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Old 04-25-2012, 09:13 AM   #1
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Bilopedia

Ok lets start a journal also. I am not much of a teller myself;..prefer to respond to others. But lets write some down, i think its good for me. Nothing much to say at the moment (enough hell but dont feel like writing). But looking into how to best coop and fix my DP/DR probs. Will post here as soon as i found some info
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2011 Oct 16th: Cold turkey stop Paxil cause of poopout and switch to lexapro 15 mg. Hell started. Tapered lexapro. Tapered oxazepam. Med-free for 16 months. Now on Anafranil (clomipramine)


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Old 04-25-2012, 03:26 PM   #2
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I saw this posted by Johnny and i found it so interesting that i want to have it in my journal. For others to read but also for myself to re-read (is that even a word lol?)



Adrenal issues: I believe this to be the "key" issue in withdrawal and post withdrawal.

Well there are many things you can do and many things that you need to avoid( Paulo this is for you too).
Things to avoid:
1) caffeine..yes even green tea or white tea( which I love) they contain caffeine
2) alcohol
3) high sugar and high salt( small amounts are ok..and I mean small)
4) white flour products, white bread, white rice, potatoes, purple potatoes are ok
5) eat many "small meals" instead of "big meals"
6) avoid eating anything after 7:00 pm
7) don't eat a "big supper"


Things to do
1) herbal therapy, licorice root, and any immune system boosting protocol..there are many...lie you can use Pao D'arco, Echinacea, Reishi mushroom , another combo I use alot is astragalus, 6,000mg of vitamin C, Potassium and magnesium citrate supplements and ginseng
I use nettle tea and kelp to help with the mineral deficiencies . I also take selenium as well

2) regular gentle walking..every day..don't care if its 1km or 5km..just be regular
3)stress reduction, prayer, meditation, some art project or making music or dance. yoga
4) stress reduction two) acupuncture...to calm the body and reduce cortisol levels
5) deep tissue massage , Reiki , acupressure or Shiatsu massage

With the exercise its important to remember that your "batteries" are already at low..if you feel tired..then do a small walk, if you feel more energetic then go farther..its important to asses your bodies "energy levels" each day
7) if you go overboard with the exercise it could backfire and you may suffer a setback..know your limits
Foods to eat, brown,black and red rice, whole wheat products if your allergic to any wheat , quinoa is a wonderful subsitute
Eat hot meals and avoid( cold drinks)
9) if you can, sleep in a completely dark room


thats about it..I know I've left somethings out.

Many symptoms we experience during withdrawal can be attributed to this issue, adrenals issues are a very delicate thing, it requires time and patience to allow th healing to take place..it may take many years....thats what I mean by be patient.
The worser aspect is how ones blood pressure is constantly fluctuating due to this , and causing serious episodes of "dizziness" waves of oh my God I think I'm going to pass out, to vertigo, to weird undefinable dizziness"

With sustained care, this can be healed.
Lastly , Alto uses DHEA..which is a kind of hormone replacent for the adrenals, my first GP recommended it, but its illegal in Canada and still "questionable"..so I have avoided using it.

I hope this helps.

Regards, Johnny
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2011 Oct 16th: Cold turkey stop Paxil cause of poopout and switch to lexapro 15 mg. Hell started. Tapered lexapro. Tapered oxazepam. Med-free for 16 months. Now on Anafranil (clomipramine)


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Old 04-26-2012, 05:33 PM   #3
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My affirmation of today:
-I will beat this mental sickness. I will prevail

My blessings of today:
- I am so gratefull for my nieces. They bring joy in my life
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14 years on Paxil 20 mg cause of a bad anxiety disorder (social anxiety, agoraphobia)
2011 Oct 16th: Cold turkey stop Paxil cause of poopout and switch to lexapro 15 mg. Hell started. Tapered lexapro. Tapered oxazepam. Med-free for 16 months. Now on Anafranil (clomipramine)


"....We should take care not to make the intellect our god; it has, of course, powerful muscles, but no personality. It can not command, only serve..."
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Old 04-26-2012, 06:10 PM   #4
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Good for you!! I have 3 neices myself, they are wonderful!
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Old 04-26-2012, 08:20 PM   #5
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I have 3 neices too. One nephew, and 2 children of my own. I like to imagine them all grown up and know that I'll be alive and HAPPY when that happens!!!
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Old 04-27-2012, 03:52 PM   #6
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Thanks!! I dont see many people so i always love to see my nieces twice a week. They are 6 and 8 years old. I cant stay with them for long now since i am so sensitive for sounds and light etcetc...but i love it

My affirmation of today:
-I will accept myself more, also my flaws. I will love myself more.

My blessings of today:
- I am grateful that i can still enjoy some of lives wonders. Even in this hell i enjoy a good movie or a nice poem or a good song.
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Old 04-28-2012, 01:27 PM   #7
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Pff i feel sad today. A small incident in my personal life made me extra sad and i keep pondering about it. Damned i feel so sad and scared. Not panic or anxiety but scared,...like a little kid at night. Pff i feel like my heart is being torn out. I feel so sad. I dont know what to do to get passed this now :'(
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Old 04-28-2012, 04:38 PM   #8
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My affirmation of today:
-I will keep faith.

My blessings of today:
- I am happy that today i was very sad but on my own power it got better.
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2011 Oct 16th: Cold turkey stop Paxil cause of poopout and switch to lexapro 15 mg. Hell started. Tapered lexapro. Tapered oxazepam. Med-free for 16 months. Now on Anafranil (clomipramine)


"....We should take care not to make the intellect our god; it has, of course, powerful muscles, but no personality. It can not command, only serve..."
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Old 04-28-2012, 04:43 PM   #9
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Good for you Bilo!!!
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Awesome! (my own kids are 6 and 8 too! Well almost 6, next month)
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Old 04-30-2012, 04:09 PM   #11
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Had a ****ty day. Queensday here so everybody partying. I spend most of the day on the ground in embryo position pfff.
I still dont have much anxiety or panic attacksd. Which is weird. Perhaps my brain is blocking it.

Current symptoms:
Dizziness/ muscle tension/ oversensitive to light and sound/ feeling like i am gonna cry any moment/ depression/ depersonalization/ derealisation/ a veryyy big swollen stomach (like a snake that eat a deer)/ burning nerves.

I notice a small improvement in the depersonalization area. Also burning nerves a bit better. haha its hard to admit that something is improving. Almost like i wanna stay in this hell. Hmm or perhaps because its still so overwhelming, its hard to be positive of something. I dont know. I will make a thread about this tomorrow. See what everybody thinks

My affirmation of today:
-Things will get better for me

My blessings of today:
- I am happy that today the sun was shining. it was a beautiful day
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Old 04-30-2012, 07:33 PM   #12
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I know the feeling, for me saying something positive feels like saying the crappy stuff is all fine now, even though it isn't and it sucks. Like I'm somehow admitting defeat "Ok ok ok you win, I'll just say I feel fine even though I don't" Hard to explain... you do sound more positive and it can't do you any harm right?
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Old 05-01-2012, 02:30 PM   #13
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My affirmation of today:
-You will get better

My blessings of today:
- I had a nice walk with my dad in the sun. I enjoyed it on some level
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2011 Oct 16th: Cold turkey stop Paxil cause of poopout and switch to lexapro 15 mg. Hell started. Tapered lexapro. Tapered oxazepam. Med-free for 16 months. Now on Anafranil (clomipramine)


"....We should take care not to make the intellect our god; it has, of course, powerful muscles, but no personality. It can not command, only serve..."
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Old 05-02-2012, 12:42 PM   #14
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I had a good day today!! All though i had much anxiety, tension, dizziness and stomachpain;..i was in a good mood. I dont know if its the B12 i started taking...but today since a longgggg time i was in good spirit. I ignored my problems as good as can be expected from a crybaby like myself. And i went out of the house 3 times. A walk, to the horsefarm, and to the store :-)

My affirmation of today:
-Come onnnnnnnn

My blessings of today:
- It was a good day.
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2011 Oct 16th: Cold turkey stop Paxil cause of poopout and switch to lexapro 15 mg. Hell started. Tapered lexapro. Tapered oxazepam. Med-free for 16 months. Now on Anafranil (clomipramine)


"....We should take care not to make the intellect our god; it has, of course, powerful muscles, but no personality. It can not command, only serve..."
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Old 05-02-2012, 01:01 PM   #15
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My affirmation of today:
-Come onnnnnnnn
Bilo,

Your sense of humor will get you through this. I love your affirmation for today. It made me laugh out loud. Rare, albeit increasingly frequent occurrence these days.
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Bilo,

Your sense of humor will get you through this. I love your affirmation for today. It made me laugh out loud. Rare, albeit increasingly frequent occurrence these days.

Thanks
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Old 05-02-2012, 02:48 PM   #17
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Old 05-03-2012, 02:33 PM   #18
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Had a horrible day. No anxiety (my original problem and its the least of mine now :S) But lots of hyperventilating combined with fear, burning nerves, dp and depersonalization. Damn this was the worst day in months. How can such a "good" day as yesterday be followed with this? Man i felt like a zombie. I couldnt feel my own body cause of the CHV and DP. It scares me. Man what a hell day.

My affirmation of today:
-Have faith in yourself and in your own power. You dont need to reach for the skies,...a tree is also good

My blessings of today:
- Pff hard,..think think.....i am still alive i guess. Thanks for that
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14 years on Paxil 20 mg cause of a bad anxiety disorder (social anxiety, agoraphobia)
2011 Oct 16th: Cold turkey stop Paxil cause of poopout and switch to lexapro 15 mg. Hell started. Tapered lexapro. Tapered oxazepam. Med-free for 16 months. Now on Anafranil (clomipramine)


"....We should take care not to make the intellect our god; it has, of course, powerful muscles, but no personality. It can not command, only serve..."
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Old 05-04-2012, 12:29 PM   #19
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Yeah, days like these seem to come out of nowhere. Keep the faith though, it will get better...sending prayers and a big hug, joanne
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Today again NOT good. I dont know if its the WD or because my chronic hyperventilation is getting worse...or bit of both. But was hell again.

Decided to go on oxazepam for a few days to calm my brain and longs. I think its a smart plan.

My affirmation of today:
- Define your goal and keep focus on it. You will make it

My blessings of today:
- I went to a forest 30 miles from here. Has been a year that i left the house that far. So all though it was hard; i count it as a blessing
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2011 Oct 16th: Cold turkey stop Paxil cause of poopout and switch to lexapro 15 mg. Hell started. Tapered lexapro. Tapered oxazepam. Med-free for 16 months. Now on Anafranil (clomipramine)


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Old 05-06-2012, 03:44 PM   #21
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Again a hell day. I am in dark waters. Suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety, dp,..and i feel like there is so much pressure on my mind. Like i could scream.
Its also annoying that since yesterday i have this high pitched tone in my ear now and then. I went 8 months without that symptom :S

BUT i made a plan for next weeks. I will do these 3 things:

1.) I will try not to complain. Not to my parents or to anyone. Only perhaps on this forum. I complain TO much and i think its bad for me.

2.) I will try to go outside more. Especially to places i used to go. Even if i drop death there;..i dont care. I have to get out. See the sunrise, smell the flowers (i have the nosesize for it gehehe)

3.) Wake up earlier. I go out of bed when its noon,..thats not good for my CHV.

My affirmation of today:
- Keep faith, you deserve more remco

My blessings of today:
- I had some good insights
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"....We should take care not to make the intellect our god; it has, of course, powerful muscles, but no personality. It can not command, only serve..."
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Bilo---right there with ya. Day from HELL! I like your resolutions tho. How do you sleep so late? Gosh I wish I could... I still wake up at 5 am usually either worried immediately about something or in a state of panic. Hate that! But I hope you can stick to them and have a better week.
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Bilo---right there with ya. Day from HELL! I like your resolutions tho. How do you sleep so late? Gosh I wish I could... I still wake up at 5 am usually either worried immediately about something or in a state of panic. Hate that! But I hope you can stick to them and have a better week.
I have had A LOT of sleeping problems when i stopped with seroxat. For months (i think 6 months) i slept horrible. I was getting worried at some point when i only slept 45 mins per night. BUT it went away. And now my fast taper from lexapro doesnt seem to influence it.

My tips:
- dont worry about it
- fool yourself. I remember the first night i slept well i tried to bluff myself haha. i txted my mother "i am certain that tonight i will sleep well". i wrote in my diary "i am so glad that tonight i finally will sleep well". And i didnt believe it and was shaking in my knees. But still i told myself and everyone else "tonight i will sleep". And apperently even though i didnt believe it;..i slept like a baby kangaroo after a bottle of scotch
- walk before sleeping. Not tv or pc 1 hr before bed. Really..dont.
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2011 Oct 16th: Cold turkey stop Paxil cause of poopout and switch to lexapro 15 mg. Hell started. Tapered lexapro. Tapered oxazepam. Med-free for 16 months. Now on Anafranil (clomipramine)


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Old 05-08-2012, 12:11 PM   #24
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Pff another day in HELL. Today was reall bad. i dont have any panic attacks or anxiety (which is realy really really weird since i have an anxiety disorder by itself..and also am tapering ADS so i am afraid my mind is shut down ). But i have a lot of DP. I feel so weird. When i say "feeling like a dream" doesnt actually covers it. I feel like an alien. Like in a bad dream. And i keep asking weird questions like "am i alive, who am i, what am i?". And then i realize that i exist, that i am Bilo,..i am alive,..this thinking is me,...this feeling is me,..and i get really really scared. I feel like something is wrong. Like i am drugged and this all is not real. What am i doing in this body. I have this non stop "something is wrong-alert" in my head. It FREAKSSSS me out. Do more people have this? Damnn i have this now for 9 months and it just wont get any less.
Off coruse i have physical symptoms like burning nerves, dizzyness, tensed musscles, lot of hyperventilation etc etc....but this DP/DR is really killing me. I dont know what to do about it. Please god,..let it go away.
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Old 05-08-2012, 03:01 PM   #25
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Pff another day in HELL. Today was reall bad. i dont have any panic attacks or anxiety (which is realy really really weird since i have an anxiety disorder by itself..and also am tapering ADS so i am afraid my mind is shut down ). But i have a lot of DP. I feel so weird. When i say "feeling like a dream" doesnt actually covers it. I feel like an alien. Like in a bad dream. And i keep asking weird questions like "am i alive, who am i, what am i?". And then i realize that i exist, that i am Bilo,..i am alive,..this thinking is me,...this feeling is me,..and i get really really scared. I feel like something is wrong. Like i am drugged and this all is not real. What am i doing in this body. I have this non stop "something is wrong-alert" in my head. It FREAKSSSS me out. Do more people have this? Damnn i have this now for 9 months and it just wont get any less.
Off coruse i have physical symptoms like burning nerves, dizzyness, tensed musscles, lot of hyperventilation etc etc....but this DP/DR is really killing me. I dont know what to do about it. Please god,..let it go away.

I had it a lot too, feeling like I was dreaming or in my own movie. I would tell myself, even if I don't feel like I'm really here, I am. People are responding to me, I'm not acting strange, no one else sees how strange I feel, I'm behaving normally so it's ok. It feels weird but it's ok, it can't hurt me. It sucks!!
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2005-2010 Effexor XR 112.5mg-262.5mg for PPD
June-Dec 2010 Poop-out (crash)
3 month cross taper off Effexor onto 40mg Cipralex, switched to 20mg Celexa, switched to 20mg Paxil
Nothing helped except waiting 7 months to stabilize on Paxil then starting to taper:
Oct'11 to Nov '12 20mg-10mg
March'13 to Feb'14 9mg -4mg
Feb 7/14-4.0mg
April 1/14-3.6mg
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