Couldnt make it - Page 7

vetteman · 10-01-2010, 01:50 PM

Woke up from a nap with huge anxiety. I don't know if it is related to being guilty of not getting anything done today. Didn't want to leave the house or see anyone. How is it possible you can vary so much from one day to another. Also found out my company bought another company and I will have to run both. More money which at this point can help yet anxiety about feeling this way with addtl responsibilities is scary

vetteman · 10-02-2010, 08:20 AM

Well another downward spiral. Feel like crap today. Onto the start of week 4 reinstatement. As per all the advice, just have to take day by day. Noticed that when I dont have a decent amount of sleep the next day is worse. Still very depressed and huge lack of motivation. Another day off tomorrow, hope it is better than the one I had yesterday.

vetteman · 10-03-2010, 08:57 AM

Well I discovered the root of my anxiety today. My total lack of motivation makes the simplest chores an effort. Unless the have to get done they don't and then I get anxiety over the things I didn't do. Is this a normal symptom of reinstatement. Am off today and actually had to force myself to get in the shower. I actually am having less anxiety at work. What a nasty place to be in what happened to having some fun on your day off

LCrawford67 · 10-03-2010, 09:00 AM

I've been waiting for you to post!

Yep, perfectly normal feelings during w/d. I had to force myself to shower and do stuff too. I know exactly what you're feeling. But, you're having less anxiety at work, actually, not a bad thing!

Remember...one day at a time, and celebrate the small victories.

ray34iyf · 10-03-2010, 09:23 AM

It'll start to get better soon, vetteman. Once you get through this reinstatement, it'll be easy compared to what you've been through. Then you can get off this awful poison.

vetteman · 10-03-2010, 09:30 AM

Laurie. What is most amazing to me is the good pockets which are very rare but better than nothing. Last night I actually turned on the ballgame on the way home from work. First time I felt like listening to anything. Then the next morning you feel like crap again. It is almost being manic depressive. At least I am starting on week 4. If I can just get through the next few weeks

vetteman · 10-04-2010, 07:43 AM

Well yesterday I pushed and pushed and finally got some errands done. The depression does not seem to let up except for a night here and there. Woke up this morning (another poor night's sleep-anxious about work) and pushed myself into the shower, the car, and work. Am functional but nowhere near motivational yet. Started on Week 4 on Friday. The crying spells have become fewer and fewer. I am really trying to concentrate on positive things, but it is so so difficult right now. I did blow off a friend's son's little league game yesterday-I am just not quite ready to socialize. That even gets me more depressed. I have enough interaction at work right now and that is all I can handle. Wish I can crawl back into bed right now.

Criticalthinker · 10-04-2010, 09:32 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by vetteman

Laurie. What is most amazing to me is the good pockets which are very rare but better than nothing. Last night I actually turned on the ballgame on the way home from work. First time I felt like listening to anything. Then the next morning you feel like crap again. It is almost being manic depressive. At least I am starting on week 4. If I can just get through the next few weeks

I don't know why these things aren't linear. Good days then bad. I know it seems cruel at times. Hang in there Vette. You will make it.
CT

vetteman · 10-04-2010, 12:08 PM

Just re-read my posts and wanted to apologize to all for sounding like an infant. I have been through a lot in my life, but nothing has ever compared to these horrible past six weeks. Never have I been so thoroughly challenged and as an "over-acheiver" for much of the time I find myself completely lost and often discouraged. I guess the only place to vent where someone understands is on PP. At least I know the only way to go is up.

LCrawford67 · 10-04-2010, 12:36 PM

Please, you hardly sound like an infant. Like I told you earlier, I'm about as tough as they come. In w/d, I was so sick, I would lie on the bathroom floor, praying for God to take me.

Yes, the only way to go is up.

Although, having patience while you're feeling so miserable, isn't easy.

vetteman · 10-05-2010, 08:18 AM

Well another day passes. I am truly perplexed by the whole process. I "think" I am having some good pockets where I feel ok and then they sort of drift away and I go right back to depression and anxiety. This process is so slow it is extremely difficult to see improvement if there is any. I am doing my best to understand the anxiety which is kind of ridiculous. This morning I realized I was anxious about a meeting that there was no reason to be anxious about ( I run the meeting). It is just that I have avoided social interaction for the last six weeks and withdraw from everyone. I also see the tinnitus gets worse with stress and is managebale at other times. I am hoping that these pockets are not my imagination but that I am actually seeing some improvement. I am only into about 3 1/2 weeks so I am still giving myself time to improve further as I know it can still take awhile.

LCrawford67 · 10-05-2010, 08:26 AM

Here's the thing about w/d....it's normal to regress and not want any social interaction. You feel like crap, why would you? But as you can see, that then breeds unnecessary anxiety in, what would normally be, mundane social settings. It can be a vicious cycle. It also makes sense that your tinnitus worsens (and probably your other symptoms) during stressful situations as well.

But, you are seeing small improvements and you do recognize this for what it is. I know it doesn't seem like much, but those are huge steps in the process.

vetteman · 10-05-2010, 10:25 AM

Yes Laurie it is indeed a vicious cycle and sometimes I feel like I am being lazy and thus the anxiety. I am beginning to understand the cycle and yes I have seen some minor improvments here and there which I am trying to take as huge. Last night I did compare how I felt a few weeks ago in the beginning compared to now and it is like night and day. Just hard to still feel this way not realizing how far I have already come. Did notice today at work that some things that did not go my way did not set me off into deep anxiety as they did a few weeks ago. I will take that as a positive as well.

vetteman · 10-06-2010, 01:28 PM

Well todays update is a little discouraging. Had to drive back and forth to a meeting that didn't go too well. Tinnitus really acting up after a Poor nights sleep. Had to drag myself out of bed. Tomorrow marks 4 weeks back on 20 mg. Just have to keep waiting and trying to get things done. Very worried on the job front as my performance is not really improving. Hopefully only another few weeks of this

vetteman · 10-07-2010, 08:12 AM

Todays update is another down day. Tinnitus raging, lots of pressure at work. High anxiety day. Once again forcing myself out of bed and to work. Meetings with Corporate HQ today. This is my first experience with this kind of anxiety (since w/d and reinstatement). It takes awhile to get used to if ever. Well on the positive today is officially the beginning of week 4 on paxil. Thank god I am off tomorrow, another recuperation day I hope. One thing I know for sure is that I cannot keep going like this without a nervous breakdown, still hoping for the improvements to come.

vetteman · 10-08-2010, 09:36 AM

Well I have to say some marked improvment today. Off from work. Little morning anxiety but was already able to get some stuff done. In comparison to four weeks ago it is a drastic difference. Maybe I am one of the lucky ones where reinstatement works. Only four weeks back on. Hoping it gets better and better

LCrawford67 · 10-08-2010, 10:23 AM

That's good news, Vetteman! For some, it's a slower process...you're one of those people, obviously.

vetteman · 10-09-2010, 08:33 AM

Well almost two good days in a row. At work, got stuff done, tinnitus is annoying but not unbearable and I do seem to be more positive. I am finally noticing some changes. Laurie you are right, might be one of the slow ones but definitely different from a few weeks ago. Had a slight bout of anxiety and crying yesterday after a nap (dont know if that is best for me now even though I am tired). Sleep still a problem but I think more from the stress at work than the meds. Very very difficult to get out of bed in the morning, but then again, that was my nature before the meds. Tomorrow am off again and it will be a good test if I stay in the house like a vegetable or try to go out and have some fun before starting a big week.

Criticalthinker · 10-09-2010, 11:05 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by vetteman

Well almost two good days in a row. At work, got stuff done, tinnitus is annoying but not unbearable and I do seem to be more positive. I am finally noticing some changes. Laurie you are right, might be one of the slow ones but definitely different from a few weeks ago. Had a slight bout of anxiety and crying yesterday after a nap (dont know if that is best for me now even though I am tired). Sleep still a problem but I think more from the stress at work than the meds. Very very difficult to get out of bed in the morning, but then again, that was my nature before the meds. Tomorrow am off again and it will be a good test if I stay in the house like a vegetable or try to go out and have some fun before starting a big week.

Good news Vette. Glad to hear things are a little better. Hang in there.
CT

LCrawford67 · 10-09-2010, 11:36 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by vetteman

Well almost two good days in a row. At work, got stuff done, tinnitus is annoying but not unbearable and I do seem to be more positive. I am finally noticing some changes. Laurie you are right, might be one of the slow ones but definitely different from a few weeks ago. Had a slight bout of anxiety and crying yesterday after a nap (dont know if that is best for me now even though I am tired). Sleep still a problem but I think more from the stress at work than the meds. Very very difficult to get out of bed in the morning, but then again, that was my nature before the meds. Tomorrow am off again and it will be a good test if I stay in the house like a vegetable or try to go out and have some fun before starting a big week.

YAY!!! This is great news!

vetteman · 10-10-2010, 08:46 AM

Well I see you can't expect too much too soon. After two okay days I am off today. Expected to start enjoying things again. Instead I am curled up on the couch with a few crying spells. Once again don't even want to shave never mind go out anywhere. Thought I was almost at the peak and find myself still in the valley. Glad I am not suicidal but thought about it

LCrawford67 · 10-10-2010, 10:07 AM

No biggie, vetteman. The point you have to focus on, is you're doing better overall. Yes, there will be some good days, then one bad. But, pretty soon the good days will outweigh the bad.

vetteman · 10-11-2010, 08:16 AM

Well a little over four weeks and seem to be going backwards the last couple of days. Very Very depressed to the point of having crying spells (mostly about when this nightmare will end). Finally forced myself to get off the couch yesterday to get a few things done. Woke up severely depressed and off to work where I am wondering if anything will get done today. This is a wicked existance and does test you to the upmost. I just feel lost and dont know what to do anymore. Is it possible that reinstatement wont work and then what do I do? Today is one of those days where I just feel like giving up.

10-01-2010, 01:50 PM	#151
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Woke up from a nap with huge anxiety. I don't know if it is related to being guilty of not getting anything done today. Didn't want to leave the house or see anyone. How is it possible you can vary so much from one day to another. Also found out my company bought another company and I will have to run both. More money which at this point can help yet anxiety about feeling this way with addtl responsibilities is scary __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-02-2010, 08:20 AM	#152
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Well another downward spiral. Feel like crap today. Onto the start of week 4 reinstatement. As per all the advice, just have to take day by day. Noticed that when I dont have a decent amount of sleep the next day is worse. Still very depressed and huge lack of motivation. Another day off tomorrow, hope it is better than the one I had yesterday. __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-03-2010, 08:57 AM	#153
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Well I discovered the root of my anxiety today. My total lack of motivation makes the simplest chores an effort. Unless the have to get done they don't and then I get anxiety over the things I didn't do. Is this a normal symptom of reinstatement. Am off today and actually had to force myself to get in the shower. I actually am having less anxiety at work. What a nasty place to be in what happened to having some fun on your day off __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-03-2010, 09:00 AM	#154
LCrawford67 Moderator "Everybody poops" Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Ohio Posts: 34,484	Re: Couldnt make it I've been waiting for you to post! Yep, perfectly normal feelings during w/d. I had to force myself to shower and do stuff too. I know exactly what you're feeling. But, you're having less anxiety at work, actually, not a bad thing! Remember...one day at a time, and celebrate the small victories. __________________ aka LC aka Laurie C. Paxil, 20 mg since 1997, for IBS Two unsuccessful attempts to quit. Started tapering 11/27/06 PAXIL FREE 12/29/07 Today is the best day, EVER!

10-03-2010, 09:23 AM	#155
ray34iyf Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: WI Posts: 1,315	Re: Couldnt make it It'll start to get better soon, vetteman. Once you get through this reinstatement, it'll be easy compared to what you've been through. Then you can get off this awful poison. __________________ July '07 - Nov 2010 = HELL Tapered off 20mg Celexa in a month November 14th -- SSRI FREE Positives: So many Eating live foods/juicing & natural healing have taken my life to a new level Also, absolute BEST technique I've ever experienced for ANY type of negative emotions (anxiety, depression, etc) EMOTIONAL FREEDOM TECHNIQUE (unbelievable how it works) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FmIS69vB12I

10-03-2010, 09:30 AM	#156
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Laurie. What is most amazing to me is the good pockets which are very rare but better than nothing. Last night I actually turned on the ballgame on the way home from work. First time I felt like listening to anything. Then the next morning you feel like crap again. It is almost being manic depressive. At least I am starting on week 4. If I can just get through the next few weeks __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-04-2010, 07:43 AM	#157
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Well yesterday I pushed and pushed and finally got some errands done. The depression does not seem to let up except for a night here and there. Woke up this morning (another poor night's sleep-anxious about work) and pushed myself into the shower, the car, and work. Am functional but nowhere near motivational yet. Started on Week 4 on Friday. The crying spells have become fewer and fewer. I am really trying to concentrate on positive things, but it is so so difficult right now. I did blow off a friend's son's little league game yesterday-I am just not quite ready to socialize. That even gets me more depressed. I have enough interaction at work right now and that is all I can handle. Wish I can crawl back into bed right now. __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-04-2010, 12:08 PM	#159
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Just re-read my posts and wanted to apologize to all for sounding like an infant. I have been through a lot in my life, but nothing has ever compared to these horrible past six weeks. Never have I been so thoroughly challenged and as an "over-acheiver" for much of the time I find myself completely lost and often discouraged. I guess the only place to vent where someone understands is on PP. At least I know the only way to go is up. __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-04-2010, 12:36 PM	#160
LCrawford67 Moderator "Everybody poops" Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Ohio Posts: 34,484	Re: Couldnt make it Please, you hardly sound like an infant. Like I told you earlier, I'm about as tough as they come. In w/d, I was so sick, I would lie on the bathroom floor, praying for God to take me. Yes, the only way to go is up. Although, having patience while you're feeling so miserable, isn't easy. __________________ aka LC aka Laurie C. Paxil, 20 mg since 1997, for IBS Two unsuccessful attempts to quit. Started tapering 11/27/06 PAXIL FREE 12/29/07 Today is the best day, EVER!

10-05-2010, 08:18 AM	#161
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Well another day passes. I am truly perplexed by the whole process. I "think" I am having some good pockets where I feel ok and then they sort of drift away and I go right back to depression and anxiety. This process is so slow it is extremely difficult to see improvement if there is any. I am doing my best to understand the anxiety which is kind of ridiculous. This morning I realized I was anxious about a meeting that there was no reason to be anxious about ( I run the meeting). It is just that I have avoided social interaction for the last six weeks and withdraw from everyone. I also see the tinnitus gets worse with stress and is managebale at other times. I am hoping that these pockets are not my imagination but that I am actually seeing some improvement. I am only into about 3 1/2 weeks so I am still giving myself time to improve further as I know it can still take awhile. __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-05-2010, 08:26 AM	#162
LCrawford67 Moderator "Everybody poops" Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Ohio Posts: 34,484	Re: Couldnt make it Here's the thing about w/d....it's normal to regress and not want any social interaction. You feel like crap, why would you? But as you can see, that then breeds unnecessary anxiety in, what would normally be, mundane social settings. It can be a vicious cycle. It also makes sense that your tinnitus worsens (and probably your other symptoms) during stressful situations as well. But, you are seeing small improvements and you do recognize this for what it is. I know it doesn't seem like much, but those are huge steps in the process. __________________ aka LC aka Laurie C. Paxil, 20 mg since 1997, for IBS Two unsuccessful attempts to quit. Started tapering 11/27/06 PAXIL FREE 12/29/07 Today is the best day, EVER!

10-05-2010, 10:25 AM	#163
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Yes Laurie it is indeed a vicious cycle and sometimes I feel like I am being lazy and thus the anxiety. I am beginning to understand the cycle and yes I have seen some minor improvments here and there which I am trying to take as huge. Last night I did compare how I felt a few weeks ago in the beginning compared to now and it is like night and day. Just hard to still feel this way not realizing how far I have already come. Did notice today at work that some things that did not go my way did not set me off into deep anxiety as they did a few weeks ago. I will take that as a positive as well. __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-06-2010, 01:28 PM	#164
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Well todays update is a little discouraging. Had to drive back and forth to a meeting that didn't go too well. Tinnitus really acting up after a Poor nights sleep. Had to drag myself out of bed. Tomorrow marks 4 weeks back on 20 mg. Just have to keep waiting and trying to get things done. Very worried on the job front as my performance is not really improving. Hopefully only another few weeks of this __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-07-2010, 08:12 AM	#165
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Todays update is another down day. Tinnitus raging, lots of pressure at work. High anxiety day. Once again forcing myself out of bed and to work. Meetings with Corporate HQ today. This is my first experience with this kind of anxiety (since w/d and reinstatement). It takes awhile to get used to if ever. Well on the positive today is officially the beginning of week 4 on paxil. Thank god I am off tomorrow, another recuperation day I hope. One thing I know for sure is that I cannot keep going like this without a nervous breakdown, still hoping for the improvements to come. __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-08-2010, 09:36 AM	#166
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Well I have to say some marked improvment today. Off from work. Little morning anxiety but was already able to get some stuff done. In comparison to four weeks ago it is a drastic difference. Maybe I am one of the lucky ones where reinstatement works. Only four weeks back on. Hoping it gets better and better __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-08-2010, 10:23 AM	#167
LCrawford67 Moderator "Everybody poops" Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Ohio Posts: 34,484	Re: Couldnt make it That's good news, Vetteman! For some, it's a slower process...you're one of those people, obviously. __________________ aka LC aka Laurie C. Paxil, 20 mg since 1997, for IBS Two unsuccessful attempts to quit. Started tapering 11/27/06 PAXIL FREE 12/29/07 Today is the best day, EVER!

10-09-2010, 08:33 AM	#168
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Well almost two good days in a row. At work, got stuff done, tinnitus is annoying but not unbearable and I do seem to be more positive. I am finally noticing some changes. Laurie you are right, might be one of the slow ones but definitely different from a few weeks ago. Had a slight bout of anxiety and crying yesterday after a nap (dont know if that is best for me now even though I am tired). Sleep still a problem but I think more from the stress at work than the meds. Very very difficult to get out of bed in the morning, but then again, that was my nature before the meds. Tomorrow am off again and it will be a good test if I stay in the house like a vegetable or try to go out and have some fun before starting a big week. __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-10-2010, 08:46 AM	#171
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Well I see you can't expect too much too soon. After two okay days I am off today. Expected to start enjoying things again. Instead I am curled up on the couch with a few crying spells. Once again don't even want to shave never mind go out anywhere. Thought I was almost at the peak and find myself still in the valley. Glad I am not suicidal but thought about it __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

10-10-2010, 10:07 AM	#172
LCrawford67 Moderator "Everybody poops" Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Ohio Posts: 34,484	Re: Couldnt make it No biggie, vetteman. The point you have to focus on, is you're doing better overall. Yes, there will be some good days, then one bad. But, pretty soon the good days will outweigh the bad. __________________ aka LC aka Laurie C. Paxil, 20 mg since 1997, for IBS Two unsuccessful attempts to quit. Started tapering 11/27/06 PAXIL FREE 12/29/07 Today is the best day, EVER!

10-11-2010, 08:16 AM	#173
vetteman Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 201	Re: Couldnt make it Well a little over four weeks and seem to be going backwards the last couple of days. Very Very depressed to the point of having crying spells (mostly about when this nightmare will end). Finally forced myself to get off the couch yesterday to get a few things done. Woke up severely depressed and off to work where I am wondering if anything will get done today. This is a wicked existance and does test you to the upmost. I just feel lost and dont know what to do anymore. Is it possible that reinstatement wont work and then what do I do? Today is one of those days where I just feel like giving up. __________________ 2003-2010 20 mg paxil for depression and stress 6/10 cut to 10 mg 8/10 cut to 5mg 9/10 cut to 0 9/10 resintated to 20 mg waiting to get stable to begin slow slow wean 10/18 Dr switched to Paxil CR 25 as a last effort to get stabillized. 2/11 back to 20 mg regular paxil 3/11-7/11- down to 15 mg paxil very depressed 10/11 added 25mg zoloft 12/11 down to 10 mg paxil-couldnt take it. 12/11 back to 15 mg. 2/12-10/12 weaned off

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