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Old 04-04-2012, 04:49 PM   #1
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why I feel lucky today, even though I feel crappy.

Today is not a good day for me. I have been bombarded with what i call 'shots of adrenaline' down my back. i've learned not to react to them, but sometimes it's so fricken often and so uncomfortable it's hard to just 'let it be'. I have also had tremors for months, which i'm slowly getting used to, but on occation (and today) a limb will just start convulsing/shaking out of control and I don't know why. Well, I do know why - Paxil.

Why do I feel lucky? I saw my psychiatrist today. I told her I felt weird and I wasn't sure if it was the zoloft or the paxil. Without hesitation, she said it was the paxil, and these 'shots' that I experience could last for 6 mths- a year.

No, I don't feel lucky that I am going to have to learn to tolerate these episodes - But I do feel lucky that I have a psychiatrist who acknowledges what's going on. I only wish that others on this forum who are suffering had the same.

I think that's one of the first times i've 'shared' as opposed to commented or offered advice and guidance. I'm not great at reaching out for help, but today kindof sucks....even though I feel lucky
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Old 04-04-2012, 04:58 PM   #2
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Re: why I feel lucky today, even though I feel crappy.

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Today is not a good day for me. I have been bombarded with what i call 'shots of adrenaline' down my back. i've learned not to react to them, but sometimes it's so fricken often and so uncomfortable it's hard to just 'let it be'. I have also had tremors for months, which i'm slowly getting used to, but on occation (and today) a limb will just start convulsing/shaking out of control and I don't know why. Well, I do know why - Paxil.

Why do I feel lucky? I saw my psychiatrist today. I told her I felt weird and I wasn't sure if it was the zoloft or the paxil. Without hesitation, she said it was the paxil, and these 'shots' that I experience could last for 6 mths- a year.

No, I don't feel lucky that I am going to have to learn to tolerate these episodes - But I do feel lucky that I have a psychiatrist who acknowledges what's going on. I only wish that others on this forum who are suffering had the same.

I think that's one of the first times i've 'shared' as opposed to commented or offered advice and guidance. I'm not great at reaching out for help, but today kindof sucks....even though I feel lucky
I find it amazing that we all want confirmation from any professional and we grasp at it whenever they point out that there is residual (mild term) issues when going off these meds. My business partners step mom is a psychiatrist who happens to study the after effects of SSRI's. She told him when I was 3 or 4 months off that 6 months to a year would be tough. I have held on to that now for 5 months, one more month to get to a year. Also, whenever he updates her on my symptoms she just knods her head and confirms the symtoms as typical.
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Old 04-04-2012, 04:58 PM   #3
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Re: why I feel lucky today, even though I feel crappy.

It's good you have a psychiatrist who actually knows!! that's a relief, I feel you are lucky
and I know how you feel about the "shots of adreline" down your back, I think they are like the "sharp pains on my head", they scare me a lot and are the ones who trigger my anxiety the most, I try to "let them be" too but it's hard!
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Old 04-04-2012, 05:03 PM   #4
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I find it amazing that we all want confirmation from any professional and we grasp at it whenever they point out that there is residual (mild term) issues when going off these meds. My business partners step mom is a psychiatrist who happens to study the after effects of SSRI's. She told him when I was 3 or 4 months off that 6 months to a year would be tough. I have held on to that now for 5 months, one more month to get to a year. Also, whenever he updates her on my symptoms she just knods her head and confirms the symtoms as typical.
Of course we want confirmation- for me, anyway, it helps me understand that it's going to take time and that I don't need to freak out about it. She is not the one who prescribed me the paxil, although I wish I had seen her before I ever went to my GP....but I think she was still in medical school back then it was so long ago hee hee

I also think it's important when it's acknowledged because it's the doctors who dont acknowledge it (My gp) who perpetuate the problem by handing out prescriptions for it like candy.

I'm not the most patient person out there (massive understatement) and have always wanted to act to solve problems asap. It's been difficult for me to accept that this is something I cannot solve, and that it will take time...lots of time....maybe it's a blessing in disguise - i'll get to learn what patience is....and develop a higher threshold for feeling uncomfortable.
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Old 04-04-2012, 05:04 PM   #5
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It's good you have a psychiatrist who actually knows!! that's a relief, I feel you are lucky
and I know how you feel about the "shots of adreline" down your back, I think they are like the "sharp pains on my head", they scare me a lot and are the ones who trigger my anxiety the most, I try to "let them be" too but it's hard!
I know how hard it is. Has taken me months of CBT to learn not to react to them with fear. Have you read Claire Weekes' hope and help for your nerves? It's a great book.
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Old 04-04-2012, 05:08 PM   #6
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Re: why I feel lucky today, even though I feel crappy.

I haven't, I'm going to order it soon through amazon, it might arrive here like in 3 weeks such a long wait!, I've looked for it in here but I haven't found it, so I'll have to wait.
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Old 04-04-2012, 05:10 PM   #7
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Re: why I feel lucky today, even though I feel crappy.

It's going to be worth the wait, I promise.
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Old 04-04-2012, 05:12 PM   #8
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Re: why I feel lucky today, even though I feel crappy.

We all need help every now and then I'm glad, even on a sucky day, you can find a bright spot!
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Old 04-04-2012, 05:14 PM   #9
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We all need help every now and then I'm glad, even on a sucky day, you can find a bright spot!
Thanks Laurie. It's either that or go hide under the covers...and as my wonderful Psychologist once put it 'What? you think crazy isn't going to find you under the covers?'

If I can teach myself to smile on a bad day, I can only dream of the things i'll be able to do when the good days come!
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'What? you think crazy isn't going to find you under the covers?'
That's awesome!
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Old 04-04-2012, 05:30 PM   #11
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That's awesome!
He's an awesome psychologist. I called him once freaking out that I thought I was going to develop Schizophrenia and that I thought I had seen the towel move a bit out of the corner of my eye.........he very calmly answered

'Please call me when the towel talks to you'.
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Oh now, that's hysterical! Really put it in perspective for you, didn't it?
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he very calmly answered

'Please call me when the towel talks to you'.

OMG, ROFLMAO!!!! That is the funniest thing I've heard in a while!!!!!
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Old 04-04-2012, 05:46 PM   #14
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Re: why I feel lucky today, even though I feel crappy.

Yup, definitely puts it into perspective...although I can't say i've totally rid myself of my fear of psychosis - I can say that his honest and blunt nature certainly helps a great deal.

So far the towel has kept its mouth shut.
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Yup, definitely puts it into perspective...although I can't say i've totally rid myself of my fear of psychosis - I can say that his honest and blunt nature certainly helps a great deal.

So far the towel has kept its mouth shut.
Yeah, I understand the fear of psychosis, I've been having it myself!!!

I'm glad the towel has kept it's mouth shut. I'm sure it will stay that way.
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Old 04-04-2012, 05:50 PM   #16
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aww thanks. it's not a fun obsession/fear...

I'm sure your towels will keep themselves in line too. If not, I have someone you can call
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I'm not the most patient person out there (massive understatement) and have always wanted to act to solve problems asap. It's been difficult for me to accept that this is something I cannot solve, and that it will take time...lots of time....maybe it's a blessing in disguise - i'll get to learn what patience is....and develop a higher threshold for feeling uncomfortable.
This seems to describe me exactly and may be a common trait for us who ended up on paxil. I too like to think that I can contribute to my healing in a more forceful, deliberate may other then to just be patient. I started seeing a therapist when I was one month off Paxil back in early June of last year. I just felt that something was off and I needed to deal with it. I had no idea how bad things were going to get. Avoiding more drugs while seeking professional help is pretty much impossible. So, we aer basically on our own. I have lots of family/friends support but their patience has definitely run out. They just don't want to hear the negative thought processes anymore.
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Old 04-05-2012, 04:14 AM   #18
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aww - hope that you feel better soon x
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