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Old 04-14-2012, 09:18 AM   #1
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One Year Off

Well here it is - the BIG one year anniversary and just in time for it I have hit a wave of depression and anhedonia. Very disappointing as I was so looking forward to this update and had such great plans for what I was going to write. Instead I can barely muster up the energy to post.
So this update has two versions.
Version one: Life sucks, I feel like crap, maybe this is the real me etc etc.
Version two: Yay! I made it. Life is so much better without the drugs!
This has been a very difficult year (have decided that it has been the worst one of my life) but things are getting so much better and even this wave (I have to admit) is nowhere near as bad as the others. The tinnitus is still a real problem but that crazy anxiety has lessened to the point where it is fairly easily controlled and the intrusive thoughts (some extremely morbid), although still crop up are quickly dismissed.
Kudos to all of you who are going through this with jobs and children - I honestly don't know how you have managed and many thanks to all of you for your help and support. I could NOT have done it without this site!
Still hoping for some more healing but I am pretty sure that the worst is over. Hang in there everyone - it does get better .....
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Old 04-14-2012, 09:41 AM   #2
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Re: One Year Off

I'm a year off the first med and still not feeling right either. We still have lots of time for getting better, as weird as it is, I don't think a year off is all that much. I hope your wave passes, I was shocked to have one hit me at 11 months off myself! I'm also proof that a second SSRI does nothing to help withdrawal symptoms as I'm currently on Paxil now and it did nothing to stop Effexor withdrawal. Now I'm left with Paxil to taper from! I have no idea what to do, just go slow I guess, and hang on for dear life. Glad this wave seems milder...my 11 month wave was milder too, but after 5 months of feeling awesome, it sure was a nasty surprise. It's getting better though, even from last week it feels better for me. So far it's been about 9 weeks since this wave started and it's almost gone.
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Old 04-14-2012, 09:44 AM   #3
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Re: One Year Off

Congrats Caperjackie - you're definately an inspiration to all of us newbies!!
Sorry that you're in a wave right now but on the upside, its much less intense than they were earlier. This is what I am looking forward to. I've resigned to the fact that we all have different internal timelines for healing and I don't expect to just be better (although would be great) but hearing you say it gets easier, that's enough for me to keep going. Just knowing that a lot of the symptoms CAN be managed, that's music to my ears!!
Congrats again and thanks for inspiration
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- March: 37.5mg for 2 weeks
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Old 04-14-2012, 10:23 AM   #4
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Re: One Year Off

Way to go caperjackie!! I hope this wave improves soon, and am so glad they are lower in intensity.
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Old 04-14-2012, 12:59 PM   #5
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Re: One Year Off

Awesome caperjackie! I'm glad you have two versions of your status update. Like you I don't need to get to 100% overnight, I just need some sanity...If only this doom and gloom and intrusives and anger and fear went down a notch I think I could manage...they do get better for a little while but then it feels like I'm back in acute withdrawal. I never get 100% (full-on) windows. Did you?

I am so happy for you that things seem to have eased up somewhat. Thanks for coming here to reassure those of us still struggling.

((((Hugs))))
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Old 04-14-2012, 01:58 PM   #6
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Re: One Year Off

You are just like me at one year off!! I have had few windows with a good one lasting one week 2 weeks ago and then the depression hit hard again! So frustrating!! I get the I will never get better waves all the time oh what if this is the real me blah blah blah....glad you have a good version of your story!
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Old 04-14-2012, 08:44 PM   #7
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Re: One Year Off

Congratulations again for making it to a year, Caperjackie! Argh, I can relate. Right now I'm feeling how you do in version 1, but earlier today I was closer to version 2, so I'm hopeful this will pass even though it doesn't feel like it right now. I'm sure yours will too!

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Old 04-15-2012, 03:43 AM   #8
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Re: One Year Off

Magic. Nice one Jackie xxx
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Old 04-15-2012, 11:05 AM   #9
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Re: One Year Off

congratulations.
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Old 04-15-2012, 05:23 PM   #10
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Re: One Year Off

Thanks for your kind words everyone - wish the update could have been more positive but can say for sure that this wave is nothing like they used to be. A mere blip by comparison but just not much fun. Funny though how quickly the thought process jumps back into old habits. I really have to take some of my own advice ....... too bad I am choking on it right now LOL
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Tapered for over a year by skipping one dose per week each month
Paxil free since April 14th 2011
Still having withdrawal symptoms but getting better
LIFE IS GOOD TOTALLY DRUG FREE
Supplements - Fish oils, Cal/mag, GABA
September 2012 - Supplement free and feeling great
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