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Old 05-29-2014, 01:02 PM   #1
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I have been accepted to Medical School

I just thought I should share with you that I have been accepted into Medical School. I just passed my entrance exams and I will start this September. Some years ago I could even concentate long enough to watch TV but now I am doing so good. I just gratuated at the very top of the class, well top of the school actually, I got the highest grade that the school has ever given any one. I will put my education to good use and help people who have suffered like all of us here. And needless to say, I will never prescribe Paxil. Just wanted to share the good news.
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Old 05-29-2014, 01:24 PM   #2
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Congratulations ! Lifts up my spirit to read this ! Well well done ! I wish you the best during your medical studies ! how long have u been on Paxil ?
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Old 05-29-2014, 01:31 PM   #3
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Congratulations ! Lifts up my spirit to read this ! Well well done ! I wish you the best during your medical studies ! how long have u been on Paxil ?
I was on it for 12 years, since I was 13. I had a really bad time after quitting, the worst in fact. But every cloud has it's silver lining, I did alot of reading and decided to go back to school when I felt I was ready.
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Old 05-29-2014, 01:52 PM   #4
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Re: I have been accepted to Medical School

This is fantastic news Paxhell!! Well done for being free, for surviving and for putting it all to good use ......... and congratulations!!
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Old 05-29-2014, 01:55 PM   #5
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Hurray!
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Old 05-29-2014, 02:17 PM   #6
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Go and teach them things...well done!
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Old 05-29-2014, 02:22 PM   #7
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This is amazing news. Havent really posted here in a while but your update got me logging in. I read your previous posts, I certainly am going to try exercise since I finally feel like I at least have the energy to do so, and the zinc, b6 supplements.

Is it all right if I ask you a few questions? Did you go back to school during withdrawal? I really commend you for doing so by the way! Can I ask what you studied? Do you not have any more of the cognitive problems? Have you ever had any emotion numbness or anhedonia? If you did, are you better now? Are you still taking the supplements? And lastly, would you care to share with me some of the readings that you did? I am really interested
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Old 05-29-2014, 02:48 PM   #8
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Folks we have a SUCCESS Story. That is such a wonderful update Paxhell. Congratulations of top of the class/school, that's no mean feat, and best of luck on med school in the fall. You've been through the tough stuff so this should be a breeze.
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Old 05-29-2014, 04:43 PM   #9
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That is awesome news! Good for you for sticking it out and achieving that massive goal!
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Old 05-29-2014, 06:02 PM   #10
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Well that sure is a success story! Wow. Congrats to you! This definitely needs to be added to the Success Stories thread, especially for the people who believe that those who started these drugs at a very early age are somehow more likely to have "permanent" damage. I know there were a couple of threads regarding that recently. I'm very happy for you!
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Old 05-29-2014, 07:16 PM   #11
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This is most awesome, Paxhell! I am thrilled to read of your accomplishments!! You will go far!
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Old 05-29-2014, 08:18 PM   #12
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I hope you do not prescribe any Anti-depressant actually. Its not just about paxil... but congrats on getting into med school.
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Old 05-29-2014, 08:34 PM   #13
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Thank you all for your good wishes. I was asked if I went back to school while still in withdrawal. It's more than 6 years since I quit the drug so it's difficult the say when the withdrawal went away. I still get depressed occasionally and there are moments when I am sexually "off" but most of the time I feel great. One must not focus on the off moments but celebrate the improvement. Any improvement story is a success story!

I went to school one and a half years ago and I fished 3 years of school in 18 months, and I was at the very top of class. And the courses were not easy; we are talking physics, chemistry, math, biology, organic chemistry, biochemistry, anatomy and physiology and many more.. I know I sound like I am bragging but I am just making a point that anything is possible. When in school I did have many off moments but that just meant I had to work extra hard... and I did. I am still having a hard time believing I could do it.

My best friend went to the same school and he convinced me to join him. I was VERY reluctant, I kept saying I can't do this, I have too much brain-fog, I can't concentrate and all that. But you know what, turns out I could do it, and better than all the other "normal", "withdrawal-free" people.

The turning point for me was when I accepted that I had all these problems because of withdrawal. I finally said to myself, ok, whatever, it is what it is, I have to make the most of my life while I'm still living, I even started making fun of myself and the fact that I had to occasionally take ED medicine, than one day I realized, I only occasionally am depressed, I only occasionally use Ed medication, and the brain-fog thing, well, just meant I had to read the thing again and again and again till I got it, or till I got it better than all the others. That's huge. Years ago I couldn't even perform sexually WITH ED medicine and if someone would have said 6 years from now, you'll be the top student going to medical school, I would have laughed them out of the room, if I could have managed laughter that is.

Another thing that I have realized, although my withdrawal was very physical, the psychological thing that follows will cling to you like a rash that won't go away. There is no way someone could develop physical sexual problems and NOT develop psychological problems as a result, and those will make everything hundred times worse. The brain works in mysterious ways, the line between the physical and the psychological is very thin. I got so much better after I stopped obsessing about this and decided to just go with it.And know, I have been in a relationship for 3 years, I have many great friends that I love and a future in medicine, it could be worse.

Alot of people that have never taken paxil will develop sexual problems, depression, brain-fog and all of the nasty thing that happened to us; the happy guy next to you might be suffering too. Fear is your worst enemy. Please do not allow fear into your soul, it will make a home there. I used to search the internet desperate for success stories, when I read them I always thought, they got lucky, it will not happen for me at this point; all I could see was the wikipedia article about PSSD and how permanent it could be. There is no such thing as permanent, nothing is forever, the same goes for withdrawal. The first thing you must do is delete the word permanent from your vocabulary and don't spend too much time searching the internet for answers, the withdrawal will go away when it will go away; you just have to really believe that it will go away. And remember, having a good sense of humor can make a huge difference. I really do belive that laughter can work miracles. It did for me.
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Old 05-29-2014, 08:45 PM   #14
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I got so much better after I stopped obsessing about this and decided to just go with it.
We preach this all the time...great to see another situation to back up our claims. I always warn about " becoming withdrawal"..and your situation proves that life is still out there, maybe a little different, but still within anyone's grasp.
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Old 05-29-2014, 11:33 PM   #15
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Wow maybe this belongs in the 'success' thread!
Phenomenal stuff!
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Old 05-30-2014, 02:02 AM   #16
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Great story thanks for coming back! Please tell me, did your brain fog go away?
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Old 06-01-2014, 04:53 PM   #17
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Great story thanks for coming back! Please tell me, did your brain fog go away?
It did eventually, very slowly though.
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Old 06-01-2014, 11:20 PM   #18
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It did eventually, very slowly though.
How many years off were you before you felt the brain fog had resolved completely?
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Yay.......can I say team? That is awesome. Congratulations.

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Old 06-02-2014, 08:07 AM   #20
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How many years off were you before you felt the brain fog had resolved completely?
I'd say about 6 years actually.
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Old 06-02-2014, 09:00 AM   #21
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Congratulations colleague, I also recently accepted to medical school.
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Old 06-02-2014, 10:09 AM   #22
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I'd say about 6 years actually.
Nice. I'm almost 5 years off and the brain fog is the last thing to linger around, although it is improving and worlds better from where it once was. Encouraging to hear that your timeline seems to line up with that, and that I can, hopefully, look forward to a full recovery. I'm just finishing my medical residency, btw. Trying to study for my board exams right now Where were you accepted for medical school?
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Old 06-02-2014, 06:18 PM   #23
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Nice. I'm almost 5 years off and the brain fog is the last thing to linger around, although it is improving and worlds better from where it once was. Encouraging to hear that your timeline seems to line up with that, and that I can, hopefully, look forward to a full recovery. I'm just finishing my medical residency, btw. Trying to study for my board exams right now Where were you accepted for medical school?
I live in Iceland, Europe and I was accepted to JFMED in Martin, it's were most Icelanders study medicine. I am very excited.
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