went to church tonight

[Songbird]

Great post, Dutchguy! I'm also looking at this experience as a huge opportunity for spriritual growth! I have learned a lot already.

[luc]

Originally Posted by dutchguy

I am not a Christian, but deciced to embrace the power of meditation, mindfulness and other techniques inspired by Buddhism and other eastern philosophies. I was/am determined to emerge from this hellisch w/d experience as a grown, spriritual and strong human being.
I have certainly not lost all hope to reach that point, but indeed it is possible to lose all spritiaulity when w/d hits so long and awful. And besides, spirituality is not an end-point in the distance but a road, and the target and the road can be one!I ask many times why this should happen to me, why a bizarre chain of events first brought me to paxil, and afterwards a bizarre chain of failed w/d attempts and a final horrible CT destroyed my normal life and career. I stil ask myself this every day. But these things, and many even worse things, happen to people all the time. We are still here to write on PP, and have still hope for recovery. Not everybody can say that, think of the SSRI suicide victims or other victims of whatever crime or accident.
Terrible things have happened to people and still happen each day, but I believe it is still possible to stay on the pathway of being a spiritual being, although it can be hard sometimes.

This is one, fine post, Dutchguy! In a nutshell, with this kind of attitude you will get there, and the faster we all realise this simple truth about life, the better...

Dear Christian,
I dont know where you are at now in your spriitual journey, as it looks like the last time you posted on this thread was a while ago, but I just wanted to encourage you with Psalm 94:12-23 today, and to share with you that what you are experiencing is what believers call the dark night of the soul.
Lie still in the arms of our Heavenly Father. In times of trouble His love will uphold you.
(Psalm 94:1 Trust Him to carry you through your dark night of the soul - the light of the morning WILL come.

May I suggest a couple more things that may encourage you.
That you stop follow your feelings anymore my friend; but be obediant to Gods command to not forsake assembling together (Heb 10:23-25)
We were NEVER called to live the Christian life alone. Please go out and find a good and solid Bible believing church; one which holds God in high esteem -Some questions to ask the pastor of a church you might be considering would be:
1-Do you believe that the Bible is the inerrant and sufficient Word of God?
2-Do you believe that Jesus Christ was sent to pay full penalty for sin and that His death, burial, and resurrection is sufficient to purchase full redemption for those who believe in Him?
3-Do you believe that salvation is by faith alone, Christ alone, and by grace alone?
4-Do you believe that the Bible has all the answers for Christians who desire to live a godly life?

That is a good guideline for finding a good Bible believing Church. Go through the list my friend and ask "yourself" those very questions and see if you believe those very truths for yourself, then Go! God will meet you where you are at, He will guide and direct your path.
Be Well ~

[RacerBrown]

Originally Posted by Charlie

I sure wish I had something to say that would help you feel better. Try not to push and let it come to you and remember this, you don't have to be in church to worship god. You can do it anywhere and it's good.

this is so very true, regardless of who to, how or where you pray...ITS ALL GOOD!!

[KittyQ]

I just wanted to say I was very glad and relieved to find this thread. The most terrifying event in my withdrawal experience has been when I couldn't feel my connection to Spirit anymore. I never felt so frigntened and alone in my life. I thought I had been forgotten.... To know others have experienced this as well is a relief. It's not just me, thank God. It's the withdrawal. Though my connection is now returning, very slowly, I am still battling this evil. I have lost my former life and career as well through this bizaare chain of events and I don't know why or what is ahead for me. I want to believe I will heal eventually and find a new path, but, it is still hard to believe that.

I have always found God in nature and know He is everywhere. I could sit under a tree and be in "church" anytime. I just don't know what I'm supposed to be doing now.

I pray that we all find our way out of this very astonishingly cruel experience. Perhaps one day, we will understand why it had to be.


KittyQ