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Old 04-21-2012, 02:19 PM   #176
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I am so glad you had a good time! You know, I actually think it is better that you are out and about instead of sitting at home. In my opinion, it is much better to keep going/be active so a person doesn't sit around constantly thinking about WD, anxiety, being tired and all the other lovely things that goes with this stuff. I think you should pat yourself on the back because I don't think you give yourself enough credit with how far you have come!
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Old 04-21-2012, 03:53 PM   #177
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I am so glad you had a good time! You know, I actually think it is better that you are out and about instead of sitting at home. In my opinion, it is much better to keep going/be active so a person doesn't sit around constantly thinking about WD, anxiety, being tired and all the other lovely things that goes with this stuff. I think you should pat yourself on the back because I don't think you give yourself enough credit with how far you have come!
Thanks, i still feel "sick" but thanks. I wish I could feel more comfortable at home. It's a little weird but I still don't really like going in my bedroom other than to go to sleep at night--I associate it with some pretty horrible memories. I can't watch tv during the day or nap and to just keep going and going just for the sake of NOT thinking too much is exhausting. I'm thinking maybe I will try that massage you suggested. They're so expensive tho.
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Old 04-24-2012, 07:38 PM   #178
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WLD - just thinking about you! I hope you're feeling better the last few days and are getting on well!
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Old 04-24-2012, 08:51 PM   #179
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I'm doing ok Imac, thanks for asking. I feel somewhere between blah and good. Absolutely nothing new to report. Cheerleading tryouts are tomorrow, which is kinda a huge deal for the 16 yr. old so I've been wrapped up in that whole drama. Ive been listening to the same Katy Perry song now for a week, it's driving me CRAZY!!!! There's always SOME drama goin on around here to divert my attention. It really is of no consequence whatsoever how I'm feeling, (but i do so appreciate you asking) THAT I've come to accept. They're teenagers, the whole world revolves around them. Husband cares but he's never here and when he is he's got a million other things to worry about. So there's my sob story. Poor poor pitiful me

How are you Imac? Your name reminds me of MAC cosmetics, which I LOVE, or at least used to...any connection?
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Old 04-24-2012, 09:06 PM   #180
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Haha. No connection to MAC Cosmetics. Gosh, I haven't even felt like wearing make up and haven't touched it in at least 6 months. Okay, maybe once over Christmas.
Blah to good is pretty good, considering!!
I hear you on the teenager and the world revolving around them. Katy perry for you, for me its been some other new young singer. My 15 years has sang this song non stop for 2 weeks now, rehearsing for some vocal thing. It probably wouldn't bother me so much if I wasn't feeling the noise driving me nuts factor and no tolerance to stress factor!! Plus she's completely ignored us for 2 days now. I'm not even sure why or what we did, she doesn't seem to want to answer us about it either. I'm sure she will be sucking up in a day or 2 when she needs a ride to the mall or her friend's house. Ugh, sometimes having a teenager doesn't help this situation we're in but I guess sometimes it does as it diverts our attention. My hubby too is at work most of the time!! Too bad we weren't all closer to one another. We could join a desperate housewives club except for real, be desperate!! LoL
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Old 04-24-2012, 09:20 PM   #181
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Haha. My hubby too is at work most of the time!! Too bad we weren't all closer to one another. We could join a desperate housewives club except for real, be desperate!! LoL
Haha yea we'd could start our own reality TV show--THe Real and Desperate Housewives of Paxil Progress. I'm sure it'd be a big hit. It'd have to come with a warning tho--don't watch if you don't want to be depressed.
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Old 04-25-2012, 08:28 PM   #182
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LOL!! That's perfect. I bet we'd make money AND get exposure AND get the ratings!!
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Old 04-25-2012, 09:42 PM   #183
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April 25,
Well the 16 yr. old made varsity cheer. Thank goodness, now my life's complete. Lol. If only I felt something, feeling about as flat as a pancake. My son talks about baseball and his fanyasy team every waking minute of the day and all I can do is politely smile and nod and secretly pray for him to stop because I dont care about ANYTHING he has to say. Grrr....How terrible is that? I just scream for his dad to please come talk to him. For ME to feel this way about baseball is scary...I love baseball...what the hell?

So I guess this is anthedonia, my latest greatest symptom.
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Old 04-26-2012, 06:29 AM   #184
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Wow can I ever relate with my 15 year old. She's a singer and I can't STAND hearing it anymore. She always wants me to listen to her and I just don't care anymore. Its so awful that we feel this way! Breaks my heart! YUP, anhedonia! Who ever created this SUCKS!!
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Old 04-26-2012, 08:20 AM   #185
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Yep. "Mommy Mommy watch this I can hop on one foot, I can twirl super fast, I can clap behind my back, look looook LOOOOK!!!" Awesome! Now get lost,lol.
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Old 04-26-2012, 11:59 AM   #186
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Yep. "Mommy Mommy watch this I can hop on one foot, I can twirl super fast, I can clap behind my back, look looook LOOOOK!!!" Awesome! Now get lost,lol.
First laugh of the day....awww....boy I needed that!
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Old 04-26-2012, 03:07 PM   #187
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April 26,
So just in case you're all tired of the 16 yr. old's driving tales, birthday party, and yesterday's cheerleading tryouts...now we've got Prom to look forward to, May 5th. Yay, I get to go dress shopping AGAIN for the omg thousandths time. We have to do it today because she'll be gone this whole weekend at a concert--Coachella, in case you've ever heard of it, it's BIG around here and will have no other time to do it. It'll be a very LOW budget outting.

Why can't I be 16 again? I wanna go to a prom. I'd even settle for a concert. **** I'd settle for my chest to stop pounding.
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Old 04-26-2012, 03:11 PM   #188
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Wld, you're my hero! All that you do while going through withdrawal! I just collapsed when this all started and have been trying to dig myself out of this hole for sometime, but can't...my brain and body won't let me
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Wld, you're my hero! All that you do while going through withdrawal! I just collapsed when this all started and have been trying to dig myself out of this hole for sometime, but can't...my brain and body won't let me
Miriza don't you have a baby or two? You ARE a hero trust me!
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Old 04-30-2012, 07:52 PM   #190
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April 30
I thought i had healed! I mean I really thought geez I think I'm done. Do you ever have days like that where you say to yourself maybe this really is it, I'm done with wd? I did. But.. it didn't last, of course. Just another tease. Got some serious doom and gloom goin on today. This last weekend was technically horrible. Friday was spent at the attorney's office, we're incorporating our dental office, my husband's an orthdontist, and ughh 4 hours spent trying to focus on what these lawyers were saying. All i could think about is WHY WHY WHY are they doing this to me, dont they know how complicated this all is and that i can barely balance my check book and ordering take out is taxing? On my best day it would've been challenging.

Sat. & Sun. were spent talking to realtors and loan people and looking at houses. Another cognitatively challenging exercise. We're moving...selling our house we've lived in for 17 yrs. and so far, it's been 2 days, and a huge pain in the ***. But Im good with it, i think...Long story short, we're sick of high
maintenance, high cost living. Our house is amazing--big with a killer view but just too much in EVERYWAY. But anyway point being...I was kinda "with it" this weekend--now...I'm not. Depressed thinking of all the work ahead...freaking out about people trapising thru my house....having to keep it immaculate....we haven't even signed the papers yet and I'm already riddled with anxiety and expecting the worst. Teenagers are crying and worried about how this is going to affect their reps and afraid the new house won't be as cool as the old...having to reassure them...I wish someone could reassure ME. Change is good right? I remember when I was a teacher and having to switch classrooms periodically how daunting it was but remembering how great it felt afterwards to have a newly cleaned, organized space...this will be good too right? People move all the time. So anyone wanna buy a house?
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Old 04-30-2012, 08:22 PM   #191
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Omg..that IS alot woman but....yes...change is good IF ur over IT or just can't keep IT up anymore... I think that so long ur kids are maintaining same school district than no guilt is required...Right? Right....My kids know move all to well and are becoming too adaptable...weird but THAT IS making me feel guilty...Time for us to stay in one place for more than 4 yrs...lol
I can not barely think straight let alone do a check book..Haha..You really do ALOT more than I even attempt to try..Thanks for writing about that bc it makes me KNOW that I could and am just choosing to still be lazier than most...But I do have the chronic pain bull crap.....guess its better than the mental doom and gloom though right? Ah, who knows...Oh well, at least we are pulling through...your not locking yourself up inside a padded room and I'm not too sore to get out of bed!!! At least not today so far...Lol Feel better
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Old 05-01-2012, 06:37 AM   #192
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Glad you're keeping really busy! Moving is good, its a refreshing change. Although I'm feeling like moving lately because my home seems dark and creepy since all of this. But also, were considering downsizing and living a simpler life. Then maybe I can quit my job and do something part time. We'll see, so much red tape involved. The kind of stress I can't possibly deal with right now so kudos to you!! Sounds like your kids are more undertanding than my 1!! She has threatened to leave home, hates us now if we possibly move her away from her friends!! NOT empathetic in the least!!
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Old 05-01-2012, 11:22 AM   #193
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Sorry you are having a tough time WLD; I can relate to the emotional rollercoaster and the overwhelmed feelings. It's so draining! It will all be ok and work itself out. Hugs from MN!
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Old 05-01-2012, 07:42 PM   #194
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May 1
Oh God, it's May already. Time freaks me out...I want it to go slower but I want the wd crap to hurry up and be over. Another conflicting emotion...

Very depressed and anxious today. I've figured out moving probably isn't the golden ticket out of this wd hell I thought it was gonna be but... doin it anyway. I am constantly in a state of asking myself what'll help, what'll make you feel better and this is what I've come up with....not much. If I have a good day it's completely random...bad day, same thing. The only thing in the world giving me any joy right now today is the thought of my nephews coming home from college in a couple weeks. Is that weird? They make everything happier and brighter bc they're so full of hope and all the good things that come from being young and smart. There's a prom this weekend for the 16 yr. old but for some reason I'm really not feelin it. The boy she's going with broke her heart last summer AND MINE TOO, it happened right about the time I had my little nervous breakdown-- so there's that whole association thing...

Oh and just to add I think she may well be the world's worst driver! There was a whole lotta cussin goin on tonight....seriously I was screaming obscenities that even I didn't know I knew. Apparently no one ever told her you have to STOP before turning right at a red light. HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW THAT? Aghhh, my life...it just flashes before my eyes. The good thing is I'm convinced I really don't want to die--- at least in a car

Anyway, for the record...not a good day
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Old 05-01-2012, 07:54 PM   #195
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I have 2 nephews too and they' mean the world to me. Not in college yet but highschool. I Just love them. They come visit for the weekend every few weeks.
Can't wait til mine is 16 - NOT looking forward to that. Omg!!
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!
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Wld do you think you could be having withdrawal from the re-instatement period you tapered from? Or could this be from the CT? I'm just curious if anyone has any ideas. I'm sorry things suck so bad, it's so hellish!! I hope and pray you have a better day and evening today!! You sound so busy too!
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Wld do you think you could be having withdrawal from the re-instatement period you tapered from? Or could this be from the CT? I'm just curious if anyone has any ideas. I'm sorry things suck so bad, it's so hellish!! I hope and pray you have a better day and evening today!! You sound so busy too!
Oh who knows. All I can say is I think I deserve credit for time served. I'm counting on God to give me at least that much. I count my withdrawal from when I cold turkeyed back in July. All the reinstatement crap didn't help but I prefer to think it didn't hurt either. (omg am i really saying this?) it was only 14 weeks, total. (again omg i cant believe I'm saying this) So I've been in wd for close to 9 mos. I don't think there are any "rules" to this so that's just what I'm preferring to think. It kinda helps in some small way. Thanks for bringing this up. And the way I see it it should be over any day now. Ha.

Thanks for asking sweetie.
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Old 05-04-2012, 06:38 PM   #198
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Re: Happy New Me

May 4
This is one of those everything is crap days. Evidentally I'm back to acute withdrawal. 72 hours of INTENSE consistent anxiety followed today by a mixed bag of depression, despair and anxiety.

Took the 21 yr.old to the beach today. We never do anything together anymore and she wanted to see the ocean. So I figured why not, better than sitting here pulling my hair out. Im here to say that it doesnt matter where you are, what you're doing when it's this bad the ****'s gonna fly no matter what. I mean geez I was at the beach, it was beautiful. Peaceful. Soothing. Calming. It wasn't the MOST beautiful day in the world but it sure was good enough. I was still going bonkers.

My friend recommended a day program, 8-3 at the local behavioral center, Loma Linda Medical Center, idk if yiou've ever heard of it but it is world renown. Anyway her daughter's going there. She thinks it's amazing. Her
daughter has PPD tho--not exactly my problem. But she said they do "cognitive behvioral therapy"--ever heard of it? I just chuckled and said yea I've read a thing or too about it. I've gotta do something. It's been 9 mos. of this ****. A day program doesn't sound so bad and I wouldn't take any new drugs....maybe I should look into it? The daughter IS taking drugs and it makes me qringe but post partum depression's not something to mess around with and certainly nothing I can make any judgments about so I keep my mouth shut.

Well I'm gonna run out for some dinner and a margarita and contemplate this idea. Good evening all.
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Quit Celexa CT 7/15/2011
AD free for 5 mos.
Reinstated Celexa 10 mg. 12/14/11
Up to 20mg. 12/21/11 sick, horrible time
Down to 10mg. 2/7/12 giving up reinstating
5mg. 2/15/12.
4mg. 2/27/12.
3mg. 3/7/12
2mg. 3/14/12
1mg. 3/21/12
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Old 05-04-2012, 07:00 PM   #199
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Re: Happy New Me

Ok, seriously, you're the bravest woman to be out and about while in acute w/d. You deserve an award, seriously! I still rarely leave the house. Maybe 2-3 times a week on a good week. I have no agoraphobia anymore but my symptoms are still very severe (especially fears)
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Old 05-04-2012, 07:00 PM   #200
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Re: Happy New Me

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May 4
This is one of those everything is crap days. Evidentally I'm back to acute withdrawal. 72 hours of INTENSE consistent anxiety followed today by a mixed bag of depression, despair and anxiety.

Took the 21 yr.old to the beach today. We never do anything together anymore and she wanted to see the ocean. So I figured why not, better than sitting here pulling my hair out. Im here to say that it doesnt matter where you are, what you're doing when it's this bad the ****'s gonna fly no matter what. I mean geez I was at the beach, it was beautiful. Peaceful. Soothing. Calming. It wasn't the MOST beautiful day in the world but it sure was good enough. I was still going bonkers.

My friend recommended a day program, 8-3 at the local behavioral center, Loma Linda Medical Center, idk if yiou've ever heard of it but it is world renown. Anyway her daughter's going there. She thinks it's amazing. Her
daughter has PPD tho--not exactly my problem. But she said they do "cognitive behvioral therapy"--ever heard of it? I just chuckled and said yea I've read a thing or too about it. I've gotta do something. It's been 9 mos. of this ****. A day program doesn't sound so bad and I wouldn't take any new drugs....maybe I should look into it? The daughter IS taking drugs and it makes me qringe but post partum depression's not something to mess around with and certainly nothing I can make any judgments about so I keep my mouth shut.

Well I'm gonna run out for some dinner and a margarita and contemplate this idea. Good evening all.
I must say WLD, you have such a good sense of humour. You make acute wd sound almost inticing!! LoL. I don't know how you do it. I'd like you to teach me some of that sense of humour!
This day program sounds good, I'd probably jump on that if it were offered here. The beach sounds even nicer! OMG, what I'd also give to live on the coast. Much more south from here as well!
Okay well, I sound like one of those ungrateful kids who is never happy with what she's got!!
Good for you for running around and doing all this despit how you feel! I went for a dinner tonight with the hubby and another couple. I was ready to rip everyone's face off by the time we finished. The noise and commotion and the happy chatter drove me mad! And of course I was the only one who didn't have a drink!! I'm way too afraid to have a drink through all of this. When you have a drink, you feel it sets you back for a few days? I'm scared of feeling anymore of this depression than I absolutely have to!!
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