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Old 08-30-2009, 04:15 PM   #1
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What causes weird thoughts in w/d

i HAVE THE CRAZIEST THOUGHTS LATELY, FROM WORRYING ABOUT GETTING OLD AND LOSING MY LOOKS, TO GETTING GRAY HAIR ONE DAY, TO WORRYING THAT MY EYES ARE GOING TO GET SO BAD THAT I CAN'T READ!! TO FEARING BEING ALL ALONE ONE DAY!!! I AM AUTISTIC MILDLY SO I'VE ALWAYS KINDA WORRIED ABOUT THINGS IRRATINALLY BUT MAN IT HAS BEEN A BILLION TIMES WORSE, DES ANYONE KNOW WHY YOU HAVE THESE HORRIBLE WEIRD AND DEPRESSING THOUGHTS AND WHAT IS GOING ON IN YOUR BRAIN TO CAUSE THIS HELL!

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Old 08-30-2009, 04:38 PM   #2
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Re: What causes weird thoughts in w/d

Me too, 1000 times worse of the initial "not-so-bad thoughts", it is feeling like a joke all this, how it can do things alot worse, I sometimes cant stop this thoughts, and rarely have full control, because if I think I can control it it will play with me again. Just give it some time. Already noticed less stronger effects, maybe a 20 % improvement since my CT and reinstatement. It is so hard to control with huge anxiety in CT but easier now when I reinstated.
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Old 08-30-2009, 06:13 PM   #3
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Re: What causes weird thoughts in w/d

I get this too sometimes too, although it was much worse...It still haunts me...
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Old 08-30-2009, 06:25 PM   #4
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Re: What causes weird thoughts in w/d

I have the exact same thoughts and they scare me pretty bad. But I think it all stems from the way our brains and bodies are wired in order to survive. We are designed to be more sensitive to danger and fear.

Since these drugs affect the brain's ability to create calm and happy signals, plus it's already wired to deal more strongly with negative or scary things, it causes us to be more aware of, and dwell on, our fears and things that affect our survival.

Indirectly in some manner, this causes us to have these weird and scary thoughts.

Unfortunately for us, we are fighting our own nature to not think these things and in this way; but this is what we need to do to get better.

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Old 08-30-2009, 09:22 PM   #5
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Re: What causes weird thoughts in w/d

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if I think I can control it it will play with me again.
I think you're right, Mixter, trying to control them or fight them tends to make them stronger. We have to learn somehow to accept them and not give them too much importance.

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I have the exact same thoughts and they scare me pretty bad. But I think it all stems from the way our brains and bodies are wired in order to survive. We are designed to be more sensitive to danger and fear.

Since these drugs affect the brain's ability to create calm and happy signals, plus it's already wired to deal more strongly with negative or scary things, it causes us to be more aware of, and dwell on, our fears and things that affect our survival.

Indirectly in some manner, this causes us to have these weird and scary thoughts.

Unfortunately for us, we are fighting our own nature to not think these things and in this way; but this is what we need to do to get better.
I think that is a great explanation!!!
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Old 08-31-2009, 12:22 AM   #6
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Re: What causes weird thoughts in w/d

I agree with that as well, as hard as it is to think them, and it of course being uncontrollable. It is probably good to just FACE OUR FEARS!! Thanks guys
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Old 08-31-2009, 01:56 AM   #7
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Re: What causes weird thoughts in w/d

Hey Shane. I know how awful it is to have the scary thoughts. I go through this too. For me it is the scary thoughts about my health. It can be really difficult to control these thoughts, but I usually just repeat to myself "thoughts, only thoughts" and then I start to remember the last time I was feeling like this and how I got through it. I tell myself I felt like this before and I will get over it again.
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Old 08-31-2009, 04:02 AM   #8
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Re: What causes weird thoughts in w/d

I get this too. When I c/t it was 24/7 for about 4 months. On top of everything else. Looking back now I do not not know how i survived - I DO NOT recommend it!!!!!!! It is the wierdest experience and unless you've experienced w/d you can't really understand. I also thought Guitar 77 explained it well. It is like hyper-vigilance. Both chemically induced and then it becomes psyhcological too as anybody experiencing the intensity of thoughts would be a bit scared of them. I'm practicing mindfulness about the moment which trains you to see thoughts as thoughts and not as reality. It does help, although i'm still in the midst of w/d (and the thoughts will diminish as my central nervous sorts itself out) I believe one day this practice will help me to not let my thoughts bring me down. So, Shane things will improve for you. I guess patience, acceptance and time is the key. But just know from these posts you are definately not alone!
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