang in there!!