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Old 02-12-2012, 10:09 AM   #1
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My day one

2/12/12 Started my taper today

Last night I went ahead and cut my 20mgs into roughly 17-18mgs making sure they were very close in size. I cut 21 days worth and will evaluate my state of mind at that point.

I know this is not going to be easy based on everything I have read. But I am ready to get back to a real feeling whatever that may be....I have already started working on the issues I suffered from pre-paxil. I believe I am as prepared as I can be.

I am looking into adding supplements but I want to take it slow as I hope to keep my system focused on dealing with the w/d first..one day at a time.

I am glad I found this forum. It has been very helpful.

Wish me luck!
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Old 02-12-2012, 01:04 PM   #2
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Re: My day one

good luck! i am half way through my taper, it is not that bad. yes i have low moods, anxiety, tiredness and also mania but i can cope! it is really not that bad. it is manageable.

have u thought about liquid paxil? that is what i use. probably easier than chopping up pills? mind u i am very lucky and live in scotland where all medication is totally free.
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Old 02-12-2012, 03:38 PM   #3
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Re: My day one

Congratulations, it's a big scary step, but one worth taking. You may want to look into getting some scales and a good nail file it makes shaving the pills a lot easier.
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Old 02-12-2012, 03:42 PM   #4
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Re: My day one

Good luck and please know if you have any questions or need support!!

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Old 02-13-2012, 09:13 AM   #5
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best of luck xx
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Old 02-13-2012, 01:21 PM   #6
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Re: My day one

Quote:
Originally Posted by Bird2173 View Post
2/12/12 Started my taper today

Last night I went ahead and cut my 20mgs into roughly 17-18mgs making sure they were very close in size. I cut 21 days worth and will evaluate my state of mind at that point.

I know this is not going to be easy based on everything I have read. But I am ready to get back to a real feeling whatever that may be....I have already started working on the issues I suffered from pre-paxil. I believe I am as prepared as I can be.

I am looking into adding supplements but I want to take it slow as I hope to keep my system focused on dealing with the w/d first..one day at a time.

I am glad I found this forum. It has been very helpful.

Wish me luck!
Be careful with the supplements because your nervous system is so sensitive right now! Best of luck and we are all here cheering you on!
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Old 02-17-2012, 09:39 AM   #7
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When it rains it pours. I "think" I am doing ok so far.

But not entirely sure. I had a doctor appt Monday and to my surprise my blood pressure was high. Now monitoring it for the next 10 days. I am on Diovan daily for HBP however its been controled for years. I also had an increase in synthroid one month ago to .175mg. I really think this is the culprit but I am not sure........

I tried doing a search to see if there was a connection with increased BP with tapering. Any thoughts welcome.

My head feels off.....my eyes heavy. Too many things going on all at once I suppose.
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Todays date 9/14/2012 48 days ago I started a low calorie (1200) diet - so far I've lost 20 lbs!
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Old 02-19-2012, 12:07 PM   #8
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Synthroid increase was the culprit! Thank goodness. I skipped a dose yesterday and took the old dose this morning and BP is down and I am feeling much better. I was worried the taper effects were creeping in badly....

Yesterday I did a ton of work around the house.
Today I went to Walmart and still plan to run a few more erronds.
I ordered Zumba for wii too

This is a good weekend for me!
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March 11th, 2012 - 15 mgs
April 2nd, 2012 - 11 mgs
May 2012 10mgs -
June 17th 2012 - 8/9 mgs
August15th back to 10 mgs

Todays date 9/14/2012 48 days ago I started a low calorie (1200) diet - so far I've lost 20 lbs!
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Old 03-10-2012, 05:17 PM   #9
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I don't know if its too soon but I have been doing very well since my taper started. I am decreasing again tomorrow. I am not sure if its been mind over matter but I have been really working hard on being positive, staying calm under stressful situations and MOVING. I am refusing to sit on the couch too long because I stay in that funk. Today I got up fast and had the typical light head spin for a minute but otherwise doing well.

I DO know my feelings are altered by this drug. I am seeing this more clearly as of recent - I hate paxil
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April 2nd, 2012 - 11 mgs
May 2012 10mgs -
June 17th 2012 - 8/9 mgs
August15th back to 10 mgs

Todays date 9/14/2012 48 days ago I started a low calorie (1200) diet - so far I've lost 20 lbs!
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Old 03-19-2012, 06:48 PM   #10
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Migraine Saturday, great on Sunday and another migraine today. I tapered to 16/17 mgs less than a week ago. I am not sure they are linked to w/d but still tapering and HOPE this is a fluke or something. Other than that my progress has been good.
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March 11th, 2012 - 15 mgs
April 2nd, 2012 - 11 mgs
May 2012 10mgs -
June 17th 2012 - 8/9 mgs
August15th back to 10 mgs

Todays date 9/14/2012 48 days ago I started a low calorie (1200) diet - so far I've lost 20 lbs!
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Old 03-31-2012, 05:44 AM   #11
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I am doing well....I believe for me, I am going to decrease my dose to 10-12mgs.

I am performing at work better, we went out to eat twice this week! Even though my energy is lower than it had been the previous weeks, thats ok.

One thing I see happening. After 2pm my mind starts to go to mush. My memory, thinking and attention to detail is all but gone.

I do have to consider this weight......which is out of control. My HBP and cholestorol are not that good...

The things I fear are having depression which I had never had prior to paxil, and developing anxiety attacks which I only had 20 years ago pre - graves diagnosis.

I cannot wait for then end of this!
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May 2012 10mgs -
June 17th 2012 - 8/9 mgs
August15th back to 10 mgs

Todays date 9/14/2012 48 days ago I started a low calorie (1200) diet - so far I've lost 20 lbs!
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Old 04-24-2012, 09:30 AM   #12
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Still doing ok - not great. Super tired, already noticing I am more irritable. This has some to do with the jackasses I have to deal with on a day in and out basis. Yep I am an HR manager and it gets frustrating.

Have been on 10 mgs for about a week now.

Last week I had to have a boil lanced - very painful!!! Lot's of fun here. The culture showed I had a staph infection and on bactrum which sucks. I am itching like crazy through out the day...

Blah.....
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May 2012 10mgs -
June 17th 2012 - 8/9 mgs
August15th back to 10 mgs

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Old 04-28-2012, 07:42 PM   #13
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Re: My day one

Someone mentioned feeling hungover.

This is how I feel most of the time. Even pre w/d. Some days are worse than others. I just want off this toxic drug!
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May 2012 10mgs -
June 17th 2012 - 8/9 mgs
August15th back to 10 mgs

Todays date 9/14/2012 48 days ago I started a low calorie (1200) diet - so far I've lost 20 lbs!
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Old 04-29-2012, 10:24 AM   #14
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You are giving me hope! I'm only down to 17.5mg, contemplating the next drop. Way to go!
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Old 04-29-2012, 01:17 PM   #15
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Re: My day one

why are you doing big drops?

the best way to get off of this junk with minimal withdrawal is 10% drops every 3-6 weeks.
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Old 06-16-2012, 07:26 PM   #16
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Well I am still at 10mg but doing rather well still. I have multiple days of windows and most of my down days are just being drained. Weight is still up, I still get light headed when I get up quickly and again still get tired. No anger or overly emotional days, I suppose compared to many I am doing well. Things I can tell are improving are my memory, my sharpness is returning. The feelings and emotions seem more intense and linger longer then they were.

Tomorrow I am tapering down again after having a pretty good 6 weeks. I am tapering faster however I don't believe I am being reckless with myself and if I dare find myself in a bad place I will increase back up as there is no sense pushing it as I have nothing but hope for a good outcome.
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February 12th, 2012 - 17/18 mgs:worried2
March 11th, 2012 - 15 mgs
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May 2012 10mgs -
June 17th 2012 - 8/9 mgs
August15th back to 10 mgs

Todays date 9/14/2012 48 days ago I started a low calorie (1200) diet - so far I've lost 20 lbs!
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Old 06-17-2012, 06:34 PM   #17
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Good luck with your next drop! It sounds like you are doing great so far. I just started on the "paxil sucks" band wagon... and it's great to see others doing a great job! Keep it up.
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Old 09-14-2012, 04:21 PM   #18
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I went back to 10 mgs after trying to taper down to 8 mgs. Life sucked horribly for a while. I am doing better having went back on 10 mgs but I must start moving forward to another taper. I am nervous, not going to kid myself. Work has been pretty stressful however I am starting to feel a bit rehabilitated LOL. I still want off this toxic sh7t!

SO, I went yet again on a diet and to my surprise I started losing weight! So far I have lost 20 lbs....its been 2 1/2 years struggling so this is huge to me. Its not been easy and I count and weigh everything! No big exercise plan yet but I will......eventually.

I am better, more optimistic than ever but I need to go the rest of the way. I need to set a date and I need a scale.......these have not been easy to find that are no $$$!!
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May 2012 10mgs -
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August15th back to 10 mgs

Todays date 9/14/2012 48 days ago I started a low calorie (1200) diet - so far I've lost 20 lbs!
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Old 09-15-2012, 09:43 PM   #19
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Congratsulations on the weight loss !!!!!!!!
Yeah

Most of us would give about anything to lose weight. I am sick of being heavy. I HOPE someday.....

Keep working on it. Weigh your meds carefully it helps to stay consistant.

Hang in there it is a long and curvy road.

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