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Old 04-24-2012, 01:34 PM   #1
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People's eyes terrorize me!!!

Hi all!

I may have asked this before, not sure. Is anyone else afraid of people's eyes!? They terrorize me!!! The more intense their look and the more they look into my own eyes, the more terror I feel! Can anyone else relate or am I the only weirdo? I can't even see pictures of people looking straight into the camera! I can't even look at my own family's eyes.

Pictures like this scare me and I rationally know there's nothing wrong with the way they're looking but I just jump every time I see pictures of people (or actual people) looking straight at the camera:
http://gotriad.news-record.com/conte...t_into_pottery
The one she's holding the purple bowl (love her work by the way and her eyes are pretty too).

I just did an images search on google "looking intently at the camera" and I almost died of terror! I feel like the people are going to jump out of the computer and attack me. Seriously! Is this insanity? Many of my fears have gone down significantly, but this one remains as one of the strongest ones.
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Old 04-24-2012, 01:58 PM   #2
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Re: People's eyes terrorize me!!!

I can't say I am completely terrorized by JUST eyes but because of my negative scary thoughts that keep jumping out at me, I find that sometimes if I look at someone and make eye contact, I feel like they are thinking bad things about me, or they KNOW I'm crazy!! Not sure if this is my over active thought process or not. I sure hope so. What terrorizes me are people's FACE but only in my mind. Dead people's faces keep popping into my mind at any given time. Just their face and all dead people right from childhood up until someone I know who recently died. Even people that were of no signifiance to me. This absolutely terrorizes me because I keep wondering "is this some kind of message to me" then I go further and think "is this a message telling me I'm supposed to die real soon of some gruelling death or by committing suicide"? My imagination is so scary and negative and its been going on for at least 4 months now. I just don't get this negative scary thought stuff. How can this be part of wd? I'm not even in acute wd anymore.
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Old 04-24-2012, 02:19 PM   #3
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Re: People's eyes terrorize me!!!

Hi lmac! I think what I'm having is some kind of paranoia.

And I too have ugly/scary images pop into my head but mostly while I'm falling asleep at night and for a little while as soon as I wake up. It used to be SO MUCH WORSE though!
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Imipramine:
37.5 mg -> 0 (1 mo,10/08/11): akathisia!
5 mg -> 0 (1 mo,11/29/11)
Now in w/d hell and missing my old self.
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Old 04-24-2012, 02:45 PM   #4
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Re: People's eyes terrorize me!!!

I think this problem can be bettered with CBT
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Old 04-24-2012, 02:46 PM   #5
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Re: People's eyes terrorize me!!!

Bilo76, what do you mean, exposure?
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*Elavil:
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Imipramine:
37.5 mg -> 0 (1 mo,10/08/11): akathisia!
5 mg -> 0 (1 mo,11/29/11)
Now in w/d hell and missing my old self.
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Old 04-24-2012, 08:40 PM   #6
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Re: People's eyes terrorize me!!!

OK the eye-makeup IS scary, and it makes her look pretty intense,lol, but I know you mean you are truly feeling afraid. I can't say I've had that, but if it's not something you had before meds, I'm pretty sure it will fade away and one day you'll be able to have a laugh about it. I had the strangest fears when I was going through a horrible time last year....I painted a tree on my kids wall, a brown tree to divide the pink half and blue half (they share a room). I came off Effexor in March that year, and that whole month felt fine, better than ever actually which got me going on a mural for their room. I crashed early in April and so began a year of hell. I never finished that tree, but even worse, that thing terrified me! I couldn't look at it, it looked creepy, and made me think of winter (bare branches), and long gray nothingness days of depression, and wanting to die....seriously! It caused a strange and awful dread, not rational fear, or even anxiety, but a horrible cold bottomless pit of darkness and dread. Also the colour of the new walls made me want to cry, the kind of crying you get if you are emotionally exhausted and someone says something mean, the way an over-tired child would cry. (I didn't actually cry thank goodness, yay anhedonia). Sadly I didn't even know about w/d yet so i was really scared for myself because of that reaction to a stupid painted tree. I keep meaning to add leaves and flowers to it, because it reminds me of that time, I don't still get the feeling AT ALL-so yes it goes away, but I haven't forgotten, and so I want to make it different, just so I can forget even more.
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Old 04-25-2012, 06:47 AM   #7
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Re: People's eyes terrorize me!!!

Its normal to consider certain images scary or creepy. Some people are afraid of clowns. Some don't like to look out the window at night because of how the trees look in the dark. There's an entire industry built on scaring the daylights out of us (horror movies, etc.) because so many people have a fascination with being afraid and are actually drawn to it. Its all part of what makes us human.

Just be aware of if/when that little quirk goes from being an observation to something that actually impacts the way you conduct yourself. If you're avoiding certain people or situations because you fear eye contact, then its worth the effort to dismantle the fear. Its definitely a CBT-type issue because eyes themselves aren't the source of the fear (you're not expecting your friend's eye to kill you), its your interpretation. Don't get too worked up over it though, unless its really causing you a problem with respect to negative impact on your life.
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